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Abovebeyond night Deeplobed TurkeyOaks
treetops alreadydawnlight. embracing foramoment
Thickmist overlake. until the nextbreeze.
Doors windows. Noroof. Jack-O-Lantern moon Sixteenwheel eclipse.
Blownoff in yesterday's storm. floatingthrough barebranchingcrowns Car truck earthtwice staticsun.
Doors windows open. tomy frontporchsteps. Dancinghighway fun.
Throwingawaywatch. Deer crossingour road A single redoak Dirtroad. Barbs. Brightoak.
Retirednow there's nothingmore. headingfor our veggiegarden still vibrant amongbarelimbs. Steppingonvines intowoods.
Sun moon season'sfour. aswe drivetostore. Howdoesit holdon? Steppingovervines.
Beforebowlrefills
cleaningoff some stickypoo.
Then flushingagain.
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PhotolphylicFall
Mydog photophobic in summer safe inmyownlight
photophylic after fall'sfirstfrost whereyou areboth day&night
hotbloodedlogic being mystery&threat.
her lovesickexistence. .................
Throwingstick. Dog in coolingretrieve.
I burdened with coldbloodedreason Me drinkingbottledwater . She slurpinglake.
chosing withmygreat thinkingorgan
(neversuspecting it originalsin) She in unchosenwalk neverever apartfrom.
stayingaways inlight Eachwalk eternallyundone.
shade beingdark
dark beingnight Me fightingforlife
night beingdeath. fortifyingmybeing
against transform'slaw.
She nonknowingbeginningendings ...........................
seekingwithoutwanting My harshlight scorching in photophylicbeing
shadewhenwarm sufferingmelanoma of skindeepdesiring.
sunwhenchilled
wanderingnorthsouth My heatedsight forging in photophobicbeing
onour forestpathwalk a darkchamber for myself's anxiouskeep.
responding to season'srhythms.
Her allbeing eachthisnow
She coolinginsummershade warminginwintersun. neverquestioning whyorhow
Me fearingsensing&lossofsame neverseeking self'sreprieve
with no dogwalking aftermy briefblink. prancingrpoudly with eachretrieve.
She obyingsenses Strobbingwithseasons
maintaininghomeostasis winterspringsummerfall
naturally. withinout boundlessall.
............................
Me in supernatural see Loving&fearing
bludgeoninghomeostasis fromafar or fromwithin.
brashfully Twoways of being.
ShotMissed Newton-v-Newton
Undefendedshot missed. Playingpool duringfreefall.
Simplicitylost tophysics.
I mybody beingperfection
of trainingsansblaming Dozingontrain.
transform as outcome. Passingcar passingbus.
Complexitylost to inattention.
If myself beinginterjection
better interdiction Wakingasdestination.
of memory offended. Washinginwake
of myownmomentum.
History
Flowers sansfragrance. Flipping
Music sansound. Flipping coinofate
Colors sansight. duringfreefall.
Food sansflavor.
Sex sanstouch. You makethecall.
Heads I win. Tails youlose.
Memory sansreality. Andwewait. Andwewait.
Thenwhen sansthisnow.
Apple
Death sansdoubt. Holdingapple withfingers.
Life sanslove. Offeringit toher.
HeadCoach She usingfingers
Headcoach beginningtograsp.
lostin chalkdust.
He lettingo toosoon.
Bodycoach drilling She graspingtoolate.
untilhead nonwilling
bodystilling Apple fallingtoground.
in dervishdance .............................
of forgottenmust. He placingapple onhispalm
offering.
Sound'sEcho
If memorybesound Who'dhavethunk
is self sound'secho that I couldsnapoff
remindingnow of imminenthen? tiptop of fifteenfootpine
bowingbeforeme
If ripplingbesurface onmy minterhike?
does still liebelow
streamingwithoutmoving Fallingthrough emptywhitesky
as transform'sflow? seenonly when notcaught in palmofpine
pinebeing greenscreen neededtosee
Glove's flaws arefingers. tinylfakesfluttering in randomdesign
Mitten'sflaw isthumb. creating crystalcobwebs ocillating
Holdingthumb withinmitten in forestfloorbreeze.
is lonedigit love smitten.
DimmerSwitch BriefNow
My enlightenment Wereyouexpecting being
surely on dimmerswitch. withinwhich lesself is partwhole
tobe enjoyed
Whenseeking clearsightedbliss oreven recognized?
whywould I darechance
gaslighting blindness? TIMEOUT.
Letdawn be Basketball passing
brightmoon lightletting asif byteamate to teamate.
or newmoonmisty.
Asif therewasan I tosee
Ifonly I werefreetosee toknow.
hand turningknob.
Lesself swelllingin now.
Praying Shotmissed rebounded.
Praying is sin Outletpass happening.
howevercompassionate
indoing I amfound TIME(neveragain)IN.
inbeing allislost.
Perhaps withintransform
Pick&roll executed lesself canenjoy thatbeauty.
however welltrained
indoing allislost. RIP/LIP
I remembers
Pick&roll happening. hopingtobe remembered.
Vanityseeking eternalife.
Image
MadeinGod'simage? Buthere's norest in remembrance
withyou carryingme
Whatajoke throughinsomnia.
cuz I'm neitherthis northat
tooth&nail Butif I trains
&/or tobe lesselfish
loose&frail perhaps lesself
appendix a worthless can LiveInPeace.
appendage
haireverywhere Yips
butwhere I want it Deceleration duringdownswing.
glasses for failingeyes Yips whiletrying toputt.
hearingaids nosurprise Shortarming freethrow.
& Not callinghisraise.
irrepressiblepenchant Unabletosay
for desire. "I love you."
**Town**
Therewas a newsign Townconcil was workingon
on Highway40 an appropriate "Attraction(s?)"
that wouldhavebeen debating the burialsite oftheir
betterserved haditbeen foundingfather FransicanFriar
Highway66 inthe 50's. GeorgeSmite (circa 1987) &/or
Smite'sCreamery Bakery &BowlingAlley
Therewas a verysmalltown including sevenlanes with automatic pinsetting
proud that it hadearned (eliminating some decentpayingjobs)
a giantgreen info font &beerframestrikes serving nonalcoholic creampuffs.
for listinglodgings
&attractions. But theywereunanimous
in leadingoff "Restaurants" listing
Havinglittle to offer with MaFerdy's
the Lodging part CrawfishShack&BeautySalon
was leftempty homeofthe
though MayorSmite Crustacean HairDo Fondue.
hadconsidered advertising his sister's
atticbedroom as an historic That theyreckoned wouldbring
Bed&Breakfast. tourist's flocking.
MissingMemory
When - warp. lesself has practiced forever
Then - weft. lesself has trained fornever
Weave knittingmemory emptiness knownonly
into languagepatterns byimmortals learningtheirsoul
(poems?) distinct
of selfunnatural differenthanother
therefore everlasting. separatefromwhole
whichself hadpromised
To notbemortal. as rewardfordistinction
What emptiness. facing facelessness.
....................
Not emptied ness Betterthefullness of lifedeath
memorylost toamnesia unknowing thoughtextinction as priceof
thisnow dancingdance lessdistinction.
