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Pullingthumb in mitt. Pullingthumb in mitt. Pullingthumb in mitt.
Surrounded by warmfingers. Surrounded by warmfingers. Surrounded by warmfingers.
Making a tightfist. Sharedcirculation. Nomore fingers thumb.
Limb by limb bleeding. Inhaling allstars
Tourniquets cuttingoffhope. lungs becominguniverse
Replacedbybeing. nothingleft to want.
Knowingthebeyond
withoutguessing the within.
Waytoomuchthinking!
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Asphalt
Asphaltplayground of mytoobriefsummers. Augustasphalt's finalbubbling
AsphaLtoder pheromone of my feralself. summervacation facingSeptember
Asphaltmelt as secondskin of biketires stuck in playgroundless summerend stasis.
&bananapeelsneakers.
Asphaltoder pungent
Asphalt wornsmooth. lonlinesspalpable
skidding&skinning becoming plaintive preternatural paralytic primal
routineritual. profound profane protracted.
Luckily I wouldn'tbeseen dead inshorts Counselorsgone playgroundclosed
shroudedscabs beneathpatched denim openningme to time's barbedemptiness.
beingmyburden of manhood.
Homebound.
Woundsbared on undressing.
Thickscabs beingtorn tocrabs Too old for neighborhoodkids
oozingectoplasm from crackingchasm. to "call for" me.
Armor of repair of sin laidbar
by asphalt'sbite &cellsuitsblight Waybefore formality of "playdate."
when I shouldbeplaying
fullyarmored. Others withoutme.
Probably havingfun
Bacchanalia endingatsuppertime withoutme.
&return to monasticbedroom. ................................
Asphaltcontracting to wintercracking
Tethered to as winterwhite becomes snowballfights
twelvehundredsquarefeet &snowforts become neededrefuge.
of silence
butfor droningTV. Fillingother winterdays flying on lagoonglaze
Wistfullywatching playground till springbalm &back to asphaltskating
from secondstorybedroom. over my blacksea of summer.
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ProudEarth LightHouse
Earth proud of pull on cloudwater Stoneuplifting on upliftedstone
dappling asif torrentialdrenching towhen handformingtower into tectonicskies
pocking stillake'surface grounding glance of ship's surprise
breakingagainst coastguarding when seasrunhigh with sailsfullblown.
mineralbeing
becomingcataracts in madattacks Oceanswells creating crashfoam
from earth'sky as earth's plaintivecry at foot of footing's of night's sunrise
with crash&foam beginning its roam bluntingchance of ship'scapsize
&gougebecoming mountaingorge in crookedstraights of sinkingzone.
joining oceanall in pour
as pore. Beaconsummoning distantreckoning
above lostloads &fornlornlives
Self'sSnow above shallowocean's deeparchives
Self's snow accumulating when blankeyes missed its deadlybeckoning.
doing to other
what lake Cyclop'swink hilltop'sblink
doestolandscape secrets of passage free&clear
what ocean shuntingcause of captain'sfear
doestoearth. when closingfast on disaster'sbrink.
With nopromise of spring or thaw Whitehouse sighthouse toweringlighthouse
thoughpassion'sfuel home to heaven'spulsar on firmearth
be irony of fire'sheat providing sailingships a secondbirth
self slowingtransform as sailor's firstbest lovingspouse.
with stuffoftransform
returning to Weight
whatitnever wasnot Beingweight of whaleoutofwater
thoughcrytallized whilebeingwait of time'sowndestiny.
bylanguage Self remembering all while
hardened stranded on fate's woodencross
bylogic. floatingthroughlimbo of chosendensity.
Self pittingsurface of other Ifonly I could ifonly I would
withitschilling righteousness. train to slimdiet of blubbered desiring
forgetting eachshould foregoing eachgood
ending sweetend of endless tiring.
Racket
Nature of racket naturewerelogic
nature of net thebeing acrossnet were an opponent
one&thesame &oneplusone
one lovingball were demonstrably two.
one lettingwindblow.
There are far toomanyparts in logic
Fistclenced on rackethandle &far toomanyholes in racket &net
becoming fleshball &only asball unfolds overnet
but willnot or cannot or maynot becoming twoasone from two&one
playwithwind or net or singlestring (yetnever a union for never a contest
strung ohso taut. neverwhole never apart)
doesthenature ofourgame becomeclear.
Fist being artifact of civilization .................................
as constricted flesh&bone Fist&frame&gut wrenched drawn taut
is neither permitted to stroke netcords singing
nor abletofly. fromeach singlestring stringing
with sparrows winging wherespheres are detained
Therefore hittingball into net eachserve a let thescore alwayslove
wouldbe paradise regained racket propellingball
or perhaps KingdomOfHeaven withneither push
if&onlyif norshove.
**Screws** **Friend**
Mywife left a crypticnote The invisiblefriend
"Needscrews inmyfan." I had as a child
isnow fullgrown herself
That asyou mayhaveanticipated &makes a willing
leftalot tomyimagination. sexpartner.
**TooFlat**
Indiana beingtooflat Its stateanimal
for watertoflow being quitenaturally
has its largestcityserviced the Boxcar.
exclusivelybyrail.
And withits
Indianapolis streaming corntasseled meadows
with tracks&trains needing chemicalsalve
becoming a midwestern its statebirdbeing the
hydra. Cropduster.
Drought
Meadows sighing seamedfields drying. Whatsad preheaven
Of earthairfirewater denying onlymoisture. or ungodly purgatory
to have&hold but nevergive
Clouds playingbreeze for fool tohalt life'scycle in numbinghubris
sharingnot puff's singularjewel being for a moment&forever
neither sensing what'sclearlyfair a beingofgreed unwillingtofeed
not onetear of darkcoolcare mouths of thoseliving
inshadowing nimbusnonchalance. within lesself's loving?
Freshlysewnseeds dessicating Whatmanner of mother'snature
unseasonablesun radiating could manifestdrought
plantsfailing to propagate as her children of doubt
suffering harshest desert'sfate ashenfaced&failing
beneath sarcasticgray. losefaith in heaven &God'sgoodgrace
inthis splitlip absence of rain simplerain?
Farmers&gardeners spray butpray .................
for precious sweat from sky's broadbrow Then the torrent
to honortheirlabor givenover to love a pour abhorent
tofeed eachfamily'sneeds. sardonicbastardbeing
of unlovingseeing
Then clouds spewing a sobrief shower flushingseeds &topsoiltoo
intheir schizoidmirth waytoofast&far toroot
given to neitherbirth nor rebirth leaving rivulet slashes
inthiseason of drysoil carving gawking gashes
&moistenedeye. whereonce wasfertility
................ home hope family.
Saturday 4PM
December 19 fourPM nonconferencegame. Computerfailing. No nationalanthem.
Darkskies. Lightraffic. Crowd&all standing. Waiting.
Frontgate padlocked. Finally faintlysinging ourselves.
Twentysevencars onebus in 300spaces
near side entrance to highschoolgym. ApostolicEagles playing 2-3 zone.
Hometeam fightingfatigue
One ticketaker. from Fridaynight rivalrygame.
Fivedollar admission. And indifference.
One concessionworker Scoreboardscreen bright with
offeringonly drinks&candy Christmasthanks from
no hotdogs or popcorn. local merchants.
Gym emptyallday. Chilly. Scoreboard screaming
Fortysevenfans on homeside. "Make some noise! Make some noise."
Eight cheerleaders. Gym hollow silent.
No pepband thischill afternoon.
Sixfans followingtheirteam. On drivehome cold drizzlingrain
Nocheerleaders. Just five makingblacktop shine.
player's girlfriends. but notquitefreeze.
Foresaking Foremost
Fullyentwined oakleaf crown First&formost physical
full thornvined interlaced ground. withoutwhich others
couldn'tjoin stillpond.
Inbetween lichenlogs on end
no sapienbuiltcoumns tocomphrehend Second social
but deeperstory nevertobe penned rippling's inpond
exceptbypoet withink bleedingreen interferencepatterns
wandeirngfrom meadow intothis lushscene. both positive&negative.
In anothermeadow verdantisland Thirdly emotional
pinebranches lilting to sapien eyeheight causing rippledpatterns
acidneedles clearingundergrowth movementwithin
canopy barelyleaking noonhighlight movingall without
secondcousin to oakbiomass intent butfor personalgain.
secondsister to wildmeadowgrass
dots onplateau's pointillisticanvas Lastly pureintellect
seenfromdistance toas nevertomiss measuringamplitude
islandinoceans of atmopheremaking frequency wavelength of ripples
seducing sapientransform pretendingmath best mappingpath
sapienself forsaking. forsapien's dervishexperience.
