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Earlyfoothillsnow Watchingstraightahead
creating a whitechalkboard this grayday of drivingrain.
dottedwithAngus. Alldetailsblurring.
Blackshadow of smoke Midnightsnowflurry Jogging to corner.
rising against brownbrickwall camouflaging threewhitebirch Wind penetratingwoolcap
into sleetingsky. near the Christmaspine. scarf &barefaceskin.
Summercrops gone. No winterescape Frozen on cliff face
Intermittent ice plowstreaked for melting mountainsnowfall agedstrata beardedbyice
underliningdawn. caught in icicles. mirroringriver.
Justsmoke escaping Littleasked of life.
frozenriver factory Noenergy but painfree
tiny valleyhomes. isenough forme.
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Conversation
"Self" Lesself queried "don'tyou haveaproblem? establishing as sanctified a delusion named 'soul' &crediting it
Howcanyouclaim immortality withoutsounding with yourdeepestdesire thatbeing personalpreservation."
howshould I put it selfish a label noonebutyou wouldassociate
withthesanctity usuallyassumed ofoneworthy of lifeveralsting?" "Waitamoment" slyLesself "areyou notheone
sullyingsemantics with selfishsubterfuge? Howcanyou
"DearLesself" Selfreplied "itisn't I who'simmortal thinkasyoudo withoutadmitting that thoughtitself is
butmysoul who's atone withGod &resideswithHim basedondistinctionof bodyasubject &mindasobject?"
in His timelessrealm of perfection."
"Don'tyoumean bodyasobject &mindasubject " confusedSelf
Lesselfcountered "Then it's a linguistic sleightofhand "with objectivetruth beingpartof yourarguement?
or ofmouth ifyouwill thatsanctifies youradmission intothe Oram I lost inthe arbitrarynature ofall conceptualwrangling?
realm of deathlessness? You establish a secondaryself Inreality don't subject&objectcollapse inthestillness of
labeled 'soul' toavoid the blantantlyselfaggrandizing diminishedistance wheredistance &separation areboth
powergrab ofbeing abovenature'slaws. Wellplayed dearSelf." necessary in establishing a concepturalandscape?
Doesn't languagelanguish inthe immediacy of
"Please don'tsully thereality ofan immortalsoul lesseparation as lesself aslove?"
by accusing it ofbeing a casuisticaccretion of anunloving
hedonist. Clearly oursouls are an attributeofmind "Hmm. Playing the lovecard mycleveradversary."
notofmatter &thus suffernot the perils&shortlived
charactersitics of cellularbeing." "Noadversary atall dearSelf or if I may dearLesserSelf."
"Aha you cleverillusionist. Itisyou who divideme into "I takeyour creditingme withlesserSelf asa compliment
body&mind tostartwith obviously with personalimmortality inyour schemeofthings. Thankyou. I'll consideryourwords
asyour endgame. Again dearsir wellplayed butspecious. myfriend."
Your ephemeralexistence depends on the veryprinciple
youyourselfestablished. You cleverSelf as linguisticillusionist "Not toseem supercilious butplease discardmywords
are a shortcircuitedcellularwaystation withinourbrain &rather seekto nonunderstand my meandering."
Pieces PickPocket
Mirror shattered Thinking being a pickpocket
is a hundredmirrors distractingmyattention
eachbeing a puddle whileliftingmywallet.
whole&perfect.
Whatwith driver'slicense
Thereare nopieces creditcards&whatnot
in ElementalBeing becomingan identitythief.
withlove puddling
asocean. Havingstolen my virtualself
it spendsmywealth onitsdesires
Frost becomingmydream
Thereis noforgiveness inlove. butonly what I seem
Earlyblossoms don'tforgive inmy worldofmemory
a frostynight. beingblind to reality
thus
Frost isblossom neverentwined within
blossom night. elementarybeing.
Night isfrost
frost blossom. Cannibals
Eachall waytoclose Notsimply carnivores
tocall but cannibals
orcaretocall. beingflesh of our
ancientkin.
Covers We're our greatgreatgreat
Pullingcovers grandchildren's lunch.
overmybody
& Judging lifeaslife
overmy ignoring lifedeath
pillowedhead. whocouldcondone anything
otherthansuicide?
Hand belowmycheek
with pillowbetween WorldHungerGrace
& Eat beforehungry. Drink beforethirsty.
sheets on eitherside. Savoreveryswallow witheachsense.
Thankthelife thatwasgiven foryou
Voice &stop beforeyou'refull.
Myfather damnedmewith
lackofconfidence. FlyingFortress
Flyingfotress gliding
I wentmyownway through coralaircrevice
anxiously. insearch of softgreen
among urchinlined fissures.
Mymother taughtme
language My sackofcells buffeted
butnever love. by windwave rhythms
nearly coraltorn
Thusgoeth a loquacious nearly urchinpunctured
sociopath dearly flippingafter
luckily tootimid toharm native flyingsaucer
anyonebut himself.
whilebeing alieneyes &sight of reef
BanyonBranching as consciousness&selfconciousness
Banyonbranching foreverdancing of reefbeing
touchingdown then rootingup blue of blackurchins
near rainbowfalling water. thought of braincoral
hoof of horseshoecrab
Banyontrunk a reverentmonk pistil&stamen of anemone
spreading her embrace to heaven'sgrace &turtle's search within
as spectralwaift from waterfalling. ocean'schurch
&my innocentaqueous
Waterheld in mistymeld unknowing.
privatepools for lovesickfools
who rhapsodize their mystic ties RealTruth
above cloudstreamingfall. There isno realtruth.
Anyall truth bearing falsewitness
In deeperpool notfar fromshcool to thatwhich is selfevident.
cliffclimbers swinging fromrope aswing
flying&diving somuch inlove Schizophrenic sapiens
in stillwater above rainbowfall. cresting onthewave ofthe
reallytrue schism
Suchaplace Hawaii'sface surfing the linguisticsea
&heart&selfless being. tofashion an imageofme
Banyon rockfall to oceanall neverever toreach thebeach
as transform's eternalseeing. of imminentreality.
OurStar
Understars withinstars untiltraining reignsringing
rectangular effulgence between through lesself's painstinging
between parkinglot blacktop glowing no churchbells tohear
& no heavenhell tofear.
woodland riverflowing
headstails sans successorfails Simply lesself
dribbling with Tippicanoe sanspsychology
stealing moonball I never outgrew unrestrainedplaying
becoming what I neverknew. of body notmine
makingthepass
Understars beingstar takingthesteal
rectangular efflorescence shootingtheshot
asphalt mineralearth with twentyhandsclapping
shallowflowing water'sgirth making nosound being blindsight
summersunset air as shrinkingseparation becominglove
ourstar's fieryflare neverasking herethere orever whereof.
bloomingselfless ineachshot
to drivedrawdish morelikely than not Understar
with allknots undone always nearfar
Gordian playingforfun timedlightleft to windtodark.
under thisnight beingthisnight
of outsidebreath as breathing'sdelight. Rectangle releasing its game'sheat refulgence
................................ as steamerstreak the unparkinglot
Thenthemoment leaving this eve a metaphor
blackbright atonce for celestialcarnal perfectrapport
stobbingpulsar of woodland riverflowing
ofmyheart beating &
throbbinglungs starbright hoopnet
ofmyhead overheating transform'sglowing.
**Penguin** **DoYouLike?**
Thereonce wasabird fromAntarctica Doyoulike Oprah?
whofound that tofly wasan illfit Well it dependson how I'mfeeling
with a body soround &whatcomes withit.
itwasmeant fortheground I said Oprah not ockra.
with shortknees madingiteasy toshit. OK. Nevermind.
