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Sixlegs twotails Afixing a stamp
spinning birdfeeder to ground on a lostlove loveletter.
scurringuptree. No afixing that!
Dark threethoated dog Angle snow's shadows Bringinginsnakeskin
wailing at waferthinclouds between streetlamp&landing. shed in backyardshed shesaid.
veiling fullmoonlight. Insects scurrying. Askingifitsdead.
Tiredfromtraveling Dozingonhayrolls
curledontwo hayrolls dozing becoming grassfield cutpiled
beneathdyingsun. distantbarn&sky.
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Key GoodEvil
Key towriting goodpoetry Stoppingthis.
is a large&mercilesseraser Startingthat.
for evenafter rhythm&rhyme Doing goodevil.
my I ofteneeds a brutedefacer
Dreamories
forwhen idea intrudesonimage Dreams tomorrow'smemories.
wordsbecoming morethan a soothingblur Memories yesterday'sdreams.
whentruthindeed lordsoverbeauty Dreamories today's self.
&goodsense refusetodefer.
Night&day asif I pray
I must doawaywith what I thought fordesires tobe or havebeen
relaxingembrace startingtostir fordemons tohavebeen or neverwere
potofpieces of life I'veunknown for desiringdemons &demon'sdesires
becoming atlast whateachpoem to nevercome
hasgrown. to neverevercome
toleavenow
NoFair asif
Nofair yet fairgame I couldever freelychoose
tohold toaccount asif
by sapiename I couldever winorlose
a perfect inmywar
selfless tohave
eater. myway.
Insectasinsect Ordinary
eachbecomingother Another ordinaryday.
asif Sameday
theywerever as yesterday
lessthan sisterbrother as tomorrow.
&onewith earthmother ..................
aslover. In Godspeak
I wouldthank God.
Andtoo But thisnow is speechless.
ourtwilight .................
swoopingfeeders God grantingfreewill
more&lessthan sothat I'm free
assassinbreeders tosuffer.
intheirappetite ...........
for nearkin. Lettingmychildplay
in frontyard.
Child rushingtome
Arewesapiens if indanger.
inourknowing
judgingharshly Decision
simplelife inflowing I jailedbydecision.
condemingeachself beingeither ambition nor satisfaction.
toseem distinctlyother
asif Somanychoices
of different withchoices as keys.
father&mother? Somanylocks
withlocks being self.
OpportunityCosts ................
Youngirls of highIQ Lesself rattling keychain
aremorelikely inlaterlife unknowinglocks.
tobe childfree
followingdirectly Judgment
fromtheaxiom of Critics telling.
sin as separation Selfconsciousness swelling.
separation as self Feeling&fearing wrathofother.
self as memory'sme.
Teacher showing.
Distancebeingkey Learner growing.
orperhaps integrity Freeing&nearing pathto other.
oflife of seductivethought
&thoughtneed. Moss
Moss is soft delicate &moist
Thecost ofkids but lilies cansunbathe with impunity.
a shitloadofmoney
an armpit ode to sweat Moss transforming rocktosoil.
blocking mypersonal bliss. Lilies creating soilsun unity.
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Withorwithoutmarriage being wilderness FearOfDeath
withorwithout a joyfullkiss Burialofbody
for trying to garden. betrayingvulture
embracing vulcan.
Wall
Wall builton firmfoundation Personality stackedwithsugarcubes
of desirefor melting as hell's hail.
gold
God Cloudlessky
forgiveness noheaven onearth
forgetfullness or onhigh.
built blockbyblock
from scatteredebris of Howtohonor ashestoashes
parent'sexpectaions elementoelement?
peer'sanction No obit. Nocasket.
past'sdeeprooting Simply cellstosoil.
bounby a concoction
of culture'sconcrete NoEcho
&desire to protectself Caterpillar eatingleaves.
againstindignities of Butterfly carryingpollen.
censure
judgment First a destoyer
betrayal. then a creator.
Wall impregnable toalleffort Neitherknowingother.
vulnerableonly tocessation Absolutely noecho.
of my searchfortruth
comingtorest instillness LessSun
of realilty's amnesia Earth needingboth sun&less sun
inwhichnothing beforefallfoliage canfire mysky.
istome asitseems. Lightwithoutheat chillingchlorophyll
lettingbright reachsurface high
Hard &light oflights warmingorange
Hardheart or hardhead lettingreds&yellows fly.
or heart pulsedbyhead
with subjectiveseeing Windthinking its king when knockingdown leaves
freeingwill from emotion that haveto letgo withsun letting herheat.
&emotion from cell Windthinking itsings whilewhistling throughues
tobefree &fullyempty owingall to moreorless sol inthiseason's conceit.
tofeel withoutsentiment
tothink withoutreason. Moon atlastglowing througheach brightnight
limbfiltering light to mosaic onground
Badtist beforeblowing&piling as children'splay
Buddhist Baptist before drydeath&finalbrown.
what'sthedifference?
Earth seeinglast whatonce wasfirst
Both bubblingover in secondsun a secondsoil
with distractionfrom comingfullcircle lifetolife
thework of thismoment. more&less bothbeingloyal.
Time&Grime
Awakening to Awakeningfrom
light tooblinding light toodark
to neverhave. tohave forgotten.
Spark Inmemory
heatlight&gone life thendeath
smokeless ashless with incessantself
perfectburn incessantly shovelingcoal
carbondioxide (vile carbondecay asreminder
dissapated ofearth's herbaceousday)
water blackheat sootsky
evaporated. place&time of grime.
Maymydeath Lestmydeath
be equallysane. be equallyinsane.
Training
Trainingfrom - T&F goodbetterbest/winlose faithope/puposemeaning separate you&me.
Trainingto - real unjudging thisnow organic all.
EachBlade
Mowingfield betweenroad I drive Thengone those scatteredreminders
river &farfarhorizon. grass growingon beingcut fromtimetotime
cut rolled growing gone
Eachbladeofgrassmowed from timetotime growing cut rolled gone
bindingstrands inrolls asif eachblade hadbeen not to productionschedules oreven monthlymoons
a piece of rug or nopart ofanywhole. but toheart of transform &face of greenfieldclock
in independence of liferooted & lifeverlasting
Rolledball dyingyellow strawforcattle beneath silenthorizon.
or perhaps a reminder ofme scatteredabout
in freshmowedfield. Eachbladeofgrass alive&living uncut&cut
green&yellow forever asthisnow.
River&horizon caringlittle if eachbladeofgrass ....................................
is growing curved&green Me drivingroad forgettingtowatch.
or dying rolled&yellow. Me aginginterminably tillmyeyes
Riverflowing horizonstaringmute scan grass&skies belowabove
at blades as bundle. allbeing lost in simpleawe
allbeing found in lesself'slove.
T&R
Why I Don'tNeedToSit Truth
1. Religion - promising what I want. beingamosaic of facts
2. Reason - convincingme that I know. is ascertain as a child workingon
3. Romanticism - Polyanna beingsobeautiful. a onethousandpiece puzzle.
4. Recollection - memory servingmywill.
Reality
Why I Sit beingeach brutefact
1. Reality - obeying elementalbeing. is entirepuzzle ineachpiece.
**MeditationFarting**
Doesbeingrelaxed duringmeditation Nevertheless having spreadeachcheek
inducefarting leadingtoruination &havingachieved totalrelaxation
of silentaura of sensesfixation I fear I mayhave caused a leak
on emptinessofeachbreath? no telling wheregasgoes in migration.
Isthere nocourtesy withinNirvana Embolizing inmy lungorheart?
stillbeing loudly attacedto universalmantra Cruising lymphnodes as a carcinogenicfart?
"If youdon't propelit onlynoone Perhaps finallyfinding itsway toitsdeath
will smellit"? inmymouth as putrified dragon'sbreath?
ForBuddha'sake spreadyourbuttcheeks Worseyet whatifgas dissolvesinmybrain
whenassuming your groundedposition infectingmymemories in self'sdomain
lettingyourgas seepquielty&pool causingme tothink Iam morethan Iam
onyour roundedcushion. inmy undisciplinedlife already a sham?
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Eachotherweek thatcusionwillreek Openningsphincter hopingmygas
&require a humanedispatch will sneakout unsmelt&unheard
in abandonedlot with tenfootpole like treeinforest near gatelessgate
halfpint of kerosene &a singlematch. noonenoticing my emptyingfate.
