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Frog becomingtire Coloredchipcolumns Six preflop winners.
then being crush&run road. splashingintomosaic Four deadpanfaces at turn.
Dog sniffing greenmire. swept toset of queens. River threewhiners.
Banyan raisinglimbs Snapshots black&white Swinging butmissing. Being an other.
thendroppingthem for rooting pressed dead asnot towrinkle Shadowboxing with lesself. Losingalldistance tojudge
freelyimprisoned. withmy agingsight. Wanderingthroughnow. powertopunish.
Twentyeight students Twentynine beings Twentynine pluseone
withjust a singleteacher. sharingself sharingother each beingother&more.
Oddsforlearning slim. growingwitheachday. Allourtraining done.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Erasing
Time erasingall &allother Time erasingallpain of them
leavingme with nodream butmyown allowing a perfection of eachall then
thus freeingme to search&find where self reignedproud allothers abstaining
lifefitting my selfishwants. from voting on issueathand.
Choosingmemory over thismoment Handbeingfilled with lessthanheart
beginningtolive my heaven's hell &growingred from illspent use
touching&feeling onlymyself inyouth inage inself's desiringname
in masturbatory kiss&tell. playingmygame of self&same.
.................................
Time erasing righteous detail
of a now too fulloflife to fail
todistract me from my selfishclinging
lettingmejoin in dancing&singing.
Balloons
Blowingupballoonsagain &theyfall
alwaysblowingupballoons. allofasudden leaden
whenyou'dthink they'd leakslowly
Howmanybirthdays can I have floatingdowngently asthey floatedgentlyup.
howmany specialdays cantherebe
tojustify allofthese fullblownballoons? Butno
stayingup longpast theirtime
We canhangthem fromthe rafters Thenthey dropfast like noballoon atall
or let themfly squeeling. but ratherlike somepartofme
needingblowingupagain
Wecanrent somhelium or needing toblow away
&havethemfloat totheceiling orperhaps
tillgas seepsfree tobe blownaway.
Stomping Principles
Wildwithinwalls. Bloodflow embraced by lordgravity.
Stompingwithinstalls. Mylung'sbellowing intoabyss.
Passionsresponding
as naturecalls. Principled lesself mysanguine go
butrather notso my selfish no
Eachaction always knowing morethan earthairwindfire
me now. princeofpiece of fleshdesire
containinglesslife than liquorofconscience
ToNight or mycrimson limpidliquid of love.
Tonight today to finallypay
for dreaminglove&life away. Both bloodflow &scleroticsorrow
Tonight today my finalray birthrites of my selfishwrong
of sunshine in a lifeofMay. borntobe betterthan in constantfights
againsthebeat of love'sweetsong.
Today tonight toend myfight
withself sostubborn &soright. Behave
Today tonight toend myplight I havefaith thatintime
&live&love in transform'slight. youwillbehave
as I
Passing wouldhaveyou behave.
Lamenting passingofstar
tumultuoustransform of I havefaith thatintime
brightestburning. youwillknowthruth
as I
Can I inamoment of knowtruth.
nearlystilledself
be myreality of I havingfaith that I willintime
nearly eternalbeing create what I wouldhave asmine
shedding shootingstars thisnow beinginefficient
of tumultuouspassing inmaking myself sufficient.
of its&my
brightburningall? NotDoing
Besthappenings aren'tdone.
IceLake After blowby comes weaksidehelp.
Icelake unabletoripple Puppieswrestling. A tinyelp.
creatingonly crystalshimmer
beneath deepwinter's dullcloudsun. Watchingboth rising&settingsun.
Thisday thatday eachday asnow.
Butfun thereis in skater'sblade Livinginlight learningtobow.
slashinglightsnow of silversurface
going windspeed with flyer'screed Seeingthemplaying noonewinning.
tobefreed for a single eternalinstant Allost without keepingthescores.
from anytrace of self. Allfound without locksondoors.
Bound Withbrokenclockworks clockstillworking.