Drowning Season'sGait
Drought inthe West. Summergrasshoppers hopping
Drowning inthe East. during roadsidewalk.
I guess Godcan'tblend Fall breezeleaves in liltingait
themost with theleast. below a huntinghawk.
Dryfaith inthe West. Winterwhirled brightwhitesnow
Drenchedfate inthe East. dancing inits pride.
I guess penitents forebear Spring's midspring springingdaises
knowingsorrow a feast. sweetmaidens to season'sbride.
Sometimes sanslanguage Only
mostimes loquacious. Only a self
I guess I can'tblend cantry
restraint with audacious. tobe
selfless&loving.
FourFists
Fourfists of sofestwhite. And intrying
Fourfists of furrymight. & inbeing
Fourfists of bobbersbobbing failing.
between their mom&dad.
HowCan?
Soontolose their birthsuit down Howcan I answer myself
asup theygrow to featheredgown. whenit asksme why
I'm askingquestions
Soonto lose&find theirway ofthat selfsame
soaring farfrom parent's sway. self?
But neverlost to lakeofbirth Bysitting.
neverlost to air&earth Bybreathing.
&
theironeness with allwaters Then&When
being ripple's sons&daughters. Then&when twopaths tohell
while eternitysquirms ina ticktockcell
Translation judged&jailed by he whoknows
Reading Hafiz as translatedby &knows &knows &knowsonlytoowell.
notLadinsky
v. Unknowingtime thisnow lostintransform
Ladinsky free fromtheknowledge of allknowers.
islike readingtherecipe
v. Myself'separation as priceofexpectation
eatingthemeal. for a timelesspaceless beingunbeing
noplace orpace or prancingtwins
TelephonePole who'llsee &saw in hubricflaw
Woodpeckerpounding its privatecode dreamingofwins inmy worldofsins
against sapless insectless unabletoescape to eternalpause.
stems of sapiensaying.
Myself lostwithin thenwhen's spirit
Strippedpine stutteringsignals until tenseless&senseless unableto fearit.
foreign to forestseeing
stretchingacross thedream I Feed
of self'symbolicbeing I feed my lesself
asif canopybirds
electricpulses couldeverbecome coralfish
the touchofbrush of needlegreensway peacock'swish
beneath a firmament of neversay &opennedfist
butwhat sol'smessenger allstill beforethestorm.
would whipup in tempest
orcaress usall withcalm. Driving
Drivingtowork.
Rewards Thoughtswandering.
Rewards are funerals fortheact Forcingfocus on
dead&buried withthedoer. road
traffic
Self eulogizing its selfishness signs.
nonsensing not a thing'samiss
asitsown myopic witness. Why?
Mymemories are moreintersting
Don'tBeProud tome
Don'tbeproud tosee a lesself than roadtrafficsigns.
within the commotion ofthecrowd.
That welltrainedbeing is beyond simpleseeing I'mtheone
whose narrownessmissed thepick&theroll. (whomatters tome.)
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Thereality being screentheball&go Thoughtwandering
while ration'smiser missestheflow untiltheday I dies
of a play withoutense a time of nonsense ifever.
a wellrehearsedance of rhyme within rhythm.
(P.S. Sometimes I simply
The team doesn'tblame the untrained foreachhappening don't feelikebeing
unknowing onlyall evenwhen some holdtheball atone with theall.)
whiletheshotclock oftheir misunderstanding expires.
AfterParty
The passwasmade tomorrow Chips weredry.
longafter the shotclockperspired Music tooloud.
withconfusion over the simplereality Beer waswarm.
that nohand is muchquicker Babes werecool.
thant a blind thirdeye
transform beingto magic I canonlypray
as thathe afterparty
lesself isto tragic. willmeetmyexpectations.
MountainSnow - 1 MountainSnow - 2
Holidaytraffic keepinghighway dry The whiteridge is evidenceofnothing but
evenafter yesterday'storm snowinblow
asif thestorm belongedto yesterday branches blanch
asif this old oldmountain angelic softwood in subduedglow
inits enormous age onhills beheld ina singleglance
&infiniteforebearance toofleeting tohope toeverecall.
wouldeven call it a storm.
Whowouldcare howitcametobe
Still to wecreatures of brief lifedeath or howlong itcouldpossiblylast
of then&when&nevernow breathtaking foraninstant
the whitetoppedridge thenlost to forgottenpast
&iciclefanged rockface as subtlevidence ofour mortality.
speak of a past toorecent
tobefelt at mountain's pace. Brighter thanthesky
that pristine icebranched ridge
Weknow the road'sdry because of "But not outshining heaven"
unceasingfriction of holidaytraffic Hope wasrumored tohavesaid to Self
providing assurance allowingme toglance whenthevidence wasclear cold
whileresisting a glaze orworse a trance blinding&profane.
yet timenough totransport mymemory
back&forth from youthtocomingage But lesself lookedon silent&timeless
tojoin mountainsnow's liturgy. bafflingHope who sawheaven spineless
&was afraid.
And oh whataglance!
A glance nostare couldpossiblymatch Lesself was stillness thoughtless &blank
with the stare's almostinstantanous intrusion breathless lungless evenheartless
of ahead fullof desire'sconfusion. pouringlove fromnowhere
a thawingofthought
Glance pure&simple mountainsnow becoming
then eyesback totheasphalt what transform has wrought
&thestream of Christmascarolcars a reality of thisnow &alwayshere
carrening flatlandslopes causingeachblink tobecome a tear.
through primevalpurity
with thatglance becoming my personallandscape Mountain ridgetobase
with white rimmedridge as imagination'sbridge unknowing the folly ofits height
withmyjourney becoming reality's gape. or of its changingshade
uncaring unsharing unfazed
Themountain wouldlaugh &maybe itis confident itwillnever fade
atme seeing its stillness &weeping without mypersonal permission.
whilepretending a mountain couldlaugh.
And I inallgood nofaith myself deadasdogma
But inaglance it isn'tmine wondering ifthatmountain couldpossibly be me
it doesn'tlaugh there isno bridge as allearth&allother pure&simple
&there's lesstoknow inmyworld of neverthen&that always here&of
judgment&sorrow. senselesstenseless emptyfull love.
MountainSnow - 3
Letme sing at 70MPH
the angelic AppalachianChristmas song
to a mountain withworn softwoodridge
wearingthewhite
of lastnight'sflight
of wind&cloud
to singoutloud
ofsnow&blow
&swirlingflow
with notes I wasn't heretohear
with rhythms lost at dearestcost
&harmoniesfading inmyfear
of aging's pace sonear a lull
impalpable tomy insensateskull
fullof I&me&mine
&then&when & thenagain
when nowisall with joyouscall for
heavenearth
humblebirth
hubrisgirth
Hitler'sworst
Homer'smirth
heroicsearch
forbeing without beingthis
forseeing without seeingthat
forliving without givingin
forloving whenfinally givingup.
Singjoy tothose angelicslopes
still in erosion of
theirown lifedeath
while I speedthrough
toward myown lastbreath.
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Wintertrimmed mountainridge
sewingsky to risenearth
with earthsky rising into all.
**Tom**
Between midnight&dawn the moon&sun Books&cassettesflung thisway&that
streakedinto ourhouse through the cat's opendoor. cat brainfogged asif nightmare witheyes still halfblurry.
