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My singledesire Lifeofharmony
a lifeofrhythm&rhyme with fugues fullofcounterpoint
danced in threefourth time. hummed in fourfourth time.
Choose eternalife Seekingimprovement. Takingfromthepoor
or blinksofeternity Realizing only change then endearingmyself as
from eachall thisnow. within transform'sgyre. a philanthropist.
Withall I'vebeentaught Withall I havelearned
is love my secondlanguage is separation myfate
withpain its grammar? fear myfirstlanguage?
Steepingonfrostheave. Rat arat a tat. Seeingreflection
Everystep afterthat Woodpecker withoutrhythm as secondlife in stillake.
becoming uphill. workingwoods nearby. Perfect butfortears.
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Library
Lost in library's stacksofstacks Leaving blackwhite&rarelyread of mildewed thought &dyingbreath. ministry of memory&truth
Hushedwhispers of oncesunlit excitement never didair breatheme morefully
nowgnarled unproductive fruitlesstrees never didgrass greetme so graciously
tobetransplanted as ornament? testament? never was a moonbeam justhat&nomore
as flower toexcite insectsofpollination? neverwas eachbreath lessthan
buzzing dutybidden simple lean alive&clean.
withdegrees for names ...........................
memories for imaginations. Knowing my bookoflife
isn't hidden indoors in dimlight
Lostwithin mutecarrels duringracous Fridaynights in blackink on wordense pages
&weekends of football. but withintransform's irreverentemple of now&now
Disdaining swirls of purposeless dance fertilenow fearsomenow
palaver of illspent hours nowofmystery nowofmisery
judgedthus by pedants in tomboftomes now ofall that wisdomlabels
of time in obeisance to pen&ink &lesserlives trytolove
touch an obsequious petofdistance. butneverlive withouthesitation
..................................... without guardianself living thenwhen
where reality livesonly &allatonce.
Signifiers Sponge
Weight&length Emptybody nameless dreamless
days&months saturatedcomplelety with&within eachnow
age IQ GPA unable tohold or beheld
bachelor master doctorate by anythingotherthan
salary seniority grace&beauty.
retirement
401k Grantedgrace immersedinbeauty
55 65 lostinpores of finiteternity
70 80 porous to ocean as transform'spotion
RIP. emptying throughlove intolove.
JellyFish
Oceandesiring form&sentience as love beinglove
fromwhich towitness itsown lesserself in hermaphroditic heresy.
(from the vainvantagepoint of self?) ....................
becoming jellyfish. You&I each a sackofocean
ifonly wecouldbe senseless as jellyfish
So fewcells somuchocean with aqueouseyes sans tearsofdesiring
yetableto tastelesself touchsun&moon with body'smass formless &defenseless
whilebeing wind indrift with lesself conspiring
&imminence as transendence as witness to ourbeing
in purityoflove.
OfCourse Tick
Ofcourse there's morningmist. From tallcoolgrass growing
Ofcourse onehorse is dappledgrey. to my warmblood knowing
Ofcourse whitefence is wellweatheredwood diggingin sucking sanguinefeast
withwooods reclaiming fencebeyond. draining hubris making mypride least.
Tinytick takingits toll.
Still&still still&yet I unbearably beginningtoforget
that toberemembered is theonly cliche Inconsequential inconvenience
with I becoming cloudedlight at breakofday. or silentreminder of transform'somnipotence?
Standing nearancient boxwood Powertodistract from sin as sin'showing
at edgeof lawn&garden. asif any&all candistract fromself.
Riding dappledhorse with spite&joy Enveloping eachsapien in fog of unknowing
asif myselfish silverspoon toy. beyondseparation foramoment.
Notdreaming now thedream of justhisnow An annoyanceofgrace
gallopingbareback with cook preparingbreakfast when totallyembraced.
tobe eaten in knotgarden under spreadingoaktree Feltfully inbrain's numbing
after finishingmyride through Williamsburgh. &self's rabidapplause.
LakeBeyond Thenextraction with vapor&tweezers.
Life justbeyond seeing. Then an unceremonious immolation.
Lakebottom becominglake.
Life'shistory drinkingfrom Why bother with
lover'smouth. nails&cross?
Lost in deepweeds IsTo
of aquafoodchain. Psychology isto lesself
Hunted with hook line as
baited with emptiness tigerhunt isto beingeaten by tiger.
wantingless tocatch
thanto becaught What I lmean is
inmouth no mean
of chain no is
of deepestweeds less I
&lessdesire &
in perfection of whosetoask
lakebottom becominglake a tigerprowling
justbeyond my selfishseeing. a tigergrowling
a tigerhowling
I Know FREEDOM.
When I know I paydouble.
When I don'tknow I paytriple. Enlightened
When I unknows I'm at gateofhell. Enlightened yet
gravity obtains
When I know myunknowing death remains
I'm insane&free ofcells atleast
towatch my self flounder in seaofme an eternalfeast
in landof I for phantomtime
on crossof I onits straightline
bleeding I intomyhead sure that all I've read
seeding I istruth toatee concerning living&dead
while less I grows but especially concerning me.
in soilofgarden
of courage And yet
to die. gravitasdisdains
the litteringofnames
Delirium labelingthebeast
Philosophy&physics both ending with endofday who longsince ceased
then sleep digesting shallow&deep of my intellect'splay. whenbecoming a mime
as I drankthewine
Ninetypounds onmylap thatraised thedead
my chocolatelab taking a nap. beyond word said
Halfmute yelping withspastic twitch inthe ether ofthefree
helping brownbitch digest herday in lesself's silent sea.
of retrievingsticks &giving baby's licks
eachact toher an elemental ballet. Unadorned
When transform'stree
Soitgoes eachmemory relived looksbetter tome
chosen in tranceofsleep. unadorned
Sapienorcanine whathappens in daytime thenperhaps my self
becomingfodder for midnightmeal. canbe unborne.
..................
Fact&fancy boy&dog When transforming tree
both chewingcud of thenasnow. looksbetter bare
Resolvingindream desire's bestscheme then I'll stopjudginglife
to reconstruct whatself hasfucked as rigged or fair.
while "makinglove" with
being'sdelirium. When snowlaced
as winter'sface
Ornaments then I'll let the lightsbehung
Hangingornaments on simplepinetree as anact loflove unneeding grace.
asif paintinglegs onasnake
feeling myneed tocelebrate NonAttachment
myfirst originalmistake. Leaf falling
nonattached to stembranch.
Twentyfifth of anymonth Seed falling
firstday of any year nonattached to flowerfruit.
same dawnsun same willbedone
ifonly my self canendure. Leaf decaying
becomingsoil.
Presentsgiven presentsreceived Seed growing
asif inlove there's give&take. becoming stembranch flowerfruit
Unknowingpine as desire'shrine &leaf &seed again again.
please strip&replant
for noheaven'sake. My selfishattachment
not tobeconfusedwith
loving nonattachment.
**DreadPleasure**
Watching TV onmy parent'sbed
an itch onmy PP causing pleasure&dread.
Bloodrushing to organ hardeningsame
beginning my adolescence of pleasure&shame.
Each scratch&stroke a holygrail
&beingyoung I couldnotfail
to summonswimmers of geneticode
causing thatmoment to explode.
Whoknew the sheervolume ofmygoo
would need a firstclass cleanupcrew
of kleenexfour or eightsections TP
absorbing allevidence ofthe essenceofme?
Then&therebeginning primordialawareness
that humanexistence is filledwithunfairness.
Another primalpleasure being labeled sin
needinghide myability to summonsemen.
**LawnMowing**
Nomoneydown nopaymentsdue Humbled by tootough tallestgrass
just sheddingsomepounds&shapingmypecs. returningtoprime ropegrab &jerk
Nostretch&bounce tillblack&white thenmaking a second thenthird futilepass
noneed topump nearhuge nonecks. until exercisingbecoming toomuch likework.
