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Fallilngasrising Stink of selfishness Noseblow in TP
on rollercoaster of now in fabric ofmycellsuit thenfolding wipingwithit.
as transform's wildride. &thatsuit itching. Snot'sobad atall.
Leading following. In stonelined valley
Moon lightingmywandering flowering cemeteries
withitswandering. honoring brieflife.
Dead quarryworkers Dog standinginsun Greenhummer. Brownbranch. Arcadekidsclanging
buriedbeneath fauxflowers. insteadof trottingtoshade. It shouldn'twaste it's wingbeats whilewelounge at adultpool.
View of granitebluff. Feelingeachseason. at unblossomedbuds. Tooclose forcomfort.
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MoreSapien
Ghosts Ah but thealiens
have nobones. all boneflesheart
Skeletons sating on transform'sliquor
have noflesh. rainingfromclouds of unknowing
Intellectuals becoming loquaciouslunatics
have noheart. as slurry of sense&sound&fury
mixing in transform'sgyre
Plato&Aristotle becoming
knew alltoowell memory'sghosts gone
that thehole &
containing life'selixer desire'sflesh rotting
was separatefrom &
the watertable below intellect's skeleton
ifonly inbuckets disarticulated &scattered
&drawing therefrom. separatefrom reality'sheart
while
And oh lackingwill to defend
TheGod &allgods lackingfaith to amend
lackingbone flesh heart thatwhichpulses
notknowing atall within elementalbeing
the emptiness oftheir becoming
scantbeing infullnessofemptiness
arecaptives of desire. pure defenseless love.
Finally MayFlies Finallyfalcon flyingfree Havingcome for Mayflies
from allacts&triviality nowstaying for minnows
soaringhigher or atleast myplastic facsimile.
within transform'sgyre
thananyfalconer couldbear. Darksuicide from woodtolake
all forearth's seasonal slake.
Aimlessbeingalways Insecta invitingpices tofeast
duringthisetenral withme thefisher becomingleast
now&gone. being lovinglylost as
woodfin&wing.
EastWest
Toeast NeitherPettyNorMean
layeredhills If we&allcreatures arebecoming one
rollingwithdawnmist howdid myownself's misfortune supply
asif bydawnkissed. an idea thathey are lessthan I
while equally nearfar from corruption?
Towest
layeredmist Whenasone within lesself'selation
rollingasdawnkissed horse&bull&boar becoming rosebud
beinglake's layeredcloud. as strength asbeauty as eternalblood
eternalall asfodder forlove tofeedon.
Neither
Neitherasking nortelling No strongerweaker betterworse thanyou
like cloudshadowedcool. havingneverbeen otherthanjoyous.
Neitherdawn nordusk Never wondering if otherthan thus
nor rotatingearth'sfool. forgotten with nothingdone or todo
Simply thisnow but be alwaysasone purifying
sans answerorquestion in presentenseonly thenwhen dying.
transform'sflow
withinout suggestion. Massage
Message? Massage?
Searcher Perhaps
I'm a searcher masturbation?
searchingforeason.
Yetsearches fail Doeswasp enjoyorchid?
comingtonoavail. Is orchidfauxsex satisfying
foreither sentientbeing
Asifwind wasp for singularsustenance
failing tofill mysail orchid for speciesurvival?
leavingme in doldrums
heretostay heretopay Isthat the message for wesapiens
forsearching forwhere massagingmentalaccuity
thereis nowant with nonmathematicalrigor
just thisnow vigor massaged intosubmission
in minorfont. through remissionofmeaning
ineach blurofbeing
Poker being
Poker being one long game worlds of yellowgreen
allhappening mountainstream
now reality'sdream
forever. strawberriesweet
with heavycream?
Nativity - 1
Kitchenisland beingconverted from Ceramicity a betterplace
phone phonebooks cookingstuff cookbooks tolearn torun our sapienrace.
to tiny timless ceramicity
caked in snow &Christmaslooks. A betterlife than realife lived
inits shadoworld of moralgray.