SheDoesn't FluffedSheet
Shedoesn't loveme Sheetfluffing withher raisedlegs
but I'm not heartbroken. Sheetfluffing withher legs rising
legsdropped cloudbecoming waift wisping
Shedoesn't loveyou tillsheet tugged&gone asif sky disrobing
sothere's noneed forjealousy. asif dawnduskappearing withlipslove lisping
while welcomingtongue's silentmoistprobing.
Shedoesn't seeme
meofmemory Beingspringfresh ever young
meofdream. everthis evernow everlost
scarecrowself scaringnothing
Shedoesn't touchme birdsfeasting inourcornfield
yet I feelherembrace. breezingthrough ourtassels.
Shedoesn't kissme Puffcloud overeach lover'spond
yetherlips areclover. dottingdeepblue with punctuatedpeace
tonguesentwining in soundlessong
Shesimply nonsense forsensing farbeyond scrutiny
kisses within love'spond a miraclemutiny
touches of thisnow rulingmemory.
sees
loves Sense withoutsin nosecondguessing
inpureplainess. tothis uncannyectasy
unknown as such within truelover's fealty
My separateself whilein her aura lost as lesself's trainedcreation
wondering at herbeing as stillness. leaving nobreath of
becoming less&less alone separation.
by muting myprideful shrillness.
Looking
Dreaming Lookingforlove
Dreamingdreams of neverain inall the wrongplaces
of sunofsmiles of lifefulltame limbicfueled
ofme myself &precious I stainedglassfooled
of selfishwax &neverwane. reasonruled.
Hope myhopeless cheatingname Journeyending
makinghope a hopefulgame bynot defending
of them aslosers ofme alone mywillfullsearch
unrivaledwinner fullofshame forthewillessway.
&guilt forembracing unearnedfame Bait
selfishme choosing toplace allblame Freewill devil's bait&switch
onthem asthey never I asme notlettingon fullcost of freedom
leavinglittlechance for lessthanpain. freedomfrom constraintbyother
whenmygame is winorlose
Separation's sin hamstringingtomaim freedom topretend otherasbrother
sin crippling leavingme permanentlylame when myname iswho I choose
lackinglegs tolift myfeeble cellsuit freedom fromneeds of anyallother
leavingme morelonley thanwhen I came. when I wouldfulfill mydesire
freedom todo self'sbidding
Heavenhell as doublewickedflame then burning in hell'sfire.
winninglosing yet eachinvain
whenyou &I are they&them Becomingash in devil'scache
till you&I are one&thesame. of sapien's loud&proud thought.
Being self'stoll for freewill's mire
whilewithin eternaltranform's gyre.
InCommon
Shiites&Mennonites This atleast
allconsuming samenutrients wehave
eachsleeping samenights. incommon.
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Soldier'sfights terrorist'srites Faithope purposemeaning
allusing samelements sharing whenthen in selfishdreaming.
allcausing samelaments. Born tosurvivenature unrelenting while
imaginingeternity with heavensending
Biochemistry&pyrochemistry gods&saviors tosuccor ourfear
obeyingnature'slaws straightintheface ofall we see&hear
unchallengedelements that time run'sout &so ourbeing
in unyieldingoutcomes. ifnot for imagining supernaturalseeing.
This atleast This sadly
wehave wehave incommon
incommon. butwithoutconstraint
............ beyondfatigue
Needingcleanair purewater wholesomefood from joustingatwindmills
within physicalbounds of cellularsurvival. then poppingpills
Pleadingforcare beyondesire's wont todull thepain
self soalone needingconfidant. ofourownmaking.
Now&Present OverFlow
Howisnow notapresent? Riveroffering safestpassage
HowisGod notapeasant? in harborlessflow of faith.
Howisfasting noteating pheasant? Poweredby immortalforce
Howcandeath everbecome pleasant? riverwinding its timelesscourse.
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Whendeathbegets eternalife Butrain willcome from darkenedskies
beingbeyondstuff of pain&strife. muddywaters ontherise
spreadingflow beyondbothbanks
Whenpeasantspray to pagantime tempting eachdrop toleave itsranks
&now hasneither breath nor rhyme.
&wanderfree from narrowmotion
Onlythen fatalcontrastfades searching dryland for privateocean
thenwhen&duskdawn waning becomingstranded in stagnantpool
to midday midnightraids ofclocks eachdrop facingdeath as desire'sfool.
alarmingkings tomy mutepawn.
Droppingdeep beneath stillsurface
Now lifeis &is &is soakingthrough saturatedsoil
a godless foodless deathlessbow fearfuldrop seeking riversecure
tothe changingchangless basicbusiness sinkingtodeepstream theretoendure.
ofthis hushedbreath withits softvow. ..................................
Somebravedrops risingthroughsky
Tennis bindingtokin becominglost inlove.
Ofall this&that Meetingagain in driftingclouds
justonething seeingroilingstream fromabove.
tomake ballsing
alone in thisnow. Learning water'scycle by livingbold
death topastforms death of thought old.
Now&nowalone Rainingently ontoland intosea
ball onwing unknowing theywere neverfree.
now&nowalone
ontaut racketstring. Unknowing therewasnothing toknow
throughlifedeath's seeming stop&go.
Peeing being riverpool cloudrain &riveragain
Peeinginto clearstreaming being all&allife in transform's gentleflow.
creating bubblywhitefloating.
Ripplingpulling from middle Creativity
dislodging disrupting creating a riddle Creativity at highcost
tillstilled by mudstonebank weaponsborn with lifelost.
&my limitedsight. Selfishunter enteringcave
emptyhanded hoping tobebrave.
Transform beingnature's alchemy Facetoface withbear
cleansingwithwater both air&earth Facing utterdespair.
whilecarryingfire ........................
as constantrebirth. Nexthunter's fearof becomingprey
memory'smemory creatingfusion.
LongDrive Walkingstick becomingweapon
On longdrive survivaltech from confusion.
caughtwithin
stillnessofother Paradox
& Paradox perhapsimply irony
dinofself I judging whosejudgment I value
sheasked if I judgingjudge asloving orselfish
sheshould movein or
withherdaughter. otheras I unjudging unlessdesiring
asif sapienbeing notbeingenough.
I said "Lookat those
threehorses inthat Crushed
lovelypasture." Beingcrushed bythosebooted
with hobnailedhearts
Shedid thentoldus wantingtheirheaven
a storyof thehorse alltothemselves.
shehad asachild
ontheoldfarm. Beingcradeled notcrushed
between crimson toes
CoolShades of those barefooted&flushed
It'shard forme toseeclearly with winedrunk love
withself insistingonwearing coolooking annointing thisnow
sunglasses. withgrapes frompast
Rosecoloredlenses yesterday whiletransform ishushed
yellowlenses in today'sfog. by thismoment ofall.
Unwilingtochoosereality Gently squeezingaout all me&you
losingdepthperception all then&when all blanc&port.
for castingshoreline Grape's as sun'srapture asresidue
missing a step whiledocking kayak. agingageless in casket'scomfort.
RoundTrip
Motoringslowly toward dam thatday Twomore fishcaught beforeourfright
each rivercurve uncoveringmore anchor notholding boatbouncing halfree.
of pine&birch&lilypadbay Undertowsucking towardam's toothedsight
&occasional doe sippingatshore. father scaredwitless shoutingatme
Woods sothick noneed todart topump gascan hisvoice panictbreath
from motorhumming &oursmallwake to letout some anchorope hopingtohook
tiltinghead &slightestart fearing razor rotors &dismemberedeath
evenwhen closingin fora secondtake. motorchoking fatherblaring with sheetwhitelook.
Fishingboat beingnature toher Nearing damgate next to spillwatershade
partoftimeless riveflow caughtinroaring rainbowcoolspray
she beingunnatural to fishersboth fatherson joining lakerivercascade
withpulsesquickening whilebeginning tounknow in frolicking frothing freeforall play.
lifeunthinking inthis agedland Yet self indefense tooalone todie
beyondefense by unholyghost. father stillcrying his puerilecry
Transform incarnate's firmesthand towardson onewithmist butwith deafened ear
allembracingforever with earthboundhost. his lesself risingfree feelingno mortalfear.
Butcould myfather begintofeel Son losingfather father losingson
inthiswholeness a chancetoheal? boatbouncing downriver danger longdone.
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Onemorecurve &dam insight Wildgyrecomplete securing wavetossedgear
spillingourlake in explosions height. anchor nowholding notfar fromtheirstart
Rainbowsforming in roostertail's light dadstaring atson eyes headlighgdazed deer
a spectralmist beneath clearbluesky. aboveslumpingshoulders £ingheart.
Easingclose to wherewe dreamt tobe Withson smilingsadly their roundtripcomplete
riversurface a rocking bubblingfoam. having rocked&rolled in malestromride.
