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Bettleravaged pine Beetleravaged pines Beetleravage pine
wonderingwhy it's uncut wonderingwhy they'realldead undergrowth overgrowing
inlight of God'slight. inlight of suchwaste. woodpecker at home.
Dawnhighway droning. Changingnuts to gas. April fistquarter. Perfect eitherway.
Crowcalling caw-caw-caw-caw. Mybody's cruelalchemy Sittingwith wisteria Wisteria on warmbreeze
Me justsittingstill. &curse to others. crickets distantcars. or inhaled closeup.
This firstspring fullmoon Workingthrough firstpain. Tosee what's out there
over Belagio spires. Learningabout the body thenbecome what's out there.
Below a fakelake. self will neverknow. Then atlast nothing.
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Geometry
(+b) (+)
Flowoflife beforemycross Flatline lifedeath uponmycross
wave&wave of rhythmic me. judgmental love lovebeingdead.
Caught in sin of high&low Abovebelow rhythm'sflow
neverallowed to simplybe. wherenothing'sdone all is said.
(+b)
Transforminglife beyondanycross
perfection in eachsimple thisnow.
Nobeginning noending no thenorwhen
just a gentlesmile&emptybow.
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TV
(+b) (+)
WatchingTVweather duringstorm Rousedbythunder wiredpower lost
in warmdrycomfort of my easychair. walkingtowindow checkingoutside.
but weatherpersonsaying allisfair. realifestorm predictiondefied.
(+b)
Awakeningatlast to furyofstorm
preparingforwalk takingnature's bestshot.
Becoming skygashing &firmament'sdin
whileunknowing transform weather &or not.
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GordianKnot
(+b) (+)
LostinGarden alonewithmyfate Gordainknotforming from thentowhen
wandering wondering but alwayswellfed. undone bypower of mywill thatwon't.
Comingacross a gatelessgate Fuelingfire of self'sprivatehell
boundinparadox as myoracle said. in world ofdo &world ofdon't.
(+b)
Trainedtoexhaustion self withering
becoming lesself as stuffofnonsense.
Nogood noevil noserpent noknot
allife thisnow in transform's notense.
Mystery Recollections
Meditation or masturbation Sittingwithmyrecollections
or forallitmatters (collections in direneed of reckoning)
a triptothezoo. until I'm boretotears
asif my meaningpurpose
Whendone as trainedlesself asif my preciousexistence
eachact a perfectmystery be reruns of a barelyenjoyable
nomeaning nomoral singleseaon sitcom.
not the slightestclue.
Lesself
AnotherNewYear Fromself to lesself
Newyear oldyear sameyear. separationdiminshing
It's snowing. Houseischilly. elementalbeing making
Woodpile'sdwindling. everythingfit
Ashscattered on frozenpath. where faith&knowledge both
creating cryogenicgrowth
I haven'tlearned anythingnew. unable toprovide thewarmth
I haven'tforgotten nearlyenough. oflove's perfectknit.
Bareoak amongpines.
Swamp
As young as Fulfillingwant creatingswamp.
mydesires Stillness at highestcost.
&dreams
as real as Better streamtrickling creatingrippling.
virginfinds. Stillness neitherfound norlost.
BoundFree
Is wind Is cloud Is fish Is flower Is God
freefrom freefrom freefrom freefrom freefrom
or or or or or
boundby boundby boundby boundby boundby
fire? air? water? earth? belief?
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Is sapien Is sapien Is sapien Is sapien Is elementalbeing
freefrom freefrom freefrom freefrom freefrom
or or or or or
boundby boundby boundby boundby boundby
self? other? thenwhen? thisnow? transform?
Rooting NoCure
Me wantingunion withall Noprevention. Nocure.
as eternaltranform withineach thisnow Just recognizesymptoms
whichcan neverbelove &train train toendure
till I am still &want isforgot. the indignities of desiring.
......................
Rootingfor. Seeinghalf. Seducedbypleasure
Rootingagainst. Seeingself. before earning the treasure
Playingthescore &all islost. ofalife fullofemptiness.
.........................
Gettingmyhead outofmyass Reduced to a swine
(&by "myass" I mean mydesire's). sniffing for truffles
next to a field of
Becomingall tenplayers blackberryabundance.
me with foursibs
playingwith fivefriends. Noprevention. Nocure.
Justsit withsymptoms of self
Rhetorical? &train train toinsure
ReverentMonk showme this self that yourlesself willendure.
whosedesires define&consumeyou.
ReverendMaster itshere inmy hippocampus YoungPride
a synapticmiliu of survivalbehaviors Prideful youngself knowingself
which I must traintostillness. asif precociousinsight the norm.
Wanderingtrhough memory'sfuture
ReverentMonk welldone. fromwhich desire'sdreams willform
Know elementalbeing is profound fromwhatlittle I thought I knew.
butonly a beginning.
Resist yourpride of knowing. Dreams groundedingenes
Workhard ontheprice of showing. memoriesmade bymyparents
asif I wasfree asif I couldsee mydefenses
Lost beyondmy seemingforever
Lostagain fourteenyearold's experience.
in tasseltopped tootall Augustcorn
amongacresofsame eonsofstill. FearingDeath
Howcanoneclinging
Tooyoung toknow theway todreams of immortality
or to trustlove of sun'seasons. informtheliving of love
Unknowingrowth withoutscent havingsurrendered to desire?
ofwill.
Howcanoneclinging
Fueling to supernaturalsensing
Eatingmyhunger. share thisnow's profaneperfection
Fuelingmyforgetting. withonelost within eternaltensing?
Abstinencebeing
foodoflesself. Depths
Depths are dim
Resist to sapieneyes.
Resist teaching Depths are dull
thatwhich cannotbetaught. to sapienwits.
Depths are dark
Allowthestudent to stumble to sapienself
onhispath to freedom. who thinks
(&thinks
Removing toomuch atwill)
Both archaeologist&sculptor who thinks
removing. (&can'tkeep
desires still)
Eachseekingtodiscover who thinks
whatwasalwaysthere. that shallow
isonly &right
Pregnancy &dim&dull
Eternaltransform myonlylight.
draftingfemale
toserve as vessel Emptying
for newlife. Wind sweepingcloudsaway
stormgone calmathand.
Replaying evolution
from singlecell Notanemptying butanemptiness
to selfconsciousapien. ofcloud ofstorm ofcalm.
** Try** **Stones**
Trytostay inmylane? A stone'sthrow away.
Trytostay inmylane! Throwingstone's at glasshouses.
Gettingstoned. Beingstoned.
l trytostay offthe Killingtwobirds with onestone.
highway entirely.
Oh how wemistreat
**Appointment** our mineralbrethren.
My doctorappointment
isat 10:30. **Nephew**
But I'mtold tobethere I'vegot a little hellraiser for my nephew.
15minutes early. If he'd havebeen thelast oftheMohicans
they'dberunning everycasino inthecountry.
Twins PoisonGreenbackFrog
Separatedatbirth Insulatedfromattack
my twin&I livingwounded abletobe an amnesiac.
bleedinginout dreamofreunion. Forgettingtheneed tojoin thepack.
Neverknowing what I lack.
