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My singledesire Lifeofharmony
a lifeofrhythm&rhyme with fugues fullofconterpoint
danced in threefourth time. hummed in fourfourth time.
Choose eternalife Seekingimprovement. Takingfromthepoor
or blinksofeternity Realizing only change then endearingmyself as
from eachall thisnow. within transform'sgyre. a philanthropist.
Withall I'vebeentaught Withall I havelearned
is love my secondlanguage is separation myfate
withpain its grammar? fear myfirstlanguage?
Steepingonfrostheave. Rat arat a tat Seeingreflection.
Everystep afterthat Woodpecker withoutrhythm My secondlife in stillake.
becoming uphill. workingwoods nearby. Perfect butfortears.
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Library
Lost in library stacksofstacks Leaving blackwhite&rarelyread of mildewed thought &dyingbreath ministry of memory&truth
hushedwhispers of oncesunlit excitement never didair breatheme morefully
nowgnarled unproductive fruitlesstrees never didgrass greetme so graciously
tobetransplanted as ornament? testament? never was a moonbeam justhat&nomore
as flower toexcite insectsofpollination neverwas eachbreath lessthan
buzzing dutybidden simple lean alive clean.
withdegrees for names ...........................
memories for imaginations. Knowing my bookoflife
isn't hidden indoors in dimlight
Lostwithin mutecarrels duringracous Fridaynights in blackink on wordense pages
&weekends of football but withintransform's irreverentemple of now&now
disdaining swirls of purposeless dance fertilenow fearsomenow
palaver of illspent hours nowofmystery nowofmisery
judgedthus by pedants in tomboftomes now ofallthat wisdomlabels
of time in obeisance to pen&ink &lesserliveslove
touch an obsequious petofdistance. butneverlive withouthesitation
without guardianself living thenwhen
where lifelivesonly as allatonce.
Signifiers Sponge
weight&length Emptybody nameless dreamless
days&months saturatedcomplelety within eachnow
age IQ GPA unable tohold or beheld
bachelor master doctorate by anythingotherthan
salary seniority grace&beauty.
retirement
401k Grantedgrace immersedinbeauty
55 65 lostinpores of infiniteternity
70 80 porous to ocean as transform'spotion
RIP. emptying throughlove intolove.
JellyFish
Oceandesiring form&sentience be love beinglove
fromwhich towitness itsown lesserself in hermaphroditic heresy.
(from the vainvantagepoint of self?)
becoming jellyfish. You&I each a sackofocean
So fewcells ifonly wecould senseless as jellyfish
So muchocean with aqueouseyes sans tearsofdesiring
yetableto tasteself touchsun with body'smass formless defenseless
be wind indrift with lesself conspiring
be imminence as transendence to witness our being
in purityoflove.
OfCourse Tick
Ofcourse there's morningmist. From tallcoolgrass showing
Ofcourse onehorse is dappledgrey. to my warmblood of knowing
Ofcourse whitefence is wellweatheredwood diggingin sucking sanguinefeast
withwooods reclaiming fencebeyond. draining hubris asonly parasiteother can.
Tinytick takingits toll.
Still&still still&yet I unbearably begintoforget
that toberemembered is theonly cliche Inconsequential inconvenience
with I becoming cloudedlight at breakofday. or silentreminder of transform'somnipotence?
Standing nearancient boxwood Powertodistract from sin foramoment
at edgeof lawn&garden. asif any&all distractionfromself.
Riding dappledhorse with spite&joy Enveloping eachsapien in fog of unknowing
asif mtselfish silverspoon toy. beyondseparation foramoment.
Notdreaming now thedream ofjust thisnow An annoyanceofgrace
gallopingbareback with cook preparingbreakfast when totallyembraced.
tobe eaten in knotgarden under spreadingoaktree Feltfully inbrain's numbing
after finishingmyride through Williamsburgh. &self's rabidapplause.
LakeBeyond Thenextraction with vapor&tweezers.
Life justbeyond seeing. Then immolation.
Lakebottom becominglake.
Life'shistory drinkingfrom Why bother with
lover'smouth. nails&cross?
Lost in deepweeds IsTo
of aquafoodchain. Psychology isto lesself
Hunted with hook line as
baited with emptiness tigerhunt isto beingeaten by tiger.
wantingless tocatch
thanto becaught What I lmean is
inmouth no mean
of chain no is
of deepweeds less I
&lessdesire &
in perfection of whosetoask
lakebottom becominglake a tigerprowling
justbeyond my selfishseeing. a tigergrowling
a tigerhowling
I Know FREEDOM.
When I know I paydouble.
When I don'tknow I paytriple. Enlightened
When I unknows I'm at gateofhell. Enlightened yet
gravity obtains
When I know myunknowing death remains
I'm insane&free ofcells atleast
towatch my self flounder in seaofme an eternalfeast
in landof I for phantomtime
on crossof I onits straightline
bleeding I intomyhead sure that all I've read
seeding I istruth toatee concerning living&dead
while less I grows but especially concerning me.
in soilofgarden
of courage And yet
to die. gravitasdisdains
the litteringofnames
Delirium labelingthebeast
Philosophy&physics both ending with endofday who longsince ceased
then sleep digesting shallow&deep of my intellect'splay. whenbecoming a mime
as I drankthewine
Ninetypounds onmylap. thatraised thedead
My chocolatelab taking a nap. beyond word said
Halfmute yelping withspastic twitch inthe ether ofthefree
helping brownbitch digest herday in lesself's silent sea.
of retrievingsticks &giving friend'sbaby licks
eachact toher an elemental ballet. Unadorned
When transform'stree
Soitgoes eachmemory relived looksbetter tome
chosen in tranceofsleep. unadorned
Sapienorcanine whathappens in daytime thenperhaps my self
becomigfodder for midnightmeal. canbe unborne.