Skaters on sleek mirrorpond A betterlife onthat smallstage
pirouetting in gentleglow for youthfulchildren ofanyage
from stainedglasschurch lit fromwithin
reflecting in cottonlitter snow. seekinguidance butnot instars
neitherheavensent nor holyhellbent
Ourlittletown not Bethlehem this agingchild findingfamily'sflow
but livingcloser tomyheart in frozenmoments on stagebelow.
lovedmorethan Christchild's natalplace ..................................
closerto an intimate livingpart Thenstartledby hisown son'sense
fatherconceding commensuratescale.
of mytime of tenderage Mixingnativity with naturaltown
undaunted by Goodbook's sage findingfittingend toeach endless tale.
feelingsimply wellsharedspace
inour smalloving familiarplace. Stabling babyJesus nexto smallschool
.......................... wisemenskating in mirroredmoonlight
Nativityscene setaside a sceneforany &allages
my lesselftraining exceedingsymbol. an eternalend tothis ephemeralnight.
Sifting EveryChoice
Nature siftingmixedirt. Illusionofwill eitherfree or forced
Clods&rocks asif self&certainty couldbedivorced.
workingtheirway Marriagemade butno liveoffspring
tosurface. eachspecies separate in pride'swildfling.
Soil findingitway
tobottom Everychoice a gratuitious greviousmistake
becomingbound withroots leavingbehind a ripplingwake
tobegin life of fruits building to tsunamisize
for burgeoningearth's withoutcomes always a bittersurprise:
nutrientfeast. If allgoeswell myself will swell
batteringeachother's erodedbeachouse.
Thoseroots inthatearth Ifall goestohell myself willrebel
holdingsway againsterosion's say feedingonyou asif a sandlouse.
with clods&rocks washingfree
tobe sweptaway Eitherway ugly whenwill holdsway
to neverstay lesself clearly more&more love's way
withwhat theyknew where trainedrestraint is gatelessgate
as elementalbeing. never openclosed to transform'sfate.
EncounterWithPeace
Dogwoodsblossoming Withmere eightpoundtest line
being ourthird floraharbinger of spring & a 2/0 wormhook
behind sunbright daffodils&forsythsia the percentageplay duringjump
eachall signalingfishers to fishshallow. being holdingback
&goingslack
Hooking giantfemale lightbait being hardtothrow
(tenpounds if anounce lightline beingeasy tobreak.
twopounds atleast of roe)
inher spawingingflat nexto If heavylure&robustline
rock seawall at perimeter of better topulljumper down
perfectlymanicuredlawn notgivingit leverage to throwlure
rollingfrom screenporch notfearing linebreak.
of retiree's immodesthome. ..........................
Fish thisize don'tgetmuch airtime
Hooksetfirm on watermelonseed mostly justrolling flauntingtheirgirth
brushog riggedweightless. whilethrashing in preternatural slomo
as headexposes hippomouth.
Bulldozing from falldownfilledshallows
instinctivelydiving toward eightfootdepths Perhaps nootasdramatic as taildancing
luckyforme not escapinginto submergedforest. but ohmy ohmy morebreathtaking
being a gleamingreen behemoth.
She's pullingmykayak ratherthan strippingmyline.
Luckyforme wheredrags canbind Three poweruns later
knotscanloosen linescanbreak. surfacingagain halfspent
She's movingyak asif stuffof"Jaws". closetomy yak almost inmylap
......................................... before onelastrun
Thenfight&fright beginning inearnest perhapspooked by proximity
with bassinstinct beingto surface&jump &finalsurfacing soclose soclose
while shakinghead to dislodgestuckprey butstill sofar away.
or mylure&hook.
Mercifullymy yak isone with lake
Watchingline movingaway myreach being balanced&long
toward anticipated surface exitpoint mygrip onmonster'slip sure&firm.
duringwhich her flailinghead
reaching maximumchance Exhilirationsubsiding me sighing
tothrow mybait or breakmyline. lifting whooping weighing measuring
completing myspring encounterwithpeace
Thenthemoment of shock&awe with gentlekiss
firstglancing giantfish breakingmirror. &gentlerelease.