BrushSpine I Forgot
Bush spine snaking "I forgot theyhad mothers."
through unfurrowedmeadow Sadness settlingdeeper
protecting streamvine thaneverbefore.
till safety at treeline.
"I forgot theywere oncechildren."
Inhills smoking snakespine Empathy beginningcorrosion
risingfrom riverunning of brightlyplated platitudes.
leavingmeadow farbehind.
Memory inservice tolesself
Rarely acknowledging my self
Rarelyleaving safetyofcage ifnot I asother.
though doorunlocked mostoftenopen.
Considering herself subtlesage Lesself
beingnever otherthan proudlysoftspoken. My self
heavywith attachments.
Onlyoccasionally verybrief flight Lucky it'sonly inmyhead.
herhome beingfarfrom townorforest.
Herfuss merelyflutter &lightlylight My reflection
singinghersolitary plaintivechorus. caughtbymirror
caughtinmirror.
Singingto no one flyingonly torest Lucky itisn't me.
onhercage asif outsideinside wereone
asif metalbars couldbe hernest BlackberryMorning
&newmoon light couldbe hersun. Angus herd drowning in highgrassdew
each fencepost a weaterbeaten pollinator'sperch
StillMovement eachdirection east tothis lowsunfeast
Heatedmolecules movingrandomly causingsquinting before turn&awe.
withintransform's silenctcacophony.
Flockingsparrows neverlanding Dawn's twilightcoolcondensation
ongable tree or telephonewire. disappearing in sunrise evaporation
Geese incutcorn feedingfeely turning sparklingfield to dullheatshield
neverever needingdesire. &making ofnext goldenhaycrop.
Evencold nearlymotionless Septagenaritanflashmob descending
stilltransform's motilestillness like multicoloredJunebugs in July
perhaps moreinitimate soverynear uponsix supportedbands of blackberrystrands
unattainable stillpoint beyond notime rowsofplenty among acresofempty.
ifthat bepossible to mywanderingkind.
Silvers golds whites&tans
Noarrows no slings justhisnow pickuptrucks SUVs minivans
(in aggitatedstill chevronedalong gravelroad
ifmovement withoutpurpose at anglesodd to darkdottedvines.
bemovement atall)
withmyself wanderingrandomly inmyskull Searching among red for darkest ripe
seeds of unchosen&illchosenmemories multilobedmasters of vinegrowth entwined
floatingwithin transform'slull. fillingpails with seedbeesucculence
before bucketparade from nature's pastense.
Beyond
Stainedglass Within pulpbrick &my inkpen
makingdaylight myworld teeming myworld scheming
into dawndusk tosanitize suffering
before darkestnight. suffering as sophism
inobesiance toreason
What of ourdailybread sloghingsuffering as self's pridefultreason.
Hisbody&blood
intimesof middayburn Emptybeing
of eyes&skin a sensualfreeing
of memories&dreams from thoughtresponse
&allthatseems realtome to memory'stimuli.
only whenfaithful toThee. ....................
Beyondbelief &knowledgeboth
Beyondbelief in eternalrelief beyondself's alltoosacred oath
from workday's simplemaintenance to then&when as reality'shroud
ofbody with imminentneeds neverevertobe spokenaloud
withself suffering transcendentcreeds to lifeternal within anyhow
of faith hope meaning purpose. withougregard to thisonlynow
with sufferingsubsumed within transform'sgyre
Anotherpromise desiredestroyed by purebreath'sfire
my ivylife withinmindless timeless eternal thisnow
throughlibrary'sbrick. this beinglove
Greentodry&greenagain now beingbliss.
asif nextpage
willhave myanswer
asif nextpoem
willreveal mysalvation.
Parallels
Ofcourse thereare paralleluniverses Anyway whowants a coldpotato supper
howelse couldthatphoto makemecry? or a radish forbreakfast
when mywanderingdesire's arehaving
Iam thatlonemonk visitedonly bymoonlight stirfries westernomeletes hotub TV
lostincloudpeaks searching forthelittle heseeks. &heated waterbed.
Seeing myself inthat emptyplace Lookaway fromphoto &starfilledsky
knowing itwould hurtless if I were here now embrace incowardice
notme dreaming of eitherneither ifwhen orhow. all tactile&tasteful.
Perhaps it's a nightmarefeeling I don'tdeserve Blindedbybounty livebut onelife
what I musthavelived &livedpoorly beingin thisworld &ofit
undigested halfburned barelyash better tobe beforethecross
spreadtowinds of where I oncewas than here&there then onit.
without myknowledge or permission
butwith mybeing bloody&entwined But ifwandering in dreamories
caught in memory'svalley below toppedtrees be myonly will&way
wheresurely I once mistepped then deliverme indeath
orperhaps stepped with slightmisgiving from each&every perfectday
plunging tomy eternaldamnation. tothat wonderfulwandering forgetfulsapien
towhom radishes areradishes hotubs arehotubs Beingofage &trained lesself
of rock tree mist sage is now&fornever.
holyenough tolive inlimbo
&die to tellaboutit.
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As I getolder
mypast barelyremembered
yet piercingmyheart
yet impalinglove.
For mercifulGod To trainedsapien
nevertolate tobelieve. no earlylate in transform.
Myfoxhole dugdeep. Thisnow as only.
Game as spectacle. Game as battlefield. Game as trainingfield.
Sportsmanship lost to surfeit . Sportsmanship as savagery. Competingwithself only.
Self seekinglory. Other as quarry. Losingmemory.
Realityzoo. Memories&thought
All wildcreatures in cages as secondhandsentience.
oftheirownmaking. Definingrainbows.
Paindiminishing
directlyproportional
to number of friends.
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Concrete
Whatisit holdingconcrete together Seaitself desalinated
sand stone soakedpowdercement? slurringthis swill of mysticalmight
Factis its saltocean's broadmanifestations yet mixing diversematter misses uniquemagic
creatingconditions for an adhesivevent. thatwhen watersubtracted mixdrying stonetight.
Beach of finesliced smoothedcornered beigequartz Waterproof too trytoimagine
yielding siliconsand ofgrains soslight makingwith excluding thendrying impervious.
but whenmixed inproportions with earth'sothergifts Wheredid geniusofjoining mysterioulsyappear
hardensto fauxgranite which is nearlyairtight. in beachmountainshellwater ornothing so obvious?
Rocks ofages weatheringforeons Elementaltransformation as nature'sgyre
wearingdown tillmountains are usefullsize earthairfirewater in magicombination
ofstone ofright &stoneofbeauty bleeding tectonicmight into architecturalsight
creatingnewstone in chosenguise. binding organicbeing into lesseparation.
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Then seashell minerals from seaswaterbounty Way of naturalife a mysterytome
yielding limestone of cavedeep to skyscraperheight with dervishdance of rock&sea&sun
first groundtofinepowder thenwet onceagain in facelessfaithless interaction
becoming afterdrying a rockbindingsight. I&all atlast beingboundasone.
MyBody LivingWith
Mybody learningbyrepetition. Livingwithpain
Myheart taughtby experience alone. noGod nodrug
no wanderingself.
Whatcanmybrain addoteither?
Perhaps icecream in a wafflecone. Neitherfaith norhope
just purityofhurt.
Almost .................
Almost tenniseason Smoothedstones
yet court snowlined inbed
brightsun coolow of crystalcoldstreaming.
windbiting.
Buds
Boys fullofwinterpast Dogwood nextotkennel.
burgeoningwith prespringself Buds icecoated.
playingthrough eachlast winterblast
willingracket toball Kennelexcrement melting
with unsurefootfall brownpatches throughsnow.
butcertain oflove ofgame.
Me duckingbrances
plowingopengate
shoveling brownpatches
Meditation kneeling huggingdog.
Meditation
mostdifficult prayer. InHeaven
No finalscores in heaven.
Forgettingself Notevenasking howyouplayed yourgame.
whiledoing nothing.
Simplyall (keepyour I offtheball)
TerminalVelocity thisbreath nextnext exactlysame.
Attempting toachieve escapevelocity
I meditate myworldaway. NoLoveInLove
Thereis nograce in sunlitsky
Butgravity ofmybeing justblue alwaysblue.
being persistentdemon
fillingmeup Thereare nodiamonds onplants atdawn
weightingmedown justdew alwaysdew.
pullingme into myself.