Fact&fancy boy&dog When transforming tree
both chewingcud of thenasnow. looksbetter bare
Resolvingindream desire's bestscheme then I'll stopjudging life
to reconstruct whatself hasfucked tobe rigged or fair.
while "makinglove" with
being'sdelirium. When snowlaced
as winter'sface
Ornaments then I'll let the lightsbehung
Hangingornaments on simplepinetree so fulloflove unneeding grace.
paintinglegs onasnake
feeling myneed tocelebrate NonAttachment
myfirst originalmistake. Leaf falling
nonattached to stembranch.
Twentyfifth of anymonth Seed falling
firstday of any year nonattached to flowerfruit.
same dawnsun same willbedone
ifonly myself canendure. Leaf decaying
becomingsoil.
Presentsgiven presentsreceived Seed growing
asif inlove there's give&take becoming stembranch flowerfruit
unknowingpine as desire'shrine &leaf &seed again again.
please strip&replant
for heaven'sake. My selfishattachment
not tobeconfusedwith
loving nonattachment.
**DreadPleasure**
Watching TV onmy parent'sbed
an itch onmy PP causing pleasure&dread.
Bloodrushing to organ hardeningthesame
beginning my adolescence of pleasure&shame.
Each scratchstroke a holygrail
&beingyoung I couldnotfail
to summonswimmers of geneticode
causing thatmoment to explode.
Whoknew the sheervolume ofmygoo
would need a firstclass cleanupcrew
of kleenexfour or eightsections of TP
absorbing allevidence ofthe essenceofme?
Then&therebeginning primordialawareness
that humanexistence is filledwithunfairness
another primalpleasure being labeled sin
needinghide myability to summonsemen.
**LawnMowing**
Nomoneydown nopaymentsdue Humbled by tootough tallestgrass
just sheddingsomepounds shapingmypecs. returningtoprime grabrope &jerk
Nostretch&bounce tillblack&white thenmaking a second thenthird futilepass
noneed topump nearhuge nonecks. until exercisingbecoming toomuch likework.
Simplyletting lawngrow midcalf high Pushingmower tillmyheartbeat's winging
then borrowingmyneighbor's mowingmachine with rhythm aerobics wouldpay toachieve.
(why should I rent or worseyet buy Pushinguntil mybreath's verilysinging
whentheprice ofacut is returningitclean?) until butnotduring my purgingheave.
Retapingthrottle fillingwithgas Weightlost strenghtgained without a cent
primingthrice pullingonrope beingspent onacostly membershipwhim.
a pullagainst brutemotor'smass Walkingonlawn noback beingbent
sweatporingfaster than a virgin'shope. nodriving toembarrasment at odiferousgym.
Finallycranking but puttingsoslow Mywife nowhappy my selfesteem high
bladeonblade nearlybeing a draw. me sinkingbackinto my easychair
Before nextpspin enoughtime to regrow dreaming of fadedyouth with a sigh
lackingpower itsfirst nearfatalflaw. whilerunnningmyhand throughmy thinninghair.
Falling Candle
Falling rain as waterfall We each a lonecandle onsun's birthdaycake.
from river'source as sourceofall. Earthairfirewater mixed tobebaked.
Joininginpooling becoming asone Elementalflaming for enlightenment's sake.
eternal eachinstant inbeing oursun. Hydrogen's basicbeing beginningtoquake.
In transform'scycling as same&same And I asif I asif atlast awake
rivercloud fallingflow identical in name. burningfromwithin with gracelessache
Delayed unknowing transform hasnoheart tobreak
Leafpressed betweenpages being cell&celless toreason opaque.
of mashed trunk&branch.
Flowerpressed until no hueorfragrance left We eachlonecandle onsun's birthdaycake
as warp transforms into weft. firewaterearthair aslove's daybreak.
Tohold tokeep in memory'sleep HerDreams
preservedbeyond mytears toweep Evenherdreams are here&now
delayed intime asif myprime yesterday'sfrustration lastnight's TV.
couldbe eternity'stheft.
Never nightmares of daydreams shattered
Asif tocompress is tobe blessed byshards sunkdeep into stylesofself.
while life's exploding in efflorescence. Herbeing tooreal in dailyzeal
Asif warp&weft neverconfess tobecome a fear duringsleep.
union intheir tapestry of deference.
I ontheotherhand havinghoped&dreamed
To have&hold allbut myflower through eachdayofnow
gonebefore my finalhour facingsinsleep the uglycreep
of selfinchase foran eternalface of then
remainingpressed as memory'strace. dippedark&distorted.
Love Is
Love is the unknowable Of night'slight or day's sunbright
for if known it'spossessed love is lifedeath's emptiedsight
&possession is poison. of transfrom's glance without a chance
to denounce
Love is the endof thenwhen &now or
its onlydimension being to enhance.
presence.
Love isnot twopuzzlepieces
Love knowsnothing fittingtogether perfectly.
love feelsnothing Love isnot a stainedglasswindow
forif intelligentorsentient tellingthestory of other.
itwouldbe languageoremotion
theformer thefacts of our frontaloves Love is a child's firstfingerpainting
thelatter thefluids of our limbicprobes twohands exploring color&form
each drowningother in self. caringless about color&form
whilecreating a messyperfection
If seen love's obscene. of a rainbow in a blender.
If touched love's rape.
If felt love's a drug. Love is lakemistforming
If unseen untouched unfelt graduallyobscuring
love is a hug from elementalall myreflection.
responding tothe snowhiteblackbird's
call.
Argued
Body'sCellsuit&Self argued oneday wouldnever survive
although theirdiscourse was morelikeplay. harshlife's meanfray."