Yielding
Mudyielding undermyboot never a footinaboot
of winter of sad&glad or a dottering oldcoot
of soil&cement&slick. but footinboot everyielding
withintransform's vernalgyre
Now myboot mysock myfoot &earth's eternalrevealing.
&calf&thigh&groin&gut
&chest&throat&lip&brain Rock&root
&myburningtongue embraced embracing
connected wind&rain
less to insideme effaced effacing
thanoutside each&all ofyou self&lesself
connectedless rooted&rooting
tomy echoingbrain forgettingtobe thisorthat
&more to yieldingsoil's strain thenforgetting tobe entirely.
.....................
enveloping embracing inviting enticing Howsublime loveashealing
myfaint winterbeing as sycamoreroot as yielding as sand on summerbeach
as nearbystream &waterfilledboot asleaves on autumnhike
as snow inwinter's subltepulse
streamstudded by season's storming rage asthismud in soddenspring.
uprooted rerooting as silentsage
branches&trees whispering tomy lesself Thusmy yielding softspringsoil
asif streamsiderock's of unyielding age. sinkingwithlesself beyondmytoil
of uncountedseasons each a separatessence
Perhapsbeing is age yieldingtoageless whenunknown&unknowing
&I wasnever&always of flesh in presentense.
**Santa*** **WordSearch**
Noises onour roof? "Word are slipperypigs"
Or arethey from I'veheard
beneathourbedroom? nevermoreso thaninmy
wordsearch puzzles.
Sneakinginto our
storageplace crawlspace They're righthere infront ofme
tohide thierchildren'sgifts each slipperypig
ourneighbor becoming a asif I'mwritingpoetry
topsyturvy Santa of sorts &can'tfind the properword
sansreindeer sleigh theword thatfits
or calendar. withoutgivingme frustatedfits.
SoddenSelf BrightHalloween
Soddenself Moonmorefun throughskeletal fallfoliage
drowningwithin than hangingstark in emptysky.
onehunredtrillionsynapses
rifewith neurotransmitters. First a frontporch JackOLantern
then a secondstory balconyburn
Whatchance do I have then fullrisenserene beingbright holidayscene
towill myway? from faint&filtered to risenfullgleam.
.................
Seeping lesself Winkblinkrise to trick&treat prize
fromeverycell from dodging hugeorange to lodging minute
streaming with elementalbeing this bluemoonglowing in partlycouded autumnsky
becoming bioelectric flitters endingbeginning with eachadult's hushedsigh.
of mywillessway.
Halloween
UnLiving Halloweentimetrees havingshedgreen
Lakerippling after summergrowth's harvest before quarantine.
movedbywind. No grasstocut nofoliage toconfigure
beyond sanctityorsin. landscape perfected by final summmanicure.
Nothing unnatural
or esoteric there Halloweenleaves blowncrisp&clean
nonliving now onto lawnless winteroutine.
unliving beginning freshseason &ageoldtrial.
alwaysgiving
to wecreatures SummerToSpring
of lessdesire. Picking&choosing choosing&picking
thentowhen whentothen.
Alwaysbeing
neverotherthan Summertospring wintertofall.
elemental love. Summertowinter falltospring.
Funnel Life tofate fate todeath.
Lakerainrunoff Dream oflife death ofdream.
becomingfunnel
of watershed All tothis each tothat.
needingtobecleaned That toyou thistome.
now&again
lest sheddingwater Butneverever
resurrecting alldead alloftheabove.
inflood of nonbaptised
redemption.
Whole&Unique
Best D is good O. From releaseofshot
Best O is good D. to reboundsecured:
O or D?
Turn D into O with For shooter&teamates?
ballpressure&traps For defender&hismates?
quickhands&quickerfeet
then blisteringtransition. Not so simple
O or D
Orisit transformation? possessionretention
Causeffect in intimateconnect? lossregain.