Thoughtisfree Mystery notwithstanding.
becauseitsmemory Transform undemanding.
allowingme
the rightobe Bricks
neverevernow. Carryingbricks to forkinroad
askingwiseman to showme theway.
Loveisbound Trusting with mylovingheart
rootedinground willingfreely to toteloads eachday.
of transform's
eternalvow. Carryingbricks to forkinroad
havingcourage tochoose my ownway.
UnWorthy Hill&valleys oneach horizon
Havingskipped mywalk. calculatingcooly whatpricetopay.
Havingsat onlyonce.
Having notwritten a poem. Seeing noroad nobricks tocarry
duringmylesself's forgivenballet.
Have I earned mysupper? Stopping&picking succulentstrawberry
Howcan I possiblysleep? whileadmiringnature's forgottenbouquet.
EscapeVelocity
Havingnearlyachieved tenhandedpass
escapevelocity tenhandedcatch
lesserself freedenough from eightbillionhanded
gravitas of implicitpride. basketball.
Welltrained naturenurture
becoming nonmotivated Havingnearlyachieved
lifeforce of love. escapevelocity
the alleyoop pass defended
Even as lobpass yet loveoccurring.
resulting in alleyoop slamdunk
is occurring justasplanned Upfake to drivedishdunk
nothingwasdone asif
simply practice nearlyperfect planned within chaosoflove.
Amnesia Inflating
Myonlychance at survival Inflatingself deflatingsame
isdeath what a crazydizzying game.
of myself's ideasofself
in blessedaphasia (Theremustbe a betteruse of breath
&personalamnesia. than blowingoutcandles of life&death.)
Archeologist Breathingin eachall breathingout thatsame
Self my archeologist thinkingless with thoughtbeing shame.
digginginto mypast
trying to piecetogether Nogood nobetter nevereverbest
thepuzzle ofmylast becominglost in summerwinter'schest
behavior a lungless lilting field of unknowing
asif vitality somehowsurviving within gentlebreeze
deepfreeze of my memory. oflove everblowing.
Discarding my diggingtools Hiding to fools of intellecturalabor. Hiding in a cellsuit I calls me.
Watchingyou watchingme
in transform'seternity Crushedbyheadstone labeled
allhere allnow foreach father son
patientlover. husband teacher.
Training Always tired hungry tense.
Trainingtostillness
ineach thisnow Lifedeath canbecruel tobeings
is simply love of fivesensesonly.
sansneed for
eternal thereof. With
Whendoing with
Order ithardlymatters what
Orderisn'tenough forme. playing cardgameofgin
I wantmeaning inmylife watching ballgame withkin.
yourlife
allife. Brewingcoffee
with noone toshare
Stardust mustbe for me. couldbe cruelestdefinition
Waterfalls&rainbows of existentialdespair.
mustbe forme.
Prejudice
Babiesmiling catspurring Whatblindprejudice
puppytails wagging to notsee thisnow
mustall be forme whilesearchingself
&maybeyou for a holy
&perhapswe. cow.
OrganicGears
Playinghand with selfishdenial My hold'emhand growing sans measureormeaning
asif imprisoned raspingbars with Occam'sfile. asif excludingmiddle couldsolve myriddle.
Searchingmyskull for screwdriver&bit
asif ourgame was lessthan organic. Want againstwill withself neverstill
playingmycards against allodds
Drillinghole inmy bestfriend'sbrain that money'sgreen is chlorophyll
hoping his strategy would slowlydrain withgrowth being organicmachine of fate.
&in itsrivulets expose a pattern
fromwhich my schemingheart couldlearn Thenflop. Thenturn. Thenriverburn
before desire'sflame destroyingmyclaim
how randomcards as pasteboardshards at endofgame for thepot ofgold.
could conspireagainst my disregards ...................................
for nature'sgears against myfears Playing whileconfusing pruning with preening
thatmyplans probablywon't persevere. myhand overgrowing withme needingtowhittle
awayatmyself till abletofold.