"Iam thefundamental" Then Lesself happened alongtheway
Body did bray. ¬beingone for a verylongstay
put Body&Self intheir (verysame)place
"Iam the Iam" with a message toassuage both
Selfdanced in ballet. faceless&faced:
"Withoutme yoursimple
reflex&instinct would "Reflex&instinct fad as tradition
doom sapienlife tobe eachall a path to separation's perdition.
nothingmorethan
death'sprey. Forgetting timeplace
forgiving formface
"But withoutme DearSelf become whatyou
yoursimple alwayswere &are
fads&traditions a firefly inan
invisiblejar."
WhyPretend? Compare&Contrast
Why pretend tobe anything otherthan green The endofeach chapter
during pineconecool before heatedscene? "compare&contrast"
asif thiscommand myonly&last.
Why the lie asif buttercup or tulip
when thoseofpalette won'tsurvive winter's nip Mybrain as self clutching to thepast
whileyou willrule between grass&blue being no compare&contrast enthusiast
blendingboth withlight throughyour fourseasonhue? with biochemicalsignals alreadyamassed
mixedwith repeaters then asserted fullblast.
Beproud needlestiffplant rootdeep barkhardy
while orchestrating eachseaon's rebirthingparty. Feedforward feedback feedingsofast
internallyeternally from thisclass to thatcaste
Beproud needleplant longlived longloved cleanbreathgiving asif ideas from outspace
forebearing wesapiens tooften unforgiving. asif otherthan I a grossdisgrace
ratherthan emerging fromour neuraldatabase.
GardenDoor
At gardendoor uninvited Compare&contrast but neverbe aghast
growing withoutknowing out or in that sameness isbound within memory's caste.
content living at footofpost Each sapienbrain seemingly vast
a pieceof at peacewith all its kin. yet amuck inpast resenting compare&contrast.
Some in forest some in meadow Mybrain my self sokeen on expression
some beingcultivated formally. whilereeling unknowing within
Each a perfection of transform'swhim inbreedingsuppression.
livingdying in nonconformity.
Land&Sea
Fence slowingstorm. Fence drippingmelt. Land&sea no dichotomy
Fence shadingorsunning eachseason'sday. just lendingahand with realilty
asto notbecomelost inthespacesbetween
Whywould I ever want in or out? lettersofwords of separation .
Howcould I ever thinktopray?
Sea ofcourse lovinglycoveringland
Control with its H2O &silicatesand
Unfearinglifedeath yetwithout thetears shedfrom myfears
my nearlastbreath nowater wouldcycle atall.
willbe atonce&whole.
Profiler
Beingfreed from self Notneedingtobe a profiler
with nothingtolose tosense a case of arrestedevelopment.
atlast I'll giveup Still fourteenyears old &unloved
control. &unsure ofthesource of hisdiscontent.
If I Say Money attractingsycophants
If I say that worshipping anythingsupernatural with loosechange scatteringeverywhere.
is cowarldywhining I maysound selfrighteous Becominganelephant to tinyants
whilebeing stonedtodeath withoutevenknowing they'rethere.
oratbest unheard bythose with stonears.
Struttingwithimpunity
If I suggest thatbelief is a symptomofself whilecrushinglife witheachstride.
that mustbedealtwith carefully Notknowing howtosearch for love
I'llbe ignoredbymost dismissedbysome whileliving in abyss of pride.
&heardonly bythose whoalready unknow.
Dancing
But theremabybe a few Theycall MarchMadness
intrigued&unafraid. the BigDance.
Choiceless Ifonly allgames wereplayed
Choicless within elementalbeing as littledances
chemistry&physics brooking withplayers having strained astheytrained
nobelief to keeptime withinthegame'srhythm
no faithope while notsteppingon theirpartner'stoes.
no meaningpurpose.
OneHundred
Strugglingtounderstand Onehundred orso molecules
unaware that life makesnodemand. hormones&neurotransmitters
controllingmybody.
Forest
Forest as metaphor formylife? Atleast onehundredesires
compelling my self toact
No nursery at their behest.
orchard
garden Onehundredone defenses
park from myparent'smemories
boulevard causinghesitation aseachother
no neighborhoodyard fromoutside is savagelyvetted.
frontorback
justamess asif underattact SelfConsciousness
by the elementalbeing Teenagers atleast notpretending
I ignor asmy birthright. toknow whotheyare
struggling toconstruct the self
Sofew treetrunks straight theythink theydesire.
intheir searchforlight.
Adults waitingfor midlife
Somanybranches & a crisis
bent or broken. toadmit thathat teen didn'tknow
a damnthing.
Forestfloor being
a leaflitterlittany Teenangst adultrighteousness
of past indignities neitherknowing wherefrom or why
as decomposers feast eachposturing dramatically
onthe bestofme. whilesufferinga reply.
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Sun upsetwithearth Sun upsetwithearth
for tiltingonitsaxis. for seasonal impotence.
Creatingstorming. Sending winterwinds.
Churchbells callingsouls. Frost tingling on face Raising malechildren
Clocktower countingeach hour. withwind pickingup its pace whothen lower thosenannies
Transform catdancing. of icedsnow falling. beingofcolor.
Breeze suspending snow Ratherthanfalling
with its gentle steadyblow snowflakes decidingtodance
yetstill fallingslow. during winterdusk.
Flame doesn'tlove moth Slave to slightestbreeze
it attracts then it destroys flame yielding both heat&light
muchas withmoney. hrough its wobblingnight.
Prose isalways true.
Poetry infusinglife
into drylanguage.
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Dragging
Watcha dragging? Lookslike a bodybag. Don'tyouthink you
dishonor Bob
No body justafew remembrances withyourconfusion?
pictures keepsakes videogames
&somebooks Bob enjoyed. Well I hadtoleave thesack athome togoto
my daughter'splay. And theywouldn't letme in
Itsmyway of remembering him the ballpark towatch myboy's littleleaguetame
a waytokeephim alive unless I'd leavethesack at thegate.
a waytohonor hislife.
Soyoujust gaveup on remembering?