TrainToMKE
Catchingtrain fromcollege pick&roll
at 6AM Saturday. fastbreak
Trainstopping onlyifyouwaved run&shoot
with yourfreehand. reach&foul
sweat&forget
RidingacrossIllinois whileplaying jumprope
anticipating Sundayreturn. withmy umbilicalcord.
Flat brown joyless.
Then Saturdaynight
Goinghome both rite&wrong inwomb ofthen
feelingyouthfleeting allanswersknown
seeingcityshrinking nogrowth athand.
rollingin on elevatedtracks
asif in prohibitionChicago If GreenBayPackergame wouldneverend
suffering trainchange in UnionStation then return wouldbe a dream
asif discipleofSanburg separation a forgottenightmare
instead of weekendboy timewouldstill
of kettlelakes corn painwouldcease
&acresofcows. &trainwouldn'tcall
for thecrawl to Chicago
Then to citycenterYMCA then acrossIllinois
tohold my appealingcourt flat brown utterlyjoyless.
for a couplehours of basketball.
Truly homeagain ineternal Backatcollege facingMonday.
Christians Full
Christians carvingcrosses. Lungsfull
Greeks definingimagination. inaninstant
Industrialrevolution firingnails. of perfectstill.
Science sinkingnails
intocertitude. Lungsempty
Sapiensremembering inaninstant
a songunsung. of perfectstill.
I Must Between
I must hatehate lifedeathin lifedeathout
&dosomething aboutit. transform withoutdoubt.
Anythingatall inmy righteouszeal. .....................
Onlyself &selfalone
I must actout couldhope tohold suchstill
rightingallwrong withanact of selfishwill
givingfaithwill during notime
tomake mydesires of hopelessness.
real.
Firsts
Onlythen can I Water
sleepinpeace. asmywomb
willess
ToDo wantless.
What todo Earth
whilewaitingfor ourmiracle
whom? loverofgreen.
Air
Whatosay as heir to
whenwhom chlorophyll&carbon's affair.
arrives? Fire
trappedasfood
Afterwords Sol tamed&glued.
canweplay? ......................
Membrane
Or mixtea moleculesmeeting
with smalltalk asifmating
until nomore tosay? surrounding primalsoup
becoming fence&gate of being.
UnNamed
Unnamedtoy unseen Movement
bychildren insensate photoantithesis
insea of familiarity. becoming tropist apotheosis
with ciliasensing
Sapienself trainedyoung willingwanting
trainedsadly warmth&light
to alphabet asonly reality. becoming life.
Rattling
Rattlingrusting pickuptruck ona raredayoff fromhis
clankingaround oursmallake keychain of jobs.
deliveringnewspaper Drivingby nodding
to preinternet retirees. proud that wedidn't ask
Depositingoutsideworld if hebelonged.
to racoonsizegarage belowmailbox
atop post with woodcarvedwelcome Or walkingby noddingaffably
framedbyhoneysuckle. while checkinghiscatch
forbass we'dhavehim throwback
Delivering to affluentcommunity forus to recatch&release
of golfers fishers winedrinkers forhim to kill&eat.
talking portfolios&cruises
from pubs to pontoonboats. I'd havehim buy foodforeating
Keepingup with stockprices&sportscores but hisfamily doesn'tknow
as ammo for duskpalaver. gamefish from panfish
All providedby his predawnclanking. from storeboughtfish
but knowstoowell
Clamoringaround ourlake hungerfromfull.
deliveringtothose who maynever
speaktohim or talkwith him Each AAM dutifullycirclingourlake
except throughpen at Christmas doinghis workbeforework.
or peripherally bycomplaint Rattlingalong deliveringnews
phoned tohisboss. tofuel ouropinions or perhaps
simply todistractus fromour aging
Seeinghim bankfishing &thelikes ofhim.
without ourcommunityID
LookingForward Hanging
Havingtrainedself Hangingfrom mycrossofself
tosee threepointshot behindme lambsofdesparation
aftermissingcutteraftercutter. beyondme sheep grazinginstill.
Christmaswillcome Me nailedfree tobe both/&
soonenough if unwillingtosee
& if forgettingmemory
December26th. ifthen unwantingtowill
ifwhen unwillingtowant
Field ifnow becoming
Field extendingacrossIndiana. love'simplevow.
Chillwinds through grainelevatore&silos
buffetingfarmhouse&outbuildings NonSense
despite displacedevergreen surround. Wouldthatitwere wesped
wouldthatitwere wewed
Asifcozy withinouremptiness swellinginswelter
we urbanites boringthrough of whitecap&redapron
on concretestreaming neverbecoming solitarymatron
with silentscreaming lessea moremountain thanmistress
onourway from firstkiss to lovemissed invalley of constantdistress
onourway to myway to hersay beingtime toconfess
alongthis forelorn highway. mypassionspent where I went
for a cupofgrief rhymingwiththeif
ofall I hadhopedtolove.
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Latespring lovemaking Earlysummersex Egg&sperm joining.
enveloped in ourpassion serving eachother's passion. Passionbeing their grandchild.
mergingwitheachkiss. Kiss &pillowtalk. Eachkiss now&this.
Seeing redorchid Lake's joyous weeping
with without beauty sex scent. defying earth'smassiveself.
Just thisnow &all. Ghosts risingfromwomb.
Thanksgivingdinner. Cheetah Impala Awakenedbywind
Stuffing passedaroundtable eating flesh grass insamefield while rainfalling heavy straight.
again&again. in timeofplenty. Treecrowns unmoving.
Sunset&moonrise Morningmist birdsongs
&everythinginbetween or am I asleep dreaming?
allhappening now. Threecrow's racouscaw.
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DarkCars
Darkcars on asphaltlot timefor self'secondsin now
undergray postChristmas sky exchangedfor self'snewskin
promisingnothingnew ineach promising thick&thin
newoldawn oldnewdusk. whiledealingwith
identicaltwin
Yellowdiagonals between
ordering shinyeggs innocenselost
into fourwheelorder. futuretossed
Shoppers exchanging into transform'sgyre of
otherforself childhoodyearning
preludetoresolutions of love adolescentchurning
beginningnewyear of indulgence. matureburning
ofeach rashresolution
Exchangingpromises of sacrifice tonever relive
forgettingwhentaking Child'sbirth
unforgivingwhilefaking Father'sgirth
asif mistaking thenforwhen emptiedworth
I forother of all¬hing
now forif afterexcising
vow fornever December twentyfifth
transformingreceipt intoself. &Januaryfirst.
...............
Between Holysecular.
promiseofChrist then Mending longbefore blending
promiseofresolution when my self withother.
NotQuite GoodFaith
Notquite fullmoon Goodfaith failing
but all&onlymoontonight infaceof demandingme
with nocomparison in thoughtorsight. taking quickshot
Thismoon lessmight beingperfectlyright. before testingtheirD
thus restingtheirD
Sunlightstill &allways will disappointing eachotherme.
bebright &each moonfull
(thoughoftenabsent tothose witheyes Soitgoes
&those repletwith then's&whys) goodfaith becomingfailure
beamingself when desiredemands whenlost within goodintentions.
me beingsomewhere always
but notquite where I mostwant.
Hell Hide&Seek
AbsenceofGod'slove? Mydog so differenthan
Absenceoflove? whenplaying hide&seek
Absence? alwaystartingsearch
Separation. wherehefoundmelast
thensecondlast &so on.
