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Asphalt notyetlined Each asphalt raindrop
waiting on straight&narrow ephemeralgalaxy
intellect'smarrow. in eternalsky.
Between my bentknees Catchingbass offbed Goslings&ducklings
three fourpetaled lightpurple nearsittingoose's gander waitingfor their flyingwings
two fivepetaledsuns. before leavingnest. paddlinglakesurface.
Pup boundingdownslope Twohours withoutbite
spookingducklings from bankgrass fishingon butnot inspite
into calmlagoon. of myself's desires.
Our waterfeature Havingmowed lakebank Budding to broadleaves
in constantneed of repair a singleyellow lily remindingme of summer
yet soworth thewear. stirringmemory. &myneed for shade.
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Erased
Erased allerased bysnow&blow Meadow&pond all emptyspace
singlesurface seenonly as mysticflow. lamentednow bothbeing
Erased ouroad&everypath erased.
becoming lightexpanse&frozenglow Ourhomeitself nowahome outofplace
seeming to comefrombelow brickbase basementwindows now
through whitewavewash onthisnight erased.
of questions&always neverknow. Frontyardlawndefinition
erased.
Bothparkedcars floatingfree but driveway Border of yourproperty&mine
erased. erased.
Pole backboard rim&net free but freethrowline
erased. Asif all I was &all you were
Kennelfence&doghouse free butcementslab erased
erased. bysnow&blow&mysticglow.
Twoswings oneslide free butplayground
erased. This freezingflood leveling landscape
(Wasn'there a sandbox?) deshevelingmymemory beveling pride'sbulwark
Tallweeds protruding butgarden leavingme empty&defenseless
erased. asif myveryself winter ravaged
Chainlinkfence stormetched butyard unable tofloat this singlewhitesea
erased. &bebouyed byother with lesself finallyfree.
Balloon SkyLake
Blowup balloon. Letairout. Bird is bird. Sky is sky.
Blowup balloon. Letairout. Fish is fish. Lake is lake.
Over&over until overblown Birdfish
&pop. swallowing
skylake.
WoodLand
Woodlandpulsing cleansweetmurmur DoTheMath
not the citybeat wesapien'sinure Joining largestchurch.
whileseekingprivacy fromallother Befriending thirtytwo penitents.
preventingsolitude anembrace couldconfer. Feeding onehundredfortyfour unhoused.
Self dividedby onehundredseventysix.
Woodlandawakening without a stir
to selflessbeings of feather&fur Becoming spiritstudent
sofar fromsapien's sordidsense studying tenncommandments
so oftenlost in futuretense. eightfoldpath
VishnuShivaBrahma.
Woodlandwhispering cicadawhirr Self dividedby twentyone.
dawnsunsuffusing withoutablur
light&dark great&small Quieting self with
owl&lark nothing&all. twentyminutes of stillness.
Self dividedbyall.
Don'tAsk
(Askedtoallow an ailing golfer
touse a cart.)
Rulesarearbitrary &therefore sacrosanct Flyingintheface of thepowers thatbe
ifyou can'twalkthecourse youcan't beranked knowing therebe nopower heavensent
amongthose whoaren't yourpeers beyondour reach beyond whatweteach
despitejudgment of pseudomerciful seers. elementalpower beyondconsent.
Let no actofgrace challengeour earthlywill Asked eachpetition mustbeanswered
or compassionbecomes desire'spimp. &theanswer mustalwaysbe a firm no.
Weep withfate but don'tdefythefact Felt wemust acceptallsuffering
oreach I becomes a moralgimp. acceptanceproved bybecoming theflow
Judgingjudge'swill unacceptable oftheriver of allbeing in transform'sgo
the ailingolferseeks a sanctionrare knowingeachwish as a selfishkiss
judging hisworth worth the exception that I must resisted in adamantshow
asif wechange rules whenthingsfeel unfair. permitting lesself as etherealbliss.
LineCalls WallBoard
His mathmind bitching Beingbashing whitewallboard flashing
aboutimperfection of linecalls wordlessmessage through thundercrashing
asif a perfectsystem couldturn with crescentgashing nightsky gonemad.
a flawed flesh&sweatmatch machinelike.