But yourbag's surelyincomplete. On honoring yourfriend?
Bob was muchmorethan your sackofartifices.
Lookout! That foulball almosthityou.
I begyourpardon. Weallgrieve Let'smove behindtheplate &beprotected
in differentways. And bytheway bythefence beforeweget a welt.
where'syoursack?
Whew. Good idea.
Itwasgetting prettybatteredup &somestuff And whatwerewe talkingabout?
wasfallingout. Atfirst I patched it buthen Somthingabout when you&me
begantogetconfused astowhether thestuff &Bob werefishingtogether?
I wasadding was Bob's ormine orperhaps yours.
LITERACY LANGUAGE
Christianity Language the vegomattic
Rightangle alphabet. slicerdicer
Printingpress. creating an alpha-bet from
Bible. omega.
Literacy.
Secularism. Liningupslivers asif a
Consumerism. splicer
creatingsentences
Islam asif makingsense of the
Flowingalphabet sensual.
unsuitable for printingpress.
Koran nevermassproduced. Betterto eatmyveggies
Widespreadliteracy notachieved. raw
Richinspirit leaninpleasures. whilehumming madeup
Secularism avoided nonsense.
&consumerism.
TheGrandHotel
It began asmerely acanopy Thus throughtime measured
nearanoasis inthedesert. in sedimentation&deposition
theinn grewinto whatbecame tobecalled
Travelers couldtakeshade TheGrandHotel
whilewatering theiranimals with increasingnumbers makingit
&refillingtheirvessels. their permanenthome.
As the ecosystemchanged Andtheowners aged
it grewinto a tent as lifedeathforms do
sufficent to blockwind &thestaff increased
&provide drywarmth astravelers oldfriends newfaces
to the wanderingfew. cametohear wellworn stories
&addtheirown dreamories.
Intime measuredby
tectonicmovement Thestories becamelegends
an inn wasbuilt with carriedfrom hoteltohotel
travelerstaying for some chronicalsbecoming
daysatatime elaborateallegories.
warm dry &safe inan ...............
increasingltyforbidding Childrewereborn &newfamilies
environment. made TheGrandHotel their elaborate
.......... sanctuary asthe agedowners
A familyfinally stayedon relaxed &lettheirstaff do
permanently to maintain the mostofthework.
everenlarging inn.
Some areahotels hadproblems
Theywould exchange with inbreedingsuppression
stories with itinerants theirstories growingstale resulting in
manyofwhom wouldreturn diminishing clientele.
firstpassing eastwest
then west to east. Others hadafreeflow of patrons
from near&far enriching storylines
The talestheyshared were &infusing the socialstructure
increasinglyadventurous with fresh elan.
becomingreplete with
drama&intrigue. But intime eachnow measuredineons
created maintenance needs
Andtheinnkeepers overwhelming both owners&staff.
embellished&entwined
talesfrom distantlands. Slowlybutsurely naturebegan
toreclaim the brick&mortar structure
Theywouldregale their as elementsinvaded through
clients with recurringthemes brokenwindows&unhingedoors.
&colorfulcharacters.
Inthebitterend the originalbuilders
Theyeven created thehero legendaryinthier storytelling
whosedeeds bordered onthe reappeared toreturn the elements
supernatural &whoseemed &allthe flame&stardust theyhadborrowed
tohaveachieved eternalife. tobe reclaimed within eternaltransform's
gentlygyre.
Soon travelersflocked totheinn
in numbers necessitating a physical
expansion.
........... Flowing
Mybody flowing in life'sriver
never strugglingupstream
LineUp never swimmingtothebank
Only themost righteous never emerging tobuild
believer a settlement on dryland
could lineuptime in a neverconfusing a memory
straightline for lifeathand.
whilewhirling in
transform's If tossedinto a gyre
dervishdance. neverfighting for air
letting selfsink
MyBody whilebody floats
Mybody makesnochoices without effort or will.
eat
excrete Myself bulling my cellsuit
breathe asif it fullofsoul
stay warm&dry while wrapped in ectoderm
don't pretendtofly protecting mesoderm
fromgravity's whichis hosting endoderm
lovingembrace. with organsystems supporting
biochemicalcontrol
Playwithsex while my self weeps
but beserious while will&want seeps
about parenting. losing defense&desire.
Huntgather or farm Cleanliness
but donoharm My veryGerman grandmother
to ourmother intent on keeping all pots&pans
whoprovides spotless
for ourneeds. scrubbedoff the tefloncoating
of our first fancyfryingpan.
Allelse is self tryingsohard
tochooseways tomakelife Soitgoes withmyambition
into strife. scrubbedclean
bymy grandmother.
TheEnd
Lyinginapool of himself NoPrinciples
hisname whisperedclose Unknowing itwasarat
noteven the slightest tailtwitch. itwasacat
an e.Coli
Gently closingthe eyes a gorilla
thatwouldneveropen again. a kangaroo
.................. &anoakleaf too.
Inthesame sunnyshallows
ofthenearbystream And I withnoprinciples
where I taughtmyson toswim am I goodevil
myson&I taughtSam toswim flamefortune
if youcanteach ChristianMuslim
a webfooted lawyervoyeur
bouyantfurred teacherpreacher
ruddertailed airearth
lab waterfire
designed for aqueousurvival hurricanehummingbird
tosurvive in water. caviarturtle'sturd
whilealwaysbeing thisnow.
River&shore littered
withsticks retrieved Rinzai
again again &again. Rinzai ripping SupraNaturalBeing
leaving languageasreason in bits&pieces
Hisbreathing shallow asif an alphabet couldassemble
hisbreath becoming ourbreath. anything otherthan truth
Pillow pressetohisface anything beyond truth.
tospeed hislast beatificbreath
breathofstream Soto providing a glimpse
breathofson&I intomy autobiographic memory
breath of tearstainedsigh. &reality beyond my defenses&desires.