Eachlove incomplete
slashing heartofhearts. What a love. Defensebytouch
neverknowing love as such.
Lesself'scrimsonflow Thinkinglove talkingtoomuch
stoppingonly in being'sblindness usinglanguage aslove's flimsycrutch.
&delirousdeath of distantother.
Storingpoison in subcutaneousvault
Thenforgetting protectingselfsubtly against assault.
sin'snightmare Collectingreen as I exalt.
that I was Losingyou as love'sdefault.
once
& Shame
alone. What a shame Who'stoblame
nosharing inbliss. for notsharing bliss?
Prize Let'seach justenjoy Areweboth just
Soclose tomyprize. their personalkiss. playing a selfishgame?
Perhaps overthenexthill ..........................
mylonliness Is allpleasure in self'sdomain
willbecomecomplete. &simplesharing always invain?
SapienChild
Sapienchild Sapienchild
desirewithoutdefense desirewithoutoffense
noprocedures toprotect nopride topropel
primordialself. personalpassions.
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Sapienchild Sapienchild
particulateproteanparoxysm assualted&battered
as prepolymerization pastiche byboth elemental&human nature.
of perfunctoryperformance. Whatchance in heavenhell do I have?
(Oreven in earthairfirewater?
Dialogue Arousal
Memory talkingwith Thinking: A little socialstir
"Letme guideyouthrough a hintofarousal
thelabyrinthe of thisnow." canbe lifedeath
in momentsofblur.
"Wouldyouhaveme
toast stalebread Better an occasional
asif meltedbutter &jam prematurejaculation
couldbringwheat than nofurtherchance
backtolife?" at copulation.
Shore Keepingmywits
Shore is ocean aboutme
ocean is shore. &mymemory
too.
Whocouldseparate .........
whatcan'tbemore? Never turnoff
themotor
Stream is bank &lockthedoors
bank is stream ofyour getawaycar.
separateonly
in feverdream. Coward
Why doesthcoward
Finding die a thousandeath's?
Sun findingme
sittingstill. Becauseofhis tenacious
memory
Howproud I am clingingtodesires
ofmy stilledwill maintaininghisdefenses.
abletobe motionless
atleast until Unknown
celestialbeing emerging Unknownbeyond
frombeyond modest hill. myname'sknowing.
Aware Invisible butfor
Seeing being'seed sowing.
buttercupyellow
peartreewhite Sogoes lesself
springbirthlight. nearlysinless
almoststill
In separation barelyseparate
becomingblight. suffering littlewill.
............
Awareof
yellow Pain
white Continuallysinning.
seasonlessight. Sin becomingmyperfection.
Belief Your perfection beingcorrect
SapienCreed: alone
Believe or live a shortbrutalife. &inpain.
SapienGreed: Volume
Believe &live a shortbrutalife. Turningofflight
is
WesternMind (aka "self") turningupvolume
Westernmind with
spittinginot being'swind brain lettingosight
splittinginto carnalsini amplifying powerofnight
quittingshort of transform'sall with
wittinglybecoming myown downfall. Bacchus demandingpayment
in self's spinningdervish devil'sbeing
Quiet being atone in thoughtlove
Mytree as quiet within cacophonyofmemory
as middaywindstorm failing
is still. sweetstillness of mutedself.
Duck within nobreeze
ripplinglake.
ChoosingWisely
Angel or zombie choosewisely Livingaswed togods inmyhead
orbe condemned tolife of moreself. mypartnerbeing my dailydream
where I amheld in highestesteem
Livingasdead ifonly inmyhead imaginingmyhopes
miredinmemory life as myallegory tobe mainstream
unaware of mypurgatory whileflushed in tributary
thinkingthought obligatory of reality'scheme
&mylife a lovelesstory oflife as partof a crackdrillteam
judgedbyother disciplinedbeing onlyway toredeem
as lessthanglory overwheeningself fromits
beingresponsive todesire. toonatural greed.
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Stillvoice
beinglesself's mutedcall
simply notchoosing
atall.
Knowing Irony
Knowing goose isn'tlake. Acceptingmylonliness
Knowing fish isn'twater. my separation
Knowing I'm notyou. connectingme withallother
intheir separation
Hightime forsome insanity. &lonliness
Awakening MyNature
Awakening eachmorning Mynature being thought&words
fromdream yet I'm uncomfortable on self'scross.
of who I was the daybefore.
Perhaps if acceptingmyreality
Not the awakening throughsweat of training
mytraining promised. mynails willrustaway.
ThreeImperatives
Maintenance Reproduce
Elementalneed before self'sgreed Reproduction
creatingdesire to quenchthefire simple butnoteasy
of impendingsuffeirng. withself becomingqueasy
when cellularsurvival
Safety isknown tobefutile
Defend againstpredators &divinity'sprice
animal vegetable environmental infalliblybrutal
earthairfirewater &selfishsapiens. &reason can'tfind
the placeortime
Connectwithothers as protectors tomakesense of
&perhaps if lesserself as lovers. my slowcertaindeath.
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Lookingatpuddle Huntingorgasm. Howlong can tallweed
never atits reflection . Indulging in prurience. reachforsun beforebending
what amI missing? Which is morenormal? to earth'steadfast pull?
Mushroom or golfball? Mushroom or golfball? First kissme goodnight My postop shoulder
Pimples ratherthan dimples Pimples ratherthan dimples. then conjuredreams toconfuse feeling for my preop hip
provingoganic. Rooted or teed? what'sreal &what'slove. &coming PT.
Mydog wondering Blackraspberrytaste Momentsofbeauty
whythe"master" needsocks shoes mixedwithtaste of mytoothpaste in unknowingstill become
just totalk a walk. &my breakfastoast. beautyofmoments.
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Mime SunDrop
Can I as mime Lesself as sundrop
escapemybox or lemondrop tosuck forluck
withoutescaping while burningcool as lifedeath'sfool
myself? with transformticking its tocklessclock.
Must thesolution Defender
besung aloud? Myself myforsaken defender
becomingcross of mydamnation
Purpose beingcasket ofmy unrising.
Walkingofftrail onpurpose.
Snappingoff nearlybrokenbranches. Myself eternallyshielding internalife
Pushingover nearlydead barelystandingtrees. againstinfidels of other'sprivatestrife.
Kickingopen fallenrottingtrunks
thensitting surveying collapsedshafts?? Myself stainedglasswindow
singlewhitelarva several brownants. throughwhich I surveymydomain
shatteredbyintrospection
Lettingo whatdrewme todestruction. shardscattered as recollection
intopews of churchofmyunmaking
Assigning during choir'shymn of myself's
I assigning my veryownself finaltaking.
understanding
& Holding
enlightenment Holdingitalltogether with barbedwire.
because Nowonder noone comescalling.
that'swho I am.
that'swhat I do. But lettingo. But lettingo.
Whowouldcollect scatteredpiecesofme?
TopTenReasonsToMeditate
10. Notneeding to holdback farting. Holdingitalltogether
9. Playing "holierthanthou" card. asif
8. Playingreplaying playlistlistlistlist. allthat hadsomewherebetter tobe
7. Reliving personalfaffronts&arrears or someonebetter tosee thanme
asnauseam. my overfilled neverempty me.