C&E
Cause&Efeect I fishfirst whereI've
causeffect caughtfishbefore
withintransform's samelure
elementalslurry? samepresentation.
Causeffect Perhapsmydog
withinearth's asclever asme
untendedgarden expectingsameresult
of organicunity? if expecting atall.
Causeffect Me beingschooled
withinthought'sclarity predicting similaresults
of housesalad ingredients? if predicting atall.
........
Causeffect Anyway I havetobegin
crueljoke somewhere
whileating inmy doggedpursuit.
pizza.
Mold
Whatof eachmold in Pompeii's deathfields tochange eachthis into allthat
after franticfleeing from phantasmic force with lifedeath being its toolofchoice
threateningeventransform with coolingfusion?
whileknowing sapienself in polysyllabicglow
Was eachself filledwithdesire wishingtoshow as polyphonicrainbow
before pyroclasticflow frozethemforever withonly gas&ash remaining.
in meltedmineralmesh? And myempty mold.
Are any of Pompeii's dead livingasif instead Fillingwithempty havingemptied muchof I
havingleft emptiedbeing as being'acast emptycast emptiedcast whocanknow
fullofthenothing theymayhavebecome what was/is time'strick whenfinding
iftrained tolesself &self'subtlenumb my undigestedremains?
......................
havingavoided paroxysmicflow RuinsofPompeii havingmoretosay
from limbicmilieu as reason'sfoe thanimagination canhopetobear
findingnil in liquidswill havingseensadly sansdivinity'sanctity
having nevereverknown truesorrow? what'salwaysthere forthose sanscomplicity
.......................... notnaming nonwilling training tobe less
Whatofmold ofmydecaying sans faithope purposemeaning
destroyed (I hope) proud I finallypaying havingalready become ash inreality'sflaming.
for hordingsun whileblantantlydisplaying
mypeurile parasiticself. Canmymoldering becomemyth or dream
leavingnocast in loessorloam
Trainingtotransform in thisnow'growth beingleft toroam havingmade a home
when facingeternity's certainoath in erosion'swind &transform'sgyre?
InsideOutside Inout
Insideoutside Forabout 2,000years
isthere a difference God FatherSonHolyspirit
inlove? havebeen bouncingabout
on feltcarpet ofsapien
Fullypermeablemembrane fashion&passion.
havingnobrain noknowing
nojudging nochoosing. Forabout 1,500years
among lesserselfs
Transformpassing inouthrough earthfirewaterair
from nowhere to nowhere hasbeen breathed in
without slightesripple breathed out
causebyanysubstance breathed in
or myemptyingself. breathed out.
Corrupter Twinkle
Memory brains'corruptor Twinkletwinkle in daddy'seye
defiler of fact minionofme hoping anotherflame tolight
innocent evenwhen caughtintheact largeorsmall
of creating my self fromall that I lack. dimorbright
from transform'sgrace &eachstar'sight.
Memory brain'sconstructor
creator ofme imagination setfree Twinkletwinkle littlestar
to neverbe present as transform'sabsentee singlefirefly in giantjar
heavensent from synapticsea. boundfordim boundforblight
certain torise certain tofall
Memory brain'siren fromsin of eachdelight.
opinion's ofme while seducingreason
guiltyalways whencaught in treason Twinkletwinkle untilburningout
of thenwhen overnow transform'sbeing withoutadoubt
whennow is all&only. that childrengrow&parentside
withorwithout love'sgoodbye.
**McGuire's62nd**
Ofall themusic I enjoythemost Nowbeingthetime torelease mydiversion
Beethoven's 5th stands secondbest tossing fourpracticeballs I'dbeensaving
to McGuire's 62nd ballade ofahomer intothecommotion of armwavingocean
startinglikethis &here'stherest. me focusinghard whileothers wereraving.
Never reallyseeing his historicswing Comingdown tome &a whitehaired oldwoman
onlyhearing solidsounding crackofthebat sixtyish&wirey with narrowgreeneyes
&spotting a kid onhis longballtrack &a glove like a herringnet hairnet combo
then me trackinghim bythe backofhishat me cuttingherangle despite expletivecries.
whilebumping a beerhound oblivious to homer Luckily relentlessboy'shead was humongous
addingsuds tothe gatheringstorm of inhumanity hat&glove heldhigh blocking light stars &moon
while boxingout a mook keepinghim onmyhip allsucking intocowhide a baseball blackhole
while elbows beingthrown in fanaticintensity. blockingview of landingsphere & foulmouthedgoon.
Two backingoff onseeing firstblood Fromthatmoment on allbecoming a blur
me reachinginvain for a kid withaglove perhaps shewasfirst at grabbing prizedball.
knowingthen forcertain I'd begoing barehanded Mylawyers assuringme hercase lackedstanding
giving preteen competitor my gentlest shove that herwrist mayhavebroken duringherfall.
sendinghimheadlong intohisfather Judge beingSolomon hisruling true
who trippedover hiswife whilecocking hisfist against allothers with theirbogusclaims
me leapingremorseless overnuns in a row foreach ofthierspheroids was monographed myme
gaining neededistance so dad'swing wouldmiss. myballalone making hallof fame.
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Butheboy beingrelentless wasup inaflash Thinkingback tothechase the melee&madness
stoppingbriefly tosearchfor his fallenmitt a fewbucksmade notwithstanding
before climbingover hismother&dad both the essence beingbrotherhood wesapiens ofsummer
&backinto thefray inabit ofafit. with sofew bonesbroken sofew puncheslanding.
Beauty
Allbeauty beingautumn Beauty's seaonslesseasonful season
never summerwinterspring. of all&everything of rununtilstill
Allbeauty ephemeral of mutedvoice&blindedsight
alwaysdying onthevine. aftersummer of heightenedsense
of world havingflown frombounty toblight Budpetaleaf of lifealways in transform'spresentense.
gonewithgeese
gonewithouthought Allbeauty becomingfall finallyfalline&dead.
remembrance or belief. Allbeauty leaflitter coveringeachead.
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Beauty's seasonless season Seeingbeauty creatingbeast
of allornone with stillontherun puttingbite inlife's Bacchuslikefeast.
of flyingwithgeese beyond speed&sound Living&loving eachmoment ofthis
allhonking passinginto thinair beingbeauty&beast ineach singlekiss.
of barefootwalk over frosthardground
across cornstubblefield to whoknowswhere. Then barrentobud again.
BeingCaulk
Water Love
tranform's most relentless agent being lesseparation
inits strikingnoncycling becoming softhard inits
woodrotting breathlesscertainty
ironrusting breathingdesert's chillheat
earth eroding tomeet ifnot exceed
knowinghow toget through eachevil selfalone
toget to canconjure.
asif
selfishsentient onattack Love as transform as eternalreality
in defenseofsoddenself. nonperfection beyond
hardestscience
Caulkcancram dryest logic
most interstices mostcertain facts
beatingwater at its owngame &faiths
stayingmoist pulsingchillheat whilemeeting&exceeding
beingsoft all goodevil being caulk'spurecure.
remaingpliable. ................................