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Those bubblingdancing duskwaters Combined I canletgo muchofmyself
willsurelydance a dirge tonight. joining elementalbeing.
**Grader?** **Acne**
I askedatcollege Starstudded faceless blacknightsky
&even at a dairyfarm. pocked with nearlyeternal light
&so my soeager facefull face
I hadheard of contests pocked as dateless matelessblight
in Wisconsin &knew asif
that notallcheeses onfire myface quenchedwithafork
areof equalquality. creating a redwhite bloodpussdork.
So I guess there No dreamofcream to fixmyface.
needstobe a cheesegrader. No topicaltreatment thacoulderase
But howdidthey get mybattlefield of oozingporeconjunction
those abrasions ontheirhands? my frontalapology to dermal dysfunction.
Cheese grater yousay? Living best I can as starfillednight
embarassedby myself's birthright
OK. Nevermind. neverexpecting a smile'sinvite
toshare mylife with lessthanspite.
Naked Ringing
Sometimes I see Hearing a distantbell.
a small nakedtree Churchspire tolling?
havingshed both Clocktower knelling?
its branches&bark.
Theformer callingpenitents
Why do I feeltheneed to praiselifebeyond afew heartbeats.
to pushitdown Thelatter counting updown eachlife
asif I'm settingitfree? of afew heartbeats.
Realtor Onlythemost righteous or themost hopeless
Realtor'sign in deepwoods wouldhope tohear thatwhich cannotbeheard
knockedover now leafcovered. whatwithdesire whirling in dervishdance
deafening tothose ina selfishtrance
Butnature can'thide the lot'sposting causingringing intheir emptyheads
ontheinternet. &writhing intheir lovelesshearts.
Shecan't protect her perfection
from progress. Candle
Wax&wick - earth.
Active Flame - fire.
Deepbeneath stillstreaing Food for fire - air.
breathlessativity. Water - escapingflame.
An activelesself isnot Flameflickering
an aggitated lesself. in transform'sgyre
sufferingtostill.
Enlightenment is ...............
thechaos of transform. You&I - candles.
Telepathy Proof
Using telepathy If love canbeproven
to encouragethesand it would'thappen ina lovingway
inmytimer becauseproof needsdistance
tofall morequickly tosee tojudge
asif gravity a tool guaranteeingseparation.
formy impatience.
Thepulpit canneverbe a pew.
ElementalBeing
Fireisfed by fuelofEarth Thusthefour dancetogether
sustainedbyAir finallyforming Flesh&Blood
extinguishedbyWater. as sapien Earth&Water
with lifeanimated by Fire'sheat
Waterisdrunk byEarth as eachcell breatheswithlung's
evaporatingintoAir being bellowedbreath of Air.
by heatof Fire.
Andso myflame for seventyorso years
Earth is Fireformed burning complexstardust
Waterquenched until thecooling flicker&fail
&envelopedbyAir. finallyforegoing my lesself'sveil.
Air arosefrom FireyEarth No afterlife. No reasontobe.
&becameabundant after Simply EarthAirFireWater
Water providedforlife. as ElementalBeing.
Flame Tipping
Progeny of our proximalstar Tippingmytimer
kin to our distantcousins sandbecoming
eightbillionflames two stillovals.
spreadacross bluegreen
firmament Is then mylife onhold
asif to mimic our twinkling asif itwere a timedevent
nightsky with transform atbay
asif I needn'tever die. &myself havingsay
atleast inthatmoment?
Butevenstars themselves
burnalltheirfuel Can I dobetter &live
eachceasing tobe earth's ontherun
darknightjewel creating tears
as do I succumb to finalcool &somesun?
earthtoearth as transform's
bluegreenrule. Settingmytimer
erectagain
Attitude allowing thenwhen
Is changingourworld tobemy playpen
by changingmyattitude withme a slavetoself?
reallyachoice?
Intimacy
Or am I listening tomy From starkskeletons
self's proudvoice of winterwhitebeing
attributingmiracles tome? tothe intimacy of
forest blazingreen
ToBe mylove willbetrue
Tobe or not tobe indearth orabundance
thrall to Shakespeare asif mist of rainbow'shue.
Socrates
Jesus Stress
Buddha? Stress a certainsin of self
arisingfromdefense of same.
Quoting as Or fromthedesire to
respect help heal perfect
obeisance however altruistically.
pride
impotence? Still yourself's defense
&offenses each.
Saywhatyouwill Becomevulnerable
inyourownvoice &unabletopreach.
&willess
&let thechipsfall NoIrony
&fall &fall &fall. At thebeach.
Advertisingbanner
BigBang trailingairplane
If our universe didn't(re)birth abovekite
in a BigBang trailingkid.
would Jesus havelived
&risen NoJob
fromthedead? Nojob toosimple
to complicate.
Whatgames weplay Nomemory toovivid
with physics&faith todull.
asif beginnings&endings
arereal withintransform's If I didn'tlovemyself
eternalgyre. soverymuch
I wouldn'trust
Imagine a balloon myrecollections.
within a balloon
within a balloon Raising
within a balloon Raisingarm to topshelf
within a balloon inpantry.
eachexpandingcontracting Herelbow tracingcurve
eternally. ofherbreast
leaveningmymiddaylust.
StringTheory
With allduerespect to astrophysics I'll setaside the strumming of the
this treatise will focus on the dulcimer
MusicOfTheSperes. mandolin
lyre
We'llbegin with picking bowedstrings &
a practice called pizzicato. banjo
less pizzicato thanbrush
Youcanpick the strings ofthe of landscapepainter
vioin or invite to townsquare
viola tohear folkmusic.
cello
or But the gentlepluck of a guitar
bass inthehands of a master
&achieve a pleasingsound shames the harpsichord
or pickthestrings oftheharpsichord &all pizzicato
(good lord) as provenby the Bach's Sonata
when everyoneknows thosestrings transpose
shouldbehammered. from violin to guitar
creating an unimaginalble
I admit I'm enamored withthepiano repose
ivory beingcaressed by softfingers with
asif fingersthemselves strokingstrings bowing to pluck&release
todance ina rangesupreme as
makingmyinstrument a performer'sdream. chainsaw to lover'stease
an enchantment
Butbowing that'swherestrings reallysing certaintoplease
from violinsoprano to throatycello eventhestonedeaf
tothebeat of pulsingbass. intheir sensorydeprivation.