6. Forgiving personalaffront&arrears
adnauseam. Holdingitalltogether.
5. Watchingself skippingstone across Gripofabstraction
streampond. causingmysqueeming
4. Watchingrippling expandingtostill. whererelease is possible
3. Forgetting havingthrownstone. onlyifstill.
2. Forgetting.
1. Weeping. Bees
Bees dont'belive
GiveAway intheir distancelessbeing
If I can giveaway humofeach humofhive.
my nobelief
will lessI be rewarded Must I believe
with a glimlpse inordertobecome eachallbee
of reality? or simplytrain to hearhum
as intimacy?
IfOnly
Ifonly itwerepossible tofeel aslesself Dramancing
during its deliriousdancing Sunlight isto lesself
tofeel firsthand what I later as
think I felt as joy. moonlight isto myself
fulltonew tofulltonew
Infidel asmy desiringmetronome
Manifestation or infestation? dramaromance dramaromance
Wisdomincarnate or incarceratedwill? beating a boringrhythm
Manifestdestiny or manifoldreality? almost asif its flagrantsource
wasmorethan sinplerelflection.
Infaith or infidel
orsimply
selfish.
AsIf
Asif thatmy
passion senses
soundinglike soundinglike
ration tenses
couldbe otherthan couldthink time's
reason withoutfences
soundinglike making goodneighbors
treason of usall.
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Butfencesfalling
in&outoftime
&sensespalling
whether yoursormine
withration joiningpassion
in lesself'sjourney
in&outof rhyme.
Hold'mFold'em Rose
Dealt twodowncards allyourown. RubyRose askingsapien
Needing tobet orfold. "Why doyou need
Studyingrange ofmy nochoice. to nameme?"
Then threecardflop. Helpingme? Helpingthem? Sapienreplying
Betting newrange of nochoice. "Allthebetter to knowyou
fragrantlover."
Then singlecardturn ondime ordollar.
Nocents inthisgame gravewithwholeness. "Then" RubyRosereplaying
"howdoesmyname smell?
Finally rivercard. Lastchance at nochoice What seriesofletters
withmost havingfolded to pressureofconformity. strikesyoufancy as 'Ruby'?
Can I summonwill tobet orwill I checkcall in cowardice? Do mypetalsþs
feel moreless tendersharp
Or raise withouthesitation or condemnation while ticklingpiercing
&certainly withoutpraise. yourflesh yourfealty?"
Pool "Perhaps notstriking mynerves dearestgem
Technique impeccable. butmymemory livingthere till I die."
Withinrails untouchable.
Runningtable atwill. "Then pleasepass oh wiseone
&release mysentience fromyour
Buthere's nobesting lesself perseverantselfisness."
unknowingconformity
nonrespecting uniformity DayDreaming
scorningrules as abnormality. Daydreaming&scheming
for nextnow'sfulfillment.
Hustlers becomingbustlers
whencaught in transform's Turningwhen intowish
emptiedbeing. onmyway to eternity.
Dating Ifonly I couldlive
Datingannotations in a multiverse
onmyreadings* where I neverever
asif I'll returnsomeday needtorehearse
(ofcourse a differentme) memorizedlines
&judge that pastself of mywant.
harshly or mercifully.
Then day&night
Returning. wouldn'tneedtofight
Erasing dates¬es. my mostdesired me.
(*OK if prose. NightDreaming
Ifpoetry shameonme.) Nightdreaming sorich
with possibility.
EachStep
Path changing with eachstep. DumpingmyCrackerJacks
Nomatter timeofday togetat eachprize
dayofweek hopingforthebest.
weekofyear
yearofmylife. Unbiddenbysenses
hiddenwithin pastenses
Buddingduringicestorm. dumpsterfire of desire of
Witheringinspringshower. tooften theworst
ofwhat I wish I
Followinginmyownfootfalls hadbeen before.
freshfeet for eachstride
purposelost Cruel
&so mypride. Chooseyourmaster
carefully
Scattered memoriesbeing
Scatteredamong ruinsoftime cruelshade
thought as evidence of Imemine. inlightoflove.
Scattered self asif a ruinoftime EachNow
as memory'scancer neverbenign. Eachnowlived
without recollection
Thought atworst desire letloose. without hesitation
Memory as always illusion'sabuse. is oneall lifetimes
Self atbest a tenuoustruce is thisone timelesslife.
betweenwill in totalcommission
&want perhaps in partialremission Or
seeking a flesh imperative. moresimply
eachnowlived
Then thisnow as rhythm&rhyme isthisnow as eachnow
healingrace of lesself asmime being transform's
in silentstillconfirmation elementalvow
of lesserself as transformation toallowme
&love's eternalfoundation. to live&die.
**Spider** **SelfHelp**
Because its a spider Themore selfhelp seminars
youassume its a biter myself attends
&that you'llbecome thelarger itseems toget.
severlysick Sobegins my tragicspiral
or into complete unfettered
a superhero. sanity.
Meaning
Breathing or meaning Bybeingyou you'regame is through
choosecarefully yourflame having gone from yellowtoblue.
&inchoosing aswith Heatofyourmeat becoming toomuch tobear
allchoice selfishly untrained indulgently youdare.
eacheverychoice
isdoomed. Or cleaveoff allwill
slicing so swift
Choosing glowingscreens&egoschemes eachwish becomingleaden
to occupy eachpassingnow. to yourlift.
Fillingabyss withall that'samiss ..............................
foregoingwhy for instructions on how. Breathingently becoming mutedvoice
tomy bobblinghead of reason.
Or practicestill a pricesohigh Unknowing knowingthought surely is treason
evendreams takewing&fly. unknowingtheway beingtrue to nochoice.
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Pulse or passion Will or won't
again choosecarefully nochoice if trained.
oryoumay endup Perhaps it's sunny
withwhat youwant. perhaps it rained.
WhiteWitch Caught
How welove our superpowers Caughtbetween
conjuring asif a whitewitch inheritedbelief
in limitlesselfishess &clearintuition.
daydreaming eachnow
intosubmission byappetite Unknowingwhy eachthisnow
with barelylingering dyspepsia. feelinginsufficient unabletofill
allthens allwhens within simple elegance
Honoring brightwish of so obvious an answer.
conjuredfromstar longextinguished
lightyears beinginstants for myendlessdesire. Leaking
I livingloveless in perfectfreedom Returning tomysit
topursue myhappiness within a world after writingfit
of hunger of somanyothers. asif nosand hadpassed.
NoLove Righting tippedhourglass
There's noenlightenment continuingwith my lifedeathfast
in enlightenment till lastgrainofsand amassed.
no hope in hope
no love in love. SunSet
Sunsetwalk totop of highest hill
Alldesire beingimperfect slowingfireball'sdescent.
a daylate a dollarshort
of yearsofprayer. Watchingfatelesssfalling unfailinglight
honoringstillness of notime
Privilege &transform's eternaldaynight.
Self creatingdeath
from nonliving Delete
asif organization Pressdelete allyouwant
not a privilege nothingever reallygoesaway.
&cell not a prison.