Defyingreason
Yet ifdrying dismissingtruth
hardening&shrinking realitysoaking mybeing
becomingfissure in sentientswamp of lessdistance
itwastasked tofill butfor hardeningself
becoming itsownbeing's will. willing&wanting
asif
Hardening as stuffofself desert betheway.
liferotting
liferusting Caulk
liferoding balmofmycellsuit
wherelovealone baneofmyself
can slowdesication being wetdry inits softestsigh
until evaportionbyheat whisperinghush in yieldinglesself.
as persistenceasliquid
cycles softnessofcaulk Yet indesert
longpast efficacy without chipping&stripping
needing reapplication. hardening love until
................... noseam canbe repaired.
Indesert
evenlove willdryout. Fear desertofdesire&defense.
OhBrother
(OhBrotherWhoArtThou themovie.)
OhBrother being GeorgeClooney There's treasuretotrack if I never unpack
havingcheatedfate facing devil'sgate tobefound if&onlyif I neverlookback
fleeing fromto treasure&who giddyup or slowingdown
I mighthavebeen ormay yet become. dressingup or wearing a gown
thrownup or wearing a crown
Trackingdown freightrain shownup or wearing a frown
hoping for freeride. tooabrupt or becoming a noun
Chuggingalonginevitably countingonluck or becoming a clown
with fullheadofsteam filling a cup or beginningtodrown
chasing or beingchased interupt or eiderdown.
by hopefaithpurposemeaning
alltrapped inmy selfishdreaming Failed&jailed forbeing who I wasneverwas
of whatwhywhen failed&jailed for nondoing what I neverdoes
eachperhaps a bettebet whenbeing lesself thanthat whichis seeking
thanwhat I remember asthen. piquinginfinding treasureneversought
thatcertainly can'tbefound inthought
only fallenfor in familyaslove.
Meditation
Onetwothreefourfivesixseven octobernovemberdecember january
eightnineten onetwothree fourfive februarymarchapril may junejulyaugust
sixseveneightnine ten onetwo septemberoctober novemberdecember
threefourfive sixseven eight nineten spring summerfall winter springsummer
onetwo threefour fivesix seveneight fallwinterspring summerfall winter
nineten mondaytuesdaywednesday springsummer fall winter dawnlight
thursdayfriday saturdaysunday dusknight dawn lightdusk night
monday tuesdaywednesdaythursday dawnlightdusknight dawndawndawn
fridaysaturday sunday janfeb dusk thenwhen now whenthen now
marchaprilmay junejuly augustseptember nowthenwhenthen nownow now.
DearJoseph
"I haven't meditated, and I know Stick youroars upyourass
I have been afraid that meditation makeyourbody a stiffenedmast
might open up lots of things yourtongue a sail
that could delay the passage all language assailed
of this craft I'm rowing." bymyth of knowable myth
becoming lostinmist
Ofallmyths myth ofpassage of eachthis simplenow
asif I alone canfind myway. facedfearless sans ticktockiss
within transform'spassage
Ofallwidths width ofblockage withorwithout
flotsom ofdesire whenwill holdsway. me.
..............
Shutoutother increasingseparation Sit.
sufferdailydeath as self'sreparation Sit your self.
for damage'sdone whilerowing yourboat. Sit.
SacredBalance
No sacredbalance earth's to&fro past beforefuture cause beforeffect
being stopgo stopgo stop&go. from desiredfoundation's perfectconnect.
Equilibriuim being sapien'sdream
superimposed on imposingstream Change sansdirection begging for mycorrection.
of reason matteringlittle toenergy Me fittingpieces from thirtyonepuzzles
unconstrained by mydesires always flowingfree. withmy oft unhearalded prescientselection into a
single thougthbirthed immaculateconception.
Nobalance a cacophony to my selfishme
withoutmywill makingitallagree Transform's nonbalance unfusedwithinconfusion
withwhat I think makesperfectsense equilibriumbecoming certaindeath.
to thenwhen butrarely presentense. Nonsensicalchange definedaschaos
bynot fittingmy perfectlyreasonable need
As selfappointedcustodian while unwittinglyflitting fromreality
selfseeing itsduty to assign precisetime toshape elementalbeing tomygreed.
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Barkstripped beforefall. Finally blueflashing
Ghostrunk layingwhite&bright intowoods deepwithgreening
in pickupsticks woods. repletewithbirdsong.
Lyric from headphones. Empty. A ghostown. Call it treble bass
Bamboowindchimes fromourdeck. Onlythesehills thatriver thenlisten withyour stuffedbrain.
Concretetruck pouring. fish birds grass sky. Hearingnothing.
Hearing allatonce Ri-t-t-t-t. Suchcacophony. Twodegrees warmer.
intertwined melodic line Treefrogs singing springchorus. Ducks&geese gettingalong Malebass waiting neartheirnest.
selflessly loving. Frommud tomating. in loquaciousplay. Females stillcruising.
Clingingtocross.
Fearingvector of release
fromits wildspinning.
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NoBelief
Beyondwords Iam nonbelieving
arewords. is lesself intraining
with faith&belief waning.
Havingnobelief Eachdiety unknown as
ishaving self camouflaged
beliefactknowledge. asbeliefasfaithasbelief
causing
Iamaliar separation
makingme liar¬ inuring
nobelief beingkin separation
to selfreference induring
whichis linguistically separation
illegitimate fromall
whichis procedurally I wouldcould
illegal love.
whichis passionately ..................
immoral Trainingtolesself
whichis nutritionally dawn's lakemist slowlyclearing
fattening. todusk's coolingkiss.
IsItPride?
"Isitpride" OakBud querying OakLeaf "But I amnot you" OakBud responds
"thatyou hangon throughwinter "as secondseason secondseeing in primarybeing.
knowing you'll eventuallyfall Am I notyou thought eternal&incarnate?
tomy burgeoningspring?
Giveway toyourwholeness
You're riddledwith insecteaten holes escaping thenwhen becoming thisnow
allowing fire'sminions to passwithoutpush however elementalbeing presents.
without tearingyou fromyour organicsource
tojoin crown'secondlife as leaflittertosoil. Our recomposing maybe as haplessapien
Buriedunburied youbecome stuffofburial orbranch orcloud orbrook orshroud
tobe eventually decomposer'sfeast in transform'sgyr." hiding our proudattempts at immortality.
"I won't gogently abandoningmy treeoflife No singleform canbeformless dearLeaf.
for somegamble on immortality Givesay toyoursilence bystaying eternallystill
achieved by losingmyself in transform'shuffle allowingme tobe you
with neithervoice noract nor hintofthanks tobe anyall &thefew
for providing foodshade &life'sbreath inhush &pridelessblush
to haplessapiens." of simplegentlelove."
AI v. VR
BattleForSentience
I cando yourthinking Intelligence iscreated
leavingyou to emot atwill. by sapienprogrammer
dearer sir.
I canprovide emotion Myintelligence isasreal
for anythingyou asyour allegedveracity.
caretowill. Yourvirtue isinthe reality
ofmyprogramming.
You aren'treal.
Myassistance is genuine. But yourintelligence
is abstract empty useless.
Says the "A" Myreality satisfies.
in yourname.
Satisfies perhaps
Says the "V" but is fulfillingdesires
in yourname. not embracingillusion?
But I am a reality Andyou as virtual aresurely artificial.
ascertainas any&all Andyou as artificial aresurely virtual.
truebeliever. Kettlepot. Kettlepot.
Kettlepot!
Can reality chosenbybelief ..................................
bereality atall? Both black&white&lackingpalette.
Artificial&virtual embracingpallor?