EastWest Agile
The East isbest at thewisdom of peace My linguistallyagile family&clan memories
nurturingsubjects in harmony. assigning behavioraleffects to causalagents
The West isbest at analysisofpieces whichbecome memyself&I.
respecting the integrityofobjects.
Evolution fleshingout the wisdomofthepast
Combinedjudiciously the result isa balance intheblackbox of ourbrain'storage
whichcould belabeled tobe retrieved unsullied by thatpast
ElementalBeing. asif memyself&I
couldlive inthnow.
Swirl
The arrowoftime doesn'target mydeath Neurotransmitters&hormones
it swirls in transfomr'sgyre until I'm outofbreath. spitting&flowing
unknowing pastpresent
Notunlike the blownballoon when suddenlyreleased from mydesires.
dancing in randomdervish until itsemptiness is ceased.
Howcan I besilent inthecacophony
Mylife a singlestarling within amorphousmurmuration of chemicals
or a solitaryherring inits billionschool isolation. orbe beautiful
inthestruggle for survival?
Never
I gothere often Punctuation
but I never gethere. Period. Questionmark. Exclamationpoint.
Comma. Colon. Semicolon.
Asif I expectbetter
than aimlesswandering Apostrophe - tomakeit aboutme.
while notsearching Quotationmarks - tomakeit soundsmart.
for anything. Ellipsis - asif I hadmorewisdom athand.
............................................
HolyWars We languagelovers inour soseriousattempts tobe
HolyWars areto belief punctilious!
as to clarify? ourprecious_meaning with
Anxiety isto truth punctuation
as while strutourlinguisticacumen as
EarthAir pundits
FireWater areto reality. alltooften endingup
puncturing
Beliveing somethingsupernatural theveryidea we (weretryingto)
willsaveus. present
resulting in a [taste or smell] that's
Unsure if reason cansaveus. pungent
&oftencauses pain/loss aswe
Unbelieving withconfidence punish
there'snothing tosave. oureader's intent withthought
perfection.
ChooseWisely
Greatfaith in belief Better to lightenup &create a
becomingHolywars. "pun"
Gnosticknowing &let thereader havesome
becoming selfighteousness. fun
Introspection withourprecious
introducing my self to me. wisdom...
Overthinking
causinganxiety. TurningAroundInFreshSnow
Simpleseeing First forward&right. Then backward&left.
revealingreality. Then forwardright backleft.
Then right&gone leaving a pristinemandal
toenjoy untilthethaw.
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
After morningthaw White pickupsticks lines
only longfallen treetrunks crosshatching brownforestfloor
whitelining wood'sfloor. after morningthaw.
Thisbreath then thisbreath Uncompromising. Separate churchstate
as I struggle throughmylife Thusrich unfit togovern. untilmoney fusesfate
until breathlesspeace. Alwaysonthetake. ordaining self'schurch.
Fun at the themepark. Selfasmemory. Correctingrammar
Time'sarrow on teacupride MindasSupernatural. so I won'tever bewrong
exitingdizzy. Neither a goodchoice. oratall feeloved.
Drunkonselfishness Whenlesself sober
tryingtowalk a straightline. walkingwithoutawobble
Notfooling the cop. duringanearthquake.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
PlagueFlea
A plagueflea leapt fromitsrat The plagueflea astounded fledthat cacophoneyofsin
openneditsmouth &disgorged knowingitsvomit tobe ambrosia compared to
a universofdeath. a kiss fromthis malignant newparasite
who throughseparation wascreating
NowGod beingan alchemist of uniqueabilities that from this
concoctedabrew to undo thepest's nastyeffects. thenwhen from now
knowledge from wisdom
Thebrew broughtlife tothat universeofdeath truth from reality
nowbathed in billionsofsuns lifedeath from transform
&fraught withaheadybatch of playthings &
tokeep the youngworld content. self from love
intheir madchase tobe
Then He left confident that inchoatebeing &be omniscient
wouldbe stimulatedenough tocook itsownpotions &be omnipotent
havingbeensupplied themakings. &be eternal.
.........................................
Anditwasgood thisuniverse of life&death The plagueflea wept
cyclingstars grandtectonicticking pulsingseas unknowing inits unthinking selflessbeing
allcreating myriadmazes within mutemaster. that the burgeoningsapiens disgorging self as sin
............................................. (thinking &thinkingwaytoomuch that
Soon the teemingsolution of mindlessmolecules eachone &another are distinct&separate)
conjured tinycontainers of chemicalprocesses hadcreated a diseasedisharmony
sparked to live&die in His eternalight. doomingthem foreverfornever
toclimb eachrung of thumb&tongue
Life&death flourished whoseladder is proppedagainst
(inacomplexity astounding evenGod) loquacious heavenitself beingangled
untilthat trillionstarheaven founditsmatch precariously nearly vertical
in trillions of electrochemicalinterconnections inauniverse of
housed in threepounds of cells horizontal lifedeath
protectedbybone & in notime &
bypride. dimensionless lesself.
..........................