Thereis nolove whenmadly inlove
Luckily for mymassiveme just two always two.
there's suchathingas
terminalvelocity. I can neverlove tillmywill is still
&myromanticmemory ofyou ismarred.
Price
Priceofpureplay Then I canforego forget &fade
islettingpastdecay disappearing inemptiness ofyour
memorysullying all sweetdisregard.
withits comfortingpall.
Moments mywill BeingWith
wouldholdforever Beingwith inface ofall
wouldnurture myself withwife withson withbrother
with selfishthrill. apart whenedges threaten a fall
fearing bothself &other.
Yet trained tonochoice
hearingtransform'svoice Blending elementalpalette
silencing my sapiensuffering. earthairwaterfire
onewithall in simplesit
Emptiness nevermore than I require.
Fishing clearcooldeep.
Fourhours without proofoflife Beingfamily inbelly of notime
doesn'tseem tome tobe being beyondeath in forgottenmine.
training to emptiness.
Echo
Passingfield eachmorning eachafternoon Sunparching treelinedefining
goingtowork returninghome. newhorizon foregoing foreground
stretchingthrough heatcurvedlight
Cuttingrass havingrown highenough toroll to echobillowingsilence
alive becomingdead at farthestendofsight.
green becomingyellow
or soitseems for first tenyears orso Pulsingwithfield roamingwitheachbreath
passingfield of sunriseclearskies being onewith work&family allknown&unknown.
sunsetting huesofsurprise. ................................................................
Next tomorrow timelessnessreturning
But an echoing ofsorts ofsight notsound hugehayrolls redefining lengthofday
a reverberatingmirage silentrebound realigninghorizon'sheight
lessforce thanwarmth in sedentarysoaring gravityfight.
lessbody thanallbeing
a wholeness to horizon Longcurvingfingers waving in dewlessbreeze
asif lifedeath as one. entwinedwith whirlingwind
now cut&strung wovenstraw
Yesterday those longcurving fingersofgrass enormousforeground dwarfing treelinehoizon
weregraced with diamondew &mytimefulfright.
dawnsun as morestars thananyheart deserves
morethan mybeing couldeverlive Beingsolimited by growingdying cuttingrolling
embodied inflesh entombed intime. beingsobundled by mornginwork eveninghome
evenechoing of here&there horizon
But time notobtaining witheach thisnow notlulling tosleep thatsight of emptiedfullness
being long sparklingmoistfingers reverberations embracing transform'sbeing &love.
laying cut&drying yestill withaglow ..............
orso itseems forthefirst tenyears orso Echo fullyfelt
caughtup in career&family &all I think I know. passing AM&PM
going returning.
SoClever - 2 CloudFun
Self soclever asto makeonethink Clouds havingfun
that thought itself belife againstdeath with twilightmountain profile
whenself itself defined withawink changingface with eachfleetingmoment
ismemory itself havingforgot mylastbreath. squeezingout lifeofsun
against proudlift
Myflesh decaying ascertain asmybirth of motherearth.
so I muststray beyondmysuit ofcell
tosave saidself fromtime's networth FifthSeason
withtransform beingbeing's lifedeath dwell. Absenceofpain absenceofpleasure
acceptedbycowards aslife ofjoy.
Misunderstood self becoming illusion's toy Endless springsummer neverfall or snow
separationbecoming self sparkedstark cowardsforgetting what they can'tpossibly unknow.
unable to startheart of realove'sjoy
by anytruth inkedark with questionmark. Thinkingofneeds tofill hiswants
feelingwant beyond eachdeed
Let languagelinger asdesire's lasthope cowardsconsuming theirbeing'self
while lesself&other aslovers elope. with monstersgrowing between eachfeed.
ComeFrom Thinkingpassion hisonlybreath
I comefromwhere &stillness a kind of flatlinedeath
there's neitherinside notknowing unknowing is lovebeyondreason
nor out absenceofabsence being fifthfinalseason.
&never thenorwhen.
Emily'sGoblin
Then youmust havebeen She'sgoaded bytime's uncertainwing
withus allthewhile? asif inlove thisnow countingbeats
ofheart ofself ofsin
And allthewhile asif ticktockclock couldpossibly sing
youthought otherwise. a song of simplepassion
withinseparation'simpossibility.
ToSpread .......................
Whatsentientbeing Love&transform asonebreath
needs eternity tospread noweternal spreadingnodeath
carried ontime's straightarrow inmoment'spropel ortime's lovelessarrow
beyond corporealifedeath muchless eachraindrop
remembering eachbreath muchmore eachsparrow.
thenhush forgotten gone?
Jam
Fearingnot forgetfulness Spreadingjam asif time
notevenneeding now onbread of transform'sreality
beingwhatbeing willallow when grapes&strawberries growingwild
to touchwithtears canbeplucked &eatenraw.
death's certainvow.
Withjaw asgyre fruit becomingnow
&now asnow no otherway.
SoClever Berriescrushed&digested refuse shat
Self soclever theirsun released as history'sdecay.
as tocount
both fantasy&passion History
then havingbeencounted 1. Feathers onshaft of time'sarrow
soquick with gods&arguments whereshaft is will
makingreason seemreal razorhead is self.
inaworld of utternonsense.
2. Bullseye drawnaround time'sarrow
Self as illusion'sminion once it'sbeenstopped
sellingreason asreal by sapienlesself.
asif separation fallstofaith
asif faith be otherthan will 3. Thisnow forall of nobelief.
withdreamer awakening to otherthan dream.
MovementStill
Let lesself make a tossedsalad Instill ofmovement &movementstill
from my vegetablegarden oflove self'stongue&eye as plainsightspy
needing nodressing orundressing. searching lifedeath for rippling sanswill
lackingvoice to utter endlesswhy.
Success?
Survivalsuccesses Drivengyres occuring as I try.
shortcircuiting mybrain Selfasserting self against allstill.
till I attachvalues Eschewingother bylingering why.
&giveit a name Overburdenedself alone aswill.
me myself I
beforebeginningtocry Whywill when I candream mydesire?
i n m y Why speedthroughthis torushto nextnow
s e p a r a t i o n. when you as I aretransform's entire
with separationseamed by lesself'svow
Now'sTransform thatwe inlove shallbe oneheart
(Thanks R.Frost.) that weinlove shallneverpart.
Forsythia ondisplay
neverlasting tillMay Casting
lost to greenongreen Constantcasting.
withnothing inbetween Nomatter howsoft mylanding
but gentlesway ofdawn still disturbed
becomingday anotherday. ripplesforming.
Edenlost inlove'sembrace Ripplingquieting with luresinking
gainingbody while losingface. linedot approaching
Distancelost in timelesstransform from castsplash to fisher.
lesselfbeing lover'snorm.
Ripplesradiating
Forgot castaftercast.
Memories finallyforgot Line neverleaving reel
fodder fornext silentherd castaftercast.
of dryink cavedrawncattle Reel neverleaving myhand
trailingexcrement across emptyplains castaftercast.
toward moonglowmountains ..............
during highestbrightestnoon Occasionaly hookingafish
ofthis mostmemorable daynight. allhell breakingloose
withinthis kingdomofheaven
Each cowpie burstingblades asif
cuttingthroat ofthose who wouldprofit castaftercast
bydecay of eacheveryesterday is lessthan perfection
livingincaves drawing dryinkcattle of ripplestarting
whilemilking thenforwhen of ripplingstilling
&feasting oncarcass ofthatcow of ripplestill
in vaingloriousassurance of lifeternal. on stillakeface.
**HotDog** **Flushing**
Relative inthe absolute Ah for simplepleasure
isweiner inbun. of flushing.
Not till youcallit hotdog
doesistart tobe somefun. Whoknows orcares
whatgoeson intherushing.
Meat ofmypractice toohot tohandle
carbsalone notgetting jobdone. Enjoying swirlingceramicataract
A balance ofeach makingit easy toreach unless ofcourse it doublesback
thestate of being one. in a brownslurry counterattack.
Becareful withcondiments thenwhen&why **Searching**
butalways relish eachmoment. Searchingaisle of obesity
Chewyourfeast &swallowfast for bargainsnacks lowinfat.
forall is heavensent.
Cholesterol&sugar being titfortat
Mouth stuffedfull absolutelymute in desire's healthlesshabitat.
you'renow withoutamatch.