Simply lettinglawngrow midcalf high Pushingmower tillmyheartbeat's winging
then borrowingmyneighbor's mowingmachine with rhythm aerobics wouldpay toachieve.
(why should I rent or worseyet buy Pushinguntil breath's verilysinging
whentheprice ofacut is returningitclean?) until butnotduring my purgingheave.
Retapingthrottle fillingwithgas Weightlost strengthgained without a cent
primingthrice pullingonrope beingspent onacostly membershipwhim.
a pullagainst brutemotor'smass Walkingonlawn noback beingbent
sweatporingfaster than a virgin'shope. nodriving toembarrasment at odiferousgym.
Finallycranking but puttingsoslow Mywife nowhappy my selfesteem high
bladeonblade nearlybeing a draw. me sinkingbackinto my easychair
Before nextpspin enoughtime to regrow dreaming of fadedyouth with a sigh
lackingpower its nearfatalflaw. whilerunnningmyhand throughmy thinninghair.
Falling Candle
Falling rain as waterfall We each a lonecandle onsun's birthdaycake.
from river'source as sourceofall. Earthairfirewater mixed tobebaked.
Joininginpooling becoming asone Elementalflaming for enlightenment's sake.
eternal eachinstant inbeing oursun. Hydrogen's basicbeing beginningtoquake.
In transform'scycling as same&same And I asif I asif atlast awake
rivercloud fallingflow identical in name. burningfromwithin with gracelessache
Delayed unknowing transform hasnoheart tobreak
Leafpressed betweenpages being cell&celless &toreason opaque.
of mashed trunk&branch. ......................................
Flowerpressed until no hueorfragrance left We eachlonecandle onsun's birthdaycake
as warp transforms into weft. firewaterearthair aslove's daybreak.
Tohold tokeep in memory'sleep HerDreams
preservedbeyond mytears toweep. Evenherdreams are here&now
Delayed intime asif myprime yesterday'sfrustration lastnight's TV.
couldbe eternity'sthief.
Never nightmares of daydreams shattered
Asif tocompress is tobe blessed byshards sunkdeep into stylesofself.
while life's exploding in efflorescence. Herbeing tooreal in dailyzeal
Asif warp&weft neverconfess tobecome a fear duringsleep.
thierunion as tapestry of deference.
I ontheotherhand havinghoped&dreamed
To have&hold allbut myflower through each&every dayofnow
gonebefore my finalhour facingsinsleep as uglycreep
of selfinchase foran eternalface of then
remainingpressed as memory'strace. dippedark&distorted.
Love Is
Love is the unknowable Love is lifedeath's emptiedsight
for if known it'spossessed of night'slight or day's sunbright
&possession is poison. as transfrom's glance without a chance
to denounce
Love is the end of thenwhen &now or
its onlydimension being to enhance.
presence.
Love isnot twopuzzlepieces
Love knowsnothing fittingtogether perfectly.
love feelsnothing Love isnot a stainedglasswindow
forif intelligentorsentient tellingthestory of other.
itwouldbe languageoremotion
theformer thefacts of our frontalobes Love is a child's firstfingerpainting
thelatter thefluids of our limbicprobes twohands exploring color&form
each drowningother in self. caringless about hueorshape
whilecreating a messyperfection
If seen love is obscene. asif a rainbow in a blender.
If touched love is rape.
If felt love is a drug. Love is lakemistforming
If unseen untouched unfelt graduallyobscuring
love is a hug from elementalall myownreflection.
responding tothe snowhiteblackbird's
sirencall.
Argued
Body'sCellsuit arguedwithSelf oneday wouldnever survive
although theirdiscourse was morelikeplay. harshlife's meanfray."
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"Iam thefundamental" Then Lesself happened alongtheway
Body did bray. ¬beingone for a verylongstay
put Body&Self intheir (verysame)place
"Iam the Iam" with a message toassuage both
Selfdanced in ballet. faceless&faced:
"Withoutme yoursimple
reflex&instinct would "Reflex&instinct fad as tradition
doom sapienlife tobe eachall a path to separation's perdition.
nothingmorethan
death'sprey. Forgetting timeplace
forgiving formface
"But withoutme DearSelf become whatyou
yoursimple alwayswere &are
fads&traditions a firefly inan
invisiblejar."
WhyPretend? Compare&Contrast
Why pretend tobe anything otherthan green The endofeach chapter
during rainbowcool before heatedscene? "compare&contrast"
asif thiscommand myonly&last.
Why lie asif buttercup or tulip
when thoseofpalette won'tsurvive winter's nip Mybrain as self clutching to thepast
whileyou willrule between grass&blue being no compare&contrast enthusiast
blendingboth withlight throughyour fourseasonhue? with biochemicalsignals alreadyamassed
mixedwith repeaters then asserted fullblast.
Beproud needlestiffplant rootdeep barkhardy
while orchestrating eachseaon's rebirthingparty. Feedforward feedback feedingsofast
internallyeternally from thisclass to thatcaste
Beproud needleplant longlived&loved&cleanbreathgiving asif ideas from outerspace
forebearing wesapiens tooften unforgiving. asif otherthan I a grossdisgrace
ratherthan emerging fromour neuraldatabase.
GardenDoor .............................................
At gardendoor uninvited Compare&contrast but neverbe aghast
growing withoutknowing out or in that sameness isbound within memory's caste.
content living at footofpost Each sapienbrain seemingly vast
a pieceof at peacewith all its kin. yet amuck inpast resenting compare&contrast.
Some in forest some in meadow Mybrain my self sokeen on expression
some beingcultivated formally. whilereeling unknowing within
Each a perfection of transform'swhim inbreedingsuppression.
livingdying in nonconformity.
Land&Sea
Fence slowingstorm. Fence drippingmelt. Land&sea no dichotomy
Fence shadingorsunning eachseason'sday. just lendingahand with realilty
asto notbecomelost inthespacesbetween
Whywould I ever want in or out? letters of words of separation .
Howcould I ever thinktopray?
Sea ofcourse lovinglycoveringland
Control with its H2O &silicatesand.
Unfearinglifedeath Yetwithout thetears shedfrom myfears
my nearlastbreath nowater wouldcycle atall.
willbe atonce&whole.
Profiler
Beingfreed from self Notneedingtobe a profiler
with nothingtolose tosense a case of arrestedevelopment.
atlast I'll giveup Still fourteenyears old &unloved
control. &unsure ofthesource of hisdiscontent.
If I Say Money attractingsycophants
If I say that worshipping anythingsupernatural with loosechange scatteringeverywhere.
is cowarldywhining I maysound selfrighteous Becominganelephant to tinyants
whilebeing stonedtodeath withoutevenknowing they'rethere.
or atbest unheard bythose with stonears.
Struttingwithimpunity
If I suggest thatbelief is a symptomofself whilecrushinglife witheachstride.
that mustbedealtwith carefully Notknowing howtosearch for love
I'llbe ignoredbymost dismissedbysome whileliving in the abyss of pride.
&heardonly bythose whoalready unknow.
Dancing
But theremabybe a few Theycall MarchMadness
intrigued&unafraid. the BigDance.
Ifonly allgames wereplayed
Choiceless as littledances
Choiceless within elementalbeing withplayers who'vestrained astheytrained
chemistry&physics brooking to keeptime withintherhythm ofthegame
nobelief ¬step ontheirpartner'stoes
no faithope canenjoy thedance asitflows.
no meaningpurpose.
OneHundred
Strugglingtounderstand Onehundred orso molecules
unaware that life makesnodemand. hormones&neurotransmitters
controllingmybody.