Tom yellowredorange invadingourpeace Finallycaught in fishnet a quiet end to ourdrama
boldlybeginning our 4AM war. until fierce tooth&claw tore loose in feralfury.
Stealingfood &chasingourkitten Me armored in ovenmitts boots &overalls
in fear&pursuit downthesteps theyboth tore. armslonger thanhislegs mystrength noway matched
Intruder halfmanic blundered into ourbedroom but the moltenpincushion was waymore thanfurry
tobegin whatwouldend as familialore. with my unguardedface still warrantingworry.
Trapped underwaterbed safe forthemoment Quickly castingoff the whirlingnebula
a cinderblockmaze with him deepinitscore. outofthe net flew that flash of feline.
Proddedby baseballbat twoiron then pitchfork Aroundtheroomtwice then backunder thebed
hishiss nearlybanshee thenalmost a roar. havingspent atleastwo ofhis fabled livesnine.
Finallyemerging seekinganexit Notuntil the proarrived
leaping dressertobookshelf in bantamstyle flight. with aluminumcatchpole &hardmetalcage
Then archinghisback clawing forawindow couldthatcat becaught inanoose withacinch
this neighborhoodnomad seekingfreedom in night. &stuffed in coldsteel tocontain his hotrage.
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Hell needstohurry toclaim itsownbeing
a present tothedevil forhis privatepet
asTom's wanderingflamewanes in inconstantcourse
sunrisebecoming thatbeing lastsunset.
Choice Price
Choosing lobster PriceofSelf
at McDonald's drivethru. is
sex sansatisfaction.
Choosing BigMac
at RedLobster. PriceofDefense
is
Ifonly I couldhave sex sansother.
chosenmyparents
&edited myearly PriceofLove
input. is
sex lesself.
ButterFly
Butterflapping over boatofwill Perspective
gentleripples lappingsides inatrill. Watchingame from top row
Preyflopping awhile before finalstill with highpower binoculars.
then loppingoff fisheads aswe cleanourfill.
Watchingame from middle row
Roastingtheperch over charcoalgrill with lowpower binoculars.
toastingtheluck &thefisher's skill.
Eatingthelife ofthedeath ofthekill Watchingame from behindthebench
with butterflyfloating in judgment'snil. with eyeswideopen.
Roulette Playingthegame within thegyre
Betting while ballisrolling becoming partall ofthe churchlesschoir.
justasif mylover strolling
towardthenumber I'mextolling Reduction
hoping Reducing saltwater
she'll notice&stop. to
salt + watervapor.
But there'snostopping
ball neverdropping What hasbeenreduced
formyself or mylove &
both cursed towhat?
fromabove. .........................
Reducing brain'schembehavior
Red&black fiftyfifty to
ina puremathematical plot. brainchem's + behavior.
Waiting waiting foreach balldrop
mystomach becomingaknot. Simpleanalysis.
Butball foreverolling What hasbeenreduced
myself's will notcontrolling towhat?
thawhich transform's quietlyscrolling
asif Touching
my epitaph. Touchingmeadow.
Caressingstreaming.
SeeingMyEyes Our lipstolips tonguestotongues
I can'tsee myowneyes without a glimmerofgrammar
without a calmpond or cleanmirror. without the sanctionofsemantics
simply lifedeath sansdrama.
Profound sittingtraining
may onoccasion provide AsNothing
both thecalm &thecleanliness Mylove as
forme tosense my lesself. stainedglass
clearglass
Then themirror mustbeshattered openwindow
chewed&swallowed dawnduskbreeze
&washedown in a singlegulp nothing I couldeverknow
withthewhole ofthepond. nothing thatwouldever please.
Then I becomemyreflection WhoAmI?
insideoutside I canlive for tenyears.
belowabove I cango tenweeks on onemeal.
neverthen neverwhen I cangrow eighteenincheslong.
alwaysnow in unknowing love. I have thirtytwo brains.
Enticed
We've enticedyou fromyourwomb a wayofbeing whichis asmuchricher
withourworld of colors&sounds&fragrances thanyourpresent appears as yourpresent is
a whirlingworld of wine women song to yourdark dull sodden origin.
delectablefoods &dancinguntildawn.
A wayofbeing that's
We don'taskyou toreturn all sense&nonsense atonce
toyour originalwomb all colors&blindness
dark dull sodden. all sounds&deafness
all dance ina paralysis of self'sundoing
Wecontend thatyou areinawomb still allappetites emptied
of colors sounds fragrances allknowing
of wine women song a lostdream
&dancinguntildawn. memory foreverblank.
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Wecontend thathere isaway ofbeing You'vecome thisfar dearSearcher
beyondthatspectacle inout of yourwomb canyou giveup all thatistruly your Self?
Pool
Leaving coolclearwater. Or toesfirst again
Sitting poolside with legsdangling asif
inthe chlorinatedstill. sans training I can everwarm
to myself's frigidbeing?
Then toa chaiselounge
tobathe inthewarmth of self. Perhapsbetter tohave
................... neverleft thepool
Hit with a splash from torefresh intheheat of forgetting
cannonball divers. whenthepool'schilling was invigorating.
To toweloff or divein again? Ifonly I couldbe in&out atonce.
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Ifonly therewere a lifeguard
&theyprovided sunscreen.
Display SizeMatters
Newmoon stardisplay "Reality"
Sol'sreflection having goneaway. to ants&bluewhales
My cleverbrain connecting eachdot "What'sgravity?"
doingwhat Romans&Greeks couldnot. to stars
Constellations as exhalations wombs forall worlds
sighs from lostsouls searchingforanswers. to mountains
inhalingexhaling with
Then blankpredawn allhopegone tectonicpatience
withSol aboutobecome reality'sdisplay to sapiens
ofall thatSapiens wouldliketosay "Mychoice" they think
if theycouldspeak withoutatongue thenchoose their
blabberingfromBabel'stower. childhood dreams.
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Suffering my self Cells having need'sdebts. Means - stardustfusing.
blindedby my self. Self being desireonly. Opportunity - each thisnow.
Noonsun toodamnbright. Feedingeach alike? Motive - none.
Returningtowomb. Concretetruck onsite. Tongue appetizer. Hoping we areone.
Playingball inmy oldgym. Thinking theywere wellprepared Nippleplay no throwaway. Trusting as expectation
Yet not thesamegame. yet soquick todry. Then her lush entree. of needs beingmet.
Ah! Tobepuppy Fishingnearsidewalk. Trapped in brickcorner
chasingrasshoppers throughfield Overhangingbranches webbed. foodwrapper havingnosay
of noremembrance. Greenpads dottedred. wind havingits way.
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Snatching ToPee
Snatchingcoin Out topee this toofair winter'seve.
is
child'splay Moon for onemorenight only.
until inneradult Stars forever.
has somethingtosay.
Streamingsteaming arch of urine
Then neuralcircuits welcomed by frostedsoil.
begintospin Bladder welcomingrelief.
slowingchild
untilhand can'twin. Starlight as excrement ofages
sent tobefiltered through our
SkyCircles knowing&unknowing
Greatcircles madeby as lesself's welcomerelief
hugebirds fromtheburden of endlesslife.
defining decaybelow.
Now backindoors
Carcass a funnel intomy warmbed
vulturespiralingdown for a still night'sleep.
tobe transform'sagent
of eternalifedeath. MyPuppy
Mypuppy
Confluence boundingthrough ourwoods
Allegheny + Monongahela = following unseenscentrail.
OhioRiver.
My puppy
Eachofmy streamingdesires onour newmoonwalk
beingrationalizedinto hearingtheunheard.
a singleflowing.