Relativelyspeaking whocantimeflies Chosing poison thatwill killmeslowest
they'reway toquick tocatch. subbing fordeath's salinekiss.
DesiringSelf
Whendidmemories matchedwithnow But desiregrew tobemore thanthefew
insuccess of hunt&gather playingonly halfof thegame.
begincoming unbidden in broadestdaylight Needingtotrain the other's halfofthesame
matching myfeelings with myknowings inorderto burn myself in hoop'sflame.
asif coolshade ofmy priviledgedknowledge.
Becoming closedcircuit of myconsciousness Going to dancelessclass till I couldwhirl.
of I as separate with self desiringsafety Joining dervishblur inits constantswirl.
&allmydreams to cometrue? Now dribbling&shooting becoming complete
more&less thanself lostingame replete.
When did self in successivesuccesses ........................................
learn tovalue separation astruth Trainingaway memoryof myself.
whenreality intruth isalways other Responding to thisnow's imperative.
as motherfathersisterbrother? Feelingflow ofself in increasingremission.
............................... Self'scircuits openning toall intuition
Fresh to basketball without a shot of basketball being within theall.
orsense toseepatterns
yetheart tofeelpassions Priviledged nomore inmy desiring
playingD myonlyway tobechosen toplay. creatingdestroying eachallidentity.
Lost in transform'srandomgyre
Thus intime myrhyme becamerhythm . forgetting whatother's know as entire..
of quickfeet impeding other'sflow. .
Mybrain becoming intime toknow . OneKind
myself asD &onlyD . Never justonekind ofcloud
praise begetting desire'sate . ripplepuff slendergray
with nothingmore needed . cirruschill thunderheadproud.
tocreate pride'sfate. .
Cloudthoughts wanderingfree
Suffocate home tomywill thenwisped bywind.
I thought I sawyou yesterday. Shapeshifting intheir silencebenign
Now I'mnotsure but thatmemory lingering. in rhythm eccentric in curiousrhyme.
Or maybe its tomorrow'sdream Clouds as oceandesert skies
wemeet &sit togetherinsolitude thought'sbecoming my privatelies
tillmydreamories &yours areone. raininginreturn as transformreplete
whilewatering myunknowing weepingeyes.
Then each&both as a singlenow
suffocate withinourintimacy.
Nails
Letmebe hammernail I asnail rusting
fastening mywanderingbeing slowburning baptismalbreath.
tomyprivatecross Cross rotting
stilling myanxiouself. by insect&incest.
Both& inemptiness
Stillenough tospin mybeing of this simplenow.
through moonshots&Marslandings
throughHubble&Mir Then mywanderingbeing
&all myMilkyWay will letloose again
tobleed motherbrother &benailedagain
rootingdeep inourock ineachmoment'sperfection.
rock of ages&now
with eternalembrace.
Join
Letmejoin allrighteous me foremost amongalliving
berighteous castingjudgment me forebearing eachalldead
as darkestcloud castinglightning. me livinginmy selfishead
forever&ever
Letmyname becalled righteous nevereverknowing
withme reigningomnipotent butjoy ofthedamned
from mycross of indignation gifted lifeternal
until mylife'sblood washingroot to neverdie&be reborn
ofroots oftree ofmycross tobear mysin &never mourn
certainly grownforme lifelessdeathless myself asall
whenclimbing childlike&innocent inwhose namelessname I pray I prays
in unselfconscious contemplation toberighteous
ofaworld ofme toberighteous
byme tobe soeternally
forme alone.
Which? Cheetah
Whichwastrue Cheetah nonchosing thenchasing
mirrorperfect waterhole pond a single springbok becomingcat.
heart club ball&fairwaybond A passing withoutpassion in purestlove
dewmoist freshmowed sandetchedgreen with neitherself's feltpleasure orpain.
or dusknappingself
with softspringdream? Cheetah nonchosing neverlookingback
that singlemoment becomingred.
Limits Emptiedofpassion noself tobear
Imposinglimits perfectionofboth living&dead.
constrainingself ............................
notletting Cheaterchoosing then lookingback
thatboringbeast that singlemoment becomingblack
escape. filledwithpassion pureself's display
aloneagain in love'sdecay.
My I to your I
worldsapart. MakingCalls
Is seeing I to I Calls aren'tmade
impossible? theywere alwaysthere
likelines oncourt
Imposinglimits &balls inair.
constrainingself
seeingonlywhat Nojudgments here
my I cansee. just nature's way
............. of to&fro
Relaxinglimits retrainingself in selflessplay.
beginningtosee
beyond proudme. If flow is stopped
with selfisheyes
Perhaps outoftime then transform ends
outofbeing self'skind with darkeningskies
my I becomingblind as fire&brimstone
to unlimitedlove. fromthunderheads fall
withdesire dissecting
ForAwhile eachperfectcall.
It's gettlingbigger again &brighter
sobright comparedto lastweek. CatPurring
Catpurring onherlap.
Then fullfading asusual Haircascading
but itwillstill bespring to feline'sfinefur.
forawhile ...................
forsythia&buttercups Autumnbluff in fullorangefury
glowing sunlike Christmasfloatingflakes in dulcimerflurry
with somelight fromthemselves over openflame of gentlewarmth
orperhaps from my lesserself. creating amorphousdiaphonous ash.
Thenon togreen. Agesoflife ifnot agesofmine
Thenon tobare. each oak'sacorn soimpassioned
becoming what italready is
Whathave I learnedortaught fallingfrom yet beingof
whentalking soplainly neverlessthan bluroflove.
ofmoods ofme
ofcycles ofthee Cleanshaven dawnmoon
within randomconstant softeningwithin itown scorchingsource
transformation? settingas rising risingas setting
west atlonglast becomingeast.
AtHand
Whenstorm Vein's ongrandma's hands
isneither goodnorevil havingpulsed for fourlifetimes
nomatter howmany without everhavingasked why
livesarelost pulsing within my risingsetting.
thenquieting ......................
isathand. Catpurring onherlap.
Haircascading
Andwithquiet to feline'sfinefur.
eternal lifedeath
in thisnow Cancer
as thisnow It's a cancer thiscancer
simply thisnow. it's everywhere
AuntJenny &Mary'shusband
Andwith eternalifedeath in Ken'swife mydad'slungs
onedawn onedusk &in mymother'snightmares.
a singleinstant
of twentyfour owls I thought DNAmeant DoNotAuthorize
of seven praise yetinvaders gainingaccess at thehighestlevel
of fiftytwo beaks corrupting bodypolitic as lovelessdevil
of twelve moths downthroughmechanics of cell&self
each of fourlesions replication transcription translation
of seventyorso cures fromlanguage of prayer&hope
when quieting is athand to a chokingutteral "Sorry nope"
inland &zippering ofthe bodybag.
as fanof
as breezefor
being that'sgonetofat I&Me
&can nolonger fit through "I" subjectiveknower?
each gatelessgate. "Me" objectknown?
Murder I drinkingall &thou.
Murderisdeath Me excreting thisnow
happeningnow gone secreting thenwhen
judgment making it tolerable beingneither
prayer making it bearable sensor nor sensed.
stillness itsperfectpain
burned fullyhealed (Ifonly lesself
nevereveremembered. being intimateunknowing
of thenaswhen hereasthere
Defending couldbe afferentme.)
Sorry I couldn't helpthem
thosechildren of defense Only an Ime impaledbylanguage
fearing to open&expose couldseparate knower&known
thelittle theyhave makingnosense whensensed
theless theyare. creatingconfusion
because of assumedfission
Bettertobesilent inmycertainty ofall sapiensensing
in perfection ofmy indulgence causing a contusion
in rankingother on reality'sfaces
in ranking I. wherebeing needs a confession
from thoughtlanguage as self'sanctuary
Best tobesorry thatI'vejudged with sensingsensors
&judgedharshly incensinglogicians
their perfection drivingphilosophers todefense
undefending leavinglesself in transform
thelittle theyhave athome in presentense
theless theyare. whereall isnow&one&love.
