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Lyingquietly Neighbor's heatpump still. Runningdog withcar
hearingpages beingturned Hotubmotor also still. wondering howfast howfar
pagingthrough myself. Deepwinternight still. tofillher withsleep.
Such a discipline Such ad discipline Such a discipline Such a discipline
toknow thatyou don'texist to notknow thatyou don'texist tonow youcan'tknow thenwhen to notknow every thisnow
except whenknowing. whenyou're nonknowing. withoutsuffering. withoutlamenting.
Chance echoingproud Munching a frenchfry. Thinkinglikepoet.
untilhushed by longshadows Honeysuckle throughwindow. Oxymoron to mybrain
&faintdrone of fate. ListeningtoBach. &to fieldofcows.
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Baggage Expectation
I don'twant toneed tobelieve If
in God livingwith the expectationof
&assume thebaggage truthjustice&theAmericanway
of doctrine. atbay inacanyon carvedbythe
riverofreason
But bygod I needtowant flowingthrough my frontalcortex
lifeternal withme a creature of brainstembeing.
&itdoesn't comegiftwrapped
in a cellsuit. Then
pushover a chair &donotdare
BedTime to sitinthecomfort of ration'sinsistence
Bedtime timeforbeingstill thatyourpreciousexistence
giving freerein to mymemory's will. is moreorlessthan randomstardust
strutting asif oursun itself
Nolongermasked by activities morelessthan an ordinary star.
natnur atlast unneedingtoplease .........................
the brutalcensure of centuries Sit
of cinched&bridled civilities. as humbledself
learningwho youreallyare
Dreamories fillingmy synapticswamp turningyoursmile into insight's scar
after dippinginto my limbicmilieu. as a gash from yourselfish past.
Lifelost to thoughtchoice &parent'svoice Replacing
self leftalone to rue. With transformreplacing
ticktocktime
Court willtherebe moreorless
No courtof law but courtof awe rhythm&rhyme?
wheregames with noreason areplayed
in noseason. Might thm replace me
aswe squaredance in a
Dimensionslarge rulesfew differentkey
nonreasonable always &neverevertrue perhaps changingshape
(& ofcourse nevereverfalse). becoming a dervishprance?
Played asif a dervishwaltz
danced while newmoon grows More&more&less&less
until fullmoon glows puttingme tothe ultimatetest
onthose of trainedlesself. of remainingalone in a
worldoflove.
Search&Rescue
If wantingcohesion Then beyondreason indulge in introspection
in world of correspondence &inspect the unexpected bythose
&apparentseparation of faith &/or knowledge.
where nogoodparent wouldwant
anythingotherthan love'sintegration Then respectyourparents by sitting
then atleast usereason as pretense with Soto
inyour lifelongdesire forless selfdefense. allowingthem fullreign inyourmemory
asif a lucid dream discarding whey
If you'vebegun your Search&Rescue becoming creamofthecrop
countingonreason asif countingonyourfingers storingfordigestion eachinfluence
topoint toamoon floating inyourmemory of developmentalconsequence
asif yourbrain'slost inthat faintlight fromthose firstfiveyears
of defenselessguilt.
thenbegin yourtraining with Rinzai
sufferingkoans todull ration'sconceit Whenfinallybored witheachrerun's rerun
inaworldreplete with transform's ofyourtime as feralfiercefecund postfetus
dervishdancing accruinginsight bydullingself'srite
whichstands tono reason with willess hindsight
with nowill decreeing then atlast approaching emptiness
whilelost inthe randomruled universe inthepurity of near thoughtlessness
of elementalbeing. earned unlearned bytraining towardstillness.
FlatFace Hibernation
Wesapiens have a flatface I never hibernated
with thumbs tobringfood to ourmouths notas huntergatherer
withgrace. notas farmerfisher
notas digital ideologue.
Eatingeasily without a nozzle
attackingwith knifefork&words only Sowhy am I fatteningup?
therefore noneed foramuzzle
except tomute my incessantchatter LittleChance
thatooften bitesharp leavingmelonely. Littlechance for love
home a pastiche of passiveaggression
Not thatitwouldmatter school&playground an orphanage
if I weren't so selfassured for overcompetitiveness
yet so oftenforcedtoeat theformer nonloving
myeach&everyword. unableto open&share
thelatter unloving
Calming afraid todare tocare.
Gravitycalming
a universeofchaos Fearing lettingdown myguard
by coalescing stardust needing to raiseup what's hard
sparking thermonuclear fireflies withinmy sclerotic heart.
to lightplanets as star's castoff ..............
with moletnbelly &mineralcrust Lastchance forlove
&a chemicalmethod where lesseparation
to wouldsacrifice safety.
evolutionarymadness.
Sad
Andso eachsapien I neversaw
igniting a brandnewchaos myparents
overwhelming naturalorder touch.
bybecoming a conscioushoarder
ofall each I can desire&defend. I could go on
sayingmore
Andso itgoes order upinsmoke &much
as eachearth is infected but I neversaw
withbeings of selfconscious will myparents
whowill provoke touch.
whowill invoke
who's ash willchoke reality LetMe
coughingupspirituality ina Letme dieatsea
doomedesign ratherthanbe
to outlive thelife of lightningbugs shipwrecked.
&meet thefates with arrogantshrugs.
Betterbeneath
Horse surfacerippling
Nomatter howhard I whip suffocatinginlove
I can'tmake my drafthorse than brokenonrocks
best a thoroughbred as oceanmocks.
in a onemile race.
Fuzzy
Nomatter howhard I whip Physics gettingreal.