Meansends as tensesintersect?
But waytooeasy so wefailtosee
From endofcontact withball truthlost in streamingfree.
duringdribble NoO &neverever D.
tillfloor bounce reconnect: .......................
Whoseball? Singular but alwayseparate
O or D? boundbyrules settingusfree
Who's where lessyou lessme
ballhandler? becoming our wellknit
defender? net reality.
FugueOfMe ScyllaCharybdis
If I weremorethan With clichedpretention poet seekingattention
what youmakeofme trying toohard tostartle with unfamiliarity
fromwhere didthat to turnaphrase into petitionforpraise
augmentationarise? in vainattempt to setheart's ablaze.
Otheryou's at othertimes Sit dearpoet letwords flauntheirlives
&places unfamiliar evenif notby yourundeserving desire.
creatingdefining Let imagesflourish as wedding'swives
gentlyentwining whileallowing yourlesself to inspire.
evenasfamily underscores
mysterious fugueofme. OutOfSeason
Eating outofseason creating noseason
Hunter simply uncultivatedself infield of conformity.
Hunter&guide observingherd.
Hunter becomingatherer. Trappedinskull fit tobe tried
Guide becominguest. by moonlesstide of motionless self.
Both aseach asother asall Consumedbywaves tonguetied to I
becoming observed&herd thenexcreted as undertow.
member&pall.
Purpose - 1 Lesself'sMist
Purposeofboth Lesself'smist by moisturekissed
bee&butterfly no somethingbeyond capriceof fate
is pollination no otherthan thisnow incarnate.
creating fruitseed.
Embodiedbrain a physical all
Purpose of fruit no thoughtoclimb nomemory tofall
isin eating no objects in rearviewmirror
maintaininglife only eachother nofurther no nearer.
spreadingseeds.
Earthwaterairfire transformingeternally
Purpose of seed Eachall thisnow an ephemeralmoment
isingrowing ofyou asme ofus aswe.
tofruit
toseed. Improve
"Thereis noforgiveness inlove."
Purpose of
bee&butterfly Truestatement made real
fruit&seed by substituting oneword
isknown tosapiens fromabove
as lifedeathcreed with oneword
but nonknown tothose frombelow:
who live &die. a. other
b. judgment
Purpose - 2 c. self
Purpose as selfishness d. separation
trying sohard
to protectmemory Studying
of butterflybeefruitseed Studyingdots
as eternity. in pointillisticpainting
order
DeathAs size
Death as monologue color
to selfconscious cellsuit pattern
diaper to shortpants to silktails to shroud myeye's rhythms&rhymes.
eachself proud eachself withitsvoice
livingdying asif therewere a choice. Studyingparts
tillwhole is known
Death as finalmaster of slavishself with mymemory
walking&talking whiledragging time'schains workingovertime.
playingroles of fraternityfamily&faith
hearing hopefullness in hymnalrefrains. Steppingback
seeingwhole
Death as ringinghead in hardenedskull forgetting
memories richocheting withinmybrain inaninstant.
asif myself a seedless hull
asif myfears a ragingcampaign. Afghanistan
Twentyears of tutelage
Death as fullness of partsplayedproudly yet hoursafterleaving
forgettingmyplay will soonbe forgotten fallingback intohabits
thenforgetting allforgotten myemptiness fulfilled formed duringthelast
my selfconscious cellsuit finallystilled. twothousand years.
If Innocense
If innocense be enlightenment Ifevidence be pathtotruth
thensurely child isfatherto man. thentruth becomes selfevident.
Doubledribblingconstantly. Morepossessions
Creating a newgame? with betterpercentages
.......................... resulting in victory.
If spontaneity issuesonly fromlove ...............
then licensebecomes kingdomofheaven. Iftime belost totransform
then lifedeath laughs at eternity.
Cutter unseen.
Shot taken. Thelonger I play
......... the morefatigued
If numbersarecertainty &forgetfull I become.
then abacus is Rosetta stone. .......................