Mypupy
OhioRiver + MississippiRiver = chewinghertoy
MississippiRiver infrontof ourTV.
alltheway tothegulf.
Andme
My lesself becoming lostinmemory
oceanall. beingthe wiseone.
HowDare Pain
Howdare dawnsun Loveaspain ofyours ofmine
threaten my crystalbeing as drygrass talk &flushedbird's squawk
as frostlacedmeadow whenwehunt as desire'shawk
embracedby pineboughsnow. then feedoncarrion as a vulture
having tornapart allthatnature can nurture.
Howdare warmair waiftdew away
in longrass&twig breezeballet Loveasjoy ofours inkind
withme as sparklecoat when neverbeginning toseek tofind
withme as firstlightnote thatwhich can neverbe lostorfound
inmysong of lesseparation havingneverbeen bound.
lesseparation.
MortalWorld
Howdare mydemons If our mortalworld
howunfair myreasons a poordesign
for judgingtransform thenwhat dearSelf
asif it shouldconform wouldyoudevine
tomy each&everydesire. &wish into existence?
FlatLine
Lacking the thrillofvictory Windingthrough straight lineoflife
or agony of defeat boredbyall that's simple&plain
what'sleft but skimilk flatlinelife I choosetolive mypersonalstrife
a life muchlessthan incomplete? &suffer civilized selfmadepain
Life livedplain nopleasure nopain with a body thatwillnot or cannotsee
weavingwarp with an impotentweft thatflesh isnot injeopardy
mired in monotonyofmonogamy whenattacked by adjective noun&verb
wish&want lost to desire'stheft & I defend myself's preciousmemory.
livingundivorced with flatlinesighs
until mylast&finalbreath Remembrances of din of ringingdreams
knowingonly onepair of calves&thighs &clingingfear of nightmarefailure
&finalflatness of passion'sdeath. left lessthandead asif still&unborn
.......................... I searchinvain for a dramaticsavior
Can I convince my thrillseekingself yet afraid toleave my self alone
thatheride is worth thestand inline fightingthefright of suicide
withconversations &familiarfaces afraidofheaven's numbingnothingness
asif a rollercoaster laid serpentine afraidtoshare what Jesuscried:
thathe ups&down of securelystrappedspeed
do lessthansate with drugedgreed "Forsaken forsaken" foronce alone
myapparent surface shimmeringneed Godofgods finallyfeeling mypain.
for ravishingimpulse on stimulantfeed? Fleshoflesh withnoway to atone
caughtinHishead likeme insane.
A lifebeyond mybasicbread
creating a selfishdilettante Thinking flatline stillborn&boring
searchingempty tobefed failingtoborethrough both skull&brain
needingsearch for what I want tofeel allife beyondmyskin
defendingself in dailyfight tobecome thewhole beyond loss&win.
without a fear of blood&gut .......................
egohero neverechoosingflight Lacking the thrillofvictory
selfbetter inbattle thanin a rut. or agony of defeat
what'sleft butemptied lesself life
Soplay prehistory runorgun a life muchlessthan selfishseek
forthe prehistoric reflexfear becomingneither thisnorthat
thenfeel theprice of acidanger my eternalife dream outofhand
when civilizedcavebears cometoonear. livingalife of each thisnow
................................. neverneeding or wanting a promisedland.
Umbrella Fearing
It can't rain undermyumbrella Fearing cavebear
nomatter howlow eachcloud whosimply isn'there.
nomatter howhard eachdrop. Chuckingmyspear
atall that I fear.
Even a stiffwind can'thelp Woundingonlythose
blowingagainst angledarching whowould
waterproof protection. iftheycould
loveme.
Thatbeing obvious&unremarkable
yet asunlikely as gravity springlove Headless
&my incredulouswonder. Headless
the headlesshorseman
10,000 isn't alarming
Tenthousand gamesplayed uptothisone whenthere's novoice
with tensofthousands moretocome. to soundthealarm
Could I bemoved to lessthanbliss moreless a self
knowingwell thereis nosum? withamouth.
MootCourt
In transform's mootcourt a juryofhis seers
allplans are past &pleas judging butbyration
with thisnow as reality's intheir ratrace toward thoughtreward
judge. with a ratio of sixsinners to zerowinners
& noone findingthecheese.
Each plaintiffself .................
suitednaked in cells In tranform's mootcourt
each plaintiveself allplans arepast &please
begging for lifeternal havemercy onthe humblebeing
makes I hold sodearly
an argument DearExecutioner.
&inmaking loses ..............
evenif the tears stings If thisbe mootcourt only
the eyeofthebeholder. unjudge my clingingself
..................... withoutarguing the
In transform's mootcourt meritlessness of mycase
allplans arepleas &past whosevalue isall a facelessface
with thisnow as reality's whenfacing dread thisnow.
jury. ................
The insignificance
Each plantiffself of transform's courtofappeals
begging for eternalife couldbe meaningless only
each plaintiveself toa cellsuit fullofself
suitednaked in cells unwilling to relinquishthekeys
addressing to then&when.
**DogHairDog?** **PutOut**
Ourdog musthhavehad anoffspring Therewas a pridefulchap
though we remadeit a neuteredmale inour purelyjocks frat
forwhen wecleaned ourvacuumlast claiming tohisbrother's adulation
wesaw anapprarition unveil. thathecould extinguish a candle at tenfeet
withasingle ejaculation.
Itwas isif a smalldog curledup
sans pawswithclaws or headwith ears Not tobe outdone
for as wecollected that ballofur in braggingabout one'sgun
we atlast allayed ourfears hisroomate begantoexaggerate
while fluffingthrough the puffystuff oneupping infun with a claimtofame
assuring ourselves there wasn'tenough that at fifteenfeet hecouldextinguish
to constituteapuppy. a lightbulb.
MyMother
Were myeyes puffy Fifty pregnant womboundyears
fromher cigarettes sittingquietly watching myembryo grow.
or fromthechips shehadwon from me?
(Who is casier Here eighty years
for illgottengains? asif it mattered
Howbrief purgatory eighty years before herself a supernova
after a twentychip payoff?) tobepartof a limitless seasofstars
forever&ever fornow&never
Were myeyes watering for eight or eighty
from hersmoke or number
or fromtheliquor or name
inhercoke? neverever takinganyblame
(Howcould sheuse forfailing tolove beyondherself.
his liquid drug of his blacklove? .........................
Whatcould shepossiblyfind Today is ourbirthday
in hisbottle?) &deathday
&theonlyday
Wasmybeing ash or alcohol &how weplay
or nothingbut winninglosing? isallthat
doesn'tcount
UterineMotherEarth oozingcreation with noone
withmy burningpridewatching burningeyed to additup
concocting a drugged bastardpast anyway.
formy entombed impregnableself.
ForewardShadow Idea
Walkingtinto our lawnlamp light Runningfrom
yetstill a forwardshadow throughthis ideaof.
coolfall thincloudnight
darkindark a curiousight Runningtoward
casusedby our thirdquartersatellite. ideaof.
Howcan a quartermillionmile reflection So attachedto
winout against a quarterblock fauxsun idealof.
with nightclouds having theirveryownfun
playing hide&seek with a lightsoweak Livingmylife
its faintforwardshadow a bareconnection? farfarfrom love.