I can'tmake my thoroughbred
pullawagon for fourmiles. Logicwasfuzzy allthewhile
&with a soft squishy
Nomatter howmuch nonexcluded middle.
cortisol or caffeine
I canpossibly consume "Youcan'tdo justonething"
toconjure a pleasant obtains throughout
daydream WaterFireAirEarth
I'm notsure I caninsure percentagesprevailing
dedicatedtraining. amidst transform'smirth.
**Zen** **Treats**
Zone of EmbryonicNovelty Atdogpark ourdog
Zest for EffortlessNecessity going ownerto owner
Zoo of EnigmaticNarcissism expectingtreats.
ZealousEffort at Nihilism Duringwalk ourdog
Zenith of EnlightenedNegation scanninghouses lookingforneighbors
ZeroEminentNaming whomight givehertreats.
Zoophyte of Earth'sNuance Afterwalk ourdog
lyingon livingroomfloor
**SELF** waitingfor breakfastlunchdinner
Savingface. lacedwithtreats.
Enhancingreputation. Afterevening peebreak ourdog
Litigiousindefense. backindoors lyingatourfeet waitingfor
Fulfillingdesires. herfinaltreats.
HowDid?
Howdidthesun getinto my weeds? Howdidthesun getinto my weedeater?
By spittingoutaplanet Bymeltingmountainsnow
where evolutioncouldknit beginningriverflow
bits&pieces into a whole beingmadetotow
asif insistent onits organicgoal turbinesmovingmagnets
toshape primeval molecular swill into mechanicalpirouettes
into a magic compound called chlorophyll spinningelectrons makingtinyjets
makingsugar fortheweed toeat storedin inorganic batterypower
before beatdown by judgingsapiens tospin plasticstrand noweed canwithstand
choosingtoeliminate perceivedalien. beingsun's cleverway to devour.
GarageLight FinalFour
Openningdoor from laundryroom into garage. The Finalfour of collegebasketball
Curious whythelight wason. a one&done tournament
turning a season of courtships
Who hadprecededme &forgotten? into an apocalypse
Is someonethere that I don'tsee? ignoring portraiture creatingcaricature
turningtheater into circus.
Then the sadfact hitsme
theswitch isin thelaundry A culture of shortattentionspan
&I hadflippedit before &instantgratification
openningthedoor. eating fastfoods&deserts
.................. in a culinaryworld of malnutrition.
A cautionarytale of memory'sfail
or perhaps an allegory A finale as finality
of a secularpurgatory havingmissed the wholeoftheplay.
withinwhich I mustspend
all I hadsaved Then a commercial then a preview
bynot flippingswitches prepping forthe next nextday.
&openningdoors.
Scarey Forcing
It's scarey todo withoutmaking a sound Gravity forcingstardust to fuse
walking asif myfeet notreaching theground causing primordialconfligration.
puttingaway cleandishes withpatience
notscratching notscraping almost spectralsilence. Danger forcingsapiens to choose
causing primordialconfrontation.
Asif nothinghappening whileacts beingdone
asif livingmylife in a dreamory. Selfconsciousness forcingsapiens to lose
Asif locked inacell in solitaryconfinement the primordialpurity of survival.
where your voice alone willbe the key.
................................ Choosing tobe special among equals
Then hearing yourvoice feeling yourtouch honingmyskill to abuse.
unknowing a reality that'swaytoomuch Myonlychance totraintolove
formy selfishdesiring &endlessdefending being to relent &paymydues.
as I train tostillness &bittersweetblending.
Drugs
SoulCandy Dopamine makingme horny.
Theology philosophy ethics reason Oxytocine makingme homey.
eachalldistractions from ElementalBeing. Oxycontin makingme hearken
Soulcandy for selfindulgentsapiens tothevoices inmyhead.
fatteningonhaughtiness during finalfeasting.
Takentogether the choir tellsme
Ifonly theyknew itwasthey to takeherhome &askher
who wouldbe onthe skewer roasting to cookup a savoryspread.
thenmaybe they'dconsider flatteningtheirhubris
instead of strutting&boasting. Devil
The greatestrick thedevil isplaying on wesapiens
Skin isto makemethink a Savior isathand
When shirts or skins &that Faithalone is sufficent to insureEternalife.
there're no lossesorwins
because noneed tofeed ThusSaved I shallive inlove nothavingtodefend my self
self'sdefense against my primarysdesire havingbeengranted.
other'sexpectations. MySelf as believer willing totake thatallegation
sittingdown wearingdesire'scrown.
Cottonorflesh eachsure to enmesh
allplayers when eachgame's playedpurely. Asif mySelf willcease tofill itsapetite
Flora&fauna in transform'sfinesse &decrease itsdefense
pureactivity embracedmaturely. againstallcomers.
Wornsneakers baldball netlesshoop. FourBirths
Sweeping or shoveling toclearthecourt. Fourbirths. Nodeaths.
Played belowrim withno alleyoop. An accumulation of
Shirts&skins forthose lovingthesport. impermanence.
1. Umbilicalcut.
WhaleSong Joiningfamily
Whalesong outhere somewhere in separation.
intheocean of suburbanAmerica. 2. PreSchool.
Joiningculture
Or isit a chainsaw as a burgeoningself.
leafblower 3. SexualMaturity.
powerwasher? Questioningfertility.
Or isthis garbagepickup day? 4. IntelectualMaturity.
Assumingunderstanding
Whalesong in pollutedocean. of Nature&Nurture.
Machinewrong in pollutedsuburbia. Then if perseverantintraining
NoBirth joiningtransform
in lesseparation.