Our slowingwake a spreadingvee Sad thatexcitement couldneverepeat
partingdandruff asif a fishingboatcomb. sadder thatdad hadlost his fragilepride.
Anchoringtofish in currentslow Both fathersonspun in baptismalstorm
hearingdam's deepdarkdroningroar age dizzying toyouth youthrising toage
feelingpulse of pouringflow theirfishingtrips coulneverbe theiroldnorm
becominglife of river'score. their bookoflife openning to a sad newpage.
Cathcingbluegills our vacationgoal Motoringslowly fromdam thatday
landingthem splashing through liquidwhite eachrivercurve uncoveringmore
creating a chipline icefishinghole of pine&birch&lilypadbay
witheveryfish &everfight. of father&son eachalone in stillgray.
Butcould dad'smemories begintodie Neverever havingbeen close asone
allowinghim tolearn tofly? never toagainbe father&son.
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Driventopractice. Driventopractice.
WorkingonTheGreatKoan. WorkingonTheGreatKoan.
Noneed formyfaith. Noneed for reason.
Tryingtoget sleep. Sunrising setting. Myankle hurting
Tying to notry to fallasleep. Eden neverhad a chance but theball is returning.
Not trying. Sleeping. within transform'sdance. Notime to complain.
Duty. Doingfor. Manytentacles How Where When &Why As I getolder
Sharing. Doingwith &yet. from greenmonster of fauxwealth. being incompany Who. livinglonger inmypast
Lovebeingwhole. Leaves on tree of joy. Who as me&you. losing whatlovewas.
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RipplingSelf WantingToLove
Lifewithoutmeaning. Beyond obviousoxymoron ofabove
Incomprehensible lesseparation yet nonattachment
tomy ripplingself. slowdancing till musicstopping
sincere romancing till backtoshopping
Upstream downstream choosingwhat toshare
riverswelling beyondbanks oneplusone always a pair.
wind rippling floodedsurface
beforending in oceanall. Love withoutwant union withoutattachment
love withoutconsent union withoutdissent
Sol herself unable to disturbdepths pleading a case I nevermeant
where mylesself is safe tobe lessthan forever.
from overflow&undertow
of forgettingtoremember From
there's noabove nobelow. I can'tbe separatefrom
withoutfirst beingpartof that from.
Orgasm Huntingmyshot
Myorgasm yourorgasm attempting a steal
mutualperhaps proving Iam bybeing selfish.
butnever identical.
Therefore asirony ofdesire
Letus letgo &of defenseofself
physicalrapture annihilation beingpreferred
forgetting we'relovers over death.
becoming love.
Facts MyEyes
Alphabet likefacts &yet Stumblingthrough whatseems tobetrue
littlemeaning tillstrung inasentence in ironicsearch for myowneyes within
sense thusentenced creatingdefense whenspokenof vanishing
apparentpermanence conferredbytense whenshouted brandishing
asif thisnow notmeeing mydesires. immoralauthority of reason
asif thisnow betreason
Ontoparagraphs encapsulatingmeaning insteadof ourshared reality.
a thought oncebought sansreceipt for return .......................
just nexthought whathath godwrought Eachmusicalnote not enough forme
withtruth throughbrain vialetters valuedgold. wanting bars&phrases chords&arpeggios
extendedintime totime mybeing
Noreallygold for trinketsboughtsold crescendoing to metronomic meing
&lesstangible thanmineral of solidearth deliverancerealized through transform'sbeing
alphabetruth being stuffofyouth morethan tollingbell of singlesound.
socertain lip'stongue canlove without a kiss.
Luck Silk
Mysticalmythical unmanageablebeast Silkrobes or sackcloth?
amenableonly to mysteryofprobabilites Wouldyousettlefor
randomflips of tailhead headtail a sackof silkcloth?
favoring no I to no self's avail.
In raisedhighpulpit or grounded on humbleknees?
Averagingfailing inluck's wildflailing Wouldyouconsider
of sea&wind&mountaindales onknees in groundedpulpit?
in maelstromstorms as nature'sfeast
asif oncemaleable thenlong thenleast. Stainedglass parables or tearstained watercolors?
Couldyouaccept
Pickup yourcards readyourpalm purewater&blurredmessage?
hoping yourlifeline smooth&calm
as fallingrising then risingfalling Whowouldconjure suchchoices?
leashes luck'sbeast tobid nocalling. Whowouldcompel suchdecisions?
Charms
My I havingcomefrom unkempt cabbagepatch Defendingmymemorized struggling entity
havingtwoparents a collection ofgenes each a charm creatingidentity pretendingitsfree
but toomanyears havingnobracelet from cabbagepatchparents as coleslaw refugee
unstrungcharms spilling with noapparentharm. in a world valuing proteinpedigree.
Selfconsciousness being I's illsightful birthwrong Myself becoming what self'swill does
with parent'sunglasses coloring mixedbouquet consumingfumes ofitsown fecalbeing
of yellow green & gaunt bonegray leaving excrementrail wherever it slithers
yellow as gift of middaysun asfebrile predator
smiles laughter lifeofun aschill saboteur
green offering eternalgrowth as unloving blur.
asif a supernatural oath ...........................................
gray as curse of desire'sdark Finallyfacing my emptiness
touchless selfish loveless stark. learning toletgo defensiveness
trainingtorelax my fistofwill
My I thenfashioning a bracelethroughtime tearingoffbracelet letting charms spill.
stringingeachcharm toalways bemine
wrapping loosebracelet aroundmywrist Then restringingcharms withoutprejudice
keeping it on by makingafist. braceletfirm yet circulationfree
embracingwrist withoutneeding a fist
Activatingcharms as I desires gracing reality with less&lessmemory.
tobe a sequence myself inspires
shakingfist atanyallothers Me becomingagain what I was allalong
whilebuilding my I against sisters&bothers. struggling fleshblood &parent'song
inlife of yellow green evengray
blendinginlove eachdaytoday.
Painting Changing
Artist envisioning butworkingwith vagueclues Whatcanany individual do
makingfadingmemories into focusedreams. tomake ourworld a betterplace?
Details comingclear as colorsappear They need do withoutdoing anything atall
less frommyplan thanfrom mixingofhues. while attempting tolive withouleaving a trace.
Not perfectlycleaned thus eachbrushair retains Tohelp istobe faux benevolent twin
orangeyellowgold ofeach sunrisesunset. of todo which ofcourse translates to "I will".
Visionbecoming lessmine lessregret Better "I want" as purehonestsin
tillall that'sleft is livingremains thanthezeal of fauxempathetic being self's swill.
ofnow that'sforfever ¬what I wouldwill Training todonothing in notime noplace
ofnow that'slessmine becoming primalstill. leavingtransform togyre without mydisgrace.
MotherNature
MotherNature becoming sapien'swhore MotherNature exhausted sincebirthing a species
with wiseone'schanting moremoremore. thateven asadults are stillspewing theirfeces
Nowmired in menopause neveragain earth'sSantaClause asif an infinitegyser of fertilizer
finalfertilepregnancy having come&gone. couldeverbecome Earth's deoderizer.
Whatdid I expect from a singlesource Strippingearth &soiling it
aftercenturies of lovelessintercourse? then usingocean as toilet.
Howlong canproduction chaseconsumption Allotherspecies named tamed or gone
on a finiterock carrying billionsofbeing withme stillexpecting a brighterdawn.
whosemodel forlife is neverdeath After purge spurredby sapien's urge
with infinitegrowth neverendingbreath tobe morthan ourprovider couldbear
with length&width of desire'sdistention my DearMother canonly convulse&lament
demanding at day'send nowork yet a pension? &perhaps survivemydare.
RainDrops Philosophies
Ifwords wereraindrops &thoughts wereseeds Allphilosophies fallingaway
what a harvest we'dhave eachfall as faithlessphilistines gathertopray
yet fallenword &failing thoughtdeeds withtheirdark godlessgods holdingsway
pile desire'sdefecate atmy wailingwall. withthinkers emergingfromcaves toplay
with liquidblackgold of bloodlessworth
While in fertilesoil each wildestweed &fullness ofeach thoughtsanguine word.
is searchingforsun whilehearing life's call
unknowing wordthought whilesprouting withspeed Let gods&prayer floathrough thinair
as desiredgrowth growsfibrous gaunt&tall. of faint&infidelity
landing fullblown in paganheart
Weeds undistinguishing wordsfromturds &heart of nevereverknown.
growingfar&full in freshfertilizer
whereink is poison &paper deadtrees Let allbeing remainunamed
while sunshining onallunread beingnowiser. floating emptyheaded &openhearted
whilethose of I alldead alldead
Withoutfeed eachcreed&wordfuldeed &those ofall&all unsaid.
smootheringeachseed with worthlesspall
whileweeds in silence withhardlly a need EachAnt
showeringeachspring with eternalall. Eachant is anyant
&allant.