EmptyWoods
Thewoods are emptyofleaves Riverunningwildly
butlarger fortheloss. beneath carefullybalanced steps
Birdsongs &burblingstreamsounds with bridgeaswoods
unheard undereach leafcrunching footfall butnot as water
nowknown &our suspensionbridge unveiled &youwonder if unseen
alldancing in nature's seasonlessball. your motionlessmotion is sensed atall
in somesubtle deepwoods way perhaps
The bridge orby thoseselflessfew whohavenosay.
discipline the ............................
is walk Woodsremaining emptyfull
to flowerless insectfree
endtoend & stepbycreep onlybriars&portrudingbranches
without a or to remind of seasonsofseason of treesoftree
causing ripple sway asif theyes of root&trunk
fromthat taut cable a hanginghyperbola evershecked a calendar
withonly the emptywoods unwatching. orcaredfor you&me.
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Between Crinkle
There isno between Towrinkle toripple torustle.
asif Freshsheets&cool pillowcases.
between inhalation Thiniced puddle crackingbeneath
& the weight ofmy racingbrain
exhalation &my dreamorylife.
lifestopping
like a tosseball Freshlaundryscent
between up&down. (detergent? dryersheets?)
invading thisnow
Free from Grandma'smangle
Free or outdoorhanging whites.
asif
anything Tosleep
caughtintime inthe springripplecontour
couldeverbe ofmy coolcradledhead
free. on a freshlaundered pillowcase
I canuse to burymyface.
DoesWind?
Does windknow its bitterNovemberbite Trusting
by coloredleaves or dimminglight? Until it aslast becominguntrusting
realife cannot be lived.
Compelled byitsmaster wind hasnowill A single glanceback begettingeachfront
inthis seasonofvacuum nochance tobestill. setting mybeing on a doomedwitchunt
Can you&I embracing in perfectlystill reason Searchingforsolace fromall thatisempty.
stillourself yet stillstir ourheart Seeking a safe timeplace to exist.
&blowhot&wild in eachallfall Wanting a guaranteed garden&guardian.
&eachseason's &allelements Waitingforasign I've alreadymissed.
eternalbrawl?
Trusting thatall isboth plumb&level.
No I Trusting inall thatwe hear&see.
Thereisboth I&if Trusting ingods&dogmas&liturgy.
conjoined in life. Trusting allgoeswell between you&me.
And ifone eliminates the f Yet until realife becominguntrusted
asif timedoesn'tfly with each thisnow simplylived
one'slife become a lie. can my life become moresharing
.............. with me training in elementalbeing
Thereisneither tobecome lesselfish &morecaring.
I nor if
inlove's Seething
eternalgift. Memory seething
emotions seizing
A StictchInTime inself's coldtreason
Stichingtime with memory'sneedle to body'sbreathing.
embroidering eachnow
with myinitials Lostinwinter
knitting a cortex lost toaworld
but droppingstiches. ofwords&wanderingthoughts
to ears ofthose whocannot hear
Savingthree or threetimesthree to tongues ofthose whocannot taste
always on a mendingspree to fingers ofthose whocannot feel
repairing thatwhich life couldrent to nostrils stuffedwith nonsense
butcould neverpossibly buy. to eyes fullof fear.
Elodea Who wouldchoose the unforgiving
Sittingonriverbank of lifelived amongtheliving?
before mossrock
below elodeaflowing. Better tohide thanto confide
ina brain ina cellsuit with aself?
Whocouldthink tounwill a knowing
of river's comings&goings Dripping
with thisnow all&still? Threegreenheads near shallow leafedshore
onebrownhead herdingher familyof four
Sittingonriverbank furfists lost in lakesidegrass
seventrunksfromsingleseed becoming a single shadedmass.
with shedleaves as tumbleweeds
with ancientree imperceptiblygrowing Longcastdripping still highsun.
with elodea's silent tiptoeing. Crankbaitdancing for fishingfun
before goingshallow for hiddenprize
Going of suddenswirls from weed'sdisguise.
So myflowing
although its slowing Skippingcast under greenoverhang
yetstill mylesserself bangingintobank easingintolake
would dreamofknowing teasing ambushbass for survival'sake
where upstreamdownstream toeat
isguiding mygoing. toplay
tosplash
DynamicVoid tospray
Swishing threepoint nouns. until fisher's thumblift by lowerlip
Hittingadverbs for homeruns. &finalfury &flurriedrelease
Puttingadjectives into thirtyfoot then backtocalm &mallard'speace
dowhnhillsloping hole. with sunsetdripping from yellowbill
Volleyingpronouns for with fish&fisher returningtostill.
angledwinners.
Splashingprepositions IronicParadox
with powerhookedstrikes. Surviving bydintof specialization
Splittinguprights sapiens thensuffering separation.
with interjections. Learninglangage to communicate
thus increasingablility tocoordinate.
Dynamicvoid becomingverb
formingswirls withintransform But at thesamtime learningtohate
while I struggle intheswarm withothers encroaching onmyfate.
of self'sgyre of desire. Ifonly anxious I couldtrain towait
becominglove beyond the gatelessgate.
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Eachmeeting random
yet eachinteraction ruled.
Order sansmotive.
Somany bentnails Lookingback whendone. Birdinhand orbush
whendisracted easily. Startled bythedifference. noamount of mybeating
Trained. Hittingsquarely. Training hasbegun. willfill mybelly.
Remembering me. Whowouldsacrifice
Riskingall that I canbe evergreen'singleseason
unawareofnow. for green flaming bare?
Sand fallingfromthen Trainingtostillness. Homosapiens
through lean narrowness of now Trying toputplates away a species uberalles
tostillness asthen. in perfectsilence. strengthendbytheirself.
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Training
"The appearance of others Eachbreath now's lifedeath.
in the phenomenal world Oxymoron?
is integral to the emergence Self becoming lesself.
of selfhood; that is, self and Irony?
other are conjointly differentiated Erasingeffort witheffort.
from the phenomenal world to form Paradox?
the self-in-relation-with-others." ................................
"Psychological decentralizing"
Thatis:
Shootingalone ontheplayground Thatis:
until a fewofmybuddies come Lesself.
&we pickteams&play.
.......................... Not a learning
"In the state of transcendent consciousness, understanding
the subject-object distinction disappears." epiphany
enlightenment.
Thatis:
Havingtrained for sevenbillionbreaths Simply
becominglost inthegame. trainedawareness.
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FirstTwoYears Sing
My firstwoyears of retirement Sing sing the needforsong
I'm goingtobe a cow with sunsweepingclouds
walkingtofield munchingrass to herself onsetting.
caringless of whenorhow. Halfmoonmusing
behind passing lacegraycurtain
For fiveyearsnext or maybe ten peekingthrough&glowingtoo
I'm goingtobe a squirrel in mutedullsweep of sun'sdaylesstwin.
climbing talltrees eatingnuts .................................
sleeping ina furrycurl. Gregarious little whitebilled winterguests
eachbobbing&gone thenback in sevenbreaths
Finally I'll be sun'swind itself fromsearch for nearlyfrozen flora
blowing at itsmasters behest beneathcalm nearly icecoated faceless lakeface.
dryingclothes scatteringleaves
billowingsails at noone'sequest. Isit song or sightserene
or longpast soontocome matingscene
Again that I hear beneathevery breathlessbreath
Lake frozenagain. transform's joyous tambourine?
What aremybass Nomatter thesource
goingto thinkofme? there's butone recourse
dancing&singing
Dothey thinkme singing&dancing.
lordofseasons?
Flurrying
Dothey expect mylure Snow flurrying noteven worrying
to plungethrough their iceceiling that earthsungravitywind asone
or mykayak tocrack glazesurface? would haveitfall asif topall
whenit wouldchoose tostun.