Forest
Forest as metaphor formylife? Atleast onehundredesires
compelling my self toact
No nursery at their behest.
orchard
garden Onehundredone defenses
park from myparent'smemories &mine
boulevard causinghesitation aseachother
no neighborhoodyard fromoutside is savagelyvetted.
frontorback
justamess asif underattack SelfConsciousness
by the elementalbeing Teenagers atleast notpretending
I ignor asmy birthright. toknow whotheyare
struggling toconstruct the self
Sofew treetrunks straight theythink theyneed.
intheir searchforlight.
Adults waitingfor midlife
Somanybranches & a crisis
bent or broken. toadmit thathose teens didn'tknow
a damnthing
Forestfloor being or knewmorethan theyknew.
a leaflitterlittany
of past indignities Teenangst. Adultrighteousness.
as decomposers feast Neitherknowing wherefrom or why
onthe bestofme. each posturingdramatically
whilesuffering a reply.
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Sun upsetwithearth Sun upsetwithearth
for tiltingonitsaxis. for seasonal impotence.
Creatingstorming. Sending winterwinds.
Churchbells callingsouls. Frost tingling on face Raising malechildren
Clocktower countingeach hour. withwind pickingup its pace whothen lower thosenannies
Transform catdancing. of icedsnow falling. beingofcolor.
Breeze suspending snow Ratherthanfalling
with its gentle steadyblow. snowflakes decidingtodance
Yetstill fallingslow. during winterdusk.
Flame doesn'tlove moth Slave to slightestbreeze
it attracts then it destroys flame yielding both heat&light
muchas withmoney. through its wobblingnight.
Prose isalways true.
Poetry infusinglife
into drylanguage.
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Dragging
Watch'a dragging? Lookslike a bodybag. Don'tyouthink you
dishonor Bob
No body justafew remembrances withyourconfusion?
pictures keepsakes videogames
&somebooks Bob enjoyed. Well I hadtoleave thesack athome togoto
my daughter'splay. And theywouldn't letme in
Itsmyway of remembering him the ballpark towatch myboy's littleleaguetame
a waytokeephim alive unless I'd leavethesack at thegate.
a waytohonor hislife.
Soyoujust gaveup on remembering?
But yourbag's surelyincomplete. On honoring yourfriend?
Bob was muchmorethan your sackofartifices.
Lookout! That foulball almosthityou.
I begyourpardon. Weallgrieve Let'smove behindtheplate &beprotected
in differentways. And bytheway bythefence beforeweget a welt.
where'syoursack?
Whew. Good idea.
Itwasgetting prettybatteredup &somestuff And whatwerewe talkingabout?
wasfallingout. Atfirst I patched it buthen Somthingabout when you&me
begantogetconfused astowhether thestuff &Bob werefishingtogether?
I wasadding was Bob's ormine orperhaps yours.
LITERACY LANGUAGE
Christianity Language as vegomatic
Rightangle alphabet. slicerdicer
Printingpress. creating an alpha-bet from
Bible. omega.
Literacy.
Secularism. Liningupslivers asif a
Consumerism. splicer
creatingsentences
Islam asif makingsense of the
Flowingalphabet sensual.
unsuitable for printingpress.
Koran nevermassproduced. Betterto eatmyveggies
Widespreadliteracy notachieved. raw
Richinspirit leaninluxuries. whilehumming madeup
Secularism avoided nonsense.
&consumerism.
TheGrandHotel
It began asmerely a canopy Thus throughtime measured
nearanoasis inthedesert. in sedimentation&deposition
the inn grewinto whatbecame tobecalled
Travelers couldtakeshade TheGrandHotel
whilewatering theiranimals with increasingnumbers makingit
&refillingtheirvessels. their permanenthome.
As the ecosystemchanged Theowners aged
it grewinto a tent as lifedeathforms do
sufficient to blockwind &staff increased
&provide drywarmth astravelers oldfriends newfaces
to the wanderingfew. cametohear wellworn stories
&addtheirown dreamories.
Intime measuredby
tectonicmovement Stories becamelegends
an inn wasbuilt with carriedfrom hoteltohotel
travelerstaying for some chronicalsbecoming
daysatatime elaborateallegories.
warm dry &safe inan ...............
increasingltyforbidding Childrenwereborn &newfamilies
environment. made TheGrandHotel their elaborate
.......... sanctuary asthe agedowners
A familyfinally stayedon relaxed &let theirstaff do
permanently to maintain the mostofthework.
everenlarging inn.
Some areahotels hadproblems
Theywould exchange with inbreedingsuppression
stories with itinerants theirstories growingstale resulting in
manyofwhom wouldreturn diminishing clientele.
firstpassing east towest
then west to east. Others hadafreeflow of patrons
from near&far enriching storylines
The talestheyshared were &infusing the socialstructure
increasinglyadventurous with fresh elan.
becomingreplete with
drama&intrigue. But intime witheachnow measuredineons
maintenance needs
Andtheinnkeepers overwhelmed both owners&staff.
embellished&entwined
talesfrom distantlands. Slowlybutsurely naturebegan
to reclaim the brick&mortar structure
Theywouldregale their as elementsinvaded through
clients with recurringthemes brokenwindows&unhingedoors.
&colorfulcharacters.
Inthebitterend the originalbuilders
Theyeven created thehero legendaryinthier storytelling
whosedeeds bordered onthe reappeared toreturn the elements
supernatural &whoseemed &allthe flame&stardust theyhadborrowed
tohaveachieved eternalife. tobe reclaimed within eternaltransform's
gentlegyre.
Soon travelersflocked totheinn ......................................................................
in numbers necessitating a physical .......................
expansion. ............................
.................................... Flowing
Mybody flowing in life'sriver
never strugglingupstream
LineUp never swimmingtothebank
Only themost righteous never emerging tobuild
believer a settlement on dryland
could lineuptime in a neverconfusing a memory
straightline for lifeathand.
whilewhirling in
transform's If tossedinto a gyre
dervishdance. neverfighting for air
letting selfsink
MyBody whilebody floats
Mybody makesnochoices without effort or will.
eat
excrete Myself bulling my cellsuit
breathe asif it fullofsoul
stay warm&dry while wrapped in ectoderm
don't pretendtofly protecting mesoderm
fromgravity's whichis hosting endoderm
lovingembrace. with organsystems supporting
biochemicalcontrol
Playwithsex while my self weeps
but beserious while will&want seeps
about parenting. someofmy defense&desire
Huntgather or farm Cleanliness
but donoharm My veryGerman grandmother
to ourmother intent on keeping all pots&pans
whoprovides spotless
for ourneeds. scrubbedoff the tefloncoating
of our first fancyfryingpan.
Allelse is self tryingsohard
tochooseways tomakelife Soitgoes withmyambition
into strife. scrubbedclean
bymy grandmother.
TheEnd
Lyinginapool of himself NoPrinciples
hisname whisperedclose Unknowing itwasarat
noteven the slightest tailtwitch. itwasacat
an e.Coli
Gently closingthe eyes a gorilla
thatwouldneveropen again. a kangaroo
.................. &anoakleaf too.
Inthesame sunnyshallows
ofthe nearbystream And I withnoprinciples
where I taughtmyson toswim am I goodevil
myson&I taughtSam toswim flamefortune
if youcanteach ChristianMuslim
a webfooted lawyervoyeur
bouyantfurred teacherpreacher
ruddertailed airearth
lab waterfire
designed for aqueousurvival hurricanehummingbird
tosurvive in water. caviarturtle'sturd
whilealwaysbeing thisnow.
River&shore littered
withsticks retrieved Rinzai
again again &again. Rinzai ripping SupraNaturalBeing
.................... leaving languagedreason in bits&pieces
Hisbreathing shallow asif an alphabet couldassemble
hisbreath becoming ourbreath. anything otherthan truth
Pillow pressetohisface anything beyond truth.
tospeed hislast beatificbreath
breathofstream Soto providing a glimpse
breathofson&I intomy autobiographic memory
breath of tearstainedsigh. &reality beyond my defenses&desires.