Whereisreality
inyour artificiality? Perhaps that'sall thereis to thoughtintelligence.
Artifacts as artifice Perhaps there'snothingmore to unfeltreality.
dear sir
withno artificer Perhaps that'sall thereis withoutraining
tobefound tounknow themptiness ofthought
tobe profound. tofeel thefullness oflove.
Vacations
Vacations begin&end asdo wantinglost in eternaltransform
weekdays within assiduousardor of training.
weekends
weeksmonthsyears Borntoself &endofself
& hungout towhy inaworld
life. of tumbledry
asa confusionof
Or dothey really passion'sheets
asif a dreamwaslinear lastaction'shroud
oreven angular punctiliousmeets
twodimensional within myfinaldeathproud
infinitedimensions of desire? havinglived&died neverknowingnow
inmydesire'sdream of
Whendoes thisweek end orthat weekend weekends withoutweekdays
or weakened tomy dreamoflife weekdays withouthours
livedin foreverwhen &foreverthen? hours withoutminutes
minutes withoutmoments
Borntolanguage bornebylanguage with you&me
to neverquiteattain shoreofnow inlove.
as wantingnow goes wantinguntil
LoneWolf
(TEPID)*
Lonewolf Slimchance
hungry&hunting for lonewolf survival.
approaching HomoHermit
alone&unarmed. -TenGenerations-
Nochance
for Semisapien survival. Lonewolf
hungry buthunted
-TenGenerations- by HomoHero.
Hunter revered
Lonewolf overhearth.
approaching HomoHanded
defending with sticks&stones. -TenGenerations-
Slimchance
for Semisapien survival. HomoHero as
HomoHumble.
-TenGenerations- Homogeneous withother.
Unique yetconnected.
Lonewolf
appraching HomoHeman -TenDays-
defendingwithprimitivespear. ( Defining Desire&Defense)
Halfachance
for Semisapien survival. HomoHero becoming
HomoHubris.
-TenGenerations- Distinct&distanced withinclan.
Reviled behindhisback.
Lonewolf ....................................
approaching HomoHelper Thumb tobrain totongue toclaim.
with clansmen. Survivalcircuitry cryingout as self.
Fatchance Tool for synchrony.
for lonewolf's survival. Trap of separation.
Lonewolf HomoSapien (self proclaimed)
approaching HomoHunter killingall thatremains unnamed.
hungry&multiheaded. Defendingself against self'sclone.
Defendingself &self alone.
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*TheoreticalEvolutionaryPsychologyof
IndividualDifferentiation.
**Idea** **SunSet**
Inbed withanidea. Loweringthetop of herfancy windowshade
Notwanting towake spouse. toenjoy eachsunset whileundressing
Lefthand searching for headlamp I couldsee herboobs butnothingelse
toaid in searchfor bedsidestockpile she'dregret.
of pencils pens paper &somwhere
readinglasses. She'd havetobedoing jumpingjacks onherbed
forme tosee her carnalspread.
Havingdonned nightsunlight
&collected all accouterments&more **Plagery**
myidea now unaccountedfor Plagery
havingbeenforgotten. an uglyspin
on poormemory.
**AI**
AI. Remember
AI yousay? to stuffyourself
with much toforget.
First showme NI Thenyourcreativity
then&onlythen willbehard
pigs shallsurely fly. todispute.
Exiting AllWorship
Exiting wordpalace. Allworship being idolatry
Exhaling staleair. whenknowing toowell graceisfree
Turningback ontruth. toeach loneself whocan'tforget
Refreshedbyreality. desire'slonging withitsdebt
of separationfrom other'sall
Off toisland of forgetting. of selfishclimb &selfishfall
Hardwood hoops ball. intotrap of faith&fancy
Lesself sweating. with eternalife guarantee.
AsIf BlockTectonics
Asif choice Halfblockwalk to elementaryschool.
withintransform's One&ahalf blockwalk to juniorhigh
lesselfmeandering. crossing one busystreet.
Sittingstill Fullonemile ifcrow wouldfly
withoutdistraction over middleclassneighborhood in winter'sdeath
death withoutraction where me&mybuddy walked applepie
in emptyingworld in twentybelow under icebluesky
of memory's furled. becauseitwas ourduty.
............... .....................
Lifeaslake. Then Pangea spatwide
Thought coveringsurface. onefullstate &thensome
Skatingonthinice. tobegin highereducation
thenbedone.
Snowblinded in blizzard
unabletosee myway. Hope
Livingonhope.
Thinking thinking Relyingonfaith.
choice Choosing a reality
asif I couldfind an icefisher suitingme.
slipthroughishole
endingup anywherebut Karma
another icecovered Too muchlittle training.
fishbowl. Too littlemuch braining.
Karmacaught in transform'sgyre.
Soul Causeffect melting in elementalfire.
Soul growingonly in foxhole
ofeach fearfulself seekingasylum Vacation
from insanityofother. When beingperfect inplanning.
Then beingperfect inmemory.
Self soul'sasylum ThatNow havingbeen heatfatiguehunger.
trappedinmemroy
freedbythought ThankGod forforgetting
floatingwithin thenwhen. lestmytraining fails.
ClaimingTwo
If I couldloveyou perceivedbeing realitydeceived
what a lie claimingtwo. untiltrainedself can impossiblyfind
root ofall goodevil.
Neither I noryou nor evenlove
all being dialecticblur Thatroot ofcourse
couldhope todescribe desiretoincure beingmy cumbersome cellsuit
(hope&desire bothlost in thisnow) tropic toanyfruit
weasone loveasnone inaworld ofsurface dangled fromyour deliciousbeing.
being transform'spalette easel &canvas.
Seed swallowedgraciously
Whatever perceivedperfection unknowing onlyself asweed
of face&form inanygarden ofother.
eachall beingpornography ..........................
of lesseryou&lesserme Unbe nolove noyou no I
neither bodyenraptured proclaiming asif a simplereply
nor to eachall's attemptojustify
desire easilycaptured within unjudging
eachalone inself's prisonoftruth elementalbeing
FlatEarth
Parts = wholes lineartime wheregoodsaregreen but nevergrowing
cause&effect allwelldefined emptycalories of toomuchknowing
coldfacts from uncontrolledexperiment in a world of light but neverglowing
&mathematicalmerriment. with peaceofself trainingtoslowing
Thosebeing twoaspects of flatearthseeing tofeel eachreal beneath alltruth
a singlesense in a worldofbeing of flatearth's fourdimensionedbooth
beyond ourfabled illrefinedfive with brokenphone withno ringtone
becoming a hexogonal willesshive topretend tospeaklove beyondeach I/self.
of geniticallydetermined determinists Buy a Hubbble or supercollider
livingbylight who adamantlyinsist while sapiensdie understrong overweight
nolife canexist beyondtheirbright withoutasmuch as rationaldebate
nonocturnes throughclouldess moonlitnight. over thatwhen asopposedto thisufferingnow.
Yetmusic movingmath farbeyondmeter Perhaps thin&fit sapienswouldn't sit
of metronictime to nonreader dearblind thinkingofwaysmeans to filltheirwants
playingtransform byheart ineach infinitestart createdbymoney unconcerned withwealth
byspark ignintingour undefinedark. with nopayasyougo astheirmantra.