As nightdream
Memorizing as middayscheme
Memorizing eachthen. its alwaysthere to
Extrapolatingtoperfection tobeam&betray.
ofdeath?
asdeath? A shaftoflight a tunnelofblight
into longlost&unbiddenbeing.
What toname my burgeoningbeing
leadingme (pushingme) intowhat? As touristlost in sightlesseeing
havingwandered toofar astray.
What togain byclutching eachnow
creating an unonlythinkable thenwhen? Swamp
Fulfillingwant creatingswamp.
Calling it time ridingitsmomentum Stillness at an awfulcost.
throughtransform's tunneloflove.
Better streamtrickling creatingrippling.
Exitinginto houseofmirrors Stillness neitherfound norlost.
gettinglost inmy exquisite
contortedvisage. Separation
Separation. Distinction. Knowledge.
Taught Thewayofself.
Taught tostick to straight&narrow.
Strungtaut bybow becoming arrow. Interactions. Similarities. Ignorance.
Thewayofself.
Thenlosing allmymemory
becomingravity'sreality Union. Flowing. Unknowing.
pullingmeinto nature'sflow. Thewaveoflesself.
Catastrophe
Havingoutgrown catastrophe on frozenlake ripplingnomore
nolong in a spellingbee oddlyunmoved bydesires I adore
havingforgotten my collegedegree evenremoved fromtemptations I abhor
yetstill muchyoungerthan each whileliving ina memory
forestree. whilestill lackingenergy
havingoutgrown catastrophe
Hardlydistracted by eithersoreknee stillclinging
feeling I'm atlast homefree tomy sacredsoul.
yet livinglike an absentee
yet feelinglike a refugee
Fishing
Anthropomorphizing
Excuses feelings of fish
All excusestoindulge is shallow&shameful
gone. a species of self.
Singlenote. Dismissing their lifeforce
Simpleharmony. as lessworthy thanmine
is purestarrogance.
Nomelody tohelpme singmydesire.
Norhythm tohelpme dancemydefense. Catchingthatlife releasingunharmed
or feasting
Singlenote. unfetteredfrom moralself.
Simpleharmony.
Eitherway picesbecomingsapien
Winner becomingpices.
Winneroflife
beingsapien AxOrAdhesive?
draggingmost Ax or adhesive?
corpses. Splittinghairs
until splittingheadache
Who? splitting my splitbrain.
Tryingtoread Twosides toosane
anthologizedpoem to dialoguetodeath.
withoutglancingtosee
whowroteit. Ax or adhesive?
Healingwounds
RetroGrade of tornwombs
Walking 3MPH retrograde to clubcar motion. cellularseparation
Train cruising as 53MPH NtoS. demandingreparation
Earth rotating as about 1KPH WtoE. recreatinig all from many
Earth revolving at about 67MPH NSEW. & my singlebreath.
Howfast amIwalking Embracing
&inwhat direction? Embracing thisnow
with patienthopelessness
Mymemory scrollingthrough my emails unknowing time'sarrow
at thespeed of thought. fallingfarshort of my
mostselfishdesire.
Whydon't I just turnaround
&return tomyseat onthetrain? Tootired todefend
my exquisiteself.
Trying
I'mtrying tobe InEquality
neither lessthan Clit v. dick.
nor betterthan you Threeopennings v. two.
neither simplenail Womb v. Adam'sapple.
nor spiralscrew. Life v. Scripture.
Milk v. muscle.
I'mtrying to connect Nurture v. protect.
both to effect&protect Mother v. Father.
my escapefromselfishness Father v. child.
to lockstitch of love. Child v. parents.
Parents v. village.
Map
Using a map Mother rather child village.
roget there ....................
from here. Equality
Politicalequality
Neverever v.
gettinglost biologicalequality.
or getting
anywhere. Neithersex hascreated
an artificialwomb.
Repeat
Eat&drink. Attacks
Pee&poop. An organism doesn'tconfuse
Duckdodgedance. attacks on self as attacks onits
Getsomesleep. cellularbeing.
Repeat.
Diminishingsocialstatus is
Transformreplete diminishing safety in numbers
withsimplicity. imperiling both my self
&mycellsuit.
Transformimbued
with tranquility Closer
forallthose Thecloser mysense of myself
notseeking more. isto yoursense of myself
thecloser Iam tofreedom
Thesaurus from the burdenofdefense.
Letmecheck my thesuarus
tofindout how I'mfeeling today. Aging
Irritants frominside outnumbering
Am I joyful serene irritants fromoutside.
sullen perhaps gay? Notwanting tobecome an irritableperson.
Save dissectingmypsyche Remainingintraining inorderto
who's tosay? age gracefully.
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Commune or commute Tongue withits tastebuds
fallinlove or justbefriends Nose withits fragranceflowers.
each a communion. Flavor arising.
Hearingwoodpecker Single sunlightshaft Squawkingacrosslake.
then an owl then a cawbird illuming singlemushroom Aregeese readyfortakeoff?
with smallbird between. lost in undergrowth. Nope. A kayakclub.
Deadtree wiresupport. Sneeze into napkin Breakingmywindows Willfuldisregard
Livetree streaming longbranches. used todrain my bacongrease. &unhinging allmydoors. &wrecklessindifference.
A squirrel highway. Relivingbreakfast. Atlast defensless. Sinsofomission.
Faith in memory Oaks pines &poplars
whatcouldpossibly gowrong watchingrinder makesawdust
withsuchselfishness? oftheir forestfriends.
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I Assign
I assign leavesfalling withoutheart
to Autumn'schillwind which I will toassign
with leafwind simplydancing tomake alluntouchable mine
through seaonlesseasons as God ordained
of now. thusfulfilling my unwaveringfaith.
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I define owls wise Senseless heartless Godless
&put racoons indisguise I wouldhave allothers confess
lessfor children'seyes the sinofseparation which I assign
thenfor myomnipotence. tokeep allother from
crossingtheline
How allother thoughtapart &challenging my sovereignself.
seemswithoutsentience
Shoulders TheEnd
Standingonshoulders Evolutionoffering
of giants. no eternalife
Reachingforheaven. forme.
Crushingthosebelow.
Separate&suffering
Or: withnochance
Lockingarms in tobefree.
expandingcircle.
NSEW Or toofree
neverever updown. ifyouknow
what I mean
Or: &/or
Teacupspinningfree ifyouknow
into dimensionless what self means
transform. separate&suffering
as proudPhilisinte.
Fertile
Fertilefield Greed
forseeds Need bleedingtogreed.
of forever. Maintenancebecoming
selfindulgence.
Allearth
(airfirewater also) Forgetpredictions.
ineach singlewomb. Allbets areoff.
Angry ToSleep
Angry that I'm sad. Now that I've written a poem
Sad that I'm angry. I'mpermitted togo tosleep.
What a whirlwind TheDream
emotions whip up "Livingthedream."
when I indulge Whowouldwish thatcurse
my preciouself. onanyother?
NoLights
Brightlights onour indoor artificial Christmastree thisnow lost whileplanning when
blazingwithpromises from memory. myeverywish willcometrue
thisnow the cost whilepanning then
Nolight onour backyard Douglasfir for treasures of misremembering
lazingyearlong in spiritfasting gazing ateach indoortree's ornament
nevercontrasting life&death asif itwas somehow heavensent
nevermasking its thineedlebite adoring myreflection inthat adornment
neverasking in season's spite curved&distorted
everbasking in seasonless light but oh so shiney.
being squirrelpantry &cicada'sblight.