Rainbows MidSeason Sleepless
Rainbows do end Not midseason A sleeplessnight
butnot on a potofgold. but the change ofpain
of seasons keepingmeawake
My firstproof &vicissitudes to life'sorrows.
ending acrossfield of myemotions.
infrontof the forest Needingtowrite
asif afraid to challenge Polarseasons a poem.
the densityoftrees. of light&dark.
Fumblingfor
Fallowyellow Equatorialseasons paper&pencil.
butno flashingold. of wet&dry.
Strappingon
My secondproof MidLatitudeseasons headlamp.
ending inadolescence of EarthWaterAirFire.
infrontof herfinality ............. Yetstill allablur
facingherfertility Waxing&waning until I remember
asif tobid adieu onourearth's tiltedaxis. I need
tolossof myvirginity. &mytilted self. my readinglasses.
Survive
Self hasmanynames Self inDefense of flesh a must.
but onlytwo of note Self inDefense of lust a trust.
onlytwo as axioms:
Defense & Desire. Asif accumulation of goods
couldprotectme from evils.
Ifonly I couldcare asmuch Asif wearing softshirts
for mycellsuit as mypride couldsavecotton from bollweevils.
asif I cried over physicalcuts
as I do over opinion'srebuts Survival as DefenseofSelf
as I do over dominiondenied &DefenseofSelf'sDesires
then wouldmyDefense be lessintense? whilemycellsuit suffers reality.
Ifonly I acted on basicneed Ifonly I couldtrain to ElementalBeing
without succuming to passion'sgreed &letgo seductive memory.
then wouldmyDesire be lessindulgent?
Life'sIllusions Middle - 1
(Thanks JoniMitchell.) Noonewants tolive
"I looked at life from both sides now" inthemiddle.
Bothsides areto thenwhen Noondaysun
as ratherthan
middle isto thisnow. coolsensual
dawndusk.
"It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all." Adultlife ratherthan
childhood'sbelief
Illusions areto reality or
as retirement'srelief.
memories areto desiresdefended.
Thisnow ratherthanthen
Excluded manipulatedtofit
LawOfTheExcludedMiddle being reality'sriddle my ohso maleablememory
whencertainty is sought asa logical guarantee singing my everyraving
within the ephemera of argumentation&syllogization. when mandatedtosubmit
tomy ohso willfulguarantee
If logic be "anatomy of thought" (Locke) of a future fulfillingeachcraving.
then reality mustbe thought's physiology.
Reality is middleallonly
If logic be the "architecture of human reason" (Locke again) leavingthose of then&when lonely
then brutesensing mustbe the stonemasons of reality. intheir insistence on appetizers&deserts.
.................
ExcludedMiddle being Shrodinger's cat Allnone as middle
as deadalive asyou whenmyeyes areclosed whatsapien wouldquibble
&me withmy desiresexposed. oflife betweenbreaths?
Flaunting
Duality Asif not enjoyingthecookie
flauntingitsdominance forhavingdiscarded thefortune.
over sapienbeing
makingus slavetosymbol Asif thelesson onthe whiteboard
&blind to simple is thewhiteboard &wefailedtosee
ElementalBeing. thelesson writtenwhite onthewall.
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Asif the messages onthe Flipthecoin asif fate inthelanding
sides ofthecoin then coinbouncing onlanding makingmoreflipping
wasthe coinitself. asif my (in)decision notlivedout
inthe exigencies ofeach emergency
Asif thechild eating emerging&merging withinyour
the chocolate coin imminent&immanent thoughtneed.
is lessfulfilled having .....................................
missedthemessage. Middle neitherexcluded norincluded
except inthe lexicon of sanctimoniusapiens
Asif eatingadvertisements sufferinglanguage's duality
willkeepmy healthy. ratherthan suturingreality into love.
Middle - 2
The middle isnot A thirdway youassert
a thirdway. whilebeing rathercurt
It's trappedbetween inyour ivorytower
beginningending thoughtbetter a tower of ivy
neitherexcluded growingasold asthe
norincluded lifewithin
in ElementalBeing.
A thirdway indeed
Dualityreigning beyonduality
Gods&scholars straining in deedsofdoing
whilespeaking asif explaining whatwilless bedone
why I can'tfind peace&love. within a world
of
A thirdway yousay trained&disciplined
without a shredofproof lesself.
just stainedglass &a vaultedroof.
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Beheaded by hawk Beheadedbyhawk
whilewatching whitewaterflow knitting honeysuckle with
through honeysuckle. my wanderingwish.
This head&body Ceasingthought to hear. Sowinginmanure.
aching orin contentment. Neveragain listening. Killingoff competitors.
Each its perfection. Silence of lesself. Diningallwinter.
Outofbed topee. Sufferingthroughcold. Unseasonable?
Hustling to a coldbathroom. Neverusing driedhardwood Never with my self buried
Lowerback cracking. untilwaytoolate. & mymemories.
No goodtimes nobad Whitelikedust windblown.
just now spreadunevenly Kids allrun tothewindows
over allthatis. hopingforflurries
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Years
Its takenyears Yearspassing yearspassed
butour JapaneseMaple as trunkswiden&branchesreach
&our RiverBirch as twigsbecome love'stendrils
are atlast joining &eachleaf becomesacaress
in breezeflutterjoy. of loveverlasting
insun instorm in cloud'shroud
Atlast capturing beneath starfillednights of
eachray ofsun in SpringSummerFall twigs
their sweetindifference &each neascentbud fillingWinter
casting carelesshadows with a love knownonly
whose flickeringfickleforms tothose whohavegrown
playwithlove as heartsickteens &growntogether
playwith passion'sflirtation for manymany years.
where matured&inuredhearts ...................
hardenedtosoftness&suffering Each thisnow season
play a fugue totheircommitment neveraccumulating
as continuedcounterpoint. through shadow&light.