Rainpelt muchunsaid butfelt
In pride'sperfection eachball wouldslow in sensualmelt ofstorm illdealt
showingclearly if a line wastouched ornot. to sovereigns whohave neverknelt
Asif eachplayer becoming a machine
eachcall becoming cutdry&clean. to acknowledgeach theirfinalfreeing
from ourveil of starkunseeing
If youwish perfection tobe yourpartner beneath our unseemly cloakofself.
play yourgame against a wall
neverneeding tobear humanerror atall. WhatwouldGodchoose beyond day'shues
tobe unread byall undead
Better forebear yourpartner acrossthenet inHis vaindream of omnipotence?
whohits with heart &calls withsame
using heart'seye whileplaying with passion Then again sheetrock backdrop
using passion'spush toplay lesself'sgame. whilebuilding alife that canunite
sincebecoming eternity's secondsight
Waiting as elementalight of trainedlesself.
(Thanks T.S.Eliot
"FourQuartets".) ToDo
"I said to my soul, be still, and Beaverbusy
wait without hope notdoing anything.
for hope would be hope for the wrongthing;
wait without love, Engineerbusy
for love would be love of the wrongthing." buildingadam.
Andwait withoutfaith Honeybeebusy
forfaith wouldbe both love&hope notdoing anything.
&self
immortalized by self. Candymakerbusy
makingbonbons.
Nohope nolove nofaith nowaiting
lesself being transform's agentofchaos. Beaver&honeybee
notfearing anything.
Clinging
Clingingtoflotsam Engineer&candymaker
from afraid.
mysinkingship
or Waift&Whirr
breathingin Becomingbeing
oceanother as gardeniawaift
oceanall. as hummingbirdwhirr
as loon cry&dive
No act of faith. as purepassion's blurr
Noact atall. as eternity'sthrall
cawbird's dawnchatter
Noship. oakleaf dry&drop
No sea. leaves' silentscatter
Nosinking. seedcorn to suncrop.
No me.
Howtolove withouteverknowing
Aroused how tosufferall whilealwaysglowing
Aroused nonsapien reacting. mykiss yourbliss
yourgaze myhaze
Unfearing lifedeath's transforms mist climbingfalling
nothingtodefend bright waterspritedawn
simply steward of form. washed streamrock splashing
lapping lakebank fawn
Aroused sapien hesitating all&all in forgottenseeing
thinkingabout you&I as singularbeing.
losingself.
Brook
Lackingcertainty of self's Brook as Earthmother's song&dance
preservation waltzingthrough as meadow'strance
invoking faithope then dervishingdown as mountain'srants.
withitstepchild
fear. Brook flowing asif mother owing
tectonicduty in mindlessgoing.
Hide&Wool
A cow is nomore hide or leather And ifbychance & onlybyfate
than sapien'sfeel eachmovingplate
a sheep is wool or sweater. as evidencefor &foolproof of
all sensual as sentience
Both brutebeings living in transform &
as sin&sinless selflessness as reasonable
as beastsunbowed.
then (asnow&neverwhen)
Hide however &barewool asbrook filling mother'soceans
are each&both activesinning perhaps her cellsacs mayadmit
living as then transform'sbeing
dreaming of when beyond cellsuit'sfit.
being beastsbowed
by purpose. Camel
Camel
Tanning strippedhide if notrequired torest
makingyarn of barewool byhis owner
a secondarysinning willwork until
of seeking tobe he dropsdead.
a beltofleather
a woolensweater Overconditioned
toboth flaunt&hide youmaythink
our sapienhubris. or perfectlypenitent?
ThursdayDawnWalk
(Spring 2018.)
Dewlacedgreen above Sittingbelow honeysuckle
moist leaflitter flowerfragrance fresh to oder ofmy flesh.
no highwireact
just Yet pickedflowerfading &decaying
allbeing inaglance. as I decorate with deadlydisplaying.