**Squirrel** **ByHand**
Self as squirrel crossingstreet of other. Nomatter howlong&hard I work
Headstrong yet hesitant bothatonce raking sucking mowing blowing
certain theremustbe desire'streasure evenwhen leafgathering goingasplanned
ifony I cansurvive my perilous hunts. the lastfewleaves endupcleared byhand.
Dodgingyourcar speeding towork orplay Somanydumps whenmowing.
cursedat notknowing what tosay. Somuch redoing whenblowing.
DodginganUber going the otherway Suckingnotbeing worththetime.
advancingretreating in willfulsway. Silenceofrake being utterlysublime.
Finallydeciding togo withtheflow Butwhen flagrantfew leave/s technologynumb
leavingmytree &acornsearch. havingevaded allmanner of machine&muscle
Buying a car becomingdriver thefinalscoop &drag &tussle
nolongerchoosing to demur. comesdown to digits &indispensiblethumb.
OriginStoryOfHate Trapping
Hun* didn't hate. He feared. Chlorophyll trapping sun'senergy.
Thunder. Lighning. Brain trappingmymemories.
Cavebear.
Former creatinglife.
His descendants though knowing Latter creatingstrife.
fullforce of selfconsciousness
feeling fearing as weakness against Kreb'scycle or constant kibitzing?
child'sinsolence spouse'swrath Cellsonfire or cellsuits smokingdesire?
corporateboss's warpath Reality'sdomain or sapien'spain
coining "hate" embracing it while stumblingthrough
forGod'sake(?) all thens&whens.
sans apparentsate
of power &selfdefense Numbers
Aretheremore numbers
(*NascentSapien hunter.) thanwords?
Distraction Should I bedoing math
Self as selfish? insteadofpoetry?
Self as lesself?
Usingmywife&son Burning
as distractions? Sun inmy hourglass
burningmyeyes.
Clearly
Seeingmypast Sunburning intheskies.
clearly.
Learning to Should I move or let it move
livewithit. inits endless stillness?
It can'tchange. NT's
I can'tchange Neurotransmitters
(because it'sme). sweat&tears ofour soddenbrain
bathing in synapticgaps
Trainingtorelax tryingtotellme whatodo
&letitbe. withmyvaunted freewill.
It'slike the uglyhouse Blending thenwhen
acrossfromyou. foraninstant of now
Nothingyoucando. inwhich I mustsate mydesires
before the nextflood
Sitting of hints from withinwithout
Forthefirst fifteenyearsorso beginningmynext
I start with "Whyam I doingthis?" existential bout.
followedby stewingabout myparenting.
Thenonto sexfantasies&sports. Training
Trainingtostillness
Sincethen itsprettymuch thesame ineach thisnow
except for the "Why" & the parenthing is simply love
(although I doindulge in reminiscing). suturing&soothing
sansneedfor
Andwhile I reminisce I enjoy memory's eternaltomorrows.
sweetkiss atfullcost of missingthis.
Order - 2
Economist I havefaith that although
Businessman I can'tsee the order
blindlyseekingprofit itisthere.
whilealways armingtodefend.
Economist I haveconfidence
seekingperfectfit that I'll find the order.
of means&needs&howtospend. ..................
Order shmorder.
Businessman Notrandom but hopeless.
separating in hisgreed.
Economist Andthat's OK.
connecting whilebeing emptied.
Sewing
Selfconsciously Trainedtosuture
embarassed by myownskin. eachnow forgettingfuture
in emptiness of
Subconsciously foundbeing.
fearing elements ............
sewingmemories to cover Sew poorfool
my nakedself of thought&time
sewingbelief to makesense of patchingthens
my blatantsin. patterningwhens.
..........................................