SelfDestruction
Would a pedestrian amputation best tobe halfawake
slow myjog toward selfdestruction? self fueledbyself
in nightmares
Pulling impossiblytight thebootstraps in daydreams
of my forlornexistence of sleep of rapid I's.
till circulation is cut &toe of foot kicking assofother
(but couldnever kickitshabit of self) But I'm tootired tomakesense
necrosing necrotic of timeorplace
neurotic despotic or feetorface
bodypart to bodywhole havingpulled my self up bymy bootstraps
&wholeofexistence withitsgift of selfconsciousness having turnedtight the tourniquet
losingpatience ofall civilbeing seenclearly as of myown hobbledself.
sin death power
of Ifonly mymarch on allfours toward self'sdestruction
eachdamned. weren't sodamned selfindulgent
&I couldforget the freefall
Eachgift a curse eachcurse a gift. of lifebetweenbreaths
Eachinsight an infight of self of lifebeyond death
against self disguised asother. of lifedeath's breath
&simplyget somesolidsleep
Me needingstrength tospeakcogently ofmy waking tothemorningpaper
profoundexahustion &a modest bowlofcereal.
but waytootired tosleep lesself's dreamlessleep.
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Thereis no outcome Whencoveringeyes Snow blowingfrompines
whenyour'elost in love'slabor thecloser youhold yourhand creating secondblizzard
just thisnow's income. themorelight that'sblocked longafter bluster.
Money as selfworth Selfishness of sorts Mybest selfdefense Suddenlystartled
oftentragic totherich prominent melodicline istohave less&less self by angles in oakforest.
rare tothose without. harmonies obscured. or shitloads of friends. Art beingsosquare.
Breeze bendingtallgrass Trying to manage Earlyspring fernfrond
risingthrough wood's undergrowth myunique naturenurture astonishing leaflitter
never reaching crown. with patient training. withits bold moistgreen.
Pinktopaletogreen Birth burial breeze
blossoms showeringdriveway identical butfortease
ofthis Aprildream. of seasonsofself.
Chosentodonate
kidney to a sapien.
What's pig's backstory?
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PredatorPrey
Predator Prey
empty blackeyes wideyes widespread
set almostasone knowing thisnow
a cyclops ofsorts asits onlybeing.
in focus&intent.
Alert to family&foe.
(Mathematicalrigor. An herbivore in a
Eyeofscience.) worldofbacon.
Unafraid of past Symbiont
oblivious to now threeyed omnivore
boringintofuture of thenwhenthisnow
of catch&consume. living inlovewith cellsuits
both green&brown.
(A future of [mis]understanding. ..........................
A future of exploitation.) Truth as predator.
Reality as prey.
Distinction lost to predator Symbiontlesself
allbeing is green caughtbetween.
hisprey simplysun
caught inbetween.
BeyondGod Gravity
Soundofword "God" fading. God as gravity
Therebeing only thisnow. attractingmass atanydistance
elementsoftransform
ThoughtofGod lingering. trackingtoward a commonpoint
Therebeing thenwhen. of nojourney noreturn.
I forgetting. Elements compelled
Thenwhen thisnow. toshed separation in molecularconjugation
whilestill maintainingdistance
Touched tostop alljudgment as I becomesillusion
butneverheld. whilestill maintaining righteousness
Known&forgotten tosurrender self'sbeing inorderto defeat
atonce. sin's scatteredtranscendence.
Onlythis. Onlynow.
Gravitycompelling
BeyondGod coalescence as nebula
thisnow. consequence as nocturne
song of sol gaia family
SoEasy eachaccumulation of stardust
Anger soeasy. ignitedbyproximity
Other sublime. becoming again theunion
which it neverwasn't.
Motivefromwithin.
Monstertowithout. Birthofearth
asif
Motivefromwithout. beginningending
Stream becomingtrout. currency of
stars
Notrick just or
thisforevernow. sapiens
......... each sparkedby
Anger soeasy. embraceofother
Brother sublime. becoming
as always
Opentoall still meadowpond
&ourall entering at dawndusk.
piecebywhole
partbyhalf. C&E
Eachcause an effect eacheffect a cause
Notrick just this in transform'seternalgyre.
forevernow.
Arrowoftime ricocheting in excessofactivity
MultiTasking CE CE CE CE CE CE
Oh fortheability until transformation becomingunknown
to trulymultitask lost ineach thisnow.
sothat I maysee my self
absent Survival
while pure nonaction Tryingtosurvive while
is occuring. eatingmenus
sleeping in blueprints
There'sonly withmemory fleshingout
secondarysentience my skeletalremains.
forfaux multitaskers ........................
believers Rummagingthrough mymemories
&me whilecounting to ten
desiring. preppingmycounterattack
fromthen perhapswhen
Sliver pastempty or futurelonely
Slivermoon barelybright meaculpa for myenemy only.
neighbor turningon ..................................
carportlight. Brainlessmemory mixedwith
reflexive selfdefense
Beginningwalk or
dogbouncingoffdeck brainfull then embodying will&want
leashless trainingtorespond empathically
unknowinganything instead of counterattacting emphatically.
butfree.
SuperGlue
Her enthusiasm Memory superglue of self.
my training's goal. Self superglue of me.
.................
Cat crouchingnearbushes Superglue usedsparingly
watchingourcommotion cankeep my lesself intertwined
unmoved unmoving. with allother ofmy familytree
if thinkingless becomingbenign.
Her whitebelly a slivermoon.
Her blackback this darkdawn. T&R
Her calmstillness mytraining'swhole. Truth a victimofcircumstance.
Reality the circumstance.
Slivermoon
dogcatswoon Crackingshell
mygoal spilling yolk&albumin both
mywhole into eternity'swhole
allwithin flowingwith myimmortalsoul
this eternalnow. creatingheaven &conjoinedtwin hell.
RealLove Or creating an omelette
Truelove of elementalbeing'simmanence
lives&dies in I's dreamory's &my somortalbeing
of want&will of flaunt&thrill beyond heavenhell
being a teeshrit in self's aloofchill &farfarawayfrom truth's wishingwell.
whereonly anembrace canwarm.
Holiday
Real love Holidaywarmed
is unknowable by fireplaceblaze
forknowing demands both fueledbychesnuts
distance &insight saviors &runaways
separation &brightlight from reality into
shining myneed foryou onyou. memory'scraze
&thepromise of
Real love lifeverlasting.
is imminent &outofsight
undefined Abudance
unrefined Onlyinabundance
intertwined &toocombined could selfstorage exist.
toeverbe unraveled as I.
Attic fullofthen
Sapien livingroom fullofwhen
Sapien a heatedsackofsea basement reekingamen.
ruledsoharshly by memory
wisdomvaunted Only offsite canstorage
prideundaunted of will'sblight
bysupernatural haunted possibly earn lock&key
with natureflaunting forimprisoning more&more
with realitytaunting ofme.
ourevery lovelesstruth.
Rent a unit then emptyattic
Sapien a heated sackofsea livingroom basement each&all.
tryingsohard to finallybreakfree
fromself inan untrainedbody Rent a space then leavenotrace
tofind lesself fullyfilled&empty. of anyotherthan thisperfectnow.
Catch&Release
Geese on lawn On vacation fishing I caught a goose.
near plantationhouse I can't releasehim now
each anisland of historicdawn. hooks caught toodeep
line toostrong
Geeseofpond & I won't throwaway
gliding yetstill myrod &mystaff
each an islandoceanbond. just tofree this flightballet.
Geeseofsky I caughthim
six breathlesswings fishing thecorner oftheisland
islands within eachsigh. beside my riverbed.
Eachbird unending lawnpondsky. Thankgoodness the fish didn'tbite thatday
Allbird neverending dawnbondsigh. onegoose beingenough for manymeals.
Myself willneverstarve.
Coming (lookthere!) &gone atonce ............................
yetalways here&now. Geese gliding grayhigh
...................................... caughtreleased inaninstant.
What a joke I make.
Ornaments Caring
Stars stringingbright Caring as selfishness.
artificialight Caring as suffering.
on needlegreen
reality. When I care
does I care?
Ornamentshanging ..............
as dramaticsight Lettingo caring.
in thistime of worship. Becoming love.
Treeoflife uprooted Redundant
will&want executed Will anyotherthan free.
pricebeing spiritseeing Inwhichcase want conferred
in forestofcell incarnate. canonlyleave freedomdeferred
wheredeference is demandedby
Treeoflife fullfruiting fearofdeath
whenmemory notpolluting with supernaturalbeing
whenmemory notsubstituting beingnecessary
broadleaf for needle forself's survival.
falldrama for thought's
boringbeetle Will boundbywant
in tranform'sfacelessface freedom boundbyfaith
ofthisnow freewill a debutant
aslove. comingout at fate'sregatta
tosail witheach dilletant
Denying ontheirsea of nonchalance
Denying causeffect whatof karma? tillstorms of brutereality.
Randomness reigning hotcoalsofreality.