Couldthatbe my stardust'sflame &finalfate
Thenwhen in or can I live&letlive as lesselfincarnate?
thisperfectnow ................................
with highwaynoise Lichen atmy leftknee
fromafar. bowed stemtassel spearingme
below a treeliving its secondlife
Rushingwater drapedinhoneysuckle
from deepgreenstill dreamory.
drowning cicada
singing Standing motionless at streamside
with springisnow addingstillness tomywandering.
&rain as how Sitting as I go becoming all I unknow.
ourforest learned ..........................
to sing. Bornas bits&pieces
given onelife tocomplete
Rich&richer mypuzzle ofbeing.
witheach passingday
thisworld withoutme Onlyborder donesofar.
in eternalplay. Perhaps inout oftime
..................... my landscape maytakeshape.
Dawn&dusk&dawnagain .....................
thisnow'swhen becoming Onepuddle nowtwo
thisnow'sthen. tirerutting regainingshape
highersun streamingdthrough.
Greenbladingseen beneath&through
dewcatching gossamerweb Dogprintcrater besidepuddle
below daiseystalks&highgrass tasseling mudrising rimming frompaw's subduction
withseeds soontobe shed mountainbuilding atmyfoot.
&certain togrow from Tinyspider exploringcrater
motherearth's womb climbing through caninepads
firstbreath finalbreath overedge&out.
allinbetween
stardust kidnapped Grassblades surroundingpuddle
by chlorophyllgreen dry mudcoated indignity
awaiting next downpour.
greenbeing motherearth'sun .......................
trapped in elementalmolecule Lostinwoods?
for me totransform to energy Hearing semitruckmoan&chainsawgroan
as stardustbecomes myfuel. clearly I'm notnearly deepenough.
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**BiggerFish** **Alpha**
Findingout BassProShop was biggerthan Cabelas Alphamale wolf
(buying them out from undermynose) having urinarytract troubles
wasn't as surprising as discoveringthat unable to markhisterritory
BPS is a subsidiary of Nabiscofoods inthe conventionalway.
whichisowned by CBS withis a shellcorp
foran undisclosedDODentity managed Needing togo literary
by Disney. byusing footnotes.
NoRoom
Walkingthrough Maygarden Nowhere roomfor
rows of red otherthanthis.
swirlsofyellow. ............
onewall Carrying our firstborn
lilacpruple sleepingsilently
lilacperfume sensingall¬hing
lilacperfection. lifedeath'sperfection.
Walkingthrough tornadogarden Carryingcasket ofmyspouse
rows of ruins sleepingsilently
swirlsofdebris. sensingnothing&all
Onewall lifedeath'sperfection.
burntblack
burntfoul Nowhere roomfor
burntperfection. otherthanthis.
Yesterday Taking
Lovelysong Taking perhaps tenyearsormore
butwho wouldwant for sweat&tears of practice&competition
tobeaccused of havingbeen to washaway chalkoutline ofmydays
bornyesterday learningthegame.
asif
all yesterdays asif today's Freeatlast tobebound by mytraining.
yesterday
revealed deepsecrets Only
of livingthegoodlife? Is myonlychoice
reasonable or divine
Take a shallowbreath whereach is rooting
confident thatyou'rcleaner inmymemory's shrine
for havingbeen sonear thisnow. while I breathein
while I breatheout
Who? lesself'sbeing
Who wouldleavefootprints withoutadoubt?
on the immaculateface of transform?
Alternatives to
Whatkind of criminal Aristotle or God
leavesevidence of histreachery being as language's
returning tothescene togloat lightningrod
asif havingfeasted onagoat unable tobe written
disgorging hisbooty spoken
tobeshared sung
incelebration butonlydanced
ofhis immaculateself? delirioustotruth
bytransform entranced
HardLife as eternalyouth
Beingtheball isa hardlife wherechoice islost
asis beingracket&strings. in dervishwhirling
of reality'sfervor
Betteryet &body's blindblurr
bethe kinetichain of lucidreaming
as racketstring during wakefulsleep.
as earthwaterairfire
in effortlesspace Snuffing
fromwhich theball Snuffingoutcandle. What a coward.
alwaysnever returns. Howcanmoth everachievetransform
withoutflame's heatofdecision?