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Those bubblingdancing duskwaters Combined intraining I canletgo muchofmyself
willsurelydance a dirge tonight. approaching elementalbeing.
**Grader?** **Acne**
I askedatcollege Starstudded faceless blacknightsky
&even at a dairyfarm. pocked with nearlyeternal light
&so my soeager facefull face
I hadheard of contests pocked as dateless matelessblight
in Wisconsin &knew asif
that notallcheeses onfire myface quenchedwithafork
areof equalquality. creating a redwhite bloodpussdork.
So I guess there No dreamofcream to fixmyface.
needstobe a cheesegrader. No topicaltreatment thatcoulderase
But howdidthey get mybattlefield of oozingporeconjunction
those abrasions ontheirhands? my frontaldisplay of dermal dysfunction.
Cheese grater yousay? Living best I can as starfillednight
embarassedby myself's birthright
OK. Nevermind. neverexpecting a smile'sinvite
toshare mylife with lessthanspite.
Naked Ringing
Sometimes I see Hearing a distantbell.
a small nakedtree Churchspire tolling?
havingshed both Clocktower knelling?
its branches&bark.
Theformer callingpenitents
Why do I feeltheneed to praiselifebeyond a few heartbeats.
to pushitdown Thelatter counting updown eachlife
asif I'm settingitfree? of afew heartbeats.
Realtor Onlythemost righteous or themost hopeless
Realtor'sign in deepwoods canthink it hears thatwhich cannotbeheard
knockedover now leafcovered. with desirewhirling in dervishdance
deafening them intheir selfishtrance
But nature can'thide the lot'sposting causingringing intheir emptyheads
onthe internet. &writhing intheir lovelesshearts.
Shecan't protect her perfection
from progress. Candle
Wax&wick - earth.
Active Flame - fire.
Deepbeneath stillstreaming Food for fire - air.
[be]lies breathlessactivity. Water - escapingflame.
An activelesself isnot Flameflickering
an aggitated lesself. in transform'sgyre
sufferingtostill
Enlightenment isnot with you&I
tranquil. candles.
Telepathy Proof
Using telepathy If love canbeproven
to encouragesand it wouldn't happen ina lovingway
inmytimer becauseproof needsdistance
tofall morequickly tosee tojudge
asif gravity a tool guaranteeingseparation.
formy impatience.
Thepulpit canneverbe a pew.
ElementalBeing
Fireisfed by fuelofEarth Thusthefour dancetogether
sustainedbyAir finallyforming Flesh&Blood
extinguishedbyWater. inthemystery of animatemud
with lifeimpelled by Fire'sheat
Waterisdrunk byEarth &eachcell breathingAir from
evaporatingintoAir bellowedbreath of lungs.
by heatof Fire.
Andso myflame for seventyears orso
Earth is Fireformed burning complexstardust
Waterquenched until cooling flicker&fail
&envelopedbyAir. finallyforegoing my lesself'sveil.
...........................
Air arosefrom FireyEarth No afterlife. Just thisnow forever.
&becameabundant after EarthAirFireWater
evaporation of water as ElementalBeing
provided oxygen forlife. in transform'sblur.
Flame Tipping
Progeny of our proximalstar Tippingmytimer
kin to our distantcousins sandbecoming
eightbillionflames two stillovals.
spreadacross bluegreen
firmament Is then mylife onhold
asif to mimic our asif itwere a timedevent
twinkling nightsky with transform atbay
asif I needn'tever die. &myself havingsay
atleast inthatmoment?
Butevenstars themselves
burnalltheirfuel Can I dobetter
eachceasing tobe earth's &liveontherun
darknightjewel creating tears
as do I succumb to finalcool &somesun?
earthtoearth as transform's
bluegreenrule. Settingmytimer
uprightagain
Attitude allowing thenwhen
Is changingourworld tobemy playpen
by changingmyattitude withme a slavetoself.
reallyachoice?
Intimacy
Or am I listening tomy From starkskeletons
self's proudvoice of winterwhitebeing
attributingmiracles tome? tothe intimacy of
forest blazingreen
ToBe mylove willbetrue
Tobe or not tobe indearth orabundance
thrall to Shakespeare asif mist of rainbow'shue.
Socrates
Jesus Stress
Buddha? Stress a serious sadsymptom of self
arisingfromdefense of same
Quoting as or fromthedesire to
respect help heal perfect
obeisance however altruistically.
pride
impotence? Still yourself's defense
&offense each.
Saywhatyouwill Becomevulnerable
inyourownvoice &amenable to outreach.
&willess
&let thechipsfall NoIrony
&fall &fall &fall. At thebeach
an advertisingbanner
BigBang trailingairplane
If our universe didn't(re)birth abovekite
in a BigBang trailingkid.
would Jesus havelived
&risen NoJob
fromthedead? Nojob toosimple
to complicate.
Whatgames weplay Nomemory toovivid
with physics&faith todull.
asif beginnings&endings
arereal withintransform's If I didn'tlovemyself
eternalgyre. soverymuch
I wouldn'trust
Imagine a balloon myrecollections.
within a balloon
within a balloon Raising
within a balloon Raisingarm to topshelf
within a balloon inpantry.
eachexpandingcontracting Her elbow tracingcurve
eternally. ofherbreast
leaveningmymiddaylust.
StringTheory
With allduerespect to astrophysics I'll setaside the strumming of the
this treatise will focus on the dulcimer
MusicOfTheSpheres. mandolin
lyre
We'llbegin with picking bowedstrings &
a practice called pizzicato. banjo
less pizzicato thanbrush
Youcanpick the strings ofthe of landscapepainter
vioin or invite to townsquare
viola tohear folkmusic.
cello
or But guitar's sweetsound emergingfrom
bass gentle stretch&release
&achieve an interestingsound of fingesr of lovinghands
or pickthestrings oftheharpsichord shaming the harpichord &all pizzicato
(good lord) as provenby any&all of Bach's transpose
when everyoneknows thosestrings from violin organ orother
shouldbehammered. creating an unimaginable repose
with
I admit I'm enamored withthepiano pizzicatobeing woodpeckingpluck
ivory beingcaressed by softfingers &bowing being raspingsaw on string dumbstruck comparedto
asif fingersthemselves strokingstrings guitarwaves being lover'stease
todance ina rangesupreme an enchantment
makingmyinstrument a performer'sdream. certaintoplease
eventhose stonedeaf
Butbowing that'swherestrings reallysing intheir chosen sensorydeprivation
from violinsoprano to throatycello &unknowing&sad
tothebeat of pulsingbass. separation.
EastWest Agile
The East isbest at thewisdom of peace My linguistallyagile family&clan memories
nurturingsubjects in harmony. assig behavioraleffects to causalagents
The West isbest at analysisofpieces whichbecome memyself&I.
respecting the integrityofobjects.
Evolution fleshingout the wisdomofthepast
Combinedjudiciously the result isa balance intheblackbox of ourbrain'storage
whichcould belabeled tobe retrieved unsullied by thatpast
ElementalBeing. asif memyself&I
couldlive inthnow.
Swirl ....................
The arrowoftime doesn'target mydeath Neurotransmitters&hormones
it swirls in transform'sgyre until I'm outofbreath. spitting&flowing
unknowing pastpresent
Notunlike the blownballoon when suddenlyreleased from mydesires.
dancing in randomdervish until itsemptiness is ceased.
Howcan I besilent inthecacophony
Mylife a singlestarling within amorphousmurmuration of chemicals
or a solitaryherring inits billionschool isolation. orbe beautiful
inthestruggle for survival?