Myumbrella beingconsumed. Freedom as freedomtobe alone.
Will as poweroverall but I.
Noamount of fire canquench mycurse. Freewill not an oxymoron
Noamount of water candrench mythirst. tothose who reply tolove
with a furtivestep
Letmyash fertilize yournextnow. backward.
** Shrivel ** ** Expire **
Youknow those gardenhoses Inhale exhale
that shrivelup whenyou but&
turnoff the water? inspire expire.
What haslanguage wrought?
Anyguy any realguy
who usesone mustbe Titfortat butnot thisforthat
pretty squaredaway when lifedeath isbeing grilled.
with his sexuality.
Withsteaks sohigh whywould
**Dreaming** anyone try
Dreaming is a massivecarwreck whenhope is rewardedwith
ofmemories. anovercooked why?
TickTock OverWithin
Ticktocktime for convenienceonly. Mindovermatter. Notsomuch.
Countingyears onlyfor Talkischeap for goodreason.
priviledges&discounts.
Nature'scycling simply Memorywithinmatter moretothepoint.
addinginterest. Actions ensconced in training
Hoping enoughfriends showup with lesself the outcome.
foratleast a threeonthree
gameofbasketball. Ghosts
What'snot alreadyme
Removing can'tbecome me
Removingfoot from emptybucket. by memory.
Form remaining.
RIP allghosts
Asif of thisnow.
a foot couldhold a bucket.
Snow
Asif Snow missingus
emptiness couldbeachieved butrain freezingovernight
inaworld of love. crystalizing all sound&sight
leavingsun as gray faintfullmoon
Asif strugglingallday insilence
a bucketofwater of resolutelove.
wouldnot drenchafoot
leaving perfect noform Feelingcheated.
whenfoot is removed. Fearing slipslide.
Takindcare staying inside.
Therefore Hard&bitter forcingmyhide.
I think therefore I am - a thought. No barestir as season'spurr.
I remember therefore I am - longlost. No softstir dove'sight sound'sblur
I plan therefore I am - desire'sdream. below wintersun's
frigidbite
Therefore I am desire's longlostdream ...............................
thinking the puppet I am is a boy. Letmesleep my dreamlessleep
................................. wakingonly to pristinewhite.
Cuttingstrings becoming thoughtlessjoy
dancingdances weallknow byheart. Ceasing
I alreadyknow
Entropy &
Egginchicken. byknowing
Eggincarton. havecreated
Egginpan &
scrambled. byhavingcreated
havebecome
Samegg thatwhich
allatonce. eachseason summons
eachmemory judges
Closedsystem. eachdream disdains
Closedself. onlysilence remains
.......... longafter myknowing
Lesself unknowing ceases.
eachallegg byheart.
Tender
Cooling Howeverserved
Cooling shrinking tomy tendersensing
cooling shrinking thisbreeze
cooling shrinking thismeadow
nature'slaws obeyed thisfragranace
tillcooling expanding thisvision
in crystalclarity of logic received unjudging
perfection of geometricmath asfleetingas anythought
insistence of water's asif my lesself couldsense
hydrogenbonding. &sensing
become.
Whathath Godwrought?
Decay
Canlove bestiff prideful precise Music in concerthall
a lucidpalace in paradise or pipedin at themall
asif a gift unneeding tobebought oursong as sweet
unaware of self withoutneed for sacrifice? ourlove as deep
as music'skeep
Self'scomputer overheating. in ourheart
Lesself'sheart beginningbeating as repeatedplay
with meltotmeld in liquidlake during memory'sdecay.
of transform'splay &change's ache
memory'slife lost for goodness'sake Obedience
withself as icing on God'sbirthdaycake No obedience in love
elementalbeing here gone timeless no duty'sdrum
blessedwith reality's brutalblindness. no forcingfun
just thisnow
ThreeTasks as singingdancing
Eat. Don'tbe eaten. Reproduce. as tearstained bow.
Littlethoughtrequired.
Evenlesslanguage. Absence - 1
Needingonly Absence
welltrainedself. what a hilariousjoke.
Photons Myself lovingtoplay
Myeyes firingphotons with mymemory.
from nuclearfission
of myself. Whatfun theyhave
in dreamories.
Doesitget black&cold
when I nap? Then I takeawalk
throughourwoods.
Isthere really a darkside
ofourmoon? Absence - 2
Asif sentience
Regression tomymean? dipped to zerodegrees
Becomingnebula longbefore Celsius.
myspark.
Asif evenmydesiring
Toomuchofme stopped foran instant.
havingnever figuredout
anything. DeadOrAlive?
"A word is dead
Pie When it is said
Slicingpie Some say.
toeatpie tobecomepie
havingraped fruitree I say it just
rippedwheat fromroot Begins to live
stolenmilk&egg. That day."
Em.Dickinson
Canyoubelieve the above?
Selfrghteousness writlarge. Secondsin
................ saidthen heardwhen
Slicingpie for sharing. thensound whenword
Eatingpie in obeisance to alldistance blurred in silence.
fruitree
wheatfield Sound otherthansong?
cow&hen. I say asif youhear
............ asif mymemory'sdin
Canyoubelieve theabove? couldever disappear.
Canyoulove
belowtheabove Shade
whereall ismylie Inside this seed
whensliced fromtransform shade ofmy passing.
becoming self's preciousnorm
with lesself eatingstill Passing thus
appetite without wantorwill. through this sunlitsummerfield
perhaps I whiff theperfume ofyou
Excrement &dropmyleaves
Excrementunworthy for thelight ofyou
being sofullof notempty breathingthefragrance
inaworld of nothingfree of yoursweetbreath
but self tojudge &breath of our
&judgingharshly. pristine winterlove.
Ifnature werenothingbut increment Answer
wouldmy mosthumble act beaccepted? Ifonly ourlake wouldanswer myprayer
...................................... emptyingitself of me.
Nature withoutmeaning isno meanfeat
thinkingthroughlanguage Letme swimmysky &breath mystardust
myskeleton hasmeat justas myancestors did.
withmestarving in infiniteline
at pearlygate socertainfate Fillingmylungs withyourlove
couldn'tfail allfaithful drowningmy self in transform
&myprayer. becoming statefairballoon
letgo bychild
Launching crying asitfloats
Launching myboat nearournew lakehome up&away.
cruising wakeless pasthouses of charm.
Landing pierless inourown new world Joining
secure in knowledge that we'll donoharm Fishbyjoiningfish.
Divethrough liquidsun to weeds
Touringourhouse beforecompletion inhalingpond.
noting tileshower &hearth's stonesurround.
Steppingout throughdoorframe into huge screenedporch Fish swarmingatpier
facing tree&lake withaview to astound. yearningtoplay withothers'
Me as lungedalien.
Kitchen withoutappliances bathrooms sansfixtures
inviting (demanding?) imagination'splay. Overhangingbranch.
Fauxwoodflooring linedup but stillboxed Don't think youcanhide thatbass
rollsofcarpet waiting for a laterday. frommy sharp lovehook.
Garagedoors inplace but nocement in driveway KabirSays
perhaps paving&cleanup their verylastchore. Kabirsays:
Bedrooms&study without windowtreatment. Because someone has made up the word "wave"
Noteven a step to our brightred frontdoor. do I have to distinguish it from water?
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Nobeginning noending tothis wakeful dreamhouse Ofcourse. Ofcourse weneed todistinguish
aswelive asitgrows intime nobodyknows energy from matter
&knows alltoowell that welivethere fornever bobber from fishbelow
in lovingperfection of lifeasitflows. me from myself
honoringthose who knowfeel atonce
Being'sEarth without quotationmarks or Noah'sarc
Lake beingwarmerthan fallchill wherespeciation is alltooevident
givingherskin to dawnwind &sexualdimorphism is prominent.
in whitecapmist reachingintofog
tocomplete thisperfection of earth'sbeing. Waterwaving or stillwater.
You&I&allother withoutwill or will'swant
Mylife beingwarmerthan death'schill speakingwithoutdistinction
givingitsthinskin of cellularcivility asif the foreignlanguage oflove
in a whiteheatburst creating lperfectclarity be bettersung in a minorkey.
beginninglesself's journey through
eternaltransform.
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Sisters&screendoors.
Evenafter years training
never liptolip.
Waitingpatiently Ant beneathpetal
while I prep forourwalk. surroundedbyleaflitter.
Seasonless BlackLab. Seasonalrefuge.