WhySpread?
Whyspread butteronbread Lightcandles forall lostselves.
whenthewheat atethecow Lethemfind theirflame
whojumped overthemoon &burntheirclaim to lifeverlasting.
toprovidejam toenhance
yourbreakfast? Pity those aninstant toolate
findingonly a glowingwick
TimeSpent &waiftingsmoke.
Timespent by transform
is the notobviousnorm NeverFree
tothosetrue to ticktockclocks. Neverfree from cellsuit.
Neverliberatedfrom
Be dawndusk eating
hourglassand excreting
season'spassing washing
breath neverlasting working
be earthairwaterfire sleeping.
without the desire
tolive lockstep &neverinquire Yetfree tobeselfish
asto why thisnow is socompelling. within the lifedeathgame
without understanding
Clothing thecost of nobondage.
Worms wear earth
Fish wear water. Idolic
Birds wear air. Butterfly flying over riverflowing
Sun wears fire. fasterboth thanmy ambivalentgoing
alongthebank of neverknowing
I wearcells dogwoodblossoms from bubblingfoam.
boundbyself.
Pacingwith idylicstride
"Clothesmaketheman" alongtheway of iconsfalling
theysay sowithout branchesbroken from icestorm's weighting
earthwaterairfire inthistime of winter'shating
whatwould &thisplace of sunstream mating
wormsfishbirdsun be? yielding idolotrous idleoffspring
ona sodden fragrancefling
Withoutcells sexlesshybrids matingmad
whatwouldself be? inthis season between&being
Naked nervous embarassed? ambiguous both&bucolic.
Emptied&boring?
Savingsermon's for neverSunday
Elements watchingcaterpillar floatinginplay
as eiderdownstuffingofbeing above whitefroth below splashfrenzy
as engineers of eminence of neargreengrowth in raucousenvy
as executoroftransform opentowarmth closedto nearwinter
adding crawling swimming evenasdogwoods howl at halfmoons.
flying burningdancing
tothe actionpallete of allbeing So madgoing goeswithflowing
fillingtransform withthe stuffofchange onthis earlylate springwinterwalk
&toppingitoff withthe chimera of watchingworld whilebecomingsame
lifedeath. lostingrowing
foundwithoutname.
SnowStar
Snowstars drivenacross narrowindows Libraryorgym selfreeze or lesself tease
highabove my basketballcourt. littlechoice whilebeingtaught
Cometflashes throughexosphere choiceisall&allischoice.
cuttingthrough layers ofmycomfort.
Stopping&starting withouthesitation
Eachsnowstar sonear sofar coalescing asgalaxy nopackedsnow alongcourtbaseline.
eachgalaxy a singleatom eachatom anessay Grabbingrebound dashingon fastbreak
eachessay a classroom eachclassroom a campus asif asif something wasatstake.
eachcampus a park eachpark a start
eachstart anend eachend anexit Frictionenough tofake a defender.
eachexit anentrance eachentrance a presentense Frictioncnough todefend a faker.
each lushlandscape a singleflake Heatenough to pourour sweat.
each frozenflake a frozenstar Sweatenough to pouron shower
in narrowindow above
basketballcourt. then startlayering layeronlayer
holdinghood over hat hanging
Snowcoveredcampus througheachseason ofself until outexit &intostorm
inmy timeoflife withoutbalance on ice study&play my collegenorm.
hiddenbywhite waitingfor falsestep slip&go
slowingmovement throughbonecold Thus eachday of love&learning
tolibrary Thus eachday of life's slowburning
orgym. ofself to lesself turning.
Soul I'mSure
Soul is sapien's I'msure I'm in prison
desirousdream withoutknowing
of lifeverlasting sizeorshape ofmycell.
an allegedescape
from transformation Isit a shadesmaller
while increasing thanheaven
separation. orperhaps a bitbigger
thanhell?