Springwillcome soonenough
mydearcompanions. Hurrying whilehiking
through iceflake's insouciantflustering.
Cootswillleave. Geesewillreturn. Gravity'swind as undisciplined
Then wecanresume ourgame as mybeing's defensivetwin
of hide&seek. seekingall while emptywithin.
Lichen Accumulatingnot each iceydot
Coralike lacedlichen as separate as myselfdefending
asif greensnowclumped aggregating as a memoryclot
atedgeof iceruttedroad. as I resist neversuspending
piling&piling asall forgot.
Almost mudspattered
by poacher's tiretracks That I would deign to stokemydesire
or perhaps younglovers inthefaceofnature's frozenfire
confirimingthefacts mustmake sun'slaughingwind admire
oflife inour shelteredwoods. mypride in itstime of silentdance.
Spikedhollybush as roadedge ambush Wound
along browntiretrack in emptyculdesac Oozingwound in wood'swomb
incolor inviting windtornlimb from midnightstorm.
in acutetips frightening
in Januarydawn enlightening Sapless&hapless oakwithbrokenarm
a newyear'stease among allold hanging asif a braceletcharm
promisingwarmth beyond allcold. from a wrist below shreddedhand.
Tournament
A row of lilting longleafpines Sycamoretrunk a thicksolidcylinder
between golfcourse&tenniscourts. supporting thinbranches at angles soright.
Bundled greeneedles blowntograce Broadleaves gentlylobed but with tipsacute
whilecompetitors flow intheir stroke&hit chase. shadingplayers&parents comingtoroot.
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Threeneedles atatime slender&limp Driftingto drawsheet in fauxnonchalance
growingbrown whiledraped withincenturyfence. firstfindingthemselves thenscanning allothers.
Sixty years growingreen withoutmeaning or reason Dreamingofplaying untilnames become narrow
needles shed withoutnoticing sunorseason. flyingpastfeathers to point of desire'sarrow.
Scragglybranches from a toonarrowtrunk Lawnchairs unfolding as drama unfolds
holdingleafbundles intufts at theirend. a steelfenceaway butinplay justhtesame.
Needlesexploding but unabletofy Watching highlobes&solidvolleys
in a greenonly silent FourthofJuly. from beneath theshade ofa lineofLoblollys.
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Justafter thefourth teenscoming fortournament Younghumansworking&younghumansplaying
gatheringbeneath loneSycamoretree some narroweyed pursedmouth some withapurr
centeredonplatform circledbyhedges some fussingat themself some praisingtheir opponent
five spikedtimbershigh &circledbyfledges. beyondnet withinlines inan archingballblur.
Tinygirls intheirtwelves in cuteoutfits (oh my!) Until twoplayers playon forallother
toboys intheireighteens witha star ineach eye. feeling winloss as lessthan they'd dreamed
Allplayers welltrained inan ongoing cram having lostnothing whiletraining to lesself
topass iftheywin this summerschooless exam. havingained an unexpectedwealth.
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Trees can'tknow whatgoeson below
with familiesofsapiens playingout their briefgame
all intheirunknowing each at theirownpace
green&flesh merging into one facelessface.
Asphalt Lacking
Playground of asphaltbubbling Lovelacking
sticking toMy PF flyers&bike's fatires isn't passionattacking
as annoying as baseballstats stickinginmemory mybeloved with
remindingmyself thatmemory willalwaysbe bombastofme.
that blackoozingstuff ofmyeach clingingthen.
Lovelacking
Littleboy duringsummervacation is neverunpacking
groundedinfaith&mystery baggageofthen
until fall &hardeningtar onto now'sbroadlap.
&backtoschool with a scar
fromthose harsh halcyon Lovelacking
daysofbecoming is mybeloved's kidnapping
then ofall mywlltobe
cold sad alone. leavingme in thisnow full&empty
of transform's lesseparation.
Ofcourse
Ofcourse a culture Wake
confusing sexwithlove Eachwake isreal &stillness a feel
will despair tocomparepassion as movementabides wheneachkayak glides
with emptiednonration onthepond of timetotime.
thinkinglove's mysticreason
cleanses sex fromeachseason Eachshimmer isreal asis ripple's feel
of abject selfindulgence. of movement as movement sweeps
beneath sixgeese in unceasingpeace
Asif toconvince withits whilethey abide in stillness.
freshspringofthrust
telling it's self thatitcantrust Andme inmy yak feelingthefeedback
the feelof thoughtlove ofeach paddlestroke for fishing'sake
through itsgroin. onthesurface ofmy shimmeripplelake.
**TheySay** **Democracy**
Theysay asfewas threepeople I'veheard thatdemocracy is based
understand Einstein'smath. ontheassumption that onemillioncitizens
It'llbeawhile before Albert'srelativity will displace have a betterchance of making a goodchoice
Newton'smechanics as the coin ofthelayman's realm. than anyfew.
Thesame "they" estimate that atany singlemoment Poppycock!
only thirtysevensapiens are experiencing Democracy isbasedon thehope
complete selflessness that a majority can putdown
&that oddlyenough a minority rebellion.
twentyseven ofthen live in DeKalb Illinois.
Fix
Fixblame &you'vefixed yourproblem. everyfan bowstomyfame
Hook someonelese as effect ofyour cause. mebeing theone justlycrowned.
Keep feinting&jabbing keep ducking&swinging
makedefense youroffense inthe unnaturalaws Thuscrowned I'mliving beyond eachnow
of inhumanenature inmy fourthcirlce ofhell butnever ina placeofpeace.
fightingeachround asif mydeath werethebell. Wantingtowin but notknowinghow
waitinginglory formypain tocease.
"It mustbeanother" responsibleforthat.
"It can'tbetrue" the excusetheysing. Defendedtoowell againstallothers
"Itwas himherthem allthere whenithappened each dawndaydusk&then.
&anyway I wasn'teveninthering." Protectedagainst allmy sisters&brothers
eachmoment beingmine &mineagain.
Defending my self istheonlygame
until a suitable fallguy canbefound. Living asa piece ina worldatwar
Fanningtheflame by fixingblame torn from love'song of woven tone.
until ring&arena bothburntotheground. Ringingforever myknell of me
becomingseparation sorrow &alone.
Defending self protecting myname
until I'm theone who'srenowned &
When? Translation
Whendid I letgoGod "It is also obvious to me now
&did I go with Him? that the world is interdependent
but also unstable and unjust."
I'd hopetothink (if I valued hopeorthought (Italics mine.)
&thoughthope morethan badfaith)
thatheclarity of Godlessbeing But? But?! But!!
wouldallowmy self to floataway
unattached&emptied. Inmylanguage "but" is "&"
&the translation is replete
But there Iam in intellectualreminiscing "but" beingtheshortcut to defeat.
talkingwith my self inthe silentlanguage
of unfocusedthought babblinglikeababy Inmylanguage nothingis asobviousas
that shouldhavegoneout withthe bathwater. interdependence
with instability being transform'snature
Painful &justice? justice?! justice!!
R.H.Blyth says: being injustice prejudice preciousopinion
"Religion is a painful and disgusting stage asthe semanticequivalent
between the simplicity of early man of selfishness
and the enriched simplicity which is &the grammatic equivocalness
the aim of zen." ofa self inremiss
&theduty ofallunloving toseek akiss
Myselfsays whenfeelingfrisky fromonetrained waybeyondjustice
thatreligion is painfulbrutal&risky livingdying in
butan altogether necessarystagebetween dependence stability &unjudgedbliss.
childhoodbelief ina self tightlycaged
adultcondescention fullyenraged GrizzlyBear
&the childlikejoy ofeachperfectage. (Thanks A.E.Housman.)