Song
Girl of memory'smeadow Nest&hunt theirbeing
waltzingwoods pirouettingpier willess one as transform's way.
liltinglake girldancing sonear .............................
bemylove in music'smagic Goingtowork
gildingeachbar guidingeachstar doing whatmustbe done.
that mademewish of her sofar. Returninghome
teacher
Ladyofnow&forever husband
wakingmyheart sparkingmybeing father.
fillingmylonliness with yourfeel
beingalltouch making me real Goingtowork
scaling heightwidth&pulse of time doing whatmust bedone.
being never&always all&mine. Returninghome
nurse
TearsFrom wife
Tearsfrom self mother.
truth
sin We beingneither two nor many
salvation a blendingoflesself
beingofself in transform'swomb.
always a lie.
Training
Tearsfrom other Themorecars inone's train
reality themoreabundant itsriches.
beauty
pain Orso onewouldthink
eacha speckofash
from self'simmolation. &be disappointed.
**WhenIWent**
When I went tothe Zenguy Hesmiles takesthebroom
toget enlightened he toldme &startsweepingthefloor
totake a seat &waitpatiently. saying with a big grin
"Workwiththis."
He didn'tcomeback for the
longestime so I gotup toleave. I toldhim I wantedmy
moneyback &startedtoleave.
He musthavebeenwatching
because heburst in As I opennedthedoor toleave
&startedhittingme with a broom. the masterbows &declaresme
fullyenlightnened.
Wrestlingthebroom fromhim
I smackhim inhisface withit. I didn'think itwouldbe thateasy.
Abandonded
Abandoned by reason&passion both aseach emptying outofinto other
abandoning eachlayer of defense sharingour private fecundocean
of rectitude I theprovider &she providenceathand
of defilement with selfshattered in painofpleasure
givingover withoutreservation asonly I asall canclaim to offer
tothewill of her if&when she&I amlost
unwillingflesh. inour abandoned world.
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Eyes swirlingnebulae Abandonedby abandonedto
stilledefiance of incipient gravity abandonedwith &without fleshoflesh
sparking for noone winsome&witless loathsome&litheless
but mydesire. a witness to time beforeclocks to mime beforetocks
an end of ending a beginning of beginnings
Mouth mutemalestrom of forcesholy lost with her lastlosthope
&whollydefiant forlovebeyond
surrenderingnothinig inthiswar a lovetoofond
of insanity&ectasy. of beingmorethan the awful utterance of infidelity
Rhythmicontortions "Why arewe abandoned
mouthing passion'shame tothis emptyectasy?"
of desiresought&desirefulfilled withwe socarnal summoning thatwhich can neverhear
with her mywish with her mywant. thatwhich canever appear.
Eyes&mouth &all thatconveymeaning Lavaglowing slowfastflowing fromherguarantee
all thatsuggests sentience of satisfaction
lost now inmy touch of trust singeing seaofme vaporizing asmist ofplea
of hands thatnevercontact joining wavingocean in intemperatebliss
herbody's carnalwelcome with a look of turmoil&forgiveness
flowingfromgospel asif I oranyother could deserve herkiss.
or from mygrieving forherloss
my greedfor herfound Transcendent virginwhoreofemptiness
till I can curlhertoes embracing ourlonliness creatingbliss.
till I can unfurl her ..................................
undeservedwoes. Canany I takecredit for writhinglesself
.............. inthe unholyorifice of transform'sgyre
Can she&I conspire to dismissreason with blossomswilting
torelease thatwhich is boundsotightly on bedroomdresser
to passion's ritual dance being replaceby
to culture's habitual romance raysofmorninglight?
abandoningall to a deepercave
furtherfrom lashofwave Canany I takeblamefor blossomswilting
to tidelesspool of perceivedperfection havingbeen placed ingoodfaith
in a world toocrowded for bothofus atonce without believing a thing
as a singularity as a preciousrarity beyond insanity oflove?
Leaves Seeking
Areleaves the cliche Seekingwhat I'velost.
ortheshade theyprovide? Searchingforever.
Anyway sol'sjokes Seekingwhat I don'tknow.
lack a punchtime Searchingtillexhausted.
in sapienseasons
of Imemine. Seeking II
Seekingenlightenment
Letwind flutter lightshadow missingcutter
through lifeofgreen dribble stripped.
whileall I's continue seeing
simplicity of elementalbeing as Seekingenlightenment
photon blindedbymirror
convection deafenedbyecho.
chlorophyll
windowsill StarBright
wheresparrow sings but whipperwill won't Starlight starbright
while I stareblank through my blockedbyash in blakenedsight
sothick windowpain. as memory'sreach fallshort insearch
forheat fromcold coldistance dared.
RoyG.Biv
Peacock as crow. Dared I did in fullmoonlight
Crow as parrot. givingup athand for reachofheart
though longcold&dead toall butmyhead.
Parrot as raven.
Raven as rainbow. Starlight starbright
thinking ournight of showing
Inmy clearlyconfused lesself wouldbring a sight of unknowing
RoyG.Biv is BigRoyV. hopingparadise of sacrifice
within my yearning
WhoKnows? within myburning
Whoknows whenwhy my lefteyelid is twitching? burningout before I couldeverdoubt
Lastmonth itasmyright. yourhold inmydream of yourhand
Wouldworry startstop that wearisome muscle? yourhold ofmydreams in yourhand
Wouldignoring extinguish thatbehaviour? burningcold oncecaring
Wouldwillingstillness causethesame? turningbold twicebearing
Would "becomingthetwitch" mylove asour sweetstarlight
endmy selfconscious game? flickering dying
flickered longdead.
Nowthere's a thought
but asthought ineffective FallFlat
as thinking is my eternalitch. Leaves bluntingboulders in deciduousdecisiveness
blanketingstone shorteningstump
Unthinking'sthekey inverting tectonictempest of eons
&if it weren't forme in seasonal summerfall levelingdump.
there'dbe noinfernal glitch.
With chlorophyll's garishchloroform
NotThat of bucolic somnambulic green
Not blackbrowntan revertingtoseasonal sensualscream
redyellow swarthypale. ceasingproasic becoming saturatedscene.
Not AsianAfricanIndian Sotheyfall in mosaicsplendor
PolynesianArabic flutteringpast their boringvendor
EskimoAborigine. tobe stainedglass &banquetfast
whilelyingstill on smoothedflathill.
Not JewishHinduMuslim
BuddhistCatholic Becoming a finalpyre of passion'sfire
VoodooShinto. clear being'seye to cleargraysky.
A finaltime for paganprance
Not CanadianEgyptianPolish in thislife's lastdear &cleareyed dance.
ArgentineKorean
IrishIranian. Now onlysnow caneverknow
truefeel of clear&blue effacement
Not allthat. withleaves fallingpast ungutteredeaves
........ erasingterrain while ignitingsame
WhiteAngloSaxonProtestant leaving lackofleaves toblame LutheranChristian for thiseason'ssilence
AmericanMidwesternWisconsinite &hotblood's bane.
MidnorthsideMilwaukeean
Germanrooted FourQs
WashingtonHigh stemmed First: PhysicalQuotient:
ShimerCollege flowering Mylegs breakingdown
Delanceyseeded noelevation onmyjumpshot
NorthCarolina gardened noexplosiveness onmy firststep
Tennesseefruiting. in slowdrive beingstopped
in slowdefense fouling.
Allthis &much moreless. mylungs collapsing
can'tlead our fastbreak
WillOfSelf can'tdefend their fastbreak
Willofself timetraveler tryingtodefend commitingfoul
setyourlegs atrest beingfouled shooting 62%.
athome atlast
athome. Second: EmotionalQuotient:
I'm upset
Willofself withmyself
setyourarms atrest withmyteamates.
relaxed atlast They're upset
atlast relaxed. withme
withthemselves.
Willofself
setyourmemory atrest Third: SocialQuotient:
thoughtless empty Tired&upset I miss makingthepass.
calm. Tired&upset I miss my defensiverotation.
Teamwork outhewindow.
Willofself falsebeliever Tension. Dissension.
setyourgods atrest
hopeless faithless Fourth: IntelligenceQuotion:
free. Trying to thinkmyway
outofmymess.
Willofself belost forever
within transform'sgyre "Mindovermatter"?