Lacking
Lacking illusorymembrane of self I feelfree tobe
separatingall into this&that toan extent barely
mother&child is motherchild knowntome
life&death is lifedeath inmy iconladen
you&I is soilseed rootwater stateofshame
oceansky bloodpuddle being willfulcreator
beingmud of hut of forgottenself ofmyown privategame
withinwhichswirls thenchosing
action at a distance never toplay.
accomplishment withoutdoer
lifedeath intransform Knowingwithoutknowledge
unjudged perfect emptiness. certainwithoutfaith
thathat whichshapedme
When membrane'scontents is thatwhich I'llneversee
becomeself&consciousness inself'sblindness to other
wehave sindeath&powerofdevil in pride'skindness to self.
wehave PrometheusPandora&Eve.
So I walktheperimeter
AutoBiography until I tire&sit
Autobiography impossible &sit
asif mymemory pure &sit
asif attampting notalure &mycell becomes
toindulge mydesire formeaning semipermeable.
with naturenurture mysaboteur
livingwhat I cannot writeorsrong AlarmClock
myincoherent dance&song. Ourlanguage already
burdenedwithnouns.
Biographer atbest Thentheapple waseaten
tapestry morenet than fabricwall separationbecomingsin
whentruth contortedtoenthrall with fearofdeath
whenral thinwovencloth aspall its fatefultwin.
testimony totransform's selflessprawl
wherewill&want whoudhavital EmbracingFather
connected as arachnidweb. without a mother
allbeing split into
Atbest myweb a dreamcatcher self&other
catchingmyunconcious offguard with eternity'shands
wrappinginsilk for laterconsumption becomingthose ofaclock
nutrition formyflagging lesself. beginningmytick
beginningtheirtock.
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Fewercawbirds now. Washingbeneathroots
Songbirds eatingatfeeder. springdeluge creatingmud
Am I please orwhat? for blueskyhiking.
Landscapingstone pile Overlookinglake Oakbrown&ivy
needingtobespread herethere secondstorydecks awake &inbetween evergreen
causingme tosmile. duringwarm springdusk. decoratingdoors.
Meteorshower Splitwood pilednearporch Limbstrimmed bywinter. Clearcoldcobblestone
flappingbrown below lightblue below oakbranching moongaze Ourstream nolonger hidden butnear thestream comesthecloud
squawking astheyflew. &eachwindow wreathed. nor its foggybreath. fromeachbreath &its.
Waddlingtowater Whenwaterisclear Waddling whitewafting
swan slidinginto darkpond youcansee howthe swanmoves awkwardonlawn thengraceful
whitewaftingfrombank. orangewebbed&silent. thensplashing &flight.
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Apology
Startingapology of thisnow fornever
Westself arguingwithlanguage of thenwhen forever
over thatwhichlanguage canaccomodate trapped in God'svessel of toofragileglass
anemptied secondseeing beliefbeing sapienseeing seeingself
a tertiaryattempt atfreeing asif selfalone in each&everybeing
unacnoledgedself seduced by promisesoflove.
from inconceivablechaos ..............................
of transform'smeaninglessreality Starting sansapologetics
admitting noescape viareason EastWest at one withsilence
or fromemory'sdissolution. partwhole of transform's timelesseeing
freeing unknowing ineach immortalmoment
Dissolutionofmemory'sofme beingmyend tobebeyond thumb'sgrasp or tongue'sglossary
evenasothers immortalize then lesseparating asonly sapien'swill can&will
certainthatwhen it'stheirtime fromnature'sgyre a singlestill
what I label asdeath willbesublime nolongerworshipping icons of&in fear.
pouringthoughtsoul
ghroughpores of divinity Did dessert ever tastesweet
into I's seaofimmortality. withoutassurance of heaven
while I practiced by selfishalchemy
An assumption laidbare of eatingmycake&havingit too?
asif God wasalwaysthere
asthesolution withinwhich Mysolution wasthere allthewhile
belief spills its preciousolute as dissolution ofmy defenses.
insoluble toreason Sansbelief ofany alchemy
suspendedforever unknowingonly the chemistry
in sapien's saltsea between you&me.