A GrizzlyBear.
TopsyTurvy The GrizzlyBear.
Fullblown shading shaggyfallballoon My GrizzlyBear.
sucking sunsetspectrum makingmoonmaster
while borrowinglory fearing Sol'sreturn Mostly GrizzlyBear.
in maple'season of spectacle as ignition&burn. Only GrizzlyBear.
All GrizzlyBear.
A topsyturvy garden this dazzlingseason of rottingfruit ..................
earthsoil becomingatmosphere with arbor beingroot No parting.
&solarays duringcoolingdays beingsiphoned fromtheair Neither sweetnorsorrowful.
as water fromanaquifer Frenchkisses trunk's subterranean hair. Simply swirling neversettling
stardust
Andme a worm of surfacedepth slowing foran eternalmoment.
missing thesplendor ofthetheft ...................................
burrowing on my busyway WhenmyGrizzlyBear comes
blind tothemagic of thisgloriousday. my trainedself maybe sufficient
to unnoticethebeast.
Gone
Goneisgone Failingthat I simplyhope
though shelives it doesn'tplay withitsfood.
(wesay)
inmymemory. Bent
Backbent by memory.
Butcorpses neither Nearsighted from dreaming.
press withfirmhugs Passingmyfamily while barelybeingable
nor kiss withwarmlips. to makeout theirshoes.
Fishing
Motoringinto wind&sun as galaxiesdancing oneach bubblingwhitecrest
toward tressilbridge&finalrun as devils awash in eachtrough's sunkenchest
at catchingsomefish a quicksilverclimb thenafall to notime
&havingsomefun. withnows becomingstars in transform'snest.
Distracted bybeat of ripplingboat Windwavesun allasone
on choppycrests onlyhalf afloat with bouncingboat my burnedout desire.
with suninsky sunonlake Windwave settingsun allbutdone
sun ineachcrest twice ineachwake troughcrest as self in defenselessgyre.
sunsofgalaxies .........................
sunsofmotherearth Slowingunderbridge atlast tofish
troughsofdeath on mirrordusk beneath redorangesky
crestsofrebirth. forgetting alltruth
forgiving eachlie
Windwavesun allasone forall lieswithin deeptroughs tallcrests
in troughs&crests riverblessed. of windwavesun eternallyone.
Beatofboat beatofmyheart
lifegivingpulses neverapart All lying mirrorflat within mirrorbeing
being windwavesun thisnow allone as troughcrest blowingwind risingsun freeing.
WalkingDog
Sameroad (perhapsexpecting a handout?)
ferns tuliptrees blackberries without really acknowledgingthem.
oaks sourwoods hickories
QueenAnne'slace grasshoppers horseflies Herlife was scent&nose
pines livingdyingdead atbase of earthendam an aerosolcornucopia ofall
on eachshoulder wildgrowth towater&woods. oncepresent butnow longone perhaps
eveningfeeding deer
But trulydifferent beings nightstalking fox
tothe east no trees&bees just goosedecrees wanderingskunk
tothe west blackberrycaress as thornedgedforest. slinkingsnake
wildturkeysroosting
She felt thethorns wheneeding to poop or rabbits hunkeringdown.
yet being a discrete younglady seeking
privacyfordefecation. I'd throwthestick &she'dretrieve
But she'dpee at roadside in fullsight from ripplinglake or ripplingrasshill.
withoutcompunction. .........................................
Then we'dwalkhome
She'dhear geeseclamore together
&seethem approaching eachinourworld
in effortlessmotion alone.
SolarWind Alchemy?
Westside of morningdrive Alchemy no.
woods shadowyellow goldenlight Just ElementalNature's flow
&inbetween an ephemeralsight. guidedby a PeriodicTable
havingassigned a distinctivelabel
Wasitbuck ordoe orfawn tothe buildingblocks
or solarwind from daylightstar of alldeath life &nonliving.
becoming thisnow
ofnear fromfar. Therearenomysteries
inour fluidbeing.
Freeing Random encounters.
Freed butnofreedom Ruled results.
fromthecostof freeing.
Everynow its sameunique
Historyrepeating concocted in fluidmystique.
withoutanyone
havingread a page. Math
Self doingitsmath
Boundbutfree Subtraction&division
within ambition'sclutch. only.
Historyrepeating Lesself takingabath.
withall havingread Baptized in additon&multiplication
theirfill. neverever lonely.
Freedorbound ForAMoment
lostorfound Foramoment whilewalking throughdeepwoods
history notwithstanding birdsongs seemingtosing throughmyhead
our cellsuit tensing insectwhirr becoming myheart's pulsingbeat
our lesself sixthsensing breezesbecomingeachbreath complete.
thatjoy ismadeby
trainedindulgence. Dark shadowlight of poplar&pine
................. becomingdiffuse myeyes halfblind
No tick. No tock. thinking I'm glimpsing transform'sall
Nopage. Nosage. beyond mydefensive memorywall.
Depths Or wasit antlers ofa buck
Depthsare dim blendingwith barebutbudding branch
to sapieneyes. or caw&flap of blackestcrow
Depthsare dull in dark&devilish natureshow?
to sapienwits.
Depthsare empty Yet ifbeing belight &shadow beself
to sapienbrains perhaps inthatmoment of both&none
whothink mylesself shown in etherealglow
&think toomuch atone withwoods &feedingdoe.
atwill
thinkingtheirhope Woods
willast until Woods beingdeep woods beingdense
enlightenment mayfinally fill each fallentree a spikedfence
all dimdullempty but breakingout to meadowfair
with brightsharpfull. peace insky of horizonbare.
Less Seeingforever &seeingatonce
Lessdone inlove thanby mywill that Iam more when myself is less
&myworld somuchbetter forit. my deepdense woods
Beingstill allife becomingnil givingway towhere
notneeding myselfish effort. myway wouldnevereverdare
being unique&rare.
Nothingdone affirmingtheone
ofwhich allparts arecomposed. Simple
Flower petal þ allform Simple butfarfrom easy
the perfection of eachrose. stillingself withoutgetting queasy.
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Pineboughs overpath. Pineboughs overpath
NotneedingtovisitRome. atlast beginningtotouch
Patiencepayingoff. completingmystill.
Showme proofoflove Being risktaker Lastemberfading. Patiopond leaves
before I pay yourblackmail. bybeing a trist slaker Pullingplug on Christmaslights. floatingthrough my childhood dream
I won'tbe hostage. during honeymoon. Now just fullmoonglow. into lakeside stream.
Justhreememories Countlessmemories Justonememory
of morningnoon&midnight inthemiddle ofmylife of summerfallwinterspring
whenmyworld wasyoung. blurring then&when. each seasonlessbreath.
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Sneeze
Havingsneezedtwice A youngstudent
during a single meditationsession askhis elder
upongong ending sit what theysaid.
Master confronts student.
Master toldthestudent
Master says afew words. that he sneezedtwice during
silentmeditation.
Studentreplies.
Thestudent replied
Masterspeaks. "I didn'tsneeze."
Theybow. Studentleaves Master responded
nevertoreturn. "Eitherway farewell."
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Asking: Eitherway? Whatways?
Isn'tMaster beingcruel
expellingstudent
for involuntaryacts?
Answering: Either thesneeze didn'tcomefrom
student'self
or restraint did.
If theformer there'snothingmore
to teach.
If thelatter thestudent isn'tready
to learn.