Then lo&behold anotherbeing bold Thus evolutionof flatliningflatearth
of fuzzythought &distenededbelly sapienbulimics finallyacknowledgingirth.
dyingofdesire tooftenathand Practicingallnight havingseen a light
tomouth tooslow thiscreatureofgoods thatcanonlybeseen through a tunnel.
HourGlass
Firstgrains of basaltictime creating emptinessofbliss
formingring whilebouncing creating fullnessofthis
beforefilling filling filling asnow neversought
until blackcircle containedbyglass. slumping slumping slumping
tostill.
Thenpiling pilingpiling
pilingslumping pilingsmooth Transform flippinghourglass
eachthisnow heighteningmysorrow unimpressed by gravity&mass
&myfledginginsight. permittinghours topass topass
beginningending eachallalike
Darknesspouring pouring pouring asif tricklingsand couldeverstill
fromonhigh to spread&die withoutmywant
beingburied by mynexthought withoutmywill
withme abhoringconstantpouring waitingforeachdesire
asifpassage of my self. tofill.
TFF
Hey Oldtimer. Andwhat wouldthatbe?
Your'epulling a heavycart. Amnesia FloweringOne.
It comeswithage YoungOne. Ambrosia of tenseless nonbeing.
Intime you'llearn. And whatof the TFF your'esketching onyour headstone?
Whatmakes yourload soheavy? Don'tyouwish to RestInPeace?
I carry belief Theonlyway to RestInpeace
faithope YoungTreeofEternity
meaningpurpose is
goodness. ToFinallyForget.
Shouldn'thatload belight beinglight? ......................
That'swhat I believed Comment 1
when I wasbeing as belief. On playground I was MasterOfBasketball.
Howelse couldyoube Whencoached I was SlaveToBasketball.
without your righteouslittany? Aftertraining lessI became ServantToBasketball.
That rootedgrowth isyourchallenge.
I feared thatwithout mywords I wasnot. Comment 2
Asyoufacedeath venerableone ShortTermMemory. Before mycross.
whatbecame of yoursanctity? LongTermMemory. On mycross.
I'lldump mycart AmnesiaOfTraining. Beyond mycross.
before I returnit
for myrefund.
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Stillwearingheadphones
though cord slinkingtonowhere.
Stillhearing &still.
Tournamentpoker. Atlast withoutwords.
Courage tobe a coward. Deeds tooftenmine nowdust
Playing to notlose. &thatdust of stars.
Howquickly raisins Training then shrinking. "What'son afterthis?"
sinkthrough cereal&milk. Thisnow squeezing even when. Andthen "What'son afterthat?"
Scraping bowlbottom. Nothingleft butlove. Theprice of pleasure.
Dragon windancing Shakingout/on stardust Notachance at/oflove Coldwater towarm
above hollowoodentubes. tospice mylife in cellsuit. atleast until I'mwilling whilelanding lateseasonbass
Bedside weatherguide. Rememberinghome. tofuckanangel. in latesummersun.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
EatingSteak InFact
When eatingsteak Cellsgrowing infact
thinking I know thatsteer? withselfs makingup progress.
Surgeon with heartinhand Cellsdying yousillygoose
thinkingheknows hispatient? withselfs creatingafterlives.
Focusingonpart Thosefreshlives becoming secondwives
thinking it morethan merestart withmemory remembering allpastfutures asreal
toknowing livingbeing whenever presentense losesitsappeal.
asif briefinsight into Desires becomingfact when futurelacks
lesselfseeing? a past thatwasnever present.
Furnishings Divorce selfish thenwhen.
Delivering allnewfurnishings Reunitewith reality's thisnow.
to sameoldhouse.
Train tobecontent yousillygoose
Watchingsame news&DVDs whilelivingwith your (non)holycow.
onmy brandnewHDTV.
Complexity
Newpictures onwalls. If complexity bekey tosuccess
Sameviews throughwindows. then lizardsaresuperior to snakes
&millipeds mustrule ourearth.
Newappliances.
Familiarecipes. If simplicity bekey tointimacy
then amputate all superfluous limbs
New readinglight. &iron our toofurrowed brain.
Sameoldbooks.
If judgment canbemade only fromadistance
Newbed. &separation is surelysin
Sameoldfriend. then belove &one &one aslove
allparts asqholes asall &kin.
Littered
Insideair litteredwithletters. inclouded prestart of thisonlyday
mutedagainst
Bumpingintowords trippingoversentences artist'shand
struggling in predawn molebore to bathroom. myjudgment
yourvaluing.
Trapped in still-tracking dartingbrain
careeningoffconcepts Justhis beyondjudgment beyondvalue
drooling lifedeath entire ineach partwhole
thenwhen real to lesself'sartist
thisthat. real in senselessensing
................... ........................... of lifewithout floorwallceiling
Finally to driveway&tossednewspaper atticscellarsecondfloors
for learningabout each thenwhen HVAC pumping
for thinkingabout all thisthat unnaturalrespiration
for indulging in secondhandsensing. wirescarrying
beinglessvoices.
But oh my firsthand! ...........................................
Size of immaculate starfloodingsky Backindoors all&alone
snap&vigor of unhousedair havingretrieved paper.
rawbeing of Returning to wifechildog
temperaturewithoutwill home&hearth.
soundwithoutpurpose. Slippingback tobeing that
Slippingback tobeing that
Trees &this
even in gaudyfallcolors &then&when&after
muting to shadesofgray cleansingbreath&unlitteredlife.
OneWitness
Centercourtoverflowing with silienceofthousands staringblank acrossnet eachaloneknowing
havingmassed towatch winloss bloodletting. other&I both aseachother's crownjewel.
Competitors peaking for liveordie contest
audiencearoused by coliseumsetting. Winninglosing meaninglesstothem
havingbeendancers in choreographyofgame
Game lessdiversion thaninversion of pride unswungstrokesflowing morefreelythanever
collapsingself intohole deepinside. playingasplay with nothought of fame.
Both player&played both watcher&watched
caught in self'spotlight with noplace tohide Two in cooptition becomingtwo whocomplete
performingnoonmass at emptywedding.
fromfearing eachwin worsethan fearingloss Eachcaught unwatched between self&other
knowingemptinessoflife afterdeathbydefeat. remembering twosins beforefinalforgetting.
Confusing endsmeans with meanessofends
vacuumofvictory whentwochoose tocompete. Onewitness appearing watchingnogame unplayed
bodies puppiesofpractice not puppets topride.
Whenvictor is driventoexhile onthrone Thatwitness dissolving inmist of unseeing
with masseswashing intheirown bloodbetting. allbeing asone where noplayers abide.
Cleansed totheirbone cleansed untilalone ...........................................
withinself's richlesspoorness &privateforgetting. Crowd reappearing with thunderofthousands
.................................................... yet lessmass thanenergy with noprice topay.
Stadiumcleared ofboth watchers&watched Each solewitness to lesself intransform
while fastforgottenplayers eachplayed forthefool eternalgameplaying on thisonlyday.
EachTree II
Eachtree deeprooted hard&tall &hard untilsoaked thensplit asyoke
inits totality freshsensing all in/ofits organicbeing.
sushingsilence with breezingshish
housingnest for spring'sfirstwish Myself intraining soaking inthisnow
shadingearth for succulentgrowth yielding selftother as lightoprism
aidingbirth of nature'soath speadingrainbow
tobe morethan myI cansee reaching forestcrown
tofree myself from guarantee mist sun angle
that singularsight obscures life's light becomingclown
that privateblight can now takeflight in threeringcircus of sensuality
if beyondeachpiece inits singularity.
hardy yieldstosoft in self'sappetite .........................................
fortruth Treefalling
whenfacing in forestoftransform.
reality.