Better
Better tohave grownup fatherless When atedgeof sloughing cellsuit
than tobefathered forever. in corporealsuicide
seeing perfectillogic of sufferingself
Better tobe apart feeling bafflingparadox of lesself
thanto trytogrow becoming emptyall of transform.
in faith'shadow.
Witnessing self'sdream of mypersona
Bettertob shattered to bits&pieces in a cosmos
large&lust lackingthegravity wecall love.
totallyselfish
beingsins of allother Itwasnever a synthesis
beingsavior of allseen. compromise
middleorcenter.
Then unsung&unloved
becoming inorder Itwasnever a dichotomy or trinity
curmudgeon evenwhen lesself wasobscured
misanthrope byan oversheeningfather
hermit passionatedrama of eachson
recluse or smoke&mirrors
madman. of a mastermagician.
FirstCasualty As I Am
The firstcasualty As I amgod tomydog
of faith islove I wonder ifhe expects lovingmercy?
as I believe is I believing Shall I sparetherod
anyallthings butyou. or trainhisbody
or betteryet trickhisintellect?
Penitent lateforchurch
hurryingpast Whatkindoflife shall I promisehim
the unhousedbeing for unquestioning obedience
then praying inapew oneof pleasure orperhaps
filledwithlonliness. oneof unfetteredfreedom
(within domestication)?
If faithbemybridge
to hopedfor perfectbeing As I amgod tomydog
then betterto leapinto I wonder ifhe expectsalvation
transform'sflow or wouldhe confusethat
tobesweptaway with salavation havingbecome
whereself can'tknow a conditionedresponder?
¬knowing lesself
canbobforever in Wouldhe earn heavenhell
whitewater&still bybehaviors ory faithalone?
with nohint ofwill
towant thefaith Shall I offerasavior
toswim toeither a squeakyduck orperhaps a stick
highdrybank. or wouldhe behappier
with a halfeaten hamburger?
Cruise
Thisfirst quietcruise Shallow asbelieving is
on stillake of mydreaming &asdeep asdoubt candig
beingreal&soperfect heseems toknow withcertainty
inmyage of noscheming. whatismine &whatishis.
Moment athand but neverheld WaterMelon
in headorheart of creaturesocelled Howcan one watermelonseed
butfree sotoshriek from illusions of freedom draw 200,00X itsweight fromearth
inaworld of desire I cries "I don'tneed'em" becoming its surface&substance
whilesuccumbing tothedream bearing its prenatalself hundredsoftimes
ofthis firstquietcruise inalove thatwaslost within?
while I payed allitsdues.
Howcouldthis be otherwise?
Hooked Howcouldthere be a why?
Hooked onhigh
of newunderstandings. Twosimplecells merginginto
generationsofdivisions with
Newunderstandings transformblushing
warningagainst selfishness earthairfirewater hushing?
whichself wouldleadme
tounderstandneed tostill Andme from twosimplecells
myseeking understanding. an infant's smear of fingerpaintcolors
a child's stickdrawing
Noparadox. No oxymoron. a personalmemory creating my self
No shenanigans. selfishlyasking howorwhy
............ elementalbeing wouldburdenme so
UnKnowing after somany divisions needingtosubtract
Knowingneed to stopknowing somuch ofmy accretion.
circlingreason becoming circularsoaring
buzzards above nooseknot Needingtobecome the voluminouspurity
formingfrom circulareasoning. of the watermelon
barelymorethan sugarocean
Fortunately knowingknowledge unneeding to seek a magicpotion
unknows futilityofseeking asif me searchingforstill.
motivatingpractice tostillness
within thiseternalnow.
Conditioned
Asif brutesapien couldbeconditioned Havingoverlearned efficientgathering
tisalivate whenseeing dollarsigns. becomingthrall to conditionedstimuli
couponcounting
Simple unconditionedstimulus bargainchasing.
survival to huntergatherer
simple unconditionedresponse Havingoverlearned efficienthunting
eat becomingexpert
don'tbe eaten corporateraider
reproduce. cuthroat trader
brutal DarthVader.