Never
I gothere often Punctuation
but I never gethere. Period. Questionmark. Exclamationpoint.
Comma. Colon. Semicolon.
Asif I expectbetter
than aimlesswandering Apostrophe - tomakeit aboutme.
while notsearching Quotationmarks - tomakeit soundsmart.
for anything. Ellipsis - asif I hadmorewisdom athand.
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HolyWars We languagelovers inour soseriousattempts tobe
HolyWars areto belief punctilious!
as to clarify? ourprecious_meaning with
Anxiety isto truth punctuation
as while strutting ourlinguisticacumen as
EarthAirFireWater pundits
areto alltooften endingup
reality. puncturing
theveryidea we (weretryingto)
Believing SuperNatural present
willsaveus. resulting in a [taste or smell] that's
Hoping reason cansaveus. pungent
&oftencauses pain/loss aswe
Nonbelieving withconfidence punish
there'snothing tosave. oureader's intent withthought
perfection.
ChooseWisely
Greatfaith in belief Better to lightenup &create a
becomingHolywars. "pun"
Gnosticknowing &let thereader havesome
becoming selfighteousness. fun
Introspection withourprecious
introducing my self to me. wisdom...
Overthinkin
causinganxiety. TurningAroundInFreshSnow
Simpleseeing First forward&right. Then backward&left.
revealingreality. Then forwardright backleft.
Then right&gone leaving a pristinemandala
toenjoy untilthethaw.
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After morningthaw White pickupsticks trunks
only longfallen treetrunks crosshatching brownforestfloor
whitelining wood'sfloor. after morningthaw.
Thisbreath then thisbreath Uncompromising. Separate churchstate
as I struggle throughmylife Thusrich unfit togovern. untilmoney fusesfate
until breathlesspeace. Alwaysonthetake. ordaining self'schurch.
Fun at the themepark. Selfasmemory. Correctingrammar
Time'sarrow on teacupride MindasSupernatural. so I won'tever bewrong
exitingdizzy. Neither a goodchoice. oratall feeloved.
Drunkonselfishness Whenlesself sober
tryingtowalk a straightline. walkingwithoutawobble
Notfooling the cop. duringanearthquake.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
PlagueFlea
A plagueflea leapt fromitsrat The plagueflea astounded fledthat cacophoneyofsin
openneditsmouth &disgorged knowingitsvomit tobe ambrosia compared to
a universofdeath. a kiss fromthis malignant newparasite
who throughseparation wascreating
NowGod beingan alchemist of uniqueabilities that from this
concoctedabrew to undo thepest's nastyeffects. thenwhen from now
knowledge from wisdom
Thebrew broughtlife tothat universeofdeath truth from reality
nowbathed in billionsofsuns lifedeath from transform
&fraught with a headybatch of playthings &
tokeep the youngworld content. self from love
intheir madchase tobe
Then He left confident that inchoatebeing &be omniscient
wouldbe stimulatedenough tocook itsownpotions &be omnipotent
havingbeensupplied themakings. &be eternal.
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Anditwasgood thisuniverse of life&death The plagueflea wept
cyclingstars grandtectonicticking pulsingseas unknowing inits unthinking selflessbeing
allcreating myriadmazes within mutemaster. that the burgeoningsapiens disgorging self as sin
............................................. (thinking &thinkingwaytoomuch that
Soon the teemingsolution of mindlessmolecules eachone &another are distinct&separate)
conjured tinycontainers of chemicalprocesses hadcreated a diseased disharmony
sparked to live&die in His eternalight. doomingthem foreverfornever
toclimb eachrung of thumb&tongue
Life&death flourished whoseladder is proppedagainst
(inacomplexity astounding evenGod) loquacious heavenitself &angled
untilthat trillionstarheaven founditsmatch precariously nearvertical
in trillions of electrochemical interconnections inauniverse of
housed in threepounds of cells horizontal lifedeath
protectedbybone & in notime &
bypride. dimensionless lesself.
..........................
The plagueflea laughed while the thinkingcreatures Soitbegan "I think therefore I am"
climbing eachrung of thumb&tongue a puddle dreamingitself an ocean
delighted intheirworld of language&selfishness a millipede wishingitself a snake
beforediscovering their selfs trapped in a a karyokesinger hopingtobecome a star
minefield mimefield mindfield inauniverse of dancingstardust
of &
silent selfish explosive inexorable transform's
regressionanalysis eternal love.
discovering intheir bright&shiney selfs ....................................
an inner privateplayground inwhich each one Fromsimple plagueflea alone&guarded couldbecome allweknow &allwesee
theirown masterslave. of self lesself love.
Who TimeKeeping
Who I am isno illusion Sundail sandial
atleast tome. hourglass sunglasses
alltrying tokeepme
Who I am ismy privatereality fromfeeling&seeing
whetherornot shared by you. the reality of notime.
Yet&still I livewith a few Sundial shaded.
whoindulge mydelusion Sandial swirling.
thus helpingmesurvive Hourglass shattered.
inan indifferent &oftenhostile Sunglasses unneeded.
world.
There areno clocks
Take inthe gyres withinthestream
Howlong doesit take of transform'sreality.
a memory toform
&howlong doesit last? MostBeautiful
Your mostbeautiful face
And isthat a question a melodyflowing a rhythmgrowing
anyone wouldask enveloping allwhocanhear
whiledistracted inviting allwhowish theycouldsee.
within the wealth
of thisnow? Graceme mylove withyour
everlasting smile
Needles evenif causingme tobecome
How didthe pineneedles anexhile
havingrownthrough lastnight's snow fromtheworld of allothers.
know that the puffballs it's gentlyholding
nochild willeverthrow Meaning
butcanmake an adult a childagain Whenwillmeaning end
whenshaking thebranch &thisnow begin?
asif a blow.
Whenwillpurpose beforgot
Admitting allowingme to dervishdance?
By tryingtofree myself
from worldlyattachments Whenwill time'sarrow
I'm implying a separation fail itstarget
that neverexisted. fallinglimp into oceanall?
Bettertostop tossing Capitalism
inmy dreamingsleep Havingbecome filthyrich
&embrace the lovingdeep. unscrupulously
unworthy of politicalpower.
PostCard
Isthat a postcard Buyingvotes tobecome elected
or a picture I took? togovern asif todevour.
Sowhat. A memory We separate churchfromstate
is a memory. butnot fromthechurch
ofthe allmighty dollarbill
Need forwhich wesuffer the ignominiousfate
Needtogreed of floundering
the reasonableconclusion in corruption's swill.
to selfdefense. .......................
Capitalism v. democracy
Aggregation as adaptation a war doomedtobewon
inaworld of more&more. bythe dirtiestfighters.
Aggregation as demonstration BeatThat
that I've wonthewar I nevermiss a meal.
walling my self in separation I neversleep coldorwet.
winning lifeternal in isolation. I have a lovingfamily.
I have littleto defendordesire.
Helix
Damn doublehelix Beat that.
whymust I share?
HowDareYou
Whymust I wastemytime Howdareyou accuse me
beingbipolar sufferingtwoparents of "hammering" the strings
when I couldbe doingood ofmypiano.
oratleast accumulatingoods?
I caresstheivory
Cloning. That'stheticket. mytouch being transmitted
Mini-me's raisedbyrobots tothestrings
programmed by your'struly with lovingintent.
creating trulyrterrifying
replicants. Thenthegentlewaift
of vibration
Glass to yourear
Happiness istheglass. from myheart.
Wellbeing isthebeverage.
Love isin the libation. Inventory
Whyam I notallowed toremember
Rhythms allthat I've storedaway?
Thefurther from nature'srhythms
themore I need time'sarrow Needingtoscour attic basement shed
to pointout theway. toavoid visitingWalmart everyday.