Livinginhistory Protectingself wlth consciousness
eachnow a mystery rememberingthen dreamingwhen
toself while sincerelypretending to inquire
lostinthought. asif
earthwaterairfire
Trainedtomystery couldever bethought other
eachnow as allhistory thanself's privaldesire.
tolesself .......................
found within transform. I sow mymemories
....................... asif theycouldgrow
Livinginfuture whilefertilized bymydesire
self tryingtosuture wateredwithtears of other
lostseeing &harvested tosustain
into fullness. my immense appetite.
PackRat Alarm
Don't packitaway Conscious of memory
throwitaway transformbecoming ticktockclock
cuz thenextday discovering an alarming end
you'llneedit thatnature doesn't careto mend
wasyesterday. its fissurebetween life &death.
Savingiscaving Breathingin breathingout
to desire'sdungeon unknowing without the slightestdoubt
by indulging thenwhen mylungs will losetheir elasticity
whileignoring function. bellowingnolonger the songofme
so I setmyalarm togo off nevernow
Implant living ticktockdream of somewhere
Implant a memory of truelove please somehow.
inmy stateroom onmycruise across
moonlitseas. Fighting
Fightingtransform
Makemymatings explosions of sensing with uttertemerity.
beyond myselftrapped in thenwhentensing
faking thetime tomake lifereal Pridefullytendentious.
forsaking thetime to finallyfeel.
Scoopingwater fromwaves
Trap of risingtide
I can'tput 2&2 together tryingtosave my sandcastle.
withouthaving twotwos
stored. No
Nocycles.
I can'tloveyou Nopaths.
unless we're separate. Nostart.
Nostop.
Memory Nobeginning.
bothtool &trap. Noending.
Nomeaning.
LostTime Nopurpose.
Losing one'self is gettingeasy
lostspace lostime Workingon
lostreason lostfaith my personalpuzzle.
neverknowing whenorwhere
what nevereallyhappened. That'sall thereis.
Takenaback bysheerforce of being FaithHope
willess Faithope soul'scandy.
purposeless Emptycalories
clearlywitnoutmeaning for self'sindulgence
justhis whiledreaming of
onlynow lifeternal.
nothinghidden.
Diet
Spacetime being Wellmarbledsteak
a huge disgace as meaning.
unbidden in eternal Buttery bakedpotato
transform. as purpose.
Finewine dullingreality.
Nature's Cherriesjubilee ignitingfaith.
SuperNatural - Imperative.
SupraNatural - Discursive. Nothing
SimplyNatural - Suggestive. Nothing beingferilizer ofnow
emptying selfasmemory
Professor scatteringitsdecomp.
Absentminded professor
professingnothing In substance poor.
totallyaware. In transform rich.
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Fourdimples instream Focuswandering. Snapshots black&white
surrounding ricegrain with eyes Students needingattention. pressed dead still dry oderless.
wherever it goes. Twentysevenyears. Andmymemory.
Acknowledging both Acknowledging both Gagging wordsickness. Hearingoaktreefall.
picking&choosing as self. acquiescing to neither. Coughingup one's intellect. That soundlessound deafening.
Winninglosing wars. War as perfection. Forgetting &still. Oaktree standingtall.
Knowing. Forgetting. Knowingtoforget. Knowingforgetting.
All anger is withinthem. The anger is withinthem. Noanger withinwithout.
Sun risingsetting. Sunrise then sunset. Sunrisingsetting.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Oak
Star earring oak Perhaps myoak
passingbeforemyeyes. willbecome a
showerofsparks
Blink a secondtinme in a castironstove
or a secondoftime warming mydog&me
or a secondintime after chilling
withme feelingtwinkle springmistwalk.
ofeach farfarlight.
Nodifference
Withme passing indistance
in a twinkle or anydimension
with oakbudblossoming of sapiencunning.
just onemoretime
in thistime Nodifference
in alltime oak
in onlytime earrings
with stargbrightstreaking mortalblindness
beyond lightspeed immortalseeing
though its source ineach thisnow
has longsincecooled. of elementalbeing.