Theysay tenhands shootseachshot.
Countingbaskets without Lesself wouldsuggest atleast twenty.
considering percentages.
CloudSelf
From aquifer pool pond ocean Findingmyfancy cutshortbyfact
selfseekingsubstance mydrama of life. findingmyself with vividface
Risinguproot or swallowed as uniquepotion amidst hugecrowds in proud mistjourney
manifestingform as survival'strife. caughtincloud droplets combining bysol'sgrace.
Becomingrowth in sundrenchedpower Straining for my self'salvation
coarsingthroughvein to leaf or brain seeking starkjudgment while prayingformercy.
becomingmobile totalynoble Seeking sol'sperfection sofarabove
lifeform in giving&taking game. allthewhilepulling fromearth's gentlelove.
Livingforsaking in joy&sorrow Love thatcan'tlose whatit neverletgo
pretendingtoshare in purestlovehate. my darkeningcloudcasting thinfilteredshadow
Livingtoday for bettertomorrow promising springrain tosoften hardenedsoil
eachbreath praying for a differentfate. for lifeofdeath drama on surfacebelow.
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Becomingsapienlife a beingimprisoned Withpassion of mymemory's adventurecooling
drawntowardsun but heldbyearth. mycloudbeing beginning to coalesce
Feelingheaven in deepdream vision sprinkling moistwarm lifegivingshower
secretlyseeking a secondbirth. providingearth with elementalpower
thatsol wouldneverdeign toerase
Butsol as giver &sol as taker as simplestar inits rightfulplace
drying whatoncewas cloudbearingsky thatself woulneverfeign todeny
whereven in offspring battleislost havinglost its taste for celestialchase.
asall thatlives ascell mustdie. ..................................
................................. Lifeabove lifebelow
Leaving form&substance of life becomingonepiece onepulsing glow.
prayinginfaith learningtofly Adventureover dramadone
seekinganswer toriddle of eternalight a finalrest forself letgo.
hoping certaindeath mustbe a lie. ............................
In aquifer pool pond ocean
Floatingfrom aquifer pool pond ocean lostinrhythm of nonmovingmotion
risingabove land&sea sinking in darkbrightdepths of beauty
risingtowardheaven's glaringmaster lesself seekinglittle from transform'sbounty.
risingtomeet mydestiny.
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Twoballgames endingatonce of glowingeyes &whitefeet seeneasily amongbuds
eachaction muted. sprintingintowoods? notyet fullblossomed.
Howcouldthey haveknown Intheair unseen. Taking WordOfGod Cloudhidden fullmoon.
the rightofway this sunset Yet thepuddle is finegrained heard bymy thirstyspirit Yardlightleft tomakeus swoon
&me inpassing? &asphalt a sheen. with a grainofsalt. inthis spring'sperfume.
Tossingball for serve. Tossingball for serve. Tossingball for serve.
Tryingtohit withpower. Backscratch leglift pronation. Then welltrained kinetichain.
Ball &head netted. Preppingfor return. Preppingfor nextserve.
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Phlogiston*
Desire as phlogiston until lesself creatinglove as forgetting
fauxlove's coldflame nevereverproud nevereveregretting
with myself's torch beingthecauldron withinwhich both
buringthebridge between phlogiston&I
youasI &you & youasI
yielding burnbold ineach momentofattention
you&I. havingbeen afterall
nothingbutnothing
Phlogiston shapeshifting.
veritable stuffo'life ..............
stuffingturkeys Desire as phlogiston
stuffingstockings fauxlove's coldflame
stuffing our everydream extinguished in elementalfire.
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* "Stuffoflife" before molecularmotion
was discoveredcreated.
OneThousandDeaths
How's your omelet? Onethousandeaths tostart eachday
OK I guess. What'sforlunch? unlivedmoments forwhich I pay
in undigested flesh of flesh
Enoughonions on yourburger? whilecaught in self's unyieldingmesh.
I suppose so. What'sfordinner?