&the eternalstill Dream on.
of earthwaterairfire.
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Plastic on concrete Barelyseeingstream Rivers streams feeding.
keepingit from dryingtoofast whilelookingwith liddedsight. Umbrella takingbeating.
&becomingweak. Eyelashwaterfall. Me stayingbonedry.
Ordered not reasoned. Wornfences wildseeds
Elementarybeing growing volunteergardens
notwhat I wouldchoose. for tamepassersby.
Watermelonslice. Any youngold dog Ifyouseek coldproof Ifyou fearnot doubt
Simplicity. Succulence. whenhearing carkeysrattle controlyourexperiment lettingworldbe asitis
Thenitgets slimey. isup for a spin. or staywarm indoubt. joiningthenonsense.
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Navels Caring?
Standinginportals of gatelesgate Caring?
loominglarger than life'sillusions Squeezing fruitofselflove.
of FatherSon beginnerGod. Dripping juiceofjudgment.
Fathertoall father to one Drinking that headynectar.
Father of humaninhuman Son Feeling selfrighteousness
blending benightbeneficence filling hollowness of me.
with clockworkcallous deadcoldfate
thisapparition of effortlessgrace Ravaging allthat self beholds
a delusionincarnate of desire'sate discarding pulp&peel ofthis perfectnow
this stuffofdreams living fornext givingtaking.
stretching overstuffedseams
tillexploding inballsof stuffenonsense Howelse totreat Eden'sbounty
living nonlife in pastfuturetense fruitoftree of allthis&allthat?
inhumane nonhuman icons of word&thought
caughtinpages of booksboundtaut My thinleafed good
leavingmylife rife withlabels fedby suckingroot of myevil
birthingsquarebabies lackingnavels. shadingother with spreadingbranches
ofmy indomitabledesire.
Untilpayingprice for entitlement
my pain&distance both heavensent Howcan myseed bepure
settingflesh afire tillawakeningscorched myfruit be sweet?
my holydreamhouse havingbeen torched ...................
withme sheddingburntskin in devil'strough Spurningjuice of separation
emergingafter unholyslough learningtocare while beginningtraining
tobe asreality as lesself lesseparate tobecome transform'screation
as love's prideless elation.
Unlikely? - 1
Shiite&Sunni MaterialChild
Protestant&Catholic Ticktocktime being alwaysright
Jew&Muslim daysburninginto darkestnight
Theist&Atheist brutebeing'stime lostosight
meeting at of timelessblending
WorldBazaar foodcourt of brightdarklight.
arguing asthey ate
carbsproteinsfats Distancebending disorienting
vitaminsminerals in dizzyingemptying of self&sane
&drank withworld caringlittle¬icingless
waterbasedbeverages. materialchild indistress
........................ thinking time'sarrow bluntedged
Unlikely? - 2 havingboughtcovers
Terrorist&pharmacist butnever a book
methcook&gourmet chef havingbankedgold
creatingtheirspecialties nowcarrying raw ore
usingsame havingeaten menu
PeriodicTableOfElements placemat&napkin
& havingbought skyscraper
LawsOfChemistry&Physics. now walkingitsledge.
Adobe Painofself becoming painoflesh
Curlinginto adobecave mymemories caught as separation'smesh
above smallcanyon of fertililty holdingme in thenwhen's heavenhell
being ancestors&children ofearth barelyglancing thisnow mybeingfell.
caretakers always ofthis preciousnow.
Only yoursweetlove &dreamlessleep
Worshipping summer&winter both cantake lesself thisnight tokeep
loving shiftingsand's blustering forbearance. fromawakening withself burningtobe
Loving simplefarming &their simplefamily &mydesiring learningtospeak.
praying for both&same
tobe swallowedwhole delivered eachday SeekingShelter
into windblown sandlayered Seekingshelter duringhurricane
transform'sway. knowinglittle of differential heating&cooling.
Being shallowsea dwellers Eatingcarbohydrates
dwellingdry whileignorant ofboth Kreb'scycle
neverspendingwater ontears tocry &the art of farming.
knowingthose longlost&omnipresent
aresimply elementalbeing's footprint. Resistingmeditation
because of unfamiliarity
Thumb&Tongue - 2 with cultureoforigin
Opposablethumb &drudgeryof psychoanalysis.
conferring freedomtohold
thatwhich I will inworlds distantcold. Freud
Butgrasp withoutreach can'tshare being'sfire Freudwouldsay "Id to ego"
leavingself clutchingtiny drenchedchunks of desire. translatingeasily to
"Self to lesself"
Let armextend then amputate or
before possessions become myfate. "thenwhen to thisnow".
Cutoff thumb stitchfingers asone
then swimthroughbeing allwill undone. Neverwrong neveright
Sigmundbrought his signatureinsight
Withtongue tooarticulate tosing simplesongs to gatelessgate of sapienfate
beginningtobabel aboutmyrights theirwrongs to hallucinate as memory's trait
creatingdistance thoughtneeded tosee inherent in survival'splight.
asjudge onhigh seemingly lettingself free.
Id beingodd self beingeven
Thoughtdistanceneeded creatingwant worse inbrain's tensegame
desiringwhat I'll nevereverconcede of picking&choosing
ismine inword ismine indeed of winning&losing
ismine ismine inmyprivatebleed. with self&lesself struggling in neocortex
distractedby specters in limbicmilieu.
Thumb&tongue each a tool&trap
usedfirst toseparate thento closethegap
beyondmyreach within myspeech
ifonly I canstill my loquacious self.
Spring
Howcan I seduceyou faircreature Being springpassion &passionatespring
onceseen twiceheard foreverfelt with springitself as passion
knowing&known through comenow withme myloveoflove
transform'srippling allspring allyou earth&heaven
inthispringofsprings? beyond righteouspring of selfishmating.
Springflowers flowingthrough Comenow withme allove allspring
throughyou throughme lettingcreatures of self&selfishness
throughspringclouds suffertheirfate unflinching unfeeling
springweed springrain lessflowering than deflowered.
springdry &eachspring &onlyspring
spring beyond you&me Come mylove allove &now
lesshared thansharing &now &spring &spring&now
lessloving than lovingyou doneundone inthis moment&all
lessme thanmy mostselfish I in thiseason of all&only
moreyou than I canbear &love oflove
withyour springeyes of seeing love in this singleseason
withyour springears of hearing love inthis singlekiss
of feelinglove asif for the firstime. of our eternal love.
UnTrusting
"I don't trustyou" I said to Today. "Sorry. I don'tunderstand
"Theremustbe morethanyour When theland of punishmentreward
quotidiandrabness." or Then thechoices of carefullyfiltered
personalmemory.
"Now is simplynow &I amknowas Now. I can'tunderstand how When
Perhaps itsyourmemory couldpossibly testify foragainst."
youdistrust. Oryourdreams?"
"Then ethics hasneither foundation norjustice
"So your'esaying yesterday neitherintegrity norselfsacrifice."
youweretrustworthy ornot
&tomorrow perhaps "Sobeit. Today is all&only with noplace
but notnow?" forjustice orintegrity.
Howcould Now possibly beanything
"No. I'msuggesting I can't otherthan noother &howcanlesselfbe
bejudged Now butonly when unjust beingabsolutelyintegral
I become ThenWhen in your personalworld." withnopersonality tosacrifice?"
"Then I needtojudgeyou asyou Now "So I needstostop trustinguntrusting
&trustmyjudgment?" tostop valuing?"
"Howcanyou judgeme asToday asNow "Precisely. But doyou havethediscipline
without ThenWhens withwhich tocompare? todonothing thusbecoming unjudging?
You're left nowhere fromwhich tojudge Haveyou thediscipline toletgoall
&withnothing atall tojudge." allyou'vecreated&defended forso solong?"
....................................
"But I needtokeeptrack of goodevil Come Now sweetlover
toknow whoamoungus deserves helpmeforget allother
punishment or reward." with intimatekiss.
Obvious Mystic
Asobvious as self A mystic
soislesself subtle is subtly unrealistic
integral being an idealistic
inherent duplicite linguistic.
organic
beingbeyond want&will Butbeing radicallyalturistic
becoming lessinvisible makesone holistic &so simplistic
tothosewhom astoappear fatalistic to a cynic
in conflictedaggitation but futuristic totheoptimistic
stillclingto awarethatlove is lesseparation
faithope meaningpurpose. creating expectationofduration
as eternaltransformation
In&Out in celebrationofcreation
Incomes divinity. of infinitevariation
Outgoes reality. inaworld of interpenetration
knownonly tothose of imagination
Incomes infinity. &burdenedless by self.