AntiSeason Splashing
Basketball as antiseason: Splashingfromriver.
Shovelingsnow scrapingice Puddleforming.
off ourasphaltcourt.
Firstmake showering iceflake Puddle definedbyriver.
from crystalfrozenet. River definedbypuddle.
Dribblingwith
split fingertips. But it maybe a rainpuddle
Finding passinglane &I maynot beinlove.
throughblizzard.
Sliding onadime. Somuch for metaphor.
Sweatingice.
Caffeine
NoSoutherner canknow mygame Sugar cream caffeine
withoutknowing leadenedball&layerebody keepingmeawake
beforegrace of drywarmgym. during my mostselfishdream
of gods&prayers&lifeternal.
Checkers
Sittingaround pobelliedstove Coffee keepingmysensesfree
playingcheckers for mydesire for memory
in clutteredgarage of rustingtools in timefultimeless truthofme
teepeed weedwackers lawnmowers failing transform's eachthisnow
&chainsaws allindisrepair. aslove's forgottenvow.
Movebymove daybynight thoughtbysight BookShelved
sittingplaying jokingsaying Tobeshelved at eyelevel.
sameold sameold sameold. Tobeseen as worthy
.......................... even ifonly luckilyset
Sittinginoakshade in publicspace by dintofDewey &/or alphabet.
playingchess on weathered picnictable
safe from thenwhen'schase. Tobeshelved at anklelevel
asif eyelets ofmyshoes
LastRhyme couldsee iftheychoose
This shallbe mylastime. mystoryofme
This surely myfinalrhyme perhaps tobefound
before mydefenses overflowing by dintofbadknee
before myselfishness finallygoing. when singlepulpedtree
both bound&rotting
Letmylast ungainlyrhyme isas myselfishbeing
staywithyou notime notime both compound&clotting
leaving lessthan nomemory or two whilelimping to checkout
for allforsaken &thefew. myownself's plotting.
Stroking
Intake compression spark compression mixingwith exhaust
power exhaust thenembark somuchfuel beinglost
in whateverjourney youhad inmind as
mundanedrudgery or search&find. exhaustseeps with intakeopen
burntgas lost in blurringdin
Nofinerway than fourstrokengine eacheverystroke an aeorsol slurry
prehistorytransforming into our modernsin sending earthlovers to treehuggingfury.
of separation from home&neighborhood .....................................
"because wecandrive ofcourse weshould." Yeteven fourstrokes making earthlovers worry
....................... so damned ifyoudo &damned ifyoucare.
At home usingsimplemotor Ifyouchoose tocommute
twostrokes notfour (whybotherwithmore?) go freerange &pollute
in lawnmowers weedwackers &venerablechainsaw or stayclose toyouroot
lightweight&cheap butwith a fatalflaw in desire's pursuit.
CrouchingTiger
(The movie.)
Ofall love loveunlived a singledistraction
suffocated byfauxfilial devotion &deathbyhesitation
strangledby astringentduty to sword butnever swordwielder
lost toassumption of unattainableconsumation flying floating fleeing
to yearsof crimsonedgedsilver to desert'spurity
wielded in thoughtlessmovement of blackwhite goldensand
as heartlesspoetry of judgment with justiceonedge
trainedbeyondhesitation &an emptyspace of forgiveness
tobe ofservice toallother devoted totheduty of compassion
butnever totheother sonear. to other withineach &all within I.
This ofall love istragic. Neither remiss nor requited
............................ asif rememberedasdream
Muchofself havingbeen trainedaway neverjoined as parent a neverstiched seam
wheredoes swordend &swordwielder begin joining aswish in eternalgleam
&hero&villian begin&end of sword
in pooledblood of brothersinbattle of swordwielder
orin bloodlesskinship of butonekind of sucor.
&fatherless at that? ............
Dutyaslove tothose
Inevitable end of silveredgedcrimson thrall to separation.
wielded in heartlessmovement Loveasbeauty tothose
yielding in selflesspoetry where masters of celebration .
Borrowed AweStruck
I am a borrowedbreeze Awestruck by insight
a disembodiedbreath. wavesmovingwind
Ifonly I couldletgo lifedeath. sunshiningroots
myself havingsinned.
I am a borrowedbreath
a disembodiedbreeze. Jawstuck in midbite
Ifonly I couldletgo memories. desire spittingappetite
disgorging justhalf
I canbecome both breath&breeze of insanefight.
by beingbreathless in fatigue
with defenseslapsing &self onknees Strawsuck impolite
memory lettingo feltneed for intrigue. whenslurping lastofdrink.
Needing eachounce ofwant
NoEcho from bitterdregs of font.
Wheneachbreath
is noecho of death Rawluck inmyplight
then mylife willbestill to rootsun
having noway orwill. to wavewind
until allmygreed bedone.
Untilthen inhalingonly
fearing myfinal exhalation Whole
unknowing beyond overfilledself Wholemirror shattering
eachbreath is exaltation. becomingmanysmaller
yetwhole
Trying mirrors.
Tryingsohard. Failing so often.
Mypath becominglittered with legsofsnakes. Grinding eachall
Myway fullof falling myhead maysoften wholepieces
until I cantell thereal fromthefakes. transformingthem
into sandyseashore
Tryinglessnow failing lessoften. then walkingbarefooted
Snakes withoutlegs notsnakes atall withyou mylove
butroots diggingdeep graspingmycoffin neverseeking reflection as saviour.
promising lifeternal lifewithoutpall
to thosefew of lesself livingsans shoulds BirthDays
walking totallyblind withinwill ofthewoods. Celebratingbirthdays
butnot alldaysbetween.
Letmylifend asafail withoutpardon.
Letmestay rootbound reborn asan acorn. Asif a puzzlepiece isn't puzzlewhole.
Betteryet letmedecay as soil inagarden Asif assembling bemygoal.
of roses's softredolence with neverathorn. Asif beginning notanending.
Asif mybirth notadefending
of thatwhich shouldnever offend.
**WindShield** **SafetyBelt**
Why doesthewiper onthe passenger'side Now I know why itscalled a "safety"belt
always cleanclearerthan theone forme? mywife teaching a lesson trulyheartfelt
He's out lookingat scenery crossinghercleavage throughvalley oflout
but we'llcrash&die if I can'tsee. protectingherblouse from fastfoodfallout
of breakawaypitas overloadedpotatoes
And howdobugs knowhere tofly burgers&fries&liquidtomatos
to foulmyface? It juastain't right. alldrippings&dropping caughtbefore stain
Committing their gushysuicide she exitingcar withoutguilt withoutshame.
directly inmy lineofsight.
Buton thatfateful TexMex day
Butdon't I repeat don't useyourwipers I knew they'rebe allheck topay
toclean theproof of foulplay with seatbelt lacking sufficientwidth
foreven a washer of firehosepower tostop oozingfact with statisticalmyth.
shooting Windex lacedwith bleachspray
willsmear thebug toasize youfear Clutching pseudofoodfilled caloricontainer
couldcause a wreck hurtingsomeone dear. displacingmorespace thana spaghetti strainer
her BurritoSupreme was nothingbutsag
(And a smear's anout foryour insurancecompany her lasthope being an explodingairbag.
[thoughitseem odd]
RecklessIndiffeence notbeing an ActOfGod.) But nosuch (bad)luck shebeingstuck (butnotstruck)
with a smock that'll cause a shock
Andeven whilebeingtowed the passengerside toher decadeold underpowered clotheswasher
still aspure asa virginbride. stillcapable of someroll butlacking rock.
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