Defense SingleStone
Living todefend myself. A singlestone Earthitself alone
What a tiresomelife. lost in threeseason camouflage
waitingpatiently for
Recourse tothe SuperNatural leavestofall
myonlydefense againstdeath. snowtomelt
fragrancetofade
Recourse to offense by indulgingdesire tolive in softsummershade
mybest defense againstyou. whereits metamorphicmystery
isfree tobeseen toescape quarantine
Suspectingthat I'm missingsomething for oneseason tobe equalto &share
butunwilling totakethechance. its ElementalBeing with FireWater&Air
in transform's quotidianrare
Holdingmybreath inhopes dervishdance of lifedeath.
of somethingbetter.
BlueBird
HowLong Appearingfromnowhere
Howlong can I hold intomy lesserself of thisnow&here
a taste inmymouth a lone Bluebird havinglighted
beforeitbecomesbitter? on a tree tentbeetleblighted
asif a gift from ceruleansky
Perhaps it'snot asif a shift from questioningwhy
the lengthoftime inaworld tooften asking
but theholding itself. ratherthan allowing &simplybasking
................ inthemystery of eachmoment
Savor eachtaste of ElementalBeing.
beit bitterorsweet
thenlet itgo knowing WhatWas
it's incomplete. Whatwas mudbottom
now streaming greenthreads
TreeFall with tinyspiralingleaves
If I usemy turnsignal along its sunseeking.
but there'snoone tosee it
did a treefall acrosstheroad? Nearlyreachingsurface
threateningtotickle
Thecar comingover thehill tiny waterwaltzers
couldhaveheard my unactivatedhorn barelyshadowing
butfor the fallentree their fluidancefloor.
whichwasmute tome
whatwith myradioblaring This warp of aqueousvitality
&mywindows up. wovenwith weft of picesvivacity
creating a tapestry of survivial'sfitness
Therefore withme inmykayak as nature'switness.
sensingistrue
butnotreal Wouldthathebass feedwell&grow
unless &hooked provide an oxen's tow
you're deaf&blind whichpullsme to&to&fro
hearing&seeing everything. inmy light sleekvessel.
NascentSelf
Thebear didn't "justdie" ..........................
the presapienprimate "Failing" theSmudgeTest
"thought" infant rubbingrouge offnose
whenlauded byhisclan of reflection.
for bringinghome themeat.
Twodayslater a "miracle"
Thebear was"killed" astheinfant rubs "his"
my "me" nose.
the nascentsapien .............................
"realized" Andsoitgoes whenthenose knows
inhisnew reality. castingsapiens into suffering'sthroes
Intimacy Mowing
From starkskeletons Sloping earthendam's kneehighmeadow
of winterwhitebeing pointillism in whiteyellowpurplegreen.
tothe intimacy of
forest blazingreen Breezewaving asif tosummon a mowingteam
mylove willbetrue tosuit barrensapiens &shear mydream
indearth or abundance of avesinsecta in springpallet interplay.
dancing ineach
rainbow'shue. Andsoitgoes asthose wearingclothes
strip other&else insome blindpride
Stress asif shortsighted by desire's woes
Stress another subtlesin ofself as nonhumanature inhaled thensighed.
arisingfrom defenseofsame
or fromthedesire FinePrint
tohelp No fineprint on
toheal Honeysuckle packaging
toperfect unlike
however altruistically. Rose Raspberry &Firethorn bushes
....................... warning intinytype
Trainingtostill myself's of skinpiercing thorns.
defense&offense both
in emptiedtroth. It's justHoneysuckle
oftendraped on pinebranches
Bite&Swallow whoseneedles don'tpierce
Witheachbite of anyallfood &caress neverwarns.
I eat thebodyofChrist.
Witheachswallow of anyalliquid FromWhere?
I drinkChrist'sblood. Stardust to sentience.
Sentience to selfconsciousness.
Howcan I pick&choose sustenance Selfconsciousness to Sapien.
from lifeverlasting
asif my spiritfasting? Withoutfeedback from others
................. howcould a star become you&me?
Better neverpick&choose ..................................
whileserenaded by transform'smirth Doit onmyowntime.
dervishdancing with Doit onmyowndime.
FireAirWater&Earth. Eachofmy firstfiveyears
informing alloutcome
OutOfReach needingtobe unearthed
I lovethestars because they're outofreach needing a rebirth
toodistant totouch or toteach asobjects ofmy selfconsciousness.
a waytodiminish mydistance fromyou Psychiatrist psychologist
whereoursun burnsclose &lifegiving. counselor confidant
guru goto
Buthesun's toohot forour pueriletinder eschewingwant anyway willdo
&thelook inyoureayes is heatenough forme. whileaking a quietlook
I lovethestars but I reachforyou at mybehavior's
tocreate inproximity feralintimacy. font.
**TheWinner** **BaseBall**
Sawingpieces of decking. Nailgun woodpecking. CrackerJacks sweetening what baseballacks.
Mortarmixer glugging. Concretetruck chugging. Seventhinning stretchoftheimagination betweenpitches.
But thewinner by a longshout is blowing in Longhot afternoon or tiresome tryingnight.
insulation Almostlongingfor a beanball&ensuingfight.
driving my&mywife to exasperation.
Giveme the speed&contact of hockeyorAmericanfootball
Workers cicadabugging. Their tooloud drone orthe soaring&scoring of basketball.
an auditorymugging.
But baseball? Andworseyet soccer?
WhyStars?
Why do I look at stars Why searchtheskies
tofeel small&alone lookingforstars to makemefeel
while searchingskies small&alone
through a clearing whensitting onabeach
in leafcanopy fullofsand
whilewithin a forest withwaveslapping
of fireflies? atmytoes?