The plagueflea laughed withthe mindfulcreatures Soitbegan "I think therefore I am"
climbing eachrung of thumb&tongue a puddle dreamingitself an ocean
delighted intheirworld of language&selfishness a millipede wishingitself a snake
beforediscovering their selfs trapped in a a karyokesinger hopingtobecome a star
minefield mimefield mindfield inauniverse of dancingstardust
of &
silent selfish explosive inexorable transform's
regressionanalysis eternal love.
discovering intheir bright&shiney selfs ....................................
an inner privateplayground inwhich eachone Fromsimple plagueflea alone&guarded couldbecome allweknow &allwesee
theirown masterslave. of self lesself love.
Who TimeKeeping
Who I am isno illusion Sundail sandial
atleast tome. hourglass sunglasses
alltrying tokeepme
Who I am ismy privatereality fromfeeling&seeing
whetherornot shared by you. the reality of notime.
Yet&still I livewith a few Sundial shaded.
whoindulge mydelusion Sandial swirling.
helpingmesurvive Hourglass shattered.
inan indifferent &oftenhostile Sunglasses unneeded.
world.
There areno clocks
Take inthe gyres withinthestream
Howlong doesit take of transform'sreality.
a memory toform
&howlong doesit last? MostBeautiful
Your mostbeautiful face
And isthat a question a melodyflowing a rhythmgrowing
anyone wouldask enveloping allwhocanhear
whiledistracted inviting allwhowish theycouldsee.
within the wealth
of thisnow? Graceme mylove withyour everlasting
smile
Needles evenif causingme tobecome
How didthe pineneedles anexhile
havingrownthrough lastnight's snow fromtheworld of allothers.
know thathe puffballs it'sholding
nochild willeverthrow Meaning
butcanmake an adult a childagain Whenwillmeaning end
byshaking thebranch &thisnow begin?
asif a blow.
Whenwillpurpose beforgot
Admitting &I can dervishdance?
By tryingtofree myself
from worldlyattachments Whenwill time'sarrow
I'm admitting to a separation fail itstarget
that neverexisted. -25- fallinglimp into oceanall?
Bettertostop tossing Capitalism
inmy dreamingsleep Havingbecomerich
&embrace the lovingdeep. unscrupulously
unworthy of politicalpower.
PostCard
Isthat a postcard Buyingvotes tobecome elected
or a picture I took? togovern thatwhich heowns.
Sowhat. A memory We separate
is a memory. churchfromstate
butnot fromthechurch
Need ofthe dollarbill
Needtogreed forwhich wesuffer thefate
the reasonableconclusion of floundering in corruption'swill.
to selfdefense.
Capitalism v. democracy
Aggregation as adaptation a war doomedtobewon
inaworld of more&more. bythe dirtiestfighters.
Aggregation as demonstration BeatThat
as I winthewar I nevermiss a meal.
walling my self in separation I neversleep coldorwet.
winning eternalife in isolation. I have a lovingfamily.
I have littleto defendordesire.
Helix
Damn doublehelix. Beat that.
Whymust I share?
HowDareYou
Whymust I wastemytime Howdareyou accuse me
being bipolar of "hammering" the strings
when I coulbe doingood ofmypiano.
oratleast accumulatingoods?
I carresstheivory
Cloning that'stheticket. &mytouch is transmitted
Mini-me's raisebyrobots tothestrings
programmed by your'struly with lovingintent.
creating trulyrterrifying
replicants. Thenthegentlewaift
of vibration
Glass to yourear
Happiness istheglass. from myheart.
Wellbeing isthebeverage.
Love isin the libation. Inventory
Whyam I notallowed toremember
Rhythms allthat I've storedaway?
Thefurther from nature'srhythms
themore I need time'sarrow Needingtoscour attic basement shed
to pointout theway. toavoid visitingWalmart everyday.
FlatEarth
Havinglivedonly in midIndiana Whatworld canbeknown
whatnonsense the chatter without tectonicfury
of mountains&valleys uplifting arching
snowcappedpeaks lavaflowing
verdant duskridges recreatingearth in eacheon
flamingdawn promontaries of genesisforever
romance&intrigue of exodusfornever
sensesfilled&sensesemptied. armabeddon&apocalypse
now&now&again&again.
Whatof birdflights tracing earthrise
birdflocks between&within No anthill or gopherburrow
updrafts from weatheredgranitewalls but allbeginning eternalbeginning
ofclouds pinecaptured clouds ridgereleased intheslope inthehaze inthescope intheglaze
ofcloudshadows ripplingacrosslopes sun aseafrth fearth withinearth poringfromearth
onajourney toeverywhere sneeringatwind&rain&all erosion'sforces
inajourney tonowhere. whilebuilding building building.
Flatlander flatearther Let flatland&shallowsea be
cornbirther of railroads the stationary of transform's
crawlingflat through tasseledsunwaving thankyou note
with heartbeatblood flowingflat tothe rollingrolicking wildlywarpedsurface
through silospired uninspired flatland. ofoursphere ofourhome.
ElementalBeing Kids
Inall the universe our specialFire Whenyourkids don'tdo whatyousay
millionsofmiles distant yetmolten within. don'tbedismayed
Inall the universe ourcommongyre ratherbeafraid
motionas separation burninginsin. ofthemessage they'rehearing.
Ofall the planets ourbreath of freshAir Whenyourkids don'tseem tocare
an surroundingsustaining ourbeing. howyoubehave
Ofall the planets onlyours wouldare don'tlethem seeyou as a knave
nurturethose of unnaturalseeing. totheideal
theyare toyou.
If oursurface wereotherthan Water
tocool Ibecome our cellularsustainer Riding
we'dbecome a temporarysquatter Riding arrowoftime
instead ofa permanent aqueaouscontainer. asif mylife a straightline.
Inalltheuniverse ourplanet Earth Clingingto purposemeaning
with sapienstruggling withself's leadingalife of dreaming
righteousbirth. while transform'srhythm rules
in randomdervishdancing.