FlatEarth
Havinglivedonly in midIndiana Whatworld canbeknown
whatnonsense the chatter without tectonicfury
of mountains&valleys uplifting arching
snowcappedpeaks lavaflowing
verdant duskridges recreatingearth in each briefeon
flamingdawn promontaries of genesisforever
as romance&intrigue of exodusfornever
emptying&filling senses. armageddon&apocalypse
now&now&again&again.
Worlds of birdflights tracing earthrise
birdflocks between&within No anthill or gopherburrow
updrafts from weatheredgranitewalls but allbeginning eternalbeginning
with clouds pinecaptured then ridgereleased intheslope inthehaze inthescope intheglaze
with cloudshadowsrippling across gentleslopes sunasearth as sunwithin earth poringfromearth
onajourney toeverywhere sneeringatwind&rain&all erosion's peurileforces
inajourney tonowhere. whilebuilding building building.
...........................
Flatlander flatearther Let flatland&shallowsea
cornbirther of railroads be the stationary of transform's
crawlingflat through tasseled sunwaving thankyou note
with heartbeatblood flowingflat tothe rollingrolicking wildlywarpedsurface
through uninspired silospired flatland. ofoursphere ourearth ourhome.
ElementalBeing Kids
Inall the universe our specialFire Whenyourkids don'tdo whatyousay
millionsofmiles distant yetmolten within. don'tbedismayed
Inall the universe ourcommongyre ratherbeafraid
motion as separation burninginsin. ofthemessage they're tooclearlyhearing.
Ofall the planets ourbreath of freshAir When yourkids don'tseem
surroundingsustaining ourbeing. tocare howyoubehave
Ofall the planets only ours wouldare don'tlethem thinkyou a heartlessknave
nurturethose of unnaturalseeing. totheideal
youare tothem.
If oursurface wereotherthan Water
tocool&become our cellularsustainer Riding
we'dbecome a temporary desicatingsquatter Riding arrowoftime
instead ofa permanent aqueouscontainer. asif mylife a straightline.
Inalltheuniverse ourplanet Earth Clingingto purposemeaning
with sapienstruggling withself's leadingalife of dreaming
righteousbirth. while transform'srhythm rules
in randomdervishdancing.
**Feigning** **Physics**
If dogshadthumbs Screwsfalling
they'd ruleourplanet on concretesurface
feigningloyalty unfollowing immutable physicalaws
gaingtrust by spreadingtoplaces
while lettingusthink we ranit. whileleaving no traces.
They'dopen jars&doors&cars Droppingpill
&havetheirway with bunnies&cats. on bathroomfloor?
Forget it.
They'd thumb a ride
&thumbsup in pride **NoWay**
whilethey learntotext Noway tocontain a teen's selfrightousness
ontheir cellphones. oran eggsaladsandwich.
Their ablilties Each willspillover the firmestcrust
would runthegamut or bulge&breakthrough the softheart
from strumming a banjo of a parent ora pieceofbread.
to becoming a golfpro
&beatingme atmyown Betterto slice&spread&eat
game. asif a freerangechicken
(thesandwich not theteen).
PuddlePuppy Ruled
Waterbug watersprite Random but ruled. A
puddlepuppy's muddydelight. Chaotic but ruled. basketball
Snoothrust creating droolingdisgust Lacking meaningpurpose game.
brownwater beneath mudbeak. within its rules.
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Then downdirtroad to drierprey Self servingself
chasingbrownstill to yellowflutter. in desiring Scanning
Landinglost tillpup's highgrass crisscross that memoriesofme boxscore.
flushingprey in histrionicplay. survive.
....................
Then flutteresumed in chaseassumed Reality unruling Nochoke. Noswallow.
&chaseitbe with insect'sflee selflessly. Nogoat. Nogloat.
with bodaciouspup in spiritedglee.
File
But dirtydip&racousrip File mustbe harder
consumingcanine's energyblip. than fingernail.
Legs givingway fatigue holdingsway
mightyhunter ending her franticfray. Stillness must assimilate
chaosofself.
Holding
Myfriends toldme shewas holdingmeback OnlyAfter
whileitbecame an obviousfact Onlyafter the drone
shewas holdingthestring ofthe passenger jet inpassing
tomy heliumfilledhead has diminished to nearlystill
&without her I'd drop likelead. can I hear the housebuildingclamor
from justover the nearbyhill.
Survive - 1
Earth's longjourney from originalfire. Soitis with heaven&earth
Sapien's longjourney from singlecell cacophony of gods&errors
to self&selfishness defense&desire drowningout the suffering
frombare unknowing to eachprivatehell. of my nextdoor neighbors.
Survive delicate seacreature intrees. TForm
Survive delicate treecreature onland. Transform being a blendof
Survive sapien lostinmemories impermanence
whileruled by desire's&defense's demand. &
thermocynamics
Each small sapiensun an organic envelope a boundlessphere of dervishdancers
protecting thebeing it remembers. a groundlessmear of tornadicgyres.
Each smallsun igniting eternal
while burningfrozen leavingnoembers. Noplace for time.
............................ Notime for place
Tryingtosurvive while reputationrules forlessthan
against allother as selfabsorbedfools. stardust&flame.
Survive - 2 Talk
From simplylivingon&remainingalive Talkalittle aboutlove
inaworld of Darwinianevolution while intheforest
to survivorship withall rights&priviledges or listeningtomusic.
creatingforself the finalsolution.
Then stoptalking
Collecting cannedfoods&shotgunshells turnoff yourmusic
whileawaiting apocalyptic bells. closeyoureyes
Becoming quasiliving selfishcyst. &letlove &allother
Becoming a certified survivalist. besilent.
NeitherSummerNorWinter
Being neithersummer norwinter Smokestackspewing what hislungs witheld
a seemingly senseless seasonlesstime. drainpipe oozing into mudrustmoat.
Riverflowing neithereast norwest Draggingoods to apparentneeds
closest togreen a single rustpine. bargesloaded tillbarelyafloat.
Pine standingnear rustingbarges Hisbeing so narrowed by selfdefense
lining graybarked brownbranching banks selfish thankless lifeless deathless
carryingcoal tocold steelstructures livinginson&grandson too
girdingloins of flatriverflanks. eachdying eachday generationsaway.
Losinglight gainingnight Lifeshared inyouth again inaging
coldsteelskelton becomingsky tooslow tosee a constantchange.
sparkling with celestialmight Speedboatsummers on softstillriver
chemicalfirmament industrialsigh. stillflowing across a widerange
Seenfromacross seamlessriver thanyouth couldfeel or understand.
caughtbetween rocks&chainlinkfence Fishing skiing riverwide
river still flat dead knowinglength in death'sdreams only
between twoshores&presentense. knowinglife onlyfrom sidetoside.
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Between beingfather beingson Emptybarges bound to baregraybanks
between soulfullsummer wintersodeep procession only to fleetingcar.
between breakingdawn brokendusk Racingriver in summer'sheat
between awakeningnow or foreverasleep. laughingatcurrent in slowdefeat.
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Winter'sride on summeroad Now emptiedson &being crossing
river as bare as sky&mind. nowthatfather's dead&gone.
No summervacation this leanMarchwind Bridginglove bridginghate
marble ahead fleshblood behind. onelastime his river'song.
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Traveling towatch cancergrow Asif I couldmanage my memory
southtonorth lungtobrain ofwhat hemeant to mother&me
fasterthan oxidizingingbarge a brokenbeing suffering his kin
slowerthan foulbrownriver's refrain. unable to unhear hisfather'sdin.
Unspeakable Perfect
Alltruth is unspeakable Objectiveperfection
if spoken becomingalie bane of SupraNaturalBeing
justaschildren needtheirwants suggesting meaningpurpose
&wanting startocry. &a target formy arrowoftime
with realitybeing aimlesschaos.