Havingoverlearned backdoorpass
beyondreflex instinct habit Havingoverleanred efficientbodilydefense
sensingfromwitning whatso ofte becoming expertdefender of self
signalled fromwithout pseudoapology alwaysontongue
me bouncepassing to ourband. swiftly puttingothers undermythumb.
Misunderstood
Godell misunderstood byapoet:
Choosingtobe consistent
self is served certainty.
Unchoosingtobe complete
lesseparation becomes lesself.
Poetry of Godell :
Choosing nodoubt
I mustbe without.
Viewfromabove
toodistant for love.
.......................
Marriage as Godel'skoan
Who wouldream &in thatdream
sacrifice lifeternal's eternalight
for sensualife of nocturnalsight
withintransform's selflesswomb?
Whowouldforego distancetosee
for warmbutblind intimacy?
Basketball LoquaciousCell
Basketball is WhenGod lookedaway
neither basket myDevil cametoplay
nor ball. creating a cellsuit thatcouldspeak.
Itis quiteaccurately
nothingatall. Insteadoftissues
thesecells formingissues
Not floor not score arguingeven beforetheyknew
not headlines not folklore thatheyalone couldn'thave a clue
not beginning middle or end ofwhat wasme
not thistaht but being a blend &
of headfakes&fastbreaks whatwasyou.
of dribbledrives&highfives
of pick&rolls&threepointgoals Sensingseparation dealinginreparation
of timeontheclock&sweatinmyjock eachneuron reachedout totouch another
of hardfouls&easyfreethrows tellingitsbrother its taleofwoe
halfcourtraps where anythingoes ofbeingalone with nothingtoknow
of alleyoops&hunderhandswoops
of backdoorcuts&butterfyguts exceptwhat'sensed in presentense
of pregamechalktalks&defensiveballhawks thenfiltered&stored mixed withthehorde
of layupsmissed&cheerleaderskissed ofmemory's fromthen &ofwhen.
&somuchmore onlife's slipperyslope
of lesselfplayinig withoutahope Butalk ischeap &eachneuron'sweak
of beingmore or beingless without frontbacking of trainedlesself
thananyphilosopher wouldattest an aggregateGestaldt
is a symphonicsynergy unjudging withoutfault
of welltrained leaving separationdwindling
energy. becoming earthairwaterfire's
kindling (oflove).
**SuperBowl** **Full**
What'sallthefuss I couldnever achieve
about howmanysnacks the fullotus posture
the superbowlQB willhave? for meditation.
Chickenwings are de regueur Withmyhips
&chips&dip are also expected I couldn'teven contort
(in a "super" bowl?). into a halflotus.
But doesn'theQB havenough But whilenapping
"onhisplate" toworryabout snacks? I'm adept at the
fullfetus.
Howmany snaps he'lltake?
Howmany sacks he'lltake? And I candoit
on eitherside.
OK. Nevermind.
LonelyCell
WhenGod lookedaway withbrain builtwithabasement
myDevil cametoplay of greaterthan infinitestorage
creating a cellsuit soseparate with a hometheater toview MyPast
untouched
alone &anattic artist'sudio
butwith ohsomany a clone of greaterthan infiniteforage
each withabilities hihterto unknown withapalette topaint MyFuture
to imprison allthens
to creat manywhens &asecuritysystem sosensitive
eachall for relievingthelonliness no sanebeing couldpossible live
ofeach wimplepure thisnow. withits warninglights&sirens
constantly flashing&blaring
Wasit GodorSatan
filleing patheticsapien'skull makingit allbutimpossible
with a babelingbrook for loving&sharing&caring?
of tsunamicforce
derivingenergy from WhenGod lookedaway
self'sownsource myDevil cametoplay
beginning my with curtainclosing
wayward journey onan emptystage.