Outgoes simplicity.
I Shall
Incomes temerity. I shall loveyou for lovingme
Outgoes veracity. forwithout yourlove I cannotbe.
Incomes complicity. Lovemayexist withoutanother
Outgoes felicity. buthowcould I possiblyknow?
Do I dare takeachance
Incomes flambouyance. disappearing in lovelessflow?
Outgoes humility.
Pathologyofpoetry
Incomes majesty. isin havingbeencreated
Outgoes modesty. ratherthan causelesseffect
beggingforexistence
Incomes time. with I a sinner
Outgoes transform. conceding&confessing.
Incomes faithope Let lesself love
meaningpurpose. affirmingthroughlove
Outgoes elementarybeing. our intradependence
inour dervishdance of lifedeath
Tenements dizzying
LiveOak townhouses my I &your you.
lordingovertenements
decayingwithdreadlife NeverLoving
dilapidationbycareforsaken. Pretendingtoforget.
Seekingtodistract.
Sidewalkscracking byseed Neverloving
whopassersby labelasweed conditionsofmylife
when naturecomes toreclaim without
glory of sapien'salibi a knockdown dragout.
shame of sapien's flacidwhy.
**Pavlov** **HorrificRiddle**
Pavlov's legendarydog I know therecanbe surprising gains
hasnothing on ourmutt. by studyingsubjects thatseem odd
atfirstglance.
Scrapingplate sheknows
meal'sover &she'll beonme Thesubject couldbeconsidered
togulp anyleftovers &lickmyplate. sociology psychology
even economics.
When I startopenning
cellophanewrapped junkfood And Iknow itsrelatedto nature's
her salivatingsnoot willbe thirdcommandment
inmycrotch inaninstant. &isrooted in whatmanycall the
firstprofession
**Instinct** &itspeaks to perhaps sapien's
Thework "instinct" originated secondesire
intheaboriginal outback of Australia (after etermalife).
where wildogs would protecthemselves
from olfactorypredators by Butstill howdoyou askfor
rollingintheirfeces or anythingrotten. grantmoney tostudy something
societyconsiders amoral?
Thus the geneticimperative for survival of
"rollinginstink" Oh. Your'e talkingabout the
whichobviously morphedinto ourmodernotion fourthdimension?
of inbornbehaviors beinglabeled
"instinct". OK. Nevermind.
NotLove NoWrits
Youcan't makelove. Nowrits werewrought
Youcan't takelove. inthe GardenOfEden
therebeing absolutely
I can't loveyou. noevidence of fairplay.
Youcan't loveme.
EachStump
Loveisneither falsenortrue. Eachstump in recedingreservoir
Loveisneither locknorglue. linedtwice with pollen'spalegreen
standingto standfor nothingbutfact
Loveisneither longnorshort. that land&lake&your&I&all
Love'snosanctuary love's nofort. is a singlelife inebb.
Lovecannot heal. Hearing pigeoncooing
Love'snot ideal. beneath highwaybridge shakinginpassing
each concretepillar twicelined&pale.
Loveconquers nothing.
Lovesurrenders all. Castingto riprap &streamofgreen
pushedaside by riverflow.
Candy&Nuts
( FrankGifford Mylure sweptbyundertow
MNF circa 1970) oppositeofbreeze &driftingboat
"If ifs&buts were candy&nuts bumping hiddenrocks&logs
whatafineChristmas we'dhave." until connectionmade so utterlyimprobable
............................ ofancient withnow
Howdifficult to not react toevil. of lakelife with landstrife
havingbeen&being oneasone
Yetevil oncedefined in hook&play as sapienpices ballet.
becomes the definer
&thedefiner evil If hook&line bemy onlythread
becausejudgment with elementalbeing
hidesin welldefinedlanguage then our hide&seek becomes tooweak
havingcreatedseparation tomend ourseparation.
whichisdifficult toheal.
(MNF = MondayNightFootball.) Dad
That I couldsurvive myabyss
HomeSick &he couldn't
there's a sameness abouteachday don'tbeproud.
of eatingthis&that
even strangetastes Therewas no through forhim
at strangetimes no dawnsky nohint noglimpse
of cleaningup nolight onlytunnel.
with lesshotwater hardersoap
of drying&brushing in routine. Withnobody ontheotherend
there's noway his teetertotter
Even ifup earliear thanmychoice couldhope tobelifted.
still wakingfrom universalsleep
evenifdreams be strange. Asking a drunk
alwayshigh on himself
Buthen allistrnage topartner infishing.
butfor simplebreathing Drowninginlake
simplwaking meant tobouy
simplewalking perhapsbaptize.
tomyschool teachingtostudents
wholearn. Ourlake.
Myfailure.
Learnwhat? Whatmatters? ..............................
Seekinghelp atlonglast
Thisday is done thisday is done pridepummeledbypain
in peacefulroutine butpermitted inpain toabide.
of clothers calss questionanswer
alwaysbeingsame Equilibrium however imbalanced
that this isthat acheived
nowisonly by hook&crook
thereis a home by drama&drugs
fromwhich tobe homesick. by tenacious training.
LoveAs Butnot forhim
Loveasmusic lovingsilence. neverever havinghad an inkling
Loveasdance lovingstill. of theneed to train.
Loveaswind lovingripplingwater. October3rd
Loveashore lovingfoamingsand. Octoberthird
Loveasflower lovingsplashingcolor. the thirdOctober
of 1917
I deepwoods with wisteria waft or 1792
it's willlesslove as fragrantgrace. at 3AorPMMMMMM
or noononThursday
AfterColdMountain mealtime
Spending equaltime sleeptime
in reverencetosages realtime
in revulsion ofmy reverence feeltime
in revulsion of theirwisdom notjust a chime
in revulsion ofmy revulsion. inmy hollowhead.
Wisestupidity? Released
Noendto echoingjudgment Releasedbycoach.
withincanyon of my self. Trainingtospontaneity.
TalkingAbout Butwindow ofself sized&seizing
Talkingabout talkingabout bynature
inthelanguage of bynurture
talkingabout. tonot makethepass
tonot taketheshot.
Theonlyway tobeheard
istoshout inthemouth Yetpass happening
oftheriver ofnouns though notmade.
quelling theflow Yetshot happening
growing thefrowns though notshot.
fromall the I's
whomothers despise Window of lesself openning
forbeinglouder outsideasinsideasoutsideinside.
thanthem.
Becoming asif thereis
Shoutingaloud shoutingsoproud nocoach
verbtide waxwaning as I ried notraining
myvanity through sandsoftime nonature
inan alltoocertain rhythm nonurture
withan alltoowellpracticed rhyme. nopass
&
NoSolitude mostcertainly
Thereis nosolitude in lesself a perfect nopass noshot.
havingivenup trying
havingivenup givingup. Will
Will alwaysfree
Thereisonly eachspringblossom shapingshadowanimals
eachcrudeshout eachinsult&lashout forselfish tosee
eachdawn eachboredtotears yawn onwalls oftheircave
eachsongofjoy eachchild's favoritetoy forselfish totrace
eachbreeze&flutteringleaf tease &then tocrave
&unsought noone toplease thefreedom ofthose
emptiedcreatures.
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A "plastic"surgeon
won't heat for sterilizing
they'lluse alcohol.
So yougo allin Asphalt. Concrete. Grass.
get rivered &you're allout. Inthecrack intheconcrete
Nexthand beingdealt. a seed growntoweed.
Backlit squirrel'stail A weekwithout rain It maynot seem much
floatingfrom oakbrnach tobranch yet tirerut shadedpuddle until my LittleBill takes
glowing initsdance. rippling dappledsun. a liking to you.
Bluebooted skater Bee lovingherhat
glidingacross slicksurface buzzingaround its brightred
in yellowparka seekingsomenectar.
A smoke'spack pocket?
It's not nineteenfiftyfour
it'sfor a cellphone.
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SideWalk
Neighborhood without sidewalks Bymidsummer outfielders
road withoutcenterline willhaveworn a barecircle
field withoutfence barelyblendinginto surroundingreen.
kids withoutparents.
Inthis neighborhood withoutsidewalks
Leavesblowing therewon'tbe backyard swimmingpools
evenincalm. butone wellwornpath will leadto riverorlake
with a ropeswing overthewater
If fences perhapsnear a ragtag treehouse.
keeping rabbits&deer
fromfeasting. Shortcuts toschool church market willabound
sanstreetsigns concretepaths or instructions
Neighborhood without sidewalks on wheretopark &for howlong
clothes hungout todry on howfast togo &whentostop.
ragtag treehouse with tireswing
addinglife to largeoak. Inthisneighborhood fourspeeds only
meandering walking skipping
Nosidewalks but beatenpaths or beingchased in fun.
through highgrass scatteredwith baredirt spots
heretothere asif practicality outweighs Andif a path doescurve
even commonsense. it'ill curvetoward shade
honeysuckle or wildrose.