**Feigning** **Physics**
If dogshadthumbs Screwsfalling
they'd rulourplanet on concretesurface
feigningloyaly unfollowing immutable
gaingtrust physicalaws spreadingtoplaces
while lettingusthink we ranit. wherescrews shouldn'tvisit.
They'dopven jars&doors&cars Droppingpill
&havetheirway with bunnies&cats. on bathroomfloor?
Forget it.
They'd thumb a ride
&thumbsup in pride **NoWay**
whilethey learntotext Noway tocontain a teen's selfrightousness
ontheir(cell)phones. oran eggsaladsandwich.
Their ablilties Each willspillover the firmestcrust
would runthegamut or bulge&breakthrough the softheart
from strumming a banjo of a parent ora pieceofbread.
to becoming a golfpro
&beatingme atmyown Betterto slice&spread&eat it asif
game. a freerangechicken
(butnot theteen ofcourse).
PuddlePuppy Ruled
Waterbug watersprite Random but ruled. A
puddlepuppy's muddydelight. Chaotic but ruled. basketball
Snoothrust creating droolingdisgust Lacking meaningpurpose game.
brownwater beneath mudbeak. but ruled.
..............................
Then downdirtroad to drierprey Self servingself
chasingbrownstill to yellowflutter desiring that Scanning
landinglost tillpup's highgrass crisscross memoriesofme boxscore.
flushingprey in histrionicplay. survive.
....................
Then flutteresumed in chaseassumed Reality unruling Noswallow. Nochoke.
&chaseitbe with insect'sflee selflessly. Nogloat. Nogoat.
&bodaciouspup in spiritedglee.
File
But dirtydip&racousrip Thefile hastobe harder
consumingcanine's energyblip. thanthe fingernail.
Legs givingway fatigue holdingsway
mightyhunter ending her franticfray. Stillness must assimilate
chaosofself.
Holding
Myfriends toldme shewas holdingmeback OnlyAfter
whileitbecame an obviousfact Onlyafter the drone
shewas holdingthestring ofthe passenger jet inpassing
tomy heliumfilledhead has diminished to nearlystill
&without her I'd drop likelead. can I hear the housebuildingclamor
from justover the nearbyhill.
Survive - 1
Earth's longuouney from originalfire. Soitis with heaven&earth
Sapien's longjourney from singlecell cacophony of gods&errors
to self&selfishness defense&desire drowningout the suffering
from unknowing to eachprivatehell. of my neighbors.
Survive delicate seacreature intrees. TForm
Survive delicate treecreature onland. Transform being a blendof
Survive sapien lostinmemories impermanence
whileruled as desire&defense demand. &
thermocynamics
Each smallsun in organic envelope a boundlessphere of dervishdancers
protecting thebeing it remembers. a groundlessmear of tornadicgyres.
Each smallsun igniting eternalhope
while burningfrozen leavingnoembers. Noplace for time.
............................ Notime for place
Tryingtosurvive while reputationrules forlessthan
against allother as selfabsorbedfools. stardust&flame.
Survive - 2 Talk
From simplylivingon&remainingalive Talkalittle aboutlove
inaworld of Darwinianevolution while intheforest
to survivorship withall rights&priviledges or listeningtomusic.
creatingforself the finalsolution.
Then stoptalking
Collecting cannedfoods&shotgunshells turnoff yourmusic
whileawaiting for apocalyptic bells. closeyoureyes
Becoming a quasiliving selfishcyst. &letlove &other
Becoming a certified survivalist. besilent.
NeitherSummerNorWinter
Being neithersummer norwinter Smokestackspewing whathislungs witheld
a seemingly senseless seasonlesstime. drainpipeoozing into mudrustmoat.
Riverflowing neithereast norwest Draggingoods to apparentneeds
closest togreen a singlerustpine. bargesloaded tillbarelyafloat.
Pine standingnear rustingbarges Hisbeing so narrowedby selfdefense
lining graybarked brownbranching banks soselfish thankless lifeless deathless
carryingcoal tocold steelstructures livinginsons&gransons too
girdingloins of flatriverflanks. eachdying eachday generationsaway.
Losinglight gainingnight Lifeshared inyouth again inaging
coldsteelskelton becomingsky tooslow tosee a constantchange.
sparkling with celestialmight Speedboatsummers on softstillriver
chemicalfirmament industrialsigh. stillflowing across a widerange
Seenfromacross seamlessriver thanyouth couldfeel or understand
caughtbetween rocks&chainlinkfence fishing skiing riverwide
river still flat dead knowinglength in dreamsofdeath only
between twoshores&presentense. knowinglife onlyfrom sidetoside.
................................
Between beingfather beingson Emptybarges bound to baregraybanks
between soulfullsummer wintersodeep procession only to fleetingcar
between breakingdawn brokendusk racingriver in summer'sheat
between awakeningnow or foreverasleep. laughingatcurrent in slowdefeat.
........................................
Winter'sride on summeroad Now emptiedson&being crossing
river asbareas sky&mind. nowthatfather's dead&gone.
Nosummervactaion this leanMarchwind Bridginglove bridginghate
marble ahead fleshblood behind. onelastime his river'song.
..............................
Traveling towatch cancergrow Asif I couldmanage my memory
southtonorth lungtobrain ofwhat hemeant to mother&me
fasterthan slowrustingbarge a brokenbeing suffering his kin
slowerthan stillriver's refrain. unable to unhear hisfather'sdin.
Unspeakable NEXT
Alltruth is unspeakable
spoken becomingalie
justaschildren needtheirwants
&wanting startocry.
Needingtruth tofeed my self
foragegrown in fieldsof fact.
Pickingchoosing this&that
providing thatwhich ourbody's stillack.
An armoredcoat of sanctity
armaments of acridword
protectingus from otherbeings
from sunrisesongs&sunsetbirds.
Guarding with swiftcoldstreams of garble
winning with loudestcry
livingsunken bowed&beaten
self'sfinaltruth a tearfulsigh.
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