There's hopeofheaven inthat angel atop
Stillsnow gracing simplelife of nature'stree. my artificialtree of etenalife
...................................... &eternalstrife if I choose tobelieve
I oblivious withinculture'snorms livingmyindoorlife in Christmasmorning before
snug&righteous desiringdefending Christmaseve.
TrainingTip - Poetry Opposites
(If notalready lost in poetry.) Opposite of love being
1. Buy three anthologies. neither hate born of fear
2. Read* each covertocover. nor lonliness bornofseparation.
3. Choose threeauthors who feelgood toyou.
4. Buy their "BestOf" &read* covertocover Opposite of love being
neverepeating the sameauthor in desire causing selfishness
in consecutive sessions. mother ofboth separation&fear
5. Type a "Favorites" list &keepit at bedside. offspringbeing
lonliness&hate.
(*read =Asif listening to lyriclessmusic.
Asif simplysitting stimuli Desire to selfishness to separation
flowing withoutjudgment. to lonliness to fear to hate.
Withoutever checkingbiography
of author. Training to lesself
beingfont of desire's sate.
TrueSuffering
Nothavinglived in a warzone Blinders
whatcan I know of truesuffering? Beingwaytoowild
for civildiscourse
Dilettant's pain of lonliness amongkin? fittingblinders
Gambler's shame of twolosses foreachwin? on eachstallion
pullingitsweight
Falsesufferingabounding in self'sfauxliving in advancingstate
asif notgetting morepainful than giving to pinnacle of
away whatweighs beyonditsmeans international
tocarry tobury desire&defense. power.
Never Perhaps retired
Neverleaving tourgroup. pizzazz canbe refired
Neverlearning language. &beasts be allowed
Neversampling authenticuisine. tosee beyondcaptivity
Neverseeing slums. runningfree withineach
thisnow.
Thus sanitized. Tourist sanctified.
Seeking
MayBe Seekinglesself in divinity.
Maybe theseare the goodoldays Buildingmuscles in weight'sroom.
&its neverevergoingtoget anybetter
until I traintoforget. Buildingmuscles in church.
Seekinglesself in weight'sroom.
Thegoodthing is
eitherway itsOK. Such confusion.
Spilling
Boy's errantbaseball Buildingborderfirst
leavingshards of stainedglass before hopeoflove.
scatteredpatternless Bordersmakinglove
amongpews of Sundaypenitents. hopeless.
Whowould dare morethan Thenpieces distinct in shapeorcolor
sweep&discard? lyingwithin nature 's groundcloudsky.
Whocouldpretend Whowould thinkorfeel
reassembly? to distinguish
............. being tooinlove
Spilling jigsawpieces to eventry?
straightfrombox.
Difficult Votive
Mylife hasbeen Self buriedinearth
sufficientlydifficult storingelements of
tonot holdeath my longlost motive.
at arm'slength.
Lesself unearthed
Repute as elementalbeing
Cavebear vanquished. trainingbeingmyvotive.
None greaterthan Hun.
PlayingTo
Fire to scareaway bears. Leagueplay.
Havingweapon of Winningtodisplay
massprotection. mysuperiority overyou.
Nothingleft forHun Playgroundplay
todefend butattack Winningtostay
those who wouldoffend oncourt fornext
his hardearned repute. nextgame.
..............
LookAway Leagueplay
Lookaway lookaway time'sarrow
fromclouds astheyplay withoutdelay.
with sun&sky&emptyspace.
Playgroundplay
Lookaway lestallbeing infulfilling thatseeing transform'sprotege
leavebarely a trace of myflush selfishface playing tonever betray
lost throughclouds towardsun incold teammates by selfishdisplay.
of matter&meaning too thin tobreathein
losthroughtime between now&too old Loversnow.
foreternity'swhim &whirlofwind. Friendsforever.
Consumedbyflame onpyre ofmyname Piling
lookingdeep throughshame ofmy claimtofame. Snowddrifting.
Atlast coughingout coldash ofmy I Shovelfulls piling.
becomingnameless &of deepbluesky. Snowedin bymemories.
Nobodysmiling.
I Wanting
What'swayworsethan Awareness
"Iwant myway"? Mindfullness talkingwith Awareness:
"Areyoustillwandering without a home
"I wantmyway becauseit's HonorableAwareness? Whydon'tyou
the rightway." joinme inthesafety ofmyfortress?"
Giveme honestsavagery of selfishness Awareness responding:
over "Thankyou fortheoffer MasterMindfullness
hypocriticalmajesty of moralrectitude. but I prefer brutereality &the mysteries
of unbridled sentience."
CookieCutter
Cuttingcookies from thinspreadough "Butyou cangethurt outhere without
a gooey sugarflourflow. properdefenses. Youcouldlose yoursoul."
Creatingshapes wepretend toknow
within lifedeath's eternaltransform. "Butyou willsuffer by stayingsafe
nevereverbecoming part&life's whole."
Consumingcookie's emptycalories
succumbing to desire's subtledisease Chatting
to please myself withmemories Poetry is chatting withafriend
within lifedeath's extraordinarynorm. certaintomend separation bycertainty
inaworld wherediscourse
SurrogateSelf cansoeasily offend
Teachinghim tothrow curveballs whenwords usedtodefend
&hit curveballs me against you.
all beforehis fourteenthbirthday.
Creatingwordsalad
Teachingher todribble with eitherhand fromgarden of weeds
& draintreys like freethrows. then tossingit totheair
asif todare thefates toplayfair
Whereisheaven &my lifeternal &create a homogeneousblend.
buthrough myloins theirlonliness?
**FloorMats**
Lookingthrough newcar ads Colorcoordinated withthick nylonpile
for luxuryvehicles in hundred-K range. built for theoutback ofmy yuppielifestyle.
Therewasmention of rebate &lowinterest rates Iknew inaninstant thiscar wasforme
of Siri autoparking &otherthings quitestrange. when lushcarpet shoesavers werethrownin forfree.
TherewereNorthstarsysystems &soulthpoleACs Whenmaking mydeal for bottomlineprice
wetbars&hotubs&desktops for bureaucrats I pulled a slickploy (butnotverynice)
but thecloser myfriend thereal coupdegrace haggling crunchingnumbers evenleaving showroom
waspromising nokidding a set of floormats. tillthey threw in forfree a brandnew wiskbroom.
Sadness Margins
Howmuch ofmysadness Don'twrite in margins
is selfishness? of a poetrybook.
Desire becomingdetritus Memorize &/or letgo
ofmy shipof fate nowords beingworthy
ofmy thrust tosate of a casual secondglance
with I becomingboth chum&bait iftheydidn't entrance
whilesuffering forthatwhich at firstsight.
I longedfor.
Find
Let truesuffering sufferindignation Findme friends
withoutbeing intheleastpart indignant. whocanbe sensual aswellas sexual
whocanbe sensible aswellas rational
Let falsesuffering sufferits fauxfears &I'll livewiththem forever.
of betrayal withdemigods intears.