Needingtruth tofeed my self
forage grown in fieldsof facts. Subjectiveperfection
Pickingchoosing this&that bane of parenting.
providing thatwhich mybody lacks. Two flawedbeings beingperfection
totheiroffspring.
An armoredcoat of sanctity
&armaments of acridword Dealingwith the former
protectingus from otherbeings a task formy frontalobes.
from sunrisesongs&sunsetbirds. Dealingwith the latter
a task formy limbicswamp.
Guarding with streams of garble .............................
winning with loudestcry Our diningroom waslittered
livingsunken bowed&beaten withtheirtrophies
self'sfinaltruth a tearfulsigh. golf tennis bowling.
I neverwon a trophy.
Attack
Aerialattack onitsback Momcorrected all grammaticerrors
by sky's icydew. &exacted eachword tofitperfectly.
Accuracybeing moreimportant thanlove.
Hollybushleaf
greenspiked&spreading Oris accuracy correctness perfection
becomingfilled simply Germanlove?
with winter'sgrace ........................
creating heartofwhite How wasthat poorchild raised?
onits shineyface.
Disdain
GoldFish Hewasmyfather.
Mylife between goldfish&elephant Hewasweak.
to forgetmycares but rememberyou.
Needingtoknow wheretosearch Notwithstanding
for the precious &thefew. bipolarchemistry
&palor of polarparenting
Livinginabowl swimming withregret I didn'tknow toforgive
wishing I couldwill what tohold what tolet. I couldneverever forget.
I'd rathersearchplains for myburialsite
thancontinue tofight my memory'smight. Andso I go
bestdefense neveroffense
Middle but tooften silentdisdain.
Be themiddle ofthetowel
calledtoduty onlynow&again Light&Dark
usuallyonly aspartof wholebodydrying Stairwaylight creating a
after a showerorbath thenorwhen. narrow rayofday into ourbedroom
deepenough to undress
Eachend dangling being ravagedaily directenought to notwakeher.
for rubbing hand&face.
Wipingincessantly until&beyond Changed. Turningoff the
absorbance compromised stairwaylight.
loftlost Theway tobed beingclear
becoming a thinthread disgrace. throughthedark.
Then whenfrayed &finallytossed Rustled
an unceremoniousnend after Leaves I rustled yesterday
somuchattack. nowlying flat&still.
Bettertohavelived in contouredcomfort I guess gravity beingjealous
curvedgently overtherack. hadthe finalsay.
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Saladays sexdrive Profiling my self. My arrowoftime
or substance duringeachcourse? Someone else couldobetter becoming dervishdancer's
Choosewisely youngman. being free&clear. spinningectasy.
Of earth'smiracles Not towin eachgame
waterfalling fromthesky but totrain tobecome a
filling its lifeforms. better dance partner.
Takingdogforwalk Sink fullofdishes. Socks&underwear
lovingtraining her restraint. Then oursink fullofsoapsuds. spendingallday stuffedindrawer
Passing shortleashed pets. Then sink clean&dry. beggingtobepicked.
Whiletrainingmypet Ephemeralbreeze.
puppylearns whistle islove. Believingmymemories.
Aged nowstruggling. Suddengust &gone.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
EnglishPatient
(A hearalded movie.)
Britain'spatience for foreigndominion Basecreature of self
findingdesert as fruitful as adulterousex unfeeling unfallen
seeingromance asif sand irritatingoysters muchmore ungainly than ungodly
creatingpearls disguisingparasites. seeingtheirsuffering mirrored asmine
reactingwithindignation.
Parasitesofsand crawling nacrefree
becoming scorpions standing as priest to thief Vile mostvile creature of self
whowould holdholy alldesires of me bearingonly bountyofeggs of fly
over oceansofsand eonsoftime maggoteaten rotting reekingoffspring
sacrificingallother inlove's sweetname of sexlove of selflove
in scent of sex&self's foulstench. ofall that'sloveless.
............................... .......................
Basecreature of nose Bloatedwithgasses of lonelystarvation
allthinking allknowing distended bytheonly possiblepregnancy
muchmore unsensing that insensitive ofme tome byme throughme
smellingonly me aworld of thee Lost in dessication's sand&caves
acting in perfectselfrighteousness. &infinitesea ofme ofme ofme.
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For mypassion'sfulfillment I sacrifice whoever
whilefeasting on carrion of ourdualcorpse.
AfterLife Stalks
Afterlife asan afterparty Grasstalks protruding
that mightnotbe asgood astheparty. through freshsnow
promising safepassage
And anyway I'm tired spoiling winter's nefariousplot
from allthedancing tocover its compact crystalbeing
I'vealreadydone. beneath a coldwhitepall
thatcouldcause my slip&fall.
Prints
Deerprints in freshsnow Then&Now
closetogether then farapart Then is muchtoonice to leave
startled astheygo? &now is suchabore.
Wasitme or theirjoy Then becoming desire'sperfection
insimply beingfree? now suffering other'sinfection.
USSNorthCarolina
Seagulls eating peelingskin To young flamesof life come factsof death
offback of sunburned behemoth'sbreadth lightinglory of redwhite&blue.
having survivedbattles as partof ourwin Black&white rightinwar against certainwrong
worriednow of drydockdeath. gray yetunchallenged as profit'song.
Walkingweathered woodendeck Gentlegiants of smoothgrayskin
of puckeredplanks pulling rustingnails. livinginpeace dyingasmemory
Drinkingourdrink eatingourchips livinginmuseums feedingchildren'sfancy
searching eachlevel leaningover steelrails. becoming eachgrandpa's whalingwarstory.
Each leviathan doomed byour damnedtouch To youngflames of life'sdeath comefacts of death'slife
livingdying tofeed our manifestdestiny warrior&whaleboth bound to bloodredspill.
indistinction indefense of freedom'slife Wepredators indefense &overweeningwant
toextinction slicedclean by whaler'sknife. destroyingconsuming farbeyond ourfill.
Bristingwitharmament chokingwithchildren All seeminglydoomed byour damnedtouch
learning of its heroism asdoer of proudeeds. trappedbelowdecks behindbaleen foodscreen.
Schoolchildren chewingchips fatteningondreams Crushingoutlife while searchingforlight
with our greatship sighing atwhat itfeeds. teachingourchildren whilemuting ourscream.
FragileFlame
Fragileflame so easilyextinguished Water&flame what a dervishdance of lifedeath
Firebeing the mostfundamental cooling as heatlost in vaporization
yet ephemeral Element. suffocation via displacementofoxygen
starvation by dilutionof fuel.
NeedingAir or sufferingsuffocation
brutally aswith a blanket Earthasfuel suntrapped in chembonds of food.
or with a gentlebreath. Heat released on demand.
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Naturaldeath by
suffocation drowning starving
yet selfish&foolish sapiens
devisingnew ways tosnuff
our fragileflame.
Praise Tugging
Greenofpine duringbleak winterdays Tugging at a single
deservingmorethan passingpraise filamentousroot
reminding thatbare is onlyaphase unraveling entireforest
beforebudding of succulent undergrowthmaze. asif a faintmemory
couldunravel thewhole
Needlesofpine filtering sun'shine ofmyself.
creatingpatterns as light&shadow entwine
enhancing an otherwise gazebenign Thetrees won'tmiss
asif lifedeathdefined bycontrast notcombine thosetinytendrils
&I canchose tolive in whilebeingenriched by
starkorhaze. its palmfingers reach.
Sober Ifonly myancestry
Isn't it aboutime to soberup &mymemory ofthem
havingdrunk toomanydrafts spreadsowide
of self? couldbe weft tomy selfish
warp.