Extremes of heatcold Bedtime emission Eating winterseeds.
weather not climate. no nocturnalremission Better tosurvive hardtimes
Judge mercifully. only fishingdreams. than planforplanting.
Singletree leaf fall Seekingconnection.
a perfect redorange circle Fishingline as twilight twine.
in an openfield. Fisher &hisfish.
Middleclass routine.
Fridaynightdrunk. Sundaychurch.
StrugglingthroughMonday.
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StoneAge
Stoneage stonecave stonecarved axspear sculpture dippingintogray ofour overheatedskull
thoughtastool toolasweapon ofour fleshbrain creating ourprecious potofgold.
bloodyheart ancestores ofour firstfire.
Lethistory benow &now behere
Brushstroke rhythm in beautyofbatte &here belit with eyesforall whocansee
whirlingcavewalls catchingwarfare intime. genuine brushspear bloodblushstrokes
Woolymammoth falling to Medusanattack being firtsfullstroke of sapeingenius
knowingwhat thatgiant will alwayslack with self asbrain creating bodylessbeing
while birthing art of barbarianbeing. in timeless lifedeath on timewornwalls.
Tribalpagan halfsapiens hiding in mountainslopeholes Art beyondtime love beyondtouch
torchlit museums of history'shistory ourstory of escape throughEden'sgate
in earthwarmed earth hued earthenhues gateless to oursorrow of knowledge'spall
this firstpainter'spalette playing rainbowgames numb to sublimity of transform'sall.
inaworld stonedeaf blind &stonecold
EachWord
NotKnowing Eachword&everyidea
"If I don't know what timeitis stillborn between tick&tock
howdo I know if I'veslept longenough?" ofmymemory's atomic lock.
Measurement as judgment. Time bestkept
Reality as memory. inheart's pulsenest
Life lostinthought. neversent totake
a paperpenci ltest
Impropriety ofthen revered
Avoiding eventheappearance ofwhen revealed
of impropriety ofnow reviled
otherasecho of Imemine ofsimplebeing defiled
self assumingtobe divine by purityofpurpose
always fearingother's punchlessline of one whogrades
in lifedeath's comedyoferror. &theone who obeys
fearing thisbreath
FlyRodding hislast.
Again falsecast again flasecast
flateights above greenpaddedbay. OriginalSin
Then popper touchdown amid bluevast Slavery UnitedStates's originalsin.
temptingbluegill tobite corkprey.
Butwhat of the indigenouspopulation?
Flyrod metronicwand throughmist Stilltoosoon?
siren calling springdawn tobe.
Fisher offeringquarry coldhard kiss Slavery abominable.
tobe kissedback whilebeing setfree. Genocide unspeakable.
Popslurp rodbending to ripplingpads Controlled
flylinefanning against flatfish Controlledexperiments
rightangling to angler asif longlost comrades upon sentientsubjects
connectedthus as fisher'swish. objectification beingheld in highesteem
thought asreality being cerebraldream.
Then lift&swing finnedfellow tohand
becoming asone in love'sdemand. From stoneage to enlightenment
a hardhead&heart in a worldof flesh
Poverty hardsentience defining tenderness
OnlyGod knows truepoverty as totallyuntenable.
of self alone.
Pickingflower toknow flower.
Only mendicants unknow realpoverty Dissectingfrog toknow frog.
of lesself. Dividingourbody into systemsoforgans
witheach subsumed in organization
Distractedbyhunger can a self seeself weakening chimera of imagination.
as theirown realsuffering
therein findindstrength totrain? Asmore is known
less is shown.
OrwillGod distract Asmore is sown
turning truepoverty into falsesuffering reality grown
fromwhich onlyprayer will emanate beyondthepointwhere
orperhaps thewill Schordinger's cat
topretend. is simply being
tortured.
GrayHairs
Grayhairs prattlingon rattlingon Havingloved&lost&loved&lost
about that then &neverwhen listen
neveradmittinig perhaps unaware for yourare so rightwrong
there's no moreorless while recoilingfrom soneeding my unheeding.
eachsimple thisnow.
Anattack? Aninvitation? Listen asif mysong is yourdance
yourtrance
Towhatend beingtold too old toparty? yourtrainingtoward
Perhaps by patronizingyouth? lesseparation.
Whybotherusnow whenwe're
so vulnerable? Listen for I am lesself
history'smedicine for wordsickness.
Weprattle .....................................
lungsgurgling with coagulatedhope Timepast beingpresent ineach emptiedmoment heart inits deathrattle wheretime isnot self'sfool
memorymired in thenthenthen. separatingthelove
thatcan onlybe unknown
Havingdanced ourdance of data. inthe starkness
Havingrun our raceofreason. of transform'stillness.
BeingBlind Teaching
It's sad thatwecan't know we'reGod Teachingchildren
knowledgebeing a secondhandgift without knowingmyself.
knowingbeing our primarysin.
It'snot what I'mteaching
Whycan't I be &beaware atonce (which I certainly
without damnedtime bindingme to my self? know alltoowell)
Whydid I lie when I livedinEden? but withoutknowing my self
Whymust I die to enterheaven? I risk smearing my desires&defenses
Whymust the priceofpeace bepriceless onthefingerpainting called
when I've accumulated somuchgoodness? education.
Letmy I be&see atonce Sediment
insome unholymirror. Whenrocks
Letme emptymy self speak to eachother
my I becominginvisible in mineralanguage of
then I'd goblind willingly. erosion sedimentation transformation
theymusthave a goodlaugh
Hope at what our illdefined yetsoproud
From our earthendam sentience
tothewest brings tothetable.
sunset&lake.
tothe east "No wonder
sunset&steep they're sofragile"
insummer daisymeadow theymustmuse
inwinter driedgrass. "onthat scantdiet."
Ballinhand Guest
dogalert Beingtheguest
will I throw bringing a boxofwine
to waterorslope a sixpackofbeer
to certaincool a greenbeancasserole
or next throw's brownies&icecream.
hope?
Neverpresuming
Worms tobring an entree.
Using realworms for bluegills.
Lettingthem eatforfree. Will
Will alwaysfree
Plasticworms for bass lovingonly I as we.
who lose evenwhen theywin.
Norestraint justmytaint
Words forsapiens being memoryonly
winninglosing at greatcost. &always lonely.
Faith NoFaith
Faith as dreamofdream of not this Embracing wholeheartedly weightlesspain of thisnow
a promisingpromise of quitecertainbliss gone before gonebefore withbarb sharplyfelt
(becoming morecertainly sorrow) mypain ofthismoment eternallyunheld
dishonoringnow cursing thisis faithpromisedesire a blow neverdealt
waitingforalways &alwaystomorrow. lightness of lesself wellit springmorning
myth'smemorylost &withit dearfears.
Weighting my I with mostmindfulmeaning
lead byboldbeing bothdealing&dealt Nowismybreath of lifeof thisis
mywatiedfor wightedoor slowly pusingopen of blissfulamnesia [&/of]nevertomorrow??
faith promise desire notatall astheyfelt honoringall selfblind to whatif
fellingclinging swampshadows pain yes feltfully butnever a sorrow.
onthis mostmoonlessmidnight
a mythic mistmonster moistenedby
my deaftears.
TheOnlyPlace FillingEmptying
Ohmy ohmy it'stheonlyplace Filling myjar with fireflies.
ofsun&breeze&butterflychase Eternity after eternity.
abovebelow cedargreenceiling
withinwithout this scentedfallscene. Cleaningmyjar
replacingthedead
Ohmy ohmy this smallspecialplace beingbothcomposer
of blackeyedSusans&QueenAnne'slace &decomposer.
with tallgrass windbent breakingoff tofly
thelandinig sostill thenripping shrilldry Releasing my fireflies.
with dragonsarising from bladetosky Anact of nowill.
in sensualwhirr buzzingbreathlesslyby. A transform of lifedeath
to elementalbeing.
Ohmy ohmy it'smyself's placetodie
becoming allbeing ofboth breeze&sky. Solace
I floatingsoftly a fallbreath streaming Seekingsolace
more transform'sbeing less selfishdreaming. from splash&bash
of whitewatersurface.
Tossing
Tossingcoin into fountainpool. Knowing that ina glass
A fewripples. A settling. A wish. I couldbe safe.
Tossingstone into whitewateriver Yet contained succuming to
lost ingyres rockcollisions evaporation&condensation
foaming settling returningtoriver unless
(if ever) myglass becapped
in estuary contents untouched
or oceandelta. unmoved.