HighBeams UnDiscovered
My highbeams are useless Then&when devil's twinliars
in fogofbeing. remembering
whatwasnever
Theirlight reflecting&blinding. dismembered.
Using lowbeams Undiscoveredcountry
atleast I cansee mapped in self'smatrix
theground beneath asif I be crownprince
myfeet. Himself
&each thisnow
BlackNight a singleword
Spinnigcoin of lifedeath of mycreed.
illuminated by self'starklight
thinking I'm star'sbreath Knowledge
breathing this emptyblacknight. Sansknowledge
suffering gods.
MoreSitting
Sometimes purejoy. Sun'srays
Mostly justboringwork. shortlongdays
moon'sphase
Sitting. Just sitting. all mysteries
each nature'stease
Home tothose lacking
Cellsuit athome with elementalknowing.
reflex&instinct.
Borntosurvive Then sufferinglife
atallcost. while fearingits end.
Memory athome inthought What I can'tapprehend
sworn to serveself I need totranscend
asboss. sothat my preciouself
willsurvive.
Self athome in indulgence
torn fromallother UpsideDown
tilltrained to servethose Slothsliving upsidedown.
whoarelost. Rightorwrong?
Convict Fishbreathingwater.
Neverhavingbeenreleased Rightorwrong.
from myconvictions
being eternalconvict Snakesurviving withoutlegs.
imprisoned in myself Rightorwrong?
with
retribution as restitution Spiders having eighteyes.
restitution as retribution Rightorwrong?
mynaggingkoan.
Sapiens desiringdefending.
Sensing
Not seeing till notlooking Philosophy
self being polarizingsunglasses SuperNatural as milieuoftheology.
allowingwhatitwill against allother. Natural as domainofecology.
Reason being playgroundofphilosophy.
Not hearing till notlistening
self being noisecancellingheadphones Freedfromboth gods&elementalbeing
restrictingspectrum of sensitivity. philosophy fillingin whatselflacks
........................... with plausiblearguments for eternalife.
Reality blinding&deafening
to untrained. Eatinghamburger
havingnevertoured
Ovum slaughterhouse
Mymother myovum
my singlecellinthesea Weight
becoming myinheritance Memory weighingmedown
of desire's teemingdebt. cloudingmysenses.
Becoming mylegacy Whatkindofdiet do I need
of defense's streamingsweat toshed my storedexcess
aswas I to them&then allowingmylesself toexpress
as I'llbe to those&when my verybestbeing?
again again &again.
Erosion
Mother ovum singlecell Transform erodingmemory
recall &with it my exquisite me.
identical as elementalall.
Bothphilosophy &JudeoChristianity
Lost becoming lessthan glacialtill
Needing togetlost &with it too my preciouswill.
in wilderness of lesswant. .........................
Resisting sedimentation
Needing tobetossed whileinviting integration
bywaves of brutedecision. becomingboth chicken&egg.
Needing toexhaust Needs
allavenues of escape. Meetingneeds I didn'tknow I had
erodinglayers of numb&sad.
Needing tomeltfrost Effacingently my stoicertainty
ofmyselfish proudbeing. subtleysetting mylesselfree.
NoNeed
Noneedworrying aboutwhere it's at Noneedplanning noneed topray
there's alwaysomeone topoint theway. in worldwhereothers havethings downpat.
Noneedchoosing between this&that Noneedseeking sun'sfirst ray
there's alwaysplenty who'llhave theirsay. in a world of darkness ruledbybat.
......................................................
Letmemory's devilishdemigods rule
in theirdaily dull demonicduel.
Let selfpreen asif permanent&proud
while lesselfsoars as windswept cloud.
Needing cuttinglooselines of anchor&moor
&castingoff of desire'swill.
Needing loosingmemories while seekingcure
treatmentclear in ripplingstill
sittingquietly sittingoften
sittingsittingsitting.
FiveThousandWords Turmoil
"Those who speak know nothing: Aware
those who know are silent." inmy safeplace.