onits willfullcourse
Reminiscing NestMaker
While indulging in reminiscing Mylife as nestmaker
conjuring what I mayhavebeen missing weaving bits&pieces of
painting mypast in shadesofself this&that from then&when
I create a past builtolast preparing for hope
eachallstorms of other. living a dream
wakinghours not whatheyseem
Shotaken wasanopenlook I thought with futureperfect preventingmating
while trustingmystroke tobepure of an actofimpulse
quitecertain mywill was secure with
before reality's thunder &torrent anyact of now.
judgedmyshot as selfish&abhorent
longlost whethermade or missed. Withnofledgling tofeed
from my pregnantself
Thinking I becomeplump
When I think fillingmynestcompletely
I'm part of something allowing noother.
when I think
I'Mnot separate&alone SuperMan
I (Thanks "KillBill Vol. 2"
am. themovie.)
Batman isalways BruceWayne.
Caterpillar&butterfly Ironman isalways TonyStark.
unknowing this&that They dontheircostumes tohide
arealways theirtrueselves.
caterfly&butterpillar.
Superman ontheotherhand
Gain isalways Superman
Self wantsto shoutpraise hiding inhis fauxidentity as ClarkKent.
kisssomething of substance
giveform torapture His phonebooth being forgetting
name it hold it hug it become it withinwhich he stripshiscostume
laugh withit cry withit touchthestuff toreveal lesself.
of impotentlove.
Exposinglesself
Butinthese ecstaticrecollections superman disappearinginto
self ishere &itis otherwise his naturalstate of eternaltransform
distance of penciltopaper (neither super
distractionofwords. noratall sapien)
beingalien to superheros ofself
Andinthese joyousmemories who dependon personality tosee
self is self &alone beingblind to stillness.
a thoughtfulbrain
an emtpyheart Whirr
eachatonceboth whirr
substantial
& whirr
inconceivable.
Augustwoods breathingdeep
Yet letme sing alone the embers with burningair makingnopeep
of lastevening's festival of lostsouls sourwoodstarting their bloodredseep
asmyashes becomeagain poplars mimicingsun.
my soprofane self.
Counterpoint to cricket'swhirr
Judgment fistsized horseflies inablur
Witheredbeing otherinsects beginningtostir
emergingfrom prehistoricave theirsongs intothis latesummerfun.
of grieveing
punctuating hisdeep selfhate Caterpillars outostroll
by preying onall gentle&loving. across stoneroad with unknowngoal
selflessmovement toward emtpyknoll
Hisaccusations anonymous notdoing thatwhich canneverbedone.
heardonly bythose whochoose tofuss
asproof ofpower oftheir verysmalbeing Grasshoppers hopping in fitfulflight
with truepaoer resising in silentunseeing. shoetops to chest high in miniaturemight
yet somehow heroic its limitedheight
Judging allworlds ofother unclean injump withoutarun.
witheredbeing'sworld shrinking
becomingobscene My woundedself wanderingaimlessly
whileliving amongshadows inaworld of sun my focusedmemory flamingour famously
whilecringing infear inhis desparaterun in facelessface of forest namelessly
to growbeyondreams of heroic drama until thisday be eternallydone.
of ceasingthepain ofself's unduetrauma
hopingtohear life'smusic learnlife'sdance Auschwitz
becominglost in love'srhythm &lesself's Remembering Auschwitz.
soft trance. Relivingthepain.
Livingthesame.
BassJump
There I am kayakwings as fishersings
watching line's surfacedot cloudbluesky to distantlooncry
slice to jumpoint
as bass explodes upward withmymemorywatching
toshake mybait &escape. theone thatcame unbuttoned lastspring
theone biggerthan tocome nextspring.
Me tryingtobe
linesurfacedot Goneagain tomyheart'sdesire
lake storedshards forme toconvince
bass myself
bait thathiseverhappened
jump
joy asif
&me ofcourse
freezingeachmoment I couldwitnesspurely
for thawing&cooking burningmybass in
freezerburned defrostsog creamatorium of hisnow
withoven preheating becoming lifedeathless
till spattering mylast recollection thenscattering
fillingkitchen with fishweedbreath. ashes
of bass&my self
Then bassjumping into cloudbluesky
lakelinesurfacedeep &
sunspraysplash&play distantloon'scry.
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