Dreamingbreakfast forlunch lunch fordinner.
Enjoying the roast? Dreamingdramas ofall mytraumas.
Sure. What'sonTV tonight? .........................
Awakening I thought asthought wouldhaveit
This is a prettygood drama. "This is a freshday" butfor yesterday's habit
Yeah but what's on next? leaving tapewormtrailing from myanus
Shouldwewatchbaseball &self'smouth disgorging memory'srefuse
or golf? as malnourishedcellsuit seeking healthybeing
............................. in emptypast of onceclearseeing
Sixtythousandthoughts eachday butfor starkdistraction of mirroredme
eachdragging my rottingcorpse butfor mycellsuit nevertailored forfree
to nevernow. illfitting theplaywright
ofmy privateplight.
Confirmation
I confirm myinsights &mysuspicions Coulditbe cutting my umbilicalcord
&often even myintuitions. or shortlyafterweaning
&drinkingmilk poured?
I confirm bylogic my rationalism
& as a Christians myholybaptism. Andwhat ofme asfetus or embryo
before evenmymother mightnotknow
I think I've got it right butcorrectme if I'mwrong ofmy incipient existence?
becausemyfaith is surelyweak .......................................
&perhaps mylogic isn'tall thatstrong: As teen confirming my nascentdream
I'llsurely beshipped to infernalflame of lifeverlasting by faithalone.
if I'm notdipped in HisEternalName Yet memorizingscripture
washingawaysin silencingthedin just tobe damnsure
ifnotlearning the rulesofHisgame? myreservation isin thecomputer.
..............................
Whendoes originalsin kickin Then I'llbesaved from originalsin
making rosecheekedme fairaim for damnation? though noway ever from originalkin.
MassOfSelf ManyHave
My massofself drowning inlove'sbeing asother Many havecourage
sinking withweight of mymemory's layers. totakeoff theircoats incold.
Beingme as I wish I were Someproud strippingdown to barestskin
confusedbylove's pastfuture players. believingdefiance a holywin.
Strippednaked descending in transform'sea Butfew ifany doft alltheywear
stillclutching thenwhen's shadow asif lifepreserver. sheddingskin asif a mortalprayer.
Intentonbeing primalfirstmover Dying to sentient's stormofdeath
nevercontent tobe simpleobserver. becoming eternalnow's onesweetbreath.
Spinningcacoon of ticktocktime Worst
thinking trappingtransform can makemelast. The singleworst thing about Zen
Fearing emergence as memory'smime isthatonce you'vefaced yourpreciouself
becoming elementalbeing's outcast. youneed to defaceit again&again.
TemptingTitles
Loveisneither he nor she meaning ofmypassion's needtowant
noreven us or we &wanting'sneed togrow myself inyou
thosetitles beingwords totempt myself asif inother I canbelove's confidant
as whenamed eachforest forgetting eachtree &intransform'scount you&I aren't two.
as whenamed eachflorist forgoing flower'splea
tobe color&fragrance only. Being asbothpair ¶site
eachentitled becoming dark&light
Lovefelt is failedsyntax settingletters free &as separate paying the gruesometoll
wherewords maystick but neverbind of judgmentharsh with noparole
&now isnever to youme&we forthesentence of language's bewilderedblight
&eyes cansearch but neverfind whenonlysilence canstill mynight.
MissingEraser
Readwriting bedtimepoetry Morepure morereal
in teeshirt only in transform'sgyre
editingflaws as we go separationdissolving
author&I inlove's universalsolvent.
unhurried Freedfrom pride&prejudice
unhesitating alive as eachboth in blending'sbliss.
eraseranswering ourchallenge ....................................
of mood&/ormetaphor. Eveningending in perspiringinspiration
now searching for eraser'slocation.
Translating himtome Then myfind &myburningeyes
asif origin or originality mattering erasersqueezed between crossleggedthighs
when sharedvision farpurerthan nestling gently withinmy pubicjoys
implodingself's spattering. with LittleBill&TheBigBoys.