You'llknow where pitcher&batter stood
&where basepathswere.
Prescribing
SomeRain Wearingornot prescriptionglenses
Atlast somerain prescribingreality before my willorwon't.
releasingcaterpillars
afraidtoemerge into dryheat Seeingseparation distinctly
invitingspiders to trapdew or
turning lacefilaments feelingconnection instinctively.
into filamentouslace
creatingfog of pinefragrance&grace Whiledriving clearlytheformer.
lost forsomany sundrenchedry days. Whilewandering sincerelythelatter.
Devolution Sliced
Faith whatacrock. Infant inall wisdom&fear
Knowledge evenworse. slicedinto head&body
ratherthan a claim befalse
Whatkind of ocean orfaith intheface ofdeath.
surrounding thosetwo islands
soontobe inundated Infant deadalive
by fullyemptied tomemory inamanner
tsunamioftransform? to thoughtlessself
withthought mattering
muchmoreorless.
BathWater III
Bathwater unchanged. Slowdancing with lesself humming.
Babybaptised soakinginswill Dervishprancing with lesself rumbling.
of filth of truefaith. Watchinginfant becoming itsownbrother
dancingalone among no other
Tossingbaby withbathwater thatmemory wouldshare
retrievingbaby that thought wouldare
resucitating dismiss asif it didn'tmatter.
holdingtight .....................................
neveragain bathing. Infant inallknowing
................ loved asis unanalyzed
Drawingfreshwater. eachpleasurepain a truefalseeeing
Noburden. with lesselfembracing lifedeath'sbeing.
Washing soilingsoiledbabe. Hoopies
Noembarrasment. Takingshot.
Makingshot.
Monarchs "Iam theman."
Monarchs nomore in Mexicanretreat
fewerflappingnorth shimmeringreplete Hesitating
after frozenhell hailstormpriority makemissing shot.
skyblinding theirmass to a royalminority. "I is theboy."
Summeringsouth bleeding winter'smouth Shothappening.
no caterpillar canchewthrough leavesofwhite. Noman.
Stainedglass cathedral this season's crystalight Noboy.
of whatonce was a skybindingsorority. Tenhands.
FinalScores II
Getting outofbed eachmorning Thatburning keepingme warm&dry atleast
readingpaper reading havingleftme cold&damp atbest
studyingboxscores everaware ofevery almost justhen
from yestereday'sgames as superstatistician of neverwhen
reconstructingaction livingmylife black&white
fromthat scantevidence. &
readallover.
Mebeing a scientist ofsorts
a neopaleoanthropologist Dying onday eachday allday
making slightlyold into unsightlynew neverknowing lifeofMay
without slightesfeeling of guilt or caringtolive a lesspainful way
havingneverlefthome of beingeachgame partof allplay
havingnever lefthead
livingoff finalscores alone wheretheonlyloss wouldbe my self
feasting on notyetcold being ongoingscoring being thisnow'sfun
recentlydead. where win&lose would neverbedone
in endlessgame of lesself'srun.
Scanning obits also
wherethescore is always Die dienow &now&now
one tonothing toashes todust. atanycost atanycost.
...................... Letyour self repulp&return
Dustingmyhome. Burningpastpapers as lesself'sodden victoriousloss.
asif ashenumbers in numbing black&white
couldever havebeenow inself's
futileflight.
ThreeLands
Livinginland of Dreamory (dream&memory)
with ifs&buts feedingonfate
&woundfree rebounding (boundlessfreewill)
with increasingforce
tillmidnoon becoming dawndusk
&natnur becoming my prama (naturenurture privatedrama)
lostdeepwithin calock. (calendar clock)
Livinginland of TenHen (thenwhen)
wherevery todo willhave beendone
leaving thisnow for seductive abcons (abstractconcepts)
distracting withtheir dinductive (deductiveinductive)
objation. (objecification)
Livinginland of TenHen still
with gatelessgate swingingfree
as amnesiac buyingthenselling will
within torm's madspendingspree. (transform)
ThisGloom Bread
Thisgloom isme Rollingdown the carwindow
not thedusk whilewaiting at the stoplight
not themist next to the breadmakingfactory.
not thischill.
Then windowup
Thisjoy isme drivingtoward Walmart.
not thedawn
not thesun Stopping at BurgerKing
not thewarmth. for a WhopperJr.
Thisfaith isme Enjoying the sandwich.
not theidea (Bread? Whatbread?
not thejudgment Walmart who?)
not thefuture.
Thereisonly this flamebroiledflavor
ThisGod isme this singleswallow.
not holydeath
not eternalife Doing
not ThekingdomOfHeaven. What a radicalconfusion
callinginquestion eachrevolution
I create. I destroy. ofthegiantcycle of Iam
Blessedbe thename of I. where todo is pollution
of transform bythegruesome
Threshold specter of knowingwhat'sbest
Threshold hingelessframe nodoor when the criticaltest
foot inout foot outin head a spin is tonotdo withall duerespect
whereisshe fleshofthen bloodofwhen admittingthat I hasgrown fromneglect
whenI'malone afraid&searching? of feeding myinsatiable desires.
Meetingmymother pregnantwithme
&myfather pregnant with dreamofhe Ethics
backthere backthen backwhen asnow Reducingselfishness.
therewas no why Makingfewchoices.
just dreams&schemes &failingthat
memory mymemory. Whowouldare
tojudge?
**Rabbit** **Snakes**
Rabbit or bunny Snakes sufferingworstpress ever
(isthis a seriouslyric beingpersonified inBible as SatanHimself.
or a nurseryhyme?)
abundant this midJune. Each lifeform after
beingclutteredwithappendages
Munchingarden. tomitigate apprehndages
Unaware if fox causedbyjuxtaposition
has emerged from itslair. ofevil on elegance.
Or sadly lyingcrushed Ifonly snakescouldeat with fork&knife
bloodred on blackasphalt thenperhaps wesapiens couldappreciate a life
recognized byits puffwhitetail of uttersimplicity.
beingunique withoutfail
no fox no squirrel no coon **After**
(sansmask) After somuch aching allnight&day
&cats don'tgethit after somuch sleepingwakingsleeping
bycars. howcould mybody possiblyknow
midday from midnight?
InAWorld
Inaworld valuingfact morethanreality Inaworld insisting on tight&defined
lesself oftenmistaken fororacles ormagicians lesself flauntingvariation
to lovestarvedtechnicians seeking mathematicians. with intuitionfalling to plannedcreation.
In a world of thisnow losing to thenwhen Inaworld valuing straightlines overcurving
lesself toooften lost to logicians researchersruling overmessy clinicians
with strategyruling whilelunching with tacticians. philosophygutted with cerebralincisions.
Inaworld withnouns lordingoververbs Inaworld clickingby on clockworktime
lesself movingstill withothers blurtingout punctualitypuncuating eachfinalcondition
whispereing lost toeach namecallinglout. metronomicmusician becoming lastbestpetition.
Lesself lostomost as otherworldly
withother trappedin thenwhen'separation
missinglife's worldoflove aslesself's incarnation.
OneChance
Cell's firstlastonlychance Hellhounds becoming angel'slungs
toescape welldefendedself. inhalingmy miasmic heart
exhalingeach unpardonedpart
Cell's as transform'svehicle ofwhat hadbeenadded
surroundingself's muskoxdefense by me as wantobe
against falsefear ofall fourhorsemen beyondmy thoughtcursed cellsuit
becominghellhounds of unendingpursuit. pretending mysticmeaning
withingtransform's randomgyre.
Houndscharging cellscircling
eachattackermorphing a humanface Allowinghellhounds
everyface becoming a mortalthreat their immoralmeal
with I disowning humanrace lettingthemsavage what I'll neverfeel
tryingtosave whatmustbe sacrificed. havingtrainedto quietedself.
Onlythen canlesself notbecrushed Let scavengers consume
by implodingself what'sleft of mywomb
becoming privatehell thatbirthed only faintmemory
while enmeshed ineach emptyingcell? of immortality.
Chance oncetaken
pain short&sweet
becomingash of eternalnow
on emptypyre
oflove's fullheat.
Puzzle EachStep
Assemblingpuzzle. Eachstep of hike
Sometimes lacquering fartherintoforest
framing hanging. fartherfrom all I was.