Thosewords I'm told Findingpeace
werespoken by LaoTzu withinturmoil
who wenton towrite ofreality.
morethan fivethousandwords
eachword disappearinginto Aware
vastness of his lesserself. inour sharedspace.
His unknowingsong Becominglost
of unknowing within
beingsungsilently chaosoftransform
by a being my self
emptiedbyeons myonlycost.
of training
in thisnow. SansMeaning
Sansmeaning mechanism wellknown.
TimeOut Elementalbeing running offscript.
No gurus no mantra no meditation
just DennisTheMenace sittinginthecorner. Oldygoldies repeating
universe nevercheating
No superanturalconnotation onits unpromised journey
justchecking on recentbehavioral blur. sansright toanattorney
tosaveme from mysentence
No effortojudge orto correct ofdeath.
perhaps inpassing lesselfwillconnect.
**ChipMonk** **Cards**
Cominguponchipmunk whiledriving A distinct disadvantage
alwayscounton monasticreligion of livinginthenow
cuz he'llneverhesitate torun deadstraight fully lettingslip allpast
stayingtrue to his fantastic discipline. is forgetting
after eachand's
Certainoftheotherside beenplayed
darting needlelike&narrow who
smittenwithhis overweeningpride dealt
countingon time'sarrow. last.
NothingChanging
Nothingchanging in wispofwhim Nothingchanging noonenoticing
or indeepest fearsomeneed. lastpiece of pumpkinpie underfoil
Nothingchanging when Jesusdied inback of fridge next to rockhardham
orwhen Siddhartha wasfinallyfreed. &noone acknowledging cook'semptytoil.
Nothingchanging in awakening Nothingchanging without wisp&whim
eachdream asreal asreal isdream. withoutneed orfaith orGod orsin.
Nothingchanging infall orspring Nothingchanging withoutdesiringwill
migratingbirds stoppingtopreen. when bestleft asnothing in elementalstill.
Learning Unknowable - 2
I'mlearning to livewith Unknowable therefore
the indignity I get tochoose
that the universedoesn't what I want tobelieve.
careaboutme.
Gods ofmy willing.
Boundtodrown Order ofmy instilling.
in gyres of genepool
or burn Unknowable therefore
in sins ofmyparents. I canbe myself more&more.
Letmebreathe Accumulating
eachonlybreath Thisnow neveraccumulating
unknowinglife beingdawndew lostoeach
unknowingdeath. sunrise.
Maps Thisnow neverpuddling
Whydo I like mixingwith dirt&dogpee
lookingatmaps? tobesplashed mydog's
unknowingbound.
Am I dreaming?
Each thisnow pristine
Am I loving accumulatingonly
memories inmystubborn
I've neverlived? memory
splashingforgotten
Ending inyour lovingface.
Separationending.
Nothinghappening. LowHanging
Money being lowhangingfruit
That's terrifying. a goal ofthe simplisticbrute
havingfailed toface my self.
StandsTo
It standstoreason Distractedbystuff
butbows toreality. neverhavingenough
havingfailed tosave myface.
I couldloveyou
withvows of fealty Brutefruit enoughstuff
or liewithyou cluttering my sternfaced self
infields of faitaccompli. &noroomleft onmy pantry's shelf.
Hiding
Beingpursued. VietVets wall long&high.
Bywhom? Safe for a moment thenfoundagain.
Bywhat?
Pursuitbeingreal atleast inmyfear. Perhaps I'llbesafe inside 911Museum?
Seekingcover duckinginto cemetery. Backtocemetery.
a giantcross with Jesus hanginghelpless. Spottingmyparent's headstones.
A fine hidingplace till I'mspotted. Surely I'llbsafe behindthem.
Then onto militarysection. Endlesspursuit ending in apprehension.
Hidingbehind IwoJima statue tillflanked. Lost&found in incomprehension.
Appetite ToothAche Eatingmyhunger. Truesuffering feeling nervesonfire
Fuelingmyforgetting. butpain notbecoming an issue
Abstinencebeing whenconstantlyreminding my trainedlesself
foodoflesself. thatI'mhoused in delicatetissue.