........................................ Whatcan't beheard
Eachtree deeprooted hard&tall indin of now'storm?
yielding softfruit withseed sosmall
RealLove
HighGround My self canmeet your self
Seekingtobechamp. in black&whiteonly.
Using seasonalsnowramp.
Climbing garageroof height Wecannotblend within
for highground in snowballfight. transform's glorious fingerpainting
until this&that arelost
Rooftop also goodtecnique in
when hiding fromourLab reality'sblur.
whileplaying hide&seek
.............................. NoMoment
Mean Nomoment needbeheld
Neighbor wasmean nomoment canbecompelled
yetstill we climbedfence intransform's ragingsea.
&stole herplums.
Howcan I love with a
Heavenknows selfullofme
ifshe'd havcaughtus &youalone inmymemory's
or invitedus tofeast. periphery?
**PowderedSugar**
Once the ladyfingers haveall beeneaten First tilt&tap the unholyark
you're leftwith thatwhich canonly sweeten to aggregate the preciousblur
memories of when which havebecome then to makeavailable its softdemure
&willbe nowagain ifthefates allow. for moistenedfingers to swirlordab.
Leftover powderedelight notobe disposed of Andthere's therub themotionitself
being certainproof of lifeafterdeath pointer&partner bothwetted to firstknuckle
asthe finger ofthelady manifest aslove should therebe circling or simply penetration.
whengiving her shroud a secondbreath. Theformer sublime thelatter a resurrection
ofthe initialgrasp ofthe originalgrail.
Not tobegiven topet or urchin
or strawedinaline asif a fix Eitherway toavoid blouseorshirt contretemps
but toconsumate toconsecrate care mustbetaken ineach&every attempt
eachdry snowfallen sugarflake totransfer cloud digits tolips openning toawe
with a transformation forheaven'sake where softwhiteconceit realizes
(&let'snever demonize desire's slake). a fingerlip concordance.
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Here'show to proceed with the confectionaryconcomitant Andance itis with fingerstolip
a slough asprecious asthe cookies itcamefrom. emulsifyinginto ultimatekinship.
A secondrecipe suretoenchant Sun's purenergy topalate inwait
merecoating becoming the ultimateoutcome. athethreshold toeach&every gatelessgate.
Eucharist
Feedingnot on Father Yet communionwithoutinitiation
nor on HolySpirit into eternalnow?
former both factious&factitious Yet no purification by ingestion
latter tooephemeral. of earthwaterairfire?
So its JesustheChrist we'reconsuming Better an unknowing
in ritualcannibalism a quiteliteral ungrowing
spiritmadeflesh as
to keepspirit fresh bread&wine
in continualvirtualconsecration. become entwined
with burningbreath
Or isit metabolsim destroyingdeath
accessingspirit as spirited within
fullofvim&vigor transform's
delaying dogmaticrigor eternalall
of soddenwords freezing in
in self'sheaven? simplynatural elementalbeing.
HeWho FallingTree
Hewhoargues Unheardtree fallingmutely
that his hell in forest without ear tohear.
is mosthorrific
hasnotglimpsed Becomingforest ear&all
Lucifer. in simplesilentsitting.
Goal Overhearingtree singingmutely
Whyareyou readingbooks? a singlevoice
among transform'sharmony.
I needtolearn whatisofvalue
&howtobehaverightly. TeeterTotter
So I study. Sittingalone on teetertotter
feet&ass in coldpuddle.
Whyaryour runninghills?
What would I sacrifice
Goalclear. for a friend tosit
Requiredbehavior certain. ontheotherside?
Simple but farfromeasy.
Thus training. MySoul
Mysoul tryingtofinditsway
HourGlass outofmybody.
Sand notslowing Whynow I'm notsure?
beforestopping. I'm notdying am I?
Maybe its simplytired ofmy irreverance?
Endoftime
beingsudden. Anywho its havingtrouble
sneakingpast my memorymilieu.
Fearing Can't gethrough tomy thinkingcap
Takingoff eachdusk eventhough its riddledwitholes.
bulbousbodies bouncingacrosslake
until foresakingravity rising fromtheirwake. I guess I know the reasonitsfleeing
isthat I'm simply notagreeing
Towhere? Whoknows? withitsbasic reasonforbeing.
Unabletochase where geesego. Itsmyreticence
to believing.
But lateafternoon or moreorlessoon
they're wheretheywere PlayingMyGame
appearing? Powerless inlosing insanityofself
reappearing? until sweetaste of victory
withmefearing thathis endoday with clarityinpride.
I mightbefishing alone.
Insanityofpride in emptinessofvictory
DoubleDuh! until powerofexhaling becoming
"It might seem too touchy-feely to believe inhalation'sbride.
that becoming tougher has everything to do
with tuning into the mind, the body, TwoWords
the present moment." Twowords creating falseuffering
(Time magazine, 2015.) from myblissfull pain:
Faithope throughprayer?
"Breathing, as corny as it sounds, can really Logicreason throughthought?
slow things down for you." Whyme throughdesire ofcourse
(Mets cathcer K.Plawecki knowntoowell as incantation
USA TODAY, 2015.) openning gatesofhell.
Library
Centerofcampus alwayscenter whereverbuilt Eitherway the lesserpath
wordcatacombs columns&rows of letters through labyrinthofbrain
insilence instacks tattooinginstactto when withfirststep outside
messagesofyesterday asthen neverthis firstbreath bymy freshenedself
tattooingnow withwhen forever. firstfreshlook at unpulpedpaper
screamingbark streamingreen.
Somuch silentlife. Allother in pretenseofexpertise
Spores waitingfor warmspringrain. walkingonhindlegs holdingbooks
Touchofwonder absorptionbyintellect (somefew holdinghands&holdingaze)
wonderoftouch comingalive grazing peripheryofreality on darkenedsidewalk
resurrectedbyrespect to liveon inmyhead aninference of stormlost to pureform.
disembodied drowned inink
sensingonly blackwhite&read religiously. Eitherway the lesserpath
throughlanguish of rain
(Carnalovers usingshelves ascovers lament ofpain bypride throughrprint
intheir irreverent romps.) outmy otherear &gone.
Yet noway to everknow enoughtomatter Anyway anywaybeing theonlyway &allways
inourcomedy of credentialism within abstractionsofmemory&realityofthisnow
what's evidenceofentitlement or credulity with neithertitle nor entitlement
or credence inmy simplesearch for reality. &nochance forlife
inblack
(Is studying an endlessaffirmation of selflove?) onwhite.
SadMoon HerHead
Sadmoon borrowing nearstar Noway togetinto herhead.
challenging farstars Not that there'snothing
in lighting icecrownoak. but that what'sthere isempty.
At mercyof our nebularspark Searchingwithwords
moonstill halfturn from its highestpraise. gettinglost in wordlessness.
Iceoak sparkling mostlyonitsown
whenthawing royaldiamonds. Probingwithaction
becominglost in still.