ToLeave
Whenismytime toleave Butwhatofwhen
thischurch if I'mready?
thoseclasses
thatuniversity And whatmakes methink
myparent'sfamily? that thatwhen isn'taready then
................ inmy brutalindecision?
When isthetime for the
faintofheart Noleaving nostaying
failingtoliveasall but plentyofstraying
ineachthis within transform's
uncomfortablenow. myriadmatrices.
Free ThirdImperative
Freeatlast. Atlast I'mfree. Slambam thankyouma'am
You tookashot atmy greatgrandparents. Kiss &nevermakeup.
You messedwith mygrandparents.
You madeit tough onmy parents&buddies. Before I cared I neverdared
confusemating with connecting.
ButI'mfree&clearnow.
I'm an educatedadult Now caught in a chainreaction
makingmyowndecisions. bearingtheburden of socialinteraction.
Don'think youcan bullyme withthreats What usedtobe a simpletransaction
or seduceme withpromises. hasbecome a disastrousdistraction
I'lldo whatIwant whenIwant. from my selfishsatisfaction.
.......................... ...............................
Wanting. Leftwanting. Failinglove atleast I'm notalone.
Hungry tired defenseless
alone. FromNowhere
Havingcome from nowhere
Rooted why doIfear myemptiness?
Rootedindecay ofmyancestors.
Nurtured by parents&peers. Fillingmyself to overflowing
Yetpretending I'm notmypast with this&that
asIgrow headstrong with stopping&going.
untilmy headrolling downhistory'sgradient
intothevalley ofthe shadowofdeath. When can I stillmy carnalust
&bid mycellularbeing goodby
Mybody though rooted withoutmeknowing spreading myselfwide within a constellation
thriving ontheplateau of amnesia becomingagain nondescript stardust?
havingforgotten howtobe otherthan.
AllWheel
Bound I'vegot an allwheeldrive
Searching for bindingprinciple sixliterhemi 4X4 truck.
whilebound tomy preciouself.
It's an independentsuspension
Searching for etherealforce highdraft streamcrossing
findingonly blindremorse. offroadvehicle.
Searching for whatcan't belost But thathill's toosteep
while doublebound &doublecrossed. thatriver's toodeep
that terrain's toorough
Finallyfinding what can'tbesought thatswamp not solidenough
lettingo all selfishthought. for me torisk my exquisite
.......................... self.
Havingsoared finallyperching
clingingself nolonger besmirching. Peach
Whydenial?
Dog
Dog = sapien Can't a peach
lacking be delicious
opposablethumb being the brute smilingface
articulatetongue of transform
hyperactive self. disguised as lifedeath?
AirPlaneQuiz ToServeQuiz
Am I Whom do I serve
a. pilot? a. God?
b. passenger? X. fouroftheabove? b. country? X. fouroftheabove?
c. plane? Y. noneoftheabove? c. family? Y. nonoftheabove?
d. lift? Z. alloftheabove? d. truth? K. alloftheabove?
e. pull? e. justice?
f. enginedrone? f. love?
g. then? g. noone?
h. when? h. everyone?
Twister
Living within storm'scalmeye No pseudopeace ensconced in I
whileworld spinning in tornadicwind. no illusorysafety of lifesanswhy
Fearingpain of anymisstep thinking mydefenses a perfectfit
wanderingbecoming a perilous sin. tobetied tomyself as onlyme
while I ferventlytrain tobe trulyfree.
Or livingwithoutfear of dizzyingspin .........................................
havingcourage tobecome fearfulgyre. Fieldsofamber skyofblue
Lettingoself becomingfire seasonspassing in seasonalhue
of lifedeathsong from transform'schoir. with us&we &familytoo
mergingwithstorm
Blendingwith my familytree tobeme asyou.
watchingothers twist intheirown wind.
Powerofother shedding self'sdebris
neveragainfeeling falsecalm fromwithin.
Missed NoPractice
Even swung&missed Nopractice muchpreferred
ball&bat neverlessthan onewith to badpractice
batter ump fielders fans selfpretending tobe lesself
self havingcompletelyforgotten tosmother evenwith lesself ifbeing
that preciousmoment of I asother. beingalie.
SimplyNatural Nopractice being
Failing SuperNatural bythe verydefinition of
withall its perfection earthairfirewater
including eternalife. purepractice
havingbeenforgotten
Needing SupraNatural beforeremembered
(at veryleast) distracted by distantdrumming
to distinguishme of pileatedwoodpecker.
as perfectlyrational
frombeing brutishbeast. Fourteen
Fourteendays
Or before fertilizedegg's
beingbeast dividingcells
butfarfrombrutal begintospecialize.
neither eternal nor evenrational
but SimplyNatural Surelybythen
elementalbeing. I'm
sacrosanct.
MyZombie
My zombie ismy memoryalone Fourteenyears
pseudolifedeath as reason'sclone &I'mgettingsick
beingtocell asboth heaven&hell ofbeing boyasman
as nature's crueltrick.
Livingdead inmy zombiehead
chockedfull of truth&certainty Surelybynow
thinkingagain asif thoughtbefree I shouldhavesurvived
evolution's
Myzombie ismy memorysewn sadisticprank.
tofabric ofmy reality
asif a cyclops bornfullgrown Vacation
my solitaryeyeseeing onlyme. When beingperfection in planning.
Then beingperfection in memory.
Tired Thisnow being heat hunger joy
I usedto believe in when. fatigue disappointment.
I usedto question then.
Now I'mtootired fromtraining. ThankGod for forgetting.
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Tentbeetles atwork Possum raccoontracks MiddleAge medschool
leavingskeleton of leaf leftnearbricks in mortarmix studying all thirtybones
in a finenet shroud. spilled by masoncrew. &six humours.
Stackingchairs in truck Threehundredtwelve chairs Twooldfriends beneath
morestacking&morestacking. fromchurch to marriagemeadow wisteria graced altar
Fish&loaves wedding. then truckedback to church. beside meadowstream
Brushingteeth at home. Lightning thisdryeve? Others caringless Sunlight then shadow.
Brushingteeth in Hawaii. TVroom picturewindow ofthe causeofectasy Swimming walking thenbounding
Brushingteeth alone. flashingwitheachscene. makingme as them. allon oneretrieve.
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OnHigh TheWay
Sapiens Sapien's way
creaturesofjudgment LawOfContrast
sittingonhigh in shiningblackrobes LawOfExcludedMiddle
wieldingavel of self&righteousness. LawOfSupply&Demand
LawOfNormalCurve.
Imprisoningsomanyothers
thenliving withoutlove. Nature's way
PeriodicTableOfElements
Simple LawsOfChemistry&Physics
Listeningtosongplaying. TransformThroughEvolution.
Not previoustune.
Not nextone. FinalNote
Hearingeachnote now. Finalfading.
Simple butnoteasy. Howcan I nothope
music will breathe on?
Forward
Planning. Repetition. Refrain.
Lookingforwardto Coda. Denoument.
whileriding merrygoround. Lettingmagic refillbybeing.
Lettingmystery fillmywonder.