I'm biggerthan I'm biggerthan
flies&leaves each grainofsand
&smallerthantrees. &smallerthan theocean.
Whatmorevidence Whatmorevidence
do I need toprove mydesire do I need toplace
tobe otherthan here my self
tobe otherthan now intheuniverse of
tobeother thanwho ElementalBeing
I am? &eternaltransform?
SideWays IsPoetry?
Mylife is goingsideways. Is poetry idea withincontext?
Sowhat? Outline filledin?
Maybe itsthebest &wiseway Jury foreachsin?
considering circumstances athand.
Thoughtalone beingchargedwith neglect
Straightahead &I maycharge. ofthethinker who's happyhungrysadsated
A crossoverdribble willavoid thatbarge never freefrom affect.
&getme tothehoop effectively.
Giving
Straightahead &I maycrash The gift that keepsongiving
intotheplans&desires ofothers. memories fromherwomb
Perhapsbest toavoid that clash. barelyadultered genetic cant
feelingstrange but unableto rant
Sideways mayappear a slip&slideway within her unforgivingtomb.
&maypresent as mypride'sway
but maybe the onlyway Umbilicalcut stillunsureofwhat
toever deserve yourlove. yetborn itseems withan inherent why
&with mygreatgrandpapas's will.
InCommon
Whatdoes tobacco tochew Myinheritance itseems hadsome liens
&a high IQ probably onsomegenes unpaidfor.
haveincommon?
Soitgoes the gift that keepsongiving
Theycanboth until I havechildren &caneven thescore.
cause mouthcancer
onekilling with a whimper Yet lovingmyrascals I'll traintoevermore.
withoutquestion
theother with a roar Parents
of everyanswer. Mothers wouldmaketheworld fat
provingtheir nurturantnature.
CatNap
During a harday'swork Fathers wouldhavetheiroffspring lean
of shreddingsouls preppingfor huntingathering.
Death taking a catnap
having a daymare Children wouldhave theirparents beware
of sapiens ofwhat theydo &donot share.
trainingtostillness
becoming untouchable. MyBrain
Mybrain no morethan a membrane
protectingmymemories fromcorruption
I Know byreality.
I know myfoundation willseep.
I know myroof willeak. Mymemories barelyable tocontain
the joyofbeing freetowill&want
I'll patchmybasementwalls allthat I desire.
fromwithin.
I'll thatchmyroof Mydesires creating a fatalstrain
fromabove. onmy trainofthought &reignofterror
foranyone tiedtomytrack.
Remnants
Gods&afterlives remnants of a Deep
DarkAge Lake through winterwoods
thatwas pollutedwith self'sconsumption sparkling through bareundergrowth.
&consummation by feedingdesires.
Unseen in summer'sgreen
Better totest allthatwasleft settingsun now invitedtojoin
beforeaccusing reason of theft starlike in deepdusk scene.
ofwhat wasmeant tobe nutritious.
MiddleSchool
Best notexhume self'sdetritus Eternalife in middleschool
beit faith or faithin knowledge is enoughtoscare anyfool
byabusing transform's deft intotaking the straight&narrow.
of providingfor nonbelievers.
Asif a student tryingtobecool
Tinkling could efface before inevitableridicule
Wateronwater tinkling stingingdeep totheir verymarrow.
leaving bubblestars
spreadingyellow Better my self be miniscule
asif dawnordusk. perhaps anatom or molecule
than invadethehord &attemptoharrow
Thus urination theirfields of hegemony.
asif a firmament
beneath my emptying Better brieflife in brute genepool
bladder following onesimple resoluterule
&mypenis a fleshblood tobe peaceful&loving
ladder. whileremaining feral.
Reminder
Not toplay the memorycard Threepictures above my fireplacemantel
makinglife evenmorehard to warnme of endowment's past&future.
but tokeepme aware of howmuch I share
withmy grandparents &each grandchild. A pictureofme when I was five
................................... buzzingdutifully inmyparent's hive.
Today iswritten yesterday. A pictureofme when I was ten
Tomorrow waswriten today. growingnotgrown inmyhome's playpen.
Thisnow iswaswillbe A pictureofme when I was fifteen
my progenitors&progeny pollinating mymeadow asif kingorqueen.
bothall atonce stuffedinme. ..............................
............................. Thosethree of thenwhen whichall arenow
Threepictures above myfireplacemantel my cat'smeow my holycow
to remindme ofmy pastfuture legacy. dealingdealt withapokerface.
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Organic ocean Brain's synapticsea
currents&waves of hormones electrochemical me
washingaway sin. will&willess both.
Muzzlingsapiens Since "doing" is harm Finalgrainofsand
with gagorders NDAs. "doingnoharm" is harmful. falling fast asmy fancy.
Undigested self. Who wouldofthunkit? Then mytime is up.
Hidinginplainsight Forestskeletons Forestsentinels Big asmy kayak
asif a kite in beachbreeze strippedofbark branchesbroken fullgrown stately&spearlike. pileatedwoodpecker
to treasureseekers. yet homeformany. Evergreen edging. buzzing beddingbay.
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ElementalBeing
Fire
Fireborn firefueled
firewithin firewithout
moltensecondsun storedinEarth's core
evenwhilecoalescing creatingcaptiveheat
stored as chemicalcauldron ofeach livingcell
burning for lesseparation
&everlastinglove.