Hum Neither "Whyme?"
Choosingisreal nor "Whynot thee?"
&alwayswrong. whopromised
tobear mysins.
Forget thewords
simplyhum thesong. No stiffupperlip
no nonchalantquip
Repainting justhispain
Repaintingwall to highglossheen now&forever.
remindingme of surface
&its shallowness. Or until cellsrespond
tostill&beyond
Havingnevereally understood in thisnow's
groundofbeing withits lipgloss smile perfectsuffering.
stirringpaint withoutouching can'sbottom.
Yelp
Wallbecoming faintly whitewashed Of all sinsofcommission
within kindomofwellbeing. to yelp to other
"Your'e the selfish one."
WombToTomb
"Womb to tomb." Eachabyss of tears
Ofcourse a wellof fears
we alreadyknowthat. forthose expecting
eternalife.
"Tomb to womb"
justasfine Yet thosetears
(a bitmmore [re]fined?) watering root of fruit
unknown withintransform's ofall I amnot neverwas
indifferntindulgence? &cannotbecome
neverhavingbeenwhen
Only lesself wouldmock nevertobe now withinthen
thatreality thenwhen being shoestrings
being a sakensoul of myhikingboots
tosome &I have a longjourney aheadofme
(to others without thefaintest
an arrogant hardass). idea ofhow
trekkingthrough now
But enoughdrama. searchingfor now.
................
GameBall InsectAll
Finalgame Whatsefishness tothink
seenbythousands. I am anythinglike aninsect.
Finalscore
knownbyall. In thatselfishness
Finalshot paradox
madewith tenhands. for I am insectall
butonly when unaware.
Finalsoar
beingball. Leaving
Leavingnothing but sameness
Forsaken behind.
"Why has Thou Nothingbutsameness ahead.
forsaken me?"
Isthis what thebestofus
Quitethecontrary. call "now"?
Exorcising Holyghosts And whereis
an honorable vocation everyonelse?
releasingme from lifedeath
introducingme to life'sbreath DNA - 2
as Nucleics having myfinalsay
elementalbeing. thoughbody mostcertainly wiltingaway.
Occuring Butduring mystay myDNA
Accumulatingmemories being concertinawire
what a finelife I create. of myself.
And death.
Accumulating - 2
Toobad transform Accumulatingstuff
is occuring pleasureprinciple
withoutmyattention. of survivalist.
NothingEntering
Nothingentering alldeath ignored betrayal abhored
no floralbreeze or beauty'stease eachtragedy ofsapien ornature deplored.
no melodicline or snowlacedpine ...............
no corpsedecaying or lieinsaying Willing what I want
no carbomb blowing or tsunami flowing thenwishing that itweren't
overwhat wasonce highdry&alive. theway itis rightnow.
Escapingbrutalcensuring Stilling what I would
oder'sfine beauty'smine withoutwanting if I could
music'sweet pine'selite atpeace without a should.
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Leaningagainstpine Daybefore springbreak Evenshe'll getup
a ladder ownedbynoone. thirteenstudents at window towatch earlyspringsnowing.
Dare I borrowit? watching wetsnow fall. Thenback to dogbed.
Lover beloved Birdsong blowingbreeze. Shadow nudgingsun Threeinthemorning
learningtheway of other Buddingtrees paintingtulips. boardbyboard acrossdecking. unable to stopthinking
before they pass on. Noonsun midnightfreeze. Countingtime backward. aboutnothingness.
Speakingout boldly. Speaking tobeheard. Speakingsilently.
Attracting a following. Attracting twodisciples. One other hearingmessage.
Leadingthem to good. Teachingthem goodness. Hiding deepinwoods. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
BeingSea
Ripplingfree with eachbreeze Othersthriving as eachall flees
unknowing crystalattice their desperateguaranteeing.
of fear's softhardfreeze.