Innumeragbletangents
ifable toletgo Lovesongsung in hushedtones.
mydefenses. Emotionsubdued by harmony.
Grasping Pleasedon't end
Grasping. Escaping. this preciousongofother
Remembering. Forgetting. until myclingingself
Finding. Losing. slips into amnesia.
Loving. Choosing.
Separate
Noneed tohelp transform Immutable separatefrom mutable.
bybeingselfish. Newton sparringwith Darwin.
Staidminuet or whirlingdervish?
Acorn
Whatwill this tinyacorn become Newtonhard. Darwinsoft.
whendonewith its developmental run Newtonpredictive. Darwinprobablilistic.
a fern?
a goose? CouldData or Spock haveunderstood?
a rock? Ofcourse CaptainKirk wouldhave
a river? &wouldhavetested severalrealities
a clock? beforesettling on his journey.
Perhaps a yoke? Perhaps a joke? But forthe restofus
Or maybe it growsinto a mightyoak dothemath
whichmaybuild a house or go up insmoke. &create a path
of mostresistance
Fearingsome unseemlyend perhaps training to stillself
or an onerous development within union of
do I crushtheseed neverhavingbeen whatneverever waseparate.
transform'sgift of heavenspent.
SapienSon
Hybrid of symbol&sinew Abletogo where nosapien's gonebefore
heralding myboast of superiority. havingkeys toeach doorlessdoor.
Morepowerful than a locomotive I'msuperiorbecause I'malways thinking
whentrackless inmy thoughtrain. pretendingtocontrol withouteverblinking.
.............................
Fasterthan a speedingbullet Yet lesself roaming withoutcare
whenpiloting my daydreamplane. thoughtfree
hearingmy waytoopridefulldecree
Abletoleap tallbuildings in a singlebound that I amwise withinmy
withouteverleaving my hallowedground. memory.
TeeterTotter Emptiness
History or immediacy? Emptiness doesn'timply
Normality or uniqueness? a loss or a hole
Expectation or spontaneity? asif somethingtaken
asif somethingmissing.
Asif livingona teetertotter
hopingmy otherself Emptinessbeing
nearlythesameweight fullness of lesself
asme. lobpass withoutpassing
slamdunk withoutdunking
Distant spring withoutsmile
If fullmoon fall without tear.
be 240,000 milesaway
&itsreflection comingfrom Profane
93millionmilesmore I can neverpray
howcanitbe less I perhaps if inaction trained
thatcaughtinyoureyes to&of self'sacts restrained
itmakes thetwofus unwilled lestalways anact profane
one? with no deitiesdecreeing
myloss mygain
Really?! with nodevilsdelivering
A questionmark withoutcurves my so deserved pain.
becoming an exclamationpoint?!
WithOut
Be verycareful withyour bodylanguage. Without promisedgrace
howhard will I work
HavingBeen toachieve lifeverlasting?
Havingbeen thenwhen
beyond reason&rhyme Eachnow
trippingthelightfantastic momentary
throughallspace&time elusive
being thisnow but oh soreal.
is tedious.
Butwith then
Despite alwayslingering
Despite his family's insistence &when
despite his coach'sassessment alwaysdancing
inspired byhis overwheeningconfidence I'malready inthekingdom
theboy simply of eternalmemory.
wouldnotrain.
Keys
Burn Lockingmydoors with manykeys
Burnallforests. lettinginonly what&whom I please
Ban allinstruments whentimeforsense
of imagination'sdelirium. makingfragrant incense
passingup thisnow
Thereshallbe nomore for pastfuture tense.
writtenword.
No me inthis no I in now
Breathe heat&smoke noself holingup inholiness
ofthatblaze. wheredark islight in desire'sight
&eachday is coloredgray.
Cauterizewounds
with self'sconceit's. Myskin beheart myskull bebrain
in seasonsof myconstant rain
Burnyoureyes tilldoors areburst &keysdispersed
till painsears&tearsblur among the lovingfew
whatyousaw as separation. who'll melt themdown &fashion a clown
toplay withme inmy fleecircus.
Entropy
Lifedeath an entropic tourdeforce AllLife
building&maintainingBabel Allife isuffering
against transform's elementaldance truesuffering beingway of flesh
playingJenga within a dervishtrance. falsesuffering beingcurse of self.
Wide&Deep
Distancebetween stimulus&response cuz I rememberwell &itwon'thappenagain
wideningwithmemory deepeningwithemotion. no repeating thathen duringmy nextwhen.
Self dedicatedtosurvival of same Elevatingondrive I'm preparedthistime
searching forinput threatening itsclaim notallowing a second embarrasingcrime.
overmyorgansim (cellularself byname) Airbound am I he making a pass
especially its primaryorgan my overatedbrain me againlookinglike an untrainedass.
actinginconjuctionwith memory'semotion When will I learn? Howcan I train
matchingthismoment against anyothernotion to forget&forego feltneed toretain
that mightbecausing noncognitivedissonance control ofeach nextnow by reshapingthen
stimuli trimmedtofit longbefore entrance. creating self'smonster destroying eachwhen.
He practically jumpedoverme dunkingthatday And ofcourse
butif he threatensrepeating he'd betterpray each thisnow.
**HoseManagment**
Unabletoafford an irrigationsystem Butnothing asnasty as turning a corner
I'mconsigned tobattle mygardenhose guillotining garagedoor fauxgladiolus
wellknown tobe recalcitrant stem gettingstuck underminivan tires
oftencausing itsowner to rail&rant. before flora maelstrom coulduncoil itsgyres.
Knockingdownanything notfrimlyrooted Ofcourse the finalindignity
worsethan klutzygardener fullybooted justwhenyouthink you'vebrokenfree
usuallybeginning with gardengnomes a crink inthebrink of seasnake'slength
beingdraggedaway to brandnewhomes. crimpingwaterflow to one eighth fullstrength.
The the DutchCouple kissingblissfully Sobegins thelift causingthewave
toppledbyrubbersnake slitheringwistfully. intendedtoright thewrong &save
Then toppling photcell drivewaylights sadgardener fromgoing to hands&knees
causingtbottomingout in darkestnights. hunchingundercar tosee what hesees
.....................................................
before jerking saidsnake in utterdispleasure
thentwisting itstube for unneededgoodmeasure
atwhichtime itswater beginstoshower
everythingsentient except lawn&flower.
Quivering Reflection
Sittingstockstill I think Reflection of moononlake
yet shadowofmyhead ismoon.
quivering
asif thesun delivering Moon asreflection
a dose of hubris tomy beingmyrecollection.
toowellfed confidence.
Itsbrightness is reality
Orisit Sol our firerylifegiver mymemory beingmy
shivering intis distantfreeze totality.
while I trainatostill evenwhile I will
&succumb to sinsoftheflesh? Thus lakeis mymemory
ofme
Andhow canitmatter at best unknowingboth
whenboth forward&later moon&reflection
passrelentlessly beforemyeyes. a phenomenon
Shadowgone fornow forthen lesself
perhapsreappearing if I sitagain would(never)call
inthisplace transform.
at the exactsametime
corrected for earth's Salt
spinningfolly. Sodium&chlorine
dissociating in solution
ProudBeast to their elementalselves
Pretendingacceptance of thisnow asis yet alwaysreturning as salt
camouflagingmyproudbeast during dehydration.
judgment.