Earth Air Water
Cooling as Earth's secondbirth. Air fillingplanet's atmosphericdearth Water quenchingFire's thirst
Nomore moltenmineral fillingplanet's nascentlungs filling pockedEarth
but mineralrich soil playingwithFire in bond&release with erasofcloudbursts.
breathingmoist eons energizingeachcell sanscease.
of preperation tofill Firstlife totallyimmersed
thebelly's of ourplanet's Air joingstardust in stardust'slove with soddensuccor.
myriad lifeforms. creatingallseas.
Air beingthebreath Earthasmother ofall
Symbiontwithsoil of livingsoil. if&onlyif Water itsthrall
embracingroot as source Air joiningcarbon soaking eachseed
forall greenbeing asour exhaust in reproduction's need.
being stemleaflowerseed &plant's inhalation.
servingourplanet's Air sealingEarth&Water Wiseones forcedtobebirthed
elementalfeed from stardustemptiness farfromtomb of aridEarth
while guardingagainst &Sol's harshburn. whilebringingocean toeverycell
water'swash by tamingrain from mother'sbeginning
for tendril's gentlesoak Yet beyondbreath of vitality until my deathknell.
slaking flora'sthirst as inmysearch for felicity
elementalneed. serving a farmore delicatefunction No membranebound backyardpool
as simplevibrations urgingme for recreation
ContainingFire initsgut into ectasy. butcauldron for chemistry&alchemyboth
barelyever oozing eachchamberflooded with elementalinteractions
primordialglut. Plucked hammered or bowed beingbirthplace of transform's
string'spulsing playing most elementalfunctions.
Graciouslyexhaling transform'sode
primordialocean. fillingmoments withbreath Water coolingsapien's heatedbeing
Carfullycontaining &breathlessnessboth whenwandering farfrom our aqueoushome.
uplift&subduction. as Air fulfills its secondaryoath
............... tofeed beyond eachsinglecell Thenhavingtheaudacity to nameit Earth
Inspring letEarth to distractme from mydesire'shell whilecoveredwith&containingforever
shower&flower. withmusic of eachEarthlysphere. the betterpart of life.
Insummer letEarth ............................. ............................
grow&bestow. Air preciousAir fanningFire Nosurface onlydepth
Infall letEarth for eachcell'slife aslife itself to stillness willess
reap&store toboil the cauldron womblike oneness
tosurvive the challenge of transform'sgyre withyou &allother
ofwinter. inlovewith lung&heart. my embryonictwin.
Fire
Rulingwithout meaningpurpose's grief.
Feral&free fromself'scaptivity in chosenbelief.
Swirlinginflames asno memory'sfool.
Lacking secondarysentience of reason'srule.
Flowingfree before my moltenbeing
is castinculture's inflexibleforms
with my self yielding to civilizednorms
of stridentlove &flagrantdefense
ofthecoldflame ofmy fickle desires.
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Sufferentropy's unyieldingrasp
becoming elemental smoke&ash.
Returningtostardust havingrelinquished my spark
after joyousplay in transform's themepark.
CapitalismRevisited Fire
Threeneighbors mowingtheirlawns Fire movingAir
each withtheirprivate costlymachine. ripplingWater
creatingsmiles
Then powerwashing theirdriveways in unison onEarth'sface.
asif a quasimilitary drillteam.
Such is yourwarmth
Sharingnothingincommon but a brat&a beer &ourlove.
&a fear thathey sharenothing butroutine.
Fawns Cooler
Her twofawns tooshort Earth becomingcooler
todrink birdbathwater forevery lifethatdies.
toeat birdfeederfood
frolicing whilemother Returning stardust
indulges. &flame
the nightsky sparkles.
Untangle
Let shrinks tryto untangle Includes
the madtapestry of me. Reality includesduality
inits dervishdance
I alone canfathom of lifedeath
depthsofmymemory within eternaltransform.
todiscover who myparents
created. Duality dullingexistence
bybeing bipolar inaworld
RunAway of multiple personalities.
Plants can't runaway
&their defensesarelimited Whowhouldchoose to whirlalone
toughbark through eachevery thisnow?
thorns
bitterfruit If I dochoose to embraceduality
yet theylive long&peacefullives atleast byme being schizophrenic
making theirown food I'm neverwithout a dancepartner
reproducing without in lifedeath's madfrivolity.
frustration of family.
Expectation
Whowouldchoose tobe Is expectation the 8th SubtleSymptom
a carnivore? of Selfishness
or simply Hope on steroids?
SideEffect
A Sideffect boundtoreflect Trainingtoconnect resisting to recollect
my mistrust inthewisdom when that Central effect
ofthe wiseones. ( NervouSystem?)
( IntelligenceAgency?)
A slightdefect notcaused byneglect wouldn'tbe to absorb butwouldbe to dissect
butsimply a corollary of "justonething" into two
"youcan'tdo justonething." which shouldleave just me&you
to reflect inaworld that will digest
Whatcould I expect asif they couldselect even thebest
from genetic's bindingbeneficence ofthe
&create onlylove withoutseparation? best.
**Cars?**
Havingrown farbeyond sportscars&speeding Givingup allcars walking for a stretch
cramped&noisey&alwaysneedingfeeding. seeingmorethan through a window breathinglife that'sfresh.
Movingon to motorcycle still a whimofyouth Usingmuscles thathave atrophied for soverylong
untilthrills becomingcostly whengetting longinthetooth. nomore streamingTV whilewaiting for dinnergong.
Movingon to minivan fit toatee Trashingmyhead without lamentation
with offspring havingsprung from zerotothree. recyclingbeing its nextfinal transformation
Butnow an emptynest allowingmetoadjust whilewalking ecofriendly my newniche spiritsprite
to morecomfort&style having become childfree. in eternal duskdawn of darkness&light.