Trainingtoresist yesterday'tease
Others divingswimming nevertoregret certainty'sieze
asthey maywellplease of becomingice as pride'sdisease
within my liquidbeing. when then isme decreeing.
...........................
Ripplingfree movingwithease Synapticsea ripplingfree
forgetting wintermemories. each thisnow stillingme.
Miss
I miss highwaysounds I nevermiss lesself's dervishdancing
drownedout byTV uncontainedintime
closedoff bydoors. unconstrainedbywill.
I miss season's intrees Unknowingbliss lesself proudlyprancing
blindedbycurtains in amnesiac'sprime
distracted by houseplants. just forthethrill.
.....................
I miss deck beneathmyknees Missingnothing as lesself lostin thisnow
sittingonsofa emptyingfullness ofme
lyingonbed. fillingemptiness withwe.
MyBrain Given
Mybrain machineofisolation Some are givenlove.
creatingpieces of idolatry Genetics?
worshippingonly the I ofme Firstfiveyears?
whilebecoming separation.
Most sufferseparation.
Bettercensor judgmentofother Occupation? Participation? Civilization?
&letmeplay uncensured&free Next thirtyears?
toclimb untethered inmy familytree
becoming onewith each sister&brother. Parents becomingpeople.
Distance allowingdistinction.
ToLove Time enforcingsubmission.
Tolove truelove
is tobe lessofme Fate sealedbyfunction.
as memory Habit rulingharshly.
always intheway Memory as pseudomercy.
beingtheway
&ofit. Memories
Criticalforsurvival
Ceasingseeking. but noplace tospend
Becoming love. one's entirelife.
GiveWay
Social Intellectual Emotional Will I obey Dionysiandevils
whichquotient is rightforme dancing with desire&defense?
(assuming I'm healthy)?
Orwill I train to lessdivison
Will I giveway towill ofthemasses nolong noshort &norevision
wheremajority is God &consensus is gospel? whiletraining tolive
aslesself in love
Will I givesway tobullies in libraries inperfect nondecision?
whereauthority is assumedobjective?
Womb SelfPity
One withinwomb Selfpity mostpathetic of sins
yet yearningforseparation asif I'm worthy of my veryown me
An I sharingyou asif giving a rat's ass if I trespass
soontobetwo. through a heaven notmade inmyimage.
Loyalty Self a pity of separation incarnate
Deadmoney in sportsbetting asif I'm worthy ofmy veryownfate.
AKA "loyaltytax."
Going allin whileholding Contain
onlyJacks Must I containmy separateself
because you'vewonbefore whenpermeated withbeing?
withthathand.
My semipermeablemembrane
AKA emotionalhedging becoming increasinglyporous
when I findmy self pledging within mylesself's freeing.
to certainloss nomatterthecost
because its my favoriteteam. Letlifeflow letmyselfgrow
fromwithin fromwithout
Faith tossed in reality'sface while I remaindevout
being separation as pseudolove to elementalseeing.
alwayslacking the gentlembrace
of pullingthepot towardme.
HavingLost
Myselfastourist its passportburning
havinglost myway. inflame of inattention.
Distractionsoftravel Yet inthatlight learningtosee
freshsight&sounds the beauty&need for variety.
exhausting when .........................
memoryabounds. Separationdiminshing
with diminishinginsistence
Acknowledging my self onsearching there&then
can never trulywander for what'simply here&now.
East&North
Easternlightning ridingintobattle
becomingNorthernLights asif
duringthis superconductive beingdrawn
moistmidsummer intothat suspense
moonlessness. beingwilless
a nondecision
Mydrive inthefaceof
flatblack&straight threatingimminence
intothat eminence (whichain't a badchallenge
asif tomytraining.)
Predator Always Piling
I ampredator Love always lesself. Snowdrifting.
youaremyprey. Shovelfulls piling.
Sex always selfish Snowedin by memories.
Bendtomydesire until bothofus Nobodysmiling.
or ruetheday. aware.
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