Fromadistance Eachstep trees growingtaller
unknowingpieces. &understory
............. &storiedmemories
Moreoften disassemblingpuzzle ofmypastglory's
returningpieces tobox
shakingthemup storing forawhile untilrealizing forest
whiledoing otherscenes. unmoving
............................ I waschange
In futurenow spillingoutpieces shrinking witheach footfall
of oncedone puzzle. shrinking shrinking
Reassembling scene. butnevergone.
Eachpiece being ThisDay
puzzlentire Thisday. Thatfield.
interlocked borderfirst A stonestrewnstream.
or scrambled inbox Each thisday different
transformunknowing in a familiarstrange way
partwhole but justhesame inmymemory.
knowingnothing of
beginningending. Thisday thatpath.
Coldwarm cloudyclear
a streameverlasting
ShouldItMatter? orso itwouldappear.
Why shoulditmatter ifshe's hereorthere?
Bed's stillwarm &pillow soft. Loveundreampt
Nothingismissing buther pulsingflesh. nonwilling ephemeral
forever&ever
She'dprobably besnoring bynow anyway now
havingtoldme atfirst toturnon ourmusic &
then toturn mymusic down. your sosweet
embrace.
Samemusic withorwithout her.
Me havingsame Sundaynightblues. Wasp
Wasp raping orchid
Butnot thesame. Notnearly thesame. after orchid
unknowingconcept
Shouldbe thesame withorwithout her? of mimicry.
Perhaps I needto furthertrain
bysittingwith my Sundaynightblues. Orchid planning so
toseduce fertilize
ThereWill reproduce
Then therewillbe war becoming rootedwasp?
as thisisdone
&thatisundone. Orwasp planning go
becoming wingedorchid.
As you&I try
tobalance Disapprove
witheach teeter I disapprove
&each totter I'llcontinue to whine
inseparateworlds mypersonality beingprecious
ofone. myactions pure&fine.
.........
Ofall playgroundchildren Somefew ofyou thebest ofyou
watchingtwo ontheseesaw acceptingdeath as elementalbeing.
in&out of balance. But I&mine claimlife unending
........ withinout mysong of prideoffending.
Doing alwaysmeaning will
doing alwaysmeaning I Youfewburning with perfectlight
I willing tillthis is done leavingnoash toaccumulate eachnight
until eachwar is won living sofar outside mysight
I teetering&tottering asif I wasblind to beauty.
tillwill is won't &worthless
unless restraining me. Keepon yourway while I holdsway
beneath my patchworkcomforter of dreams
NoMore for I'll neverknow your lesselfbeing
Thisday shallbe nomore nomore being allfabric withoutanyseams.
come&gone like season'swhore
wailing inwinter at a door WhenAutumn
nolovingbeing wouldopen tillspring. Whenautumn's cold&darkening
its fallingleaves &flowersdying
Thisday shallbe nomore nomore is simply
being neithersaint norsavior. coldleaves fallingflowers
Askingnotwhy or whateverfor dark&dying
with love'slightness singing then
norefrain noencore. warmrising lightleafing
blossominglifebeginning
Thisday shallbe nomore nomore &
nothoughts tostore asmemory yielding toseason's simpletransform
justhis thisnow as transform'stroubadour nofears notears for lifedeath'scorn
beingall as elementary reality. allweight ofbeing bylesself borne.
Touch
Knowing wheresheis is simply notenough asif yourvoice couldbe a touch
ourbed a coldhard promiseofdeath. beyondmyflesh &waytomuch
No wordsoflove&lovingtrust
couldreplace herwarmth hersweet blushdbreath. forlove farpast with faithinfeel
thelove shetaught of eternalheal
Feeling a bite nevernoticed before sheslowing myself's incessant race
adding a blanket in modestfallchill sheslowing mydesire's franticpace.
reaingindusk with justone besidelight
playing whatevermusic I will. Andinher sweetslowing she&I showing
the heartofjoy bytransform blessed
Havingflashbacks to college&freeedom presumed with&without touching&touchless
todo as I wish wishing I was'nt alone being thisnow with everybreathglowing.
yearsbetween "Yesdad" & "Yes son" remembered
the firstnight oftwo yetaneye onthephone. Closingeyes countingbreaths
becominglife of a differentkind
Asif hervoice couldbridge ourgap finallyfeeling elementaltouch
from tactileglory to tacitmemory finallyleaving sanitizedself behind.
PostScript+Epitaph=PastAph Skeleton
Cellsuitransforming into elementalbeing Piecingtogether bones.
lesself rejoicing inits finalfreeing. Finally renderingskeleton
Neither coffinconfines nor symbols on headstone complete.
speaking to thenwhen with thisnow unknowing.
Naming it.
Thoseselves whodare&care&care fearing lossofbreath
knowing tobecome unknowing'sfool as transform'sweet lifedeath Tyingstrings toit.
thusufferingsanctity of clingingtocell
whereheaven is immortality's paradoxicalhell. Hanging it inthewind.
In carnalbacchanalia cell&lesself rejoice
singing seventyorsoyears tillhushing theirvoice Watching it dance.
withtransform morphingsilently througeach emptynow .....................
whirling withinlove of lifedeath's eternalvow. Whocouldlove a windchime?
Thinking
Deciding fourthfinger couldcatch its fleetingfingers
of lefthand shoudbeplayed unknown tome inflight sofree
a bitmore pianissimo in thirdbar after longlonglong
or centersection of Bach's hardtraining?
finest tocatta.
Thinking I'llsit beside mybeing
Asif thathought had neveroccured fromwhich allmusic flows
tofinger orhand now or then. lettingcounting count each selfishthought
Asif musicstopped foralltimeneeded of archinghighs&swoopinglows
toconsider onetenth of onetenth whileneverever stoppingtoanswer
of anyall eternallyinfinite instant. who'sincharge of thisnow'stask
nevereverstartingtoask
Isthis thetime we kowtowto inreverence if I couldplay a note.
a stacatto metronomiclife
asif the self I know sowell
MemberShip SomeThing?
Havingfailed membership with thismoment Something havingtodowith
havingwanderedrestless from here&now books or looks or magicalseeing
howcan I expect toever remember of springorpasture or emptylot
makingmyfuture anyless a muddle
thanmy selfishpast? tobe remembered
or forgot?
I shallsurrender nowtonow
givingoverfaith tomy waningself.
........................... SelfDefense
Preparing fornextgame asif a repeat Once I'm armed I'm protected
asif mymemory reliable&complete against allarms of other
asif thatoutcome wasnot unique abletodestroy
pretendingstraight whatwas oblique. nevertoembrace.
Needingtosurrender eachnow tothis Then I'm perfectlyprotected &alone
drillingfundamentals as lesself's bliss. bleedingout.
DevilWalk Golfing
Devilwalking withoutdistraction DevilAngel playing18th hole for mysulliedself
through halcyonfields of saladays. withoutdistraction butfor
crosswindbreeze off elevatedtee
No florafauna unamed. to narrowlandingarea slopingtowardstream
No nature'sfury untamed. with ancientoak &sandtrap inplay if drivehooked.
No fragrantflurry unclaimed.
No kaliedoscopicacophony Butfor
of color&sound twotieredgreen begging belowhole landing
withinthis ephemeralnow leaving uphillputt on bentgrassgreen
unbound graingrownwest &dried by lowhumidity.
until
thenwhen igniting What halcyonfields? Whose saladays?
in crucibleofattention
a perfectburn Fishing
unneeding urn DevilAngel fishing for mysulliedself
for nomemory's totallyfocused withoutdistraction
ashless ash. butfor
fivefoothydrilla in eightfootdepth
AngelWalk during postspawnlull before summerspread
See "DevilWalk". perhaps to midepth or dockbite...
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Joyousautumn. Lesself. Ofcourse we'realike. Pinning deadinsects.
All fallingaway butlove. Undermyskin skeleton Judgingthem objectively.
Separationgone. nofun to talkwith. Sofar fromtheirfield.
Graywhite polkadots Crystal candle stone Broad fourwickcandle. Lessthan whitecapwind
spreadingaross winterfield. lit or unlit eachaflame Dancers on meltingwax floor yetsun surfing ineachcrest
Twocows caughtinclouds. from withinwithout. swayingwitheachbreath. provingwho'smaster.
Sun surfingeachcrest Pickingup kernels Transform caught&held
stealingfun from whitecap play unpopped inheat of pleasure. inmemory's selfishmeld
&from springbreeze. Most puffclouds in bowl. of allmydesires.
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