Vomithepoison thensearchfor
thepotion TwoWays
thatcanreliever thepain of Mostofmylife I livedinaworld
rehab. thatcouldbeunderstood
in twowaysonly
Burdens belief inanorder from without
I carrymymother as perfection belief inanorder from within.
afraidtoadmit mymistakes.
Havingbeendisabused whileyoung
I carrymyfather as manliness of faith inthe SuperNatural
afraid to haveyouthink substituting certaintyoforder in TheAll
you'retougher thanme. asthe SupraNatural.
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First learn whoyouare. Thenfinding littleorder in transform'sgyre
Then traintolive with thatself. starting with nobeginning &its fire
creating a planet ruledbutrandom.
WhyCare?
If transform is reality A little physics&chem thenbegin the mayhem
&time a convenient lie of a thirdway to readreality.
what of meaningpurpose
&theorder theyimply? Defend&Feed
I wasn'there my firstfiveyears.
Whycareabout then I couldn'tdefend. I couldn'tfeed.
whyplanfor when I consumed whatwasthere
ifyoucan'tcounton withnothing to compare.
again&again?
Solittlepast. A future sovast.
Wednesday Howcould I possiblyknow
Shelookedlike Wednesday without a self for knowing
humpday while lackingmemory
beginningdrearily endingwithoptimism withmyparentsfree tofeedme
asif the weekend wereathand their wellworn
or atleast littany?
the daybeforeFriday
butnotquite. Defenseless. Pastfuture tenseless
yet notnearlysenseless
Atbest shemayrise to a Thursday tothe fillintheblank test
&a slipperyslope to hope. I mustpass.
MyHeart
(A song by OysteinSevag.)
Foam of gentlycurlingwave of wavesbarelybreaking
leavingthecurveofsea atpeace of whitebubblingfoam
gentlypulsing with the patienceofpower of allife's beginning
even longafter the bubblescease. &our finalhome.
....................
Gentlesea incessantsea Allhearts are ofthe pulsingsea
movedbysun&moon nomore each heartbeat&breath bathedbyocean
wellingdeep&wellingmute each life'slove drowning in saltsea motion
tillsilentwave overwhelms sandshore. of gentle push&pull&pulse
of sun&moon&seasons so soon
Gentlebreeze of kite&whitecap of heat&heaving &wellinglive
bubblesinvading each sandcastlemoat. of longing&lonley toodeep&toolarge
Soft sea singing with songsofshhh topray or payfor
sandbabiesfloating in dreamlandboat. to singto or singfor
to weepfor salt tearsfor
A gentlesea that neverstops foreverpulsing
with cycledsun or season's scene myheartoflove
hidingherpower welling swelling incessantsuccor
deep&soft silent&keen. itsheartoflove
the powerfulpowerless
Gentlesea incessantsea conceivingredeeming
of powerbeyond the powerofpulse forgivingforgetting
life wellingently deeperthatdeath allwaysnow alwaysnew
pusing a pulse of undyingbreath thisliving pulsing seaofme
thisloving surging seaofyou.
Surely Mass&Memory
Surely thisislove Attractingme with its
bringingthehamper massofcertainty.
fromthe laundryroom Holdingme with the
tomystudy inertiaofmemory.
filledwithfleece
freshfrom the dryer Unabletodoubt.
invitingme toplunge Unwillingtobreakfree.
my stillwinterchilledhands
intothewarmth. Inviting
Wearingarmor.
(Andplease don'tcallme Carryingsword.
Shirley.) Invitingattack.
**Transpose** **Sensitive**
I can'transpose from keytokey. Being highlysensitive to LittleBill's size
I canbarely pos atall. I'd always pee againstheside of bowlorurinal
justincase my lengthorgirth mightbexposed
Evenif I couldchangemusic bythesound
from A to E I'dprobably ofmy splashingflow.
neverfind the properlock.
**Enjoy**
**Dog** Mysocks doso enjoy the clothesdryer.
Somecomplain that thedog
betweentheirlegs Having workedapart or livedstrangled
is a distraction. inadrawer sharedwithundies
tumblingincamaraderie
I ontheotherhand together&apart atonce inwarmth
believeit tobe a asif ona themeparkride insummer
faithful&loving pet. is quitesimply bliss.
BlackBeauty
BlackBeauty shewas &alwayswillbe A giant stuffedog storedindriver's frontseat
sitting inacoma under Poplartree withears on steeringwheel insteadof frontfeet
havingbecome inage a storageshed catchingeyes ofourneighbors who'dglance iftheydare
a usefulend forthelife shehad led. tosee raghound's copilot a huge pandabear.
DodgeColt shewasborn runningfree as springbreeze At heirtoes weretools disheveled&stored
through longhotsummers &winterfreeze wrench ongaspedal keepingitfloored
until shegaveup her getup &going&all as strawdreams flewfaster thantheir strawmanraces
as coldrainsbegan inthat nowfatefulfall. &you'dswear thereweresmiles ontheir buttoneyedfaces.
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First a lastfever with deliriousdreaming Hatchbackbristling with chainsaw twomauls
thathat gasenginedauto wasrunning onsteam. a weedeater threerakes twobald basketballs
Then a steadyunyielding lubricantleak one gasoilmix onecan of gasplain
makingeach metalmovement a frictionalcreak. &sixpairsofgloves toprevent blisterpain.
......................................
Finally nomovement beyondacoast Ouroldcar satstill being coveredbyleaves
asour vaporboundturkey begantoroast. asour next youngoldusedcar lookedon&grieved
No spryoungcold no blackbeautybeast ata cohortincoma inits usefulsweetend
justan autoimmobile still raintight atleast. as camouflagedmosaic in redyellow blackblend.
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Search Opposite
Where are thewords Other isnot the opposite of self
inmy wordsearch? forif itwere whatof lesself?
They're herethere Self&other areon the sameside ofthecoin
rightinfrontofme withthe otherside blank
but I can'tseethem &lesself doingtheflipping.
forthe chaos of
letters. Thus you&I canbeinlove
havingneverbeen opposites
Forest&trees. if wecantrain toremainstill
Treesasforest. duringtheflipping
Nowords withoutletters. unknowingtransform
Yet letters withoutwords. willdeliver a verdict
eachofus can misunderstand
Howtobuildmycabin? while blissfullyloving.
What toburn forwarmth?
Easy
It'sall herethere Life&death
rightinfrontofme never bothatonce
if I cantrain tosee. makingmybehavior
easytoexplain
SoLittle
Solittle required but sofarfrom reality.
of lifedeath
eatsun Lifedeath makingnosense.
drinkocean Lifedeath promisingnothing.
play inout with air Lifedeath abandoningme
return then now when todealwith my self
forget. until oneofus
winsloses.
Solittledrama within
elementalbeing CurbAppeal
eachinstant lifedeath Standingbefore his tombstone.
eachinstant thisbreath Pretending.
eachinstant training
tosimply Viewingourhome from hiscurb.
eat drink play return
forget. Butwhatof clearingcrew
uprootingtrees&bush
OtherEyes leavingap inwoods?
Tryingtosee myowneyes
without a reflective Then lasersurvey for footings
or retentive surface. digging rebar concretepour
block&mortar level&lines
Simple when I realize floorjoists framing windowsdoors
all othereyes aremine.
sheathing roofing drying in
SoCold electrical plumbing HVAC
Winds socold onmypetals insulation sheetrock tape&paste
when I don'tknow myroots. utilities lighting cabinets
painting appliances fixtures finalflooring.
Seeds meaningnothing Moving in.
if I'mnotliving insoil. .................
A village raisingachild.
Sun stark&cruel A family buryingan ancient.
when I'm being
death'sfool. Memorymolecules dismembered
........... &withthem his self.
Warmed eachthis
withtouch frombelow. Mymemories ofhim tossed
Warmed eachnow likedirt onhiscasket.
with eachstar'skiss.
Mymemories lost ineach
newbuild.
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