My luxurycarbeing a signofsuccess Without sacredcarsellers asif savingmysoul
with everythingauto &builtoexcess I canatlast be mylesself both empty&whole
but wearing&worrisome in constantneed of repair havingalways beenall whilebeing steelcage confined
justas I've agedgracefully butalso needcare. transformation to carless being joyous&kind.
Trying Compredator
Tryingtoget quiet When rivalries becomebrutal
so I canhear what? &competition becomes predation
with sportsmanship becomingfutile
The screamofangels? howcancompetition
The insane spouting scuttlebutt? becomecompassionate?
Letmesing my songofself Playingtowin isnosin
&livemylife bymygut. until thinkingeachpoint isall
&you'replaying against
Unsightly thinking with a myth
Constructionsite unsightly becoming a compredator
until sod&landscaping. withyour endgame becoming
a finalscore
It's not enough to cartoffdebris &you becoming
whenthelot needs reshaping a compredawhore.
afterlandscraping.
Excrement
Soitis withattempts to stillself Excrement ofmydesire's consumption
ever the twelfth untiltraining. beingthe stinkofself wardingoff eachallother.
It's not enough towant love&peace Onlythose wouldwould eatshit
in a world inwhich selfishness willbeattracted tomy fetidfeast.
failstocease
evenwith subsequentsuffering. Erasing
After lockeroomchalkboard
Lest I Think filledwithXs&Os
Lest I think God is incharge after eachtimeout
or reasonprevails filledwith O&D flows
or hormones&neurotransmitters erasing eachremnant of then
I need tositstill &watch mymemory boss cleaning alltraces of when
asif I deserve to know&judge returningto eachmoment'suniqueness
without loss ofsome of myselfishness. again&again&again.
Jetting
At midlatitude Intime forwhat?
jettingintosettingsun Earth'separation from
at about700MPH ElementalBeing?
thesun willstop Transform beingmade
(&so eachticktockclock?) thefool?
whenmatching thespeedof
earth'srotation. Jetting regretting ticktocktime?
Jetting pirouetting in derivishdelight?
Accelerating thesun will Jetting betting on forgetting
appeartorise that you&I are each dawndustsight
(&sapiens willreturntowork?) at whateverspeed thisworld
while I slipback intime. willoffer.
MemoryLane Baptism
Memorylane certainly nolover Toiletfull.
mypasts bumpertobumper Refillvalve stuck.
with noway topass.
Filthybaptism
Memory asthe tunneloflove forthenext
toodark toobrief foranything nascentsinner.
beyond a facebumpkiss.
Stamped
Memory asthe TeaCups My self
spinning threeways atonce eachside stampedbyother
guaranteeing motionsickness. onthecoin
myparent's minted.
Can't I leave the themepark
ofmypast Guiding
&be still in thisnow Belief &Faithope guidingmybehaviors.
whichwill nevereverlast. I follow the recipeaswritten.
I obey the ruleoflaw.
SC I makeachpass as drawnup.
Tobe sapien the "wiseone"
istobe SelfConscious Wherewould I be without belief
wisdom's price being &faithope?
separation
asif the onlyway tolove Preppingbypraying
isfrom a distance in a supernatural grope.
withwisdom being an
insistence Asif hosting the KilkennyCats's wedding
on mycertainty. thensmiling duringtheirshredding.
Tao-1 Tao-2
ManifestPlainess ina rococoworld. ManifestPlainess
Wearingoldclothes. Eatingfruits&grains. becominglost inthecrowd.
Maintainingcalm amongall twirl&swirl.
Contentwith thisnow neverseekingains. EmbraceSimplicity
within each myriadmanifestation.
EmbraceSimplicity withinallthecomplex.
Singingasong of pure melodicline. ReduceSelfishness
Beingaustere whileallother collects. neverbecomingproud.
Drinkingclearwater eschewing finewine.
HaveFewDesires
ReduceSelfishness lesseningdefense. beyond love's
Trainingtostill inmy lifeofhurry. flirtation
Beingcandid. Lackingpretense. intoxication
Rarelystorming. Atmost a flurry. declaration
inflammation
HaveFewDesires beyondseeking yourlove. humiliation
Asif you&I couldeverbe one. ruination
Workingtransform'sgarden withoutaglove. realization
Living thisnow nowill beingdone. revelation.
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Ratherweave a coatofmanycolors
&strut inthe themepark ofmychoosing
honoringmybeing in selfindulgence
while watchingmyback in prudentdefense.
Cf
SuperNatural - belief - timeless - determined - eternalife
SupraNatural - certainty - ticktocktime - reasonable - meaningpurpose
SimplyNatural - reality - transform - random - thisnow
ElementalBeing yet ruled
Disposal
Thewoods mustknow I'm innocently tryingto disposeof
what I'm about a plastictrashcan fullof
as I fighthrough undergrowth lastyear's fishfood
growingup havingbecome
& brewedbybacteria
bobweavethrough overgrowth &chewedbyrodents
danglingdown their foulcorpses rottingwithin
all stabbing&grabbing the thoroghly digested fishnuggets.
as I intrude ontheir
naturalrandom gardenless Disposing with no thought of fishunfed
chaos. & youngones having togo tobed
onas emptystomach.
FlipBook B&W
Child creating a stickperson flipbook. When didsapiens breakfrom black&white
Flippingslow flippingfast &learntolive in fullcolor?
flipping untilall theaction haspast
gone ina ticktockworld Will distinction leadtoextinction
of thiscanlast of a species soinlove withtheir self
onlyif I choose toseethepages where shadesofgray
onebyone. havegivenway
to variety only skindeep?
But where'sthefun in stilledlife?