Ifonly you&I.
Onlyunaware cageisopen
willcage everopen. MyPath
Mypath
Thenmybeast neveris. rainsoaked muddyclear
leafstewn dullglistening
Awake? hardclay ruttedyielding.
Awakewhilesleeping
pastlife nowseeping Mystride
initomysodden limbicmilieu. alwayscompact
neverovereaching
Self trapped as then&when neverbeseeching
lostwithin an unknowingblend inmy searchfor
noway toknowintuition fromdefined the endofmysearching.
noway toknow improv fromdesigned.
GoodFaith
Yet I'm sleepingawake asif selfcombined Willagainstwon't
withsource ofall knowledge&nutrition doagainstdon't
a recipeforstarvation ofall sapienkind railagainstwhat
thinking eveninsleep waitingforwhen.
whiledreamingblissfully
thatmemory canbe mysweetkeep. Thinking
inallmisguided
Fading goodfaith
Letmewearclothes that I canpossibly
with frayingedges&fadingcolors makeadifference.
with wornholes&permanentspots
as idiosyncrasies ofmy failingmemory. SleepMask
Sleepmask necessary for peacefulnap.
Marriage
Mycell's lostinpassion. Brightsky limbswaying leavesfluttering
Me seekingperfection. lost tomemory duringdaylightblack.
If lesself isn't trainedsoon Blocker
noseed willever besown Betablocker blocking flightfight.
no other willever begrown. I see cavebear butsimply don'tcare.
WhenIDies
When I dies doesmy wristwatchstop Isall that'sleft a singlesong
notneeding tobe therethen? of allthatis &everwillbe
When I dies does spacetime's tent collapse &allthat'sright as allthat'swrong
notneeding tobe wherewhen? allbeingall butnot for me?
..........................
WhenNewton died did OurFather fall In eternaltransform lesself willplay
&wasHecrushed by a billiardball? at causeffect &judgment too.
DidEinstein take Hiscross tobear In eternaltransform lesself willsay
&dare tocrossHim inhislair? "Nomatterwhat love doesaccrue."
Is livingbeyond allspace alltime In eternaltransform lesself willfly
liltingrhythm joyousrhyme? beingbothawk&snowhitedove.
Failing tosing mysong of self In eternaltransform lesselfwillsigh
doestransform become somethingelse? all matteringless in willess love.
CommentOnWhitman
"I have no mockings or arguments, I asmocking alwaysdefending
I witness, and wait." my selfbrooking nosecondplace
onmy proundstage.
I being ........................
engine of linguistics Only I canwitness beingseparation.
grammar of judgment Only I canwait for futureperfect
semantics of nevernow (thisnow judgedunworthy).
hidden in wishfulwhen Only I canwitness self as separation.
fitting future rewrittenfromthen Only I canwait whiletrying toforget.
as I seesaw myreality.
NoArrow
Time withoutarrow is simplynow Universeofstardust of mydust
emptied of reference. of ourdust notneeding to trust
Space withoutplace is simplythis gravity of myexistence
emptied of preference. matrix of mypersistence
thatwouldwill a structure
Transform eternally butwon't its contents
nomoments to link neverbeingcontent toknow
notime tothink wherewhen my veryownself
nosubstance toform is suffering separation
nowhere tobeborn. failing stillempty
fallingshort of love.
HoneyBee Lesself
Honeybee's wings Thisismy self
fanningflames of memory. givenforyou.
My clingingvision so easilyfused Thisismy self
seeingonlyblur throughsmokeyslur biddentodo.
welcomingthatbeing as lackofseparation. ...........
Thisismy lesself
Yet trueunion being eachwing as only&all withoutmywill.
motionless overflame withoutsmoke
in perfectcombustion of eacheverynow. Thisismy lesself
elemental&still.
HoldingDear
Holdingdear with clearmemory Disadvantage
lossby threepoint deluge. When maskingnow as then
Losingagain to upfakes losingallbets to a surething.
&drivinglayups.
Me planningpostfeed
Holdingdear with clearmemory withoutseeing defender react.
of weaponizedairplanes.
Searchingsky during subway Pass stolen.
gasattack. .................
Disadvantage of offense
Holdingdear with clearmemory isknowing whereyou'regoing.
lossofbeloved by jealousy.
Not lettingo sufferngsamefate Advangage of defense
abandoned to irony of appetite'sate. ignorance.
AirBall
Howcould I possiblymiss? Howcan I possibly make this orthat shot
Myfeet wereplanted. or anyshot I take I takes I fakes
Mybalance wasgood. to gaincredit forpractice I alwaysintended
My shoulders weresquared. butneverattended
Myelbow wasin neverthere trainingmuscles tobe freefrom me
&ball was wayoutfront. neverthere trainingme tobe freefrom memory
of desiringtodominate.
I started myrhythm with relaxingexhalation .......................
then loftedballthrough my mentalimage arc Me askingmuscles to remember mywill
endingonmytoes with a perfect wristlockout. havingfalied to trainwill to silence.
Me askingnow tobe otherthanthen
A nobrainer. A knockout. I wasone withall beingtime illspent in selfishviolence.
yet resulting in an awkward&ignominous ....................................
airball. Eachshot taken becoming anairball.
Eachshot forsaken being flareofall.
Seeing We
Seeing myworld asit shouldbe I cantrust you
is self's boldsapien judgment. &
Seeing crudeworld asit canbe you cantrust me
is hominid's nakednaivete. remaining intrust
Seeing then'sworld asitwas a paircalled we.
is prayer&promise of when.
Seeing thisworld asitis Estrangedconjoined
is dream beyond untrainedmemory. from nobirth to noearth
..................................... lifedeath tethering
Closing self'seye all lifedeath becomingbliss lesself weathering
to touch&feel of thismoment's kiss. desire defense trying
tocause
CaveBear separateseeing.
Hun at mouthofcave
remembering childhoodfun Morality
of exploration &fleefulrun I judging
havingsurvived smallcub. therefore
...................... I is
Hun at mouthofcave &is
remeberingbear &luckykill. separate.
Backingoff. Exertingwill.
................... Morality
Hun at jawsofcave creatingme
remembering providingmeat. &
Clan'smen expectingHun mortality.
tobebrave.
Beardingbear on a dare.
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Scavengingdumpster. Raccoon or bacon? Withoutpain
Hearing I'vegot a partner. Simplycount the C's&O's tooeasy being a god.
Raccoon poppingup. forgetting R B. Suffer &beGod.
Hittingwinningserve. Twentyeight students.
Whirlingshirtless in lowsun. Twentynine humanbeings.
Seeing waistwings flair. &one makesthirty.
Blood runningthroughblade
shaping purewhite sheetrockwall
into our own home.
Nevercleaning ash. Tendingmygarden.
Breathingin eachpart ofpast Diggingup old concretepath
in a coolingroom. cartingoff each chunk.
Katrina mylove Evenaftercut Duringtheir briefplight
sentbyGod embracedbyman thepath isdark tillseven somecicadas singingsex
ThyWill beingdone. &gone beforedark. throughboth day&night.
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