Becoming whitewaterfountain Warped
foamingrippling coinstone Newton's billiardtable
neversettling. warped by rainsofreality
nowrippling in fealty
HeadLong to SirIsaac's veryown gravity
Headlong headstrong balls nolonger smoothround
lifelong lovesong cueball lostforever.
sungbyseraphs
faithlesstolesself Stimulusresponse causeffect
inkey of mountainspring controls prediction certainty
limpidpool &bathtub ring lost all lost
forever unheard as
on filamentouswing. table ismounted on
TiltAWhirl
Rightwrong weakstrong at localcountyfair.
swansong dinnergong
hearalding hungrythrong Barrier
totheplace of wishbegone Faith isto love
tofeast oncemore on as
self's wildbeast gate isto gatelessgate.
ofwill
¬yetstill. Sensingbarrier
wherethere isno barrier
Headlong rightwrong then believingin what's
lifelong swansong behind it.
over rippledlake
at crackofdawn NoEasyOut
& No easyout when beingwithin
throughout eachday. wherenothing islost but therecan't be a win
collegeruledpaper crumpled&thrown
Sacrifice collegeruled asitwere crumpled&sown
Snowflakesmelting nevertogrow in thiseason of fallow
whenlanding onour summerheated being allgrowth as noreason to notknow
asphalt basketballcourt. blissofkiss of allthatisthis
each eternalspring with a flurryofsnow.
Nevertoocold or slippery toplay ............................................
evenwith fingertipsplitting No easyout when beingwithin
whiledribbling baldball lesseparation thus lesschance of sin.
&shooting at icecold netlessrim.
**BlurryEyed** **Baseball **
I was so blurryened that morning To speedup eachgame weneed:
thatwhen I reached for my antidepressantpill 1. Better jocktech to eliminate
I grabbed a Viagra instead. constantreadjustments.
2. Better gum&sunflowerseed tech.
Then I took a laxative bymistake Just chewchewchew swallow.
instead ofmy multivitamin. Nospitting.
3. "Banked" outs.
The rest oftheday I was sad&rundown Havingottenahead don'tbat.
&didn'tknow if I was comingorgoing. If youneed theouts later usethem.
**SingleScoop**
Singlescoop to satisfy smoothingsenses to sensualseeing
myappetitie for smooth&cool with memoriesflashing headtofeet.
mashedfirm into coneoverflowing
both children&adults eyes a glowing. Havingcurled mountain's darklightsummit
havingaverted melting avalanchineplummet
First needing tosmooth meld &slim lipsleadingway to pressingbliss
caloricwonder's burgeoningrim leavingcratershape shapedbykiss.
whereice meetsbake a secondtake
for tongueofchocolate toothofcake. Suchisthefate ofmy singlescoop
licked&lipped successively
Then spiralingup softslickmound downtocrisp honeycombedbake
in tendertwisting twohandedturning tonguepacked withcool for goodnessake.
to needletip in blissfull yearning
completing sugardairy carnalchurning. Atlast myteeth arecalled touse
tenderlynibbling softside's melt
As farmchild sweltering in summer'sbeing of warmdryhandel as lesserpleasure
meeingheat with coolingteat yet pressed&filled with frozentreasure.
............................
Basebeing stufffedcore for storingmore
of coolrich chiffon mostlygone
crammedintomouth lestsome goes south
crushed to a mix as finalfix
ofmysimple
singlescoop.
Redemption Failing
Whitewalls coldhigh. Failingcomplexity
Stainedglass distortinglight. dichotomy.
Doors lockedtight allnight. Failingorganism
fragments.
Distortedlight. Failingbeing
Doorsalwaysopen. doing.
Allkeyslost. Failingother
self.
Nowalls . Failingelementalbeing
Nowindows. supernaturalseeing.
Nodoors. Failingtransform
Onekey. death.
Failinglove
Dogs&Children memory.
Duringrain
dogs beingdrawn toporch ToTheWild
asnaturally as My self
children leavingporch capering inits privatesanity
toplay inpuddles. a sparklingstall in bookstore restroom.
Oldlady Dumpcomlete bookdefiled
shooingdog fromporch perusing magazine wallofdreams
callingforchildren. fashionsportsciencebusiness
lettingo will asif eachpage a pill
RightWrong promisingtranscendence a moment'strance
Rightwrong I loveyou. oratleast a slowdance with freshlover.
Innocentguilty I loveyou.
Rosethorn I loveyou. Yet I dragging cellsac along
Rootfruit I loveyou. asif
a duty dealtwith honorably
Rootright fruitwrong or
roseinnocent guiltythorn dishonoredinfeeling beyondreason
I you you I confusedby a falsetunnel with realight
inout of love reeling in glandularsecretions
yesterdaytomorrow. as duty undealt
asif
Yet "I love you" aqueous fish&fishing
sins findingmyself in hope&prayer
one my will&want wallowingindespair
two. my halftrained lesself
in disrepair
Desiring tillhunger&fatigue becomingweed
Desiringlonliness is atleast in garden of myplanting
sin inserviceto love with I exhausted surrendering
wantingnothing tofillmyfull tothewild.
tillall belost inmyemptiedheart.
Palette
Nodialogue inmy allalone Paletteofpastels richblack scarletred
my ears muchtoosmall softeningwithtears ofher infernaldread
to hear throughmyhead. of neverbeing softstroked with goldenhaired brush
onto livingcanvas pulsingcarnalflush.
Nomonologue inmy allunknown
mytongue tooshort Afraid hercolors willneverpaint falltrees
toreach myheart. or lace spraywhitecaps on roilingseas
or trace duskhorizon blendingearthwithsky
Perhaps mylonliness orbe a specialportrait ofachild's joyfuleye.
maybecomeperfect everpresence
replete withlove Fearing nosuffusion forher fogembracinghue.
resplendent aslove Afraid noartist coming tospread her emptybeing.
complete inlove Livinginwaiting in silentpatience
empty&love for thisnow tobecome timelesseeing.
beignbereft
myself'sdesolation
becominglesself's
transformation. ForestFuneral
Barelynoticed during winterbare
DandelionSeed barklesstrunk &truncatebrances
Shehasverylittle ifany selfcontrol. now clearlyprotruding through springreenwall
Whenpricked with a needle intomy morningwalk with leafshadows entwining she yelps complains defends. narrowingpath bisectingmyway.
But oh thatneedle thatsingle slimneedle Whatcould inwinter havebeenmercy
(thatcan if found find herself) a brotherhood of brown&branch
is hidden inahaystack aslargeas alldaylong. is in springleafing a devouring
of this defrockedpiece of forest'sfamily.
Herself uncontrolled
asif single dandelionpuffseed Perhaps a funeralpyre within understory overgrown
blowing whoknowswhere supporting lifedeath in kindredtinder spirit
&whocould dreamtocare. embalming in green
tobe fall's barkveinedscene
HoneyBee beforeblended by earth'season's
Honeybee seeing cloverfield forth&final act.
asone nectarcup aftertheother.
JumpingDog
Hawk seeingsamefield Jumpingdog grabbing cloudsky
asblanket hidingmouse. pullingitdown withhim
whilelanding in lakeofwhitepillows
Clover is ceilingtomouse his splash sparkingsupernovas
dessert tohorse. inthe fullnessabove.
Tolover&beloved thefield Jumpingdogdiving
is surely evidence into ripplefloodedmeadow
oftheirlove'syield. forcing cloverbees
....................... tofly throughnothingness
Singlefield of flowers creatingflower's fullnature.
payingsomany debts
forlife itgives &takes. OutSide
Standingoutside courtfence
UnFocused watchingstrings of racket
Onlyanunfocusedeye cansee sendball overnet
both near&far atonce. intostrings of secondracket.
Only a deafear can trulyhear.
Allis asitis &yet
Sharpendedbylesself eachsense ball ismyboy
becomes a kindof freshfruit racket hisdream
slicedinto colorfulcocktail net myself
stompedintomash by halfseeingfeet fence ourfears.
fermented forthebash
by halfhearinghands Scalpel
thenserved inaslurry Scalpel then suture
at bacchanalianfeast. but howmuchblood hasbeenlost?
Thenwhen becoming Puzzlepieces then puzzleone
beautifullyblurred thisnow allmakingsense.
withlesself seeinglight
notmeantforsight Birdsdarting flockflowing
&myheart hearingmutechoruses only a giant'smouth
from singingsky. canswallow thiswhole.
END OF MRS - 11
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