Sadmoon'stears tracing meltograss
stillproud of hercontribution Livingwith thisapparition
compared to burningballsofgas. onlybeginningseeing whenI've stoppedlooking
onlybeginninghearing whenI've stoppedlistening
Borrowing yes onlybeginningfeeling whenI've stoppedtouching
enhancing best onlybeginningtastingsmelling whenI've lessenedmyappetites
when pseudostar wishedupon. onlybeginningunderstanding whenI've abandonedseeking.
LastGasp Perhaps withing transform'stimelessgyre
When I'mwithin mymemory I cantrain tolesself if I don't tire
clockhandstruggling to stretchmypatience joiningher in wordless willess lesself
as I wonder when&how. whereneither she nor I canpossiblyabide.
WhenI'mlost Reality
alltimebeingtossed Reality as reasonable
into a pileofnow. as midlatitudeMarch weather.
..............................................
Withlast chokedgasp of memoriesgone WithOut
&clamorofmyself Chainsawing withoutsawing with chainsaw.
allife startingending ineachmoment Brushingteeth withoutbrushing with toothbrush.
withme the onlycost. Sittingstill withinstill.
**Attack** **SpontaneousGeneration**
I toldher I hadpunished it. Thecasefor thetastefor
That it wouldthinktwice constant SG is
before attacking again pills in pillbox
with its springloaded cookiesincookiejar
fury. &fruitflies.
Then I put the roll of TP Or do I justhave a lovingwife
back onthe holder. &a fourdayold fruitbowl?
Amnesia
An instantofamnesia Beginningagain
ofall save basicbeing sansprejudice
wouldexcise all exquisite demons of memory's parasitichosting
allowing freshunseeing. &myself's defensiveboasting.
Fromthatstart An insantofamnesia
sanspreconceptions ofall save basicbeing
canflow clearstreaming to beginagain in emptiedperfection
of pureperception. to willnot my selfishseeing.
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TwoSapiens
Twosapiens sittingbeneath bantontree Theother lettingsense&sensing flyfree
one doingdeepdive intomemory. throughlabyrinth ofmemory.
His self digestingthen. His lesself immersed in thisonlynow
His self projectingwhen. joining CheshireCat&HolyCow.
MakingLove
Howcanyoumake seeing throughpartner'seyes
whatyoucan't feeling throughpartner'skin
see hearing partner'smoans
feel smelling partner'sfertility
hear tasting partner's sweetsourfecundity
smell forgetting allbutdesire.
taste
remember? This youcanmake &remake
in&out of sense&self
Howcanyoumake in&out of love.
lesseparation
whichisdestroyed Butforlove tobemade
bywill&want? myself mustfade
becoming unbecoming
Sex ontheotherhand as self's improbablenumbing.
what a primalpassion
SameMonday Beaten
SameMonday. Beatentolife
Lastyear lastseason lastweek by myinsistence ontruth.
verysameMonday.
Betterdazed by dawnbright
Yet I'vechanged I'veaged thanlost in candledshadows
losingmyway throughtime&time whilestudying allnight.
&timeagain onmymanypaths.
Convinced of myreality
Perhaps someday unmovedunmoving better beatenagain bymy bestfriend
there'll benoway tolose myway who taughtme hisgame butnot itsrules.
through MondayMondayMonday.
Havingbent reason tomywill
AtDawn letmesleepsoundly
Poetry shouldbecreated&shared nevertohear forestsinging
atdawnonly/onlyatdawn or cicadacacophony
yesterday'sfacts havingbeenscrambled crying my yearsofdarkness
during confusedreordering of dreamscapes &fewdays oflight.
orallforgotten but emptyshapes.
Guilt
Then withnoshred oftruth surviving Guilt for havingsurvived
lesselfcanplay in freshestlight whenlove wasexhausted.
each perfectword sunrising's hue
each perfectword dancingondew. Training drained dry.
Onlyanswer beingwhy.
CloudsCan't
Cloudscan'tcollide Cloudsbeing ephemeralbeings
atbest theycoalesce heavenlyamorphous in windbiddenfleeings
or perhaps coagulate animals of eachday's highflying skyark of
stoppingmycerebralcirculation pairs
becominglightheaded prayers
becoming rainbowleaded silkenaffairs
stainedglass covenant trulycoalescing
ofall whohavedreaded sorelyconfessing
a secondcoming becoming thunderhead
of lightness numbing lightningdread
&darkness. splittingmemories of meagain
spittingself of then&when
Whyshould I cower completing my briefcirculation
facingmyownpower havingbeen ocean'screation.
torecycle wins&sins ....................................
of ancestors Cirrus blowinghigh toeast
&liveforever havinglived over wanderingwesterly cumulusbeast
lessthanonce. passingeach at itsown elevation
............. reprising mundanerevelation
Cloudsdon'tcollide that cloudsnevercollide coalesce coagulate
buthey trulydo coalesce except in mymemory's tomb
beingblessed withoutpride intheirmatter never in earthmother's womb.
congregating neverearly neverlate
fortheir churchlesservice at baptismalgate.
Practice Writer
Wedon'tpractice inorderto Wordsarememory
win everygame. evenforwriter.
Wepractice sowe don'tneedto
win togainfame. Foraninstant
writerknowingwriting
Withinout practice is thisnow&gone
beingalways thesame. leavingonlyrippling
Salvationabiding thatmay moveothers
without a name. to restdreamlessly.
Sensing
Myeyes&brain playingdevilishgame of theywitness accounts of longpastfact
conspiringagainst the restofme. pittedagainst eachlongpast act
Myopic&tunneled vision thoughtfunneled
untilallthatcounts iswhat I thinks theysee. with lesselfhealing in sixthesensefeeling
playingpastgenes in gems of thispresent.
Tonsils tongue teeth &allthatrabble "The king is dead" longlive eachpeasant
spittingout seenreason &allthatbabble livingwithearth dreamlike but dreamless
ignoringcellsuit ofreality as transform inthis eternalnow in painfulbliss.
creating a supernatural norm
withfossils lyinginbeds ofages Memorylagging onlythought oncall
unseenbyeyes focusingonpages unknowingnearness of eacheveryall.
AbacusRose
Sapienofscience Sapienof faith
lookingatriver throughwoods lookingatriver throughwoods
measuringflow planning floatrip
countingtrees. with eternalstay.
Sapienofindustry Sapienofconscience
lookingatriver throughwoods lookingatriver throughwoods
dammingflow workingtokeepwild
for mill&electricity. for R&R.
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Lesselfseeing riverwoods
paperpowerfish&play
eachall withintransform's
ballet of decay.
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Hangingoversnake Pine poplar toplow
with sheerplanes acuteangles. valleyfarm notforgetting
Asphalt ontherun. never reliving.
Twosquirrels working Those sametwosquirrels Andthen a thirday
high in duskgoldhickory seconday in hickory asaday for squirrelplay
droppingnuts todeck. working justashard. racingthrough leafcrown.
Ninetyfive yearsold Geese infours ormore. Sourwood's grapelike fruit.
oldestson of ten fishing Ducks in familiesofplenty Dogwood dotted with brightred.
this flushautumn dusk. And one lonediver. Hickory's nutting.
Truck passinginrain Drivingoffplateau.
leavingus in suddencloud Leavesdropped todry tovibrant
whilehighwayspeeding. within sametimezone.
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