Can a peacock constantly in matingregale
Youcaneven tearpagesout survive wherecamouglage is derigueur
asif you'd stoppedtheclock notsomuch tohide astoabide
in a transformation mock in competition moresubtle thanfierce.
whichabides withoutdivide .................................
inaworld withoutpages A coatofmanycolors a target for mostothers
inaworld withoutsages attemptingtosurvive beyondtheirmeans
wheretime couldtell inaworld of meaning onlytothe
butwon't. invisible.
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Parkinglot monsoon. Parkinglot monsoon.
Fortypaces to Walmart Fortypaces to Walmart
but I'll wait it out. &I'll wade it in.
Finalscore a trick My hourglass clogging. Petition is sin.
distractingme fromplaying Can I return to patience Asking asif not catered
asif there'sprofit. &transform's thisnow? asif notabsolved.
Lockedoor. LIghtsoff. Lockdoor. Lightsoff.
Beneathsheets with myeyesclosed. Beneathsheets with myeyesclosed.
This is Germansex. Goto happyplace.
Being a blackwhole Singularity.
attracting eachallother My self is sopowerful
withmygravitas I'm alwaysalone.
My dervishdancing
performed in allfourseasons
inlove or inless.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Collective
Dreamsfromgenes clogging my collectiveunconscious.
Forgotten unforgiving parentsofmyparentsofmyparents.
Listen toremnants ofmyrecall collectedfrom beneathmypall
of wellwoven defendedesires fromthen
when I wascertain ofwho I was.
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Seamstress
Self playingDefense Self playingDesire
is sorrow. is offensive.
Memories Education
beingmyseamstress beingmytailor
sewing a cellsuit snippingstiching
toDefendme. tofit myDesires.
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Both arebound to devolve
into
lovelessuffering.
Wouldthat I could firethemboth
buthebest I cando is
see myseamtress know mytailor
forwhat sheis. forhis limitations.
OneSize Designed
Death Designed bymy grandparent.
isn't a Drafted by parents.
onesizefitsall Defense as myseamstress. Desire as mytailor
garmet. stiching a kevlar cellsuit. alteringaswilled.
Defense Disguisedthus I studyhard
ismy self's seamstree. &graduate from clownschool
Desire tojoin the circusofsapien
ismy self's tailor. intheir tworinged being
of Defense&Desire.
Themore I Desire Thenmore I Defend
thefatter I get themore I shrink Needingtochoose
puttingmytailor makingmyseamstress seamstress tailor
towork. changemydesign. or naked dervishdancing.
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Nestled Bable
"...the Nile is nestled between DemolishingmyBabel fromabove
Uganda and the Congo..." brickbybrick from topdown.
Perhaps someday I'll reachtheground
Asif politicalborders predated &hugyou withmorethan wordsoflove.
thepath oftheNile.
................. Having learned&learned&learned&learned
Selfisness subtleynestled beginningto yearn&yearn&yearn
between presumption&condescension. for lesseparation bymyownmaking
........................... from selfishdeaming finallywaking.
Am I the monkeyinthetree holding a fish
expectingthanks for havingsavedit fromdrowning? Asif ifthen couldbe otherthan when
&I couldlive thismoment withyou.
Aren't sharkslucky tohavefound theirway to water? Asif ifwhen couldbelost in then
.......................................... &we couldfinallyrendezvous.
Howcan I possiblyloveyou &we couldlive asif weknew.
whiledressingyou in my desires?
NoDifference
Abstract Tohavelived mylife withouthaving
Emptiness is lonliness made a difference.
intheabstract. Mygoodness howproud I am.
Thetreatment for emptiness Unneeding meaningpurpose
isto treat lonliness. totallyignoring faithope
yetstill ableto fluorish
Lonliness is playedout elementalbeing beingenough
ineach selfishact forany souless ambitionless sapien.
of defense
of desire MakingRoom
(will I neveretire Lesself makingroom for moreother.
of fighthingoff&feedingon Simple astheysay butnoteasy.
allother?)
Howcan I convinceyou totrain
Poorplay canbe mitigatedwith until you breaktheice
purepractice in a conversationwiththem
sittingwithoutwill &lettingbe makingremembrances
sittingstill &lettingo. ofwho youthink youare
crystalclear&cracking
Desultory? while slippinginto the embryonicwarmth
Transform desultory? of memoriesbecomingrealities.
Aimless. Random.
Butnever disconnected. Or youcan skateaway yourlife ofwinter
onthe hardcoldsurface ofyour
Because lackingmemory naive&arrogant certainty.
neverallowing allegorey.
Obeying naturalaw as mandatory DemoDay
in a union longperfected. Demolition before reconstruction.
Theformer one mighthink fun.
Transform inits glory Thelatter one knowsfundamental.
aimless random yetruled
by physics&chemistry Whilesuffering toforget my originalbeing
permitingus tobefree whilesaving its firmfoundation
intheunity howcan I hope touse what I've learned
of a worldoflove. whilerebuilding withremnants
ofwhat became uninhabitable?
Hide&Seek .......................................
Hide&seek my bestdefense against Vacatingmypast. Creatingmyfuture.
allthat willnot succor my self. Theformer bittersweet.
Thelatter myconceit
Betterbeing insate thancowering infate asif I'velearned mylessons well
asif I can't musterthebluster &won't endup in desire's hell.
tocreate myprivateBabel
&babble incessantly of my hegemony HeatingCooling
inthekingdom ofmychoosing. Goldenrod beingfall's Forsythia
coolingsummer whilecallingout leaf'shues
Perhaps bestdefense whereForsythia heatswinter intospring.
is overwheeningoffense
indulging eachall Each goldensecondsun blossomingbetween
ofmydesires. todo&done
in transform'sgyre as thisonlyone.
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