........................ ............................
His streaming mypreening Then backtowork translating
not toplagerize as hearts hidden elf blending histhen tomy now&when
but toparaphrase from perspective until shelving both eraser&pen
of myburgeoning lesself. for eachtomorrow's again&again.
DerivationsFrom-365Tao
(Thanks D.Ming-Dao.)
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Modernsages Ifdestiny be yourchoice
hiddenamong us wearcomfortableshoes
as mendicantmonks &packplenty of snacks.
invisibletotherich. *********
Bowing to ********
T-ball coaches. Safeguardingself's perfectsanity.
****** Mysuitofarmor empty tillshed.
*********
*********
"Allknowledge is sorrow." ********
"Knowledge isdead butnotburied Emptiedofwords.
imagination." Defenselessagainst alphabetattack.
Prickedbypen.
Knowledge&imagination Bleeding inkofmy ideas.
identical. ********
Each a synonym for
lonliness. ************
********** Children needingdreams tobuildself.
Whenbuilt needingdiscipline
********** toawaken fromdreams.
Eachwakingmoment will&want.
Eachwakingdream then&when. When&how dowe tellthem
Eternalife being that thejokes onthem
omnipotence with that desire&defense mustbelost
eons torepent. in drudgeryoftraining?
***************
Whatdowedo whenshatteredreams
********** leavethem utterlyalone?
Mywar is thenwhen &self &self.
Onlywhen eachcombatant isburied Hugging with armlessarms.
willthere bepeace. Whispering with tonguelessmouth.
Showingthem the priceofwill.
Theonlystragtegy forgetting. Teachingthem totrain tostill.
Theonlyweapon training. ***************
***********
**********
*********** Does caterpillarwant
River havingnopride. tobecome butterfly?
Diverted by smallest stone
splashinglaughter Do I desire enlightenment?
againsboulders. *************
*******
*********
*********** Constantlyshedding
Eachofmycells lifewithinlife. skin muscle bone.
Fedwithblood warmedbyburn.
But neuronslingering
Thawingheart warningcells poisoningwithmemory.
thatself is alive&well.
********** Whathastransform wrought?
Somany sinsofomission.
********* ********
Existencesimple. Attentionimpossible.
Leaf browning falling.
Raker collecting burning.
***********
MemoryServing
Whynot dodrugs givingmyself memories Ifself bebody &inside be out
of dreams I'm conjuringconstantly? feedbackbecomesforward toaforce inafield
fullofsights&sounds&smells&bells
If memory is serving&disserving atonce with senselessself dealing with heaven's&hells
it standstoreason each unwantedseason abdicatingconjunction with fingernaildirt
needn'tpass in succession. thenjudging eachgod a prostheticflirt.
If memory is serving&swerving justwice Ply me withpower ply me withpride
it fallstopassion to destroy eitheror concocting rightdrug formy wrong ride.
in undeservedregression. Placemyself whereits neverbeen
(where "been" ismorethan a passingthought)
Flighthere surelyimplying flightback totimes myflesh hasneverlived
wishingmyhead couldforget thatfact. (where "lived" ismorethan a memorycaught)
Rehearsing&recalling whilestill intheair
whilegrounded mysuffering seemingunfair. where eachact isdone beforeself'sfun
of trial&error &letitallcome
Cancells beself's remotecontrol toy? where pipedreams aregospel &dealers ourgods
Whyfeel fleshpain below faceofjoy? disembodyingself becoming europe'sclod.
If memory is serving&disserving atonce Thereis no other.
it standstoreason eachdiscreteseason
needn'tpass insuccession. Wasthere ever?
If memory is serving&disserving oncemore Geesefly undertherainbow
itfalls topassion tosoften thoughtration sowhy ohwhy
thatlife canbelived from neckuponly. can't I?
**Dr.Scholls**
Shetoldme to takeoff my socks&shoes spraying like lastspring whenmybro' hadtoslither
meknowing righgaway thiswasno Fiji cruise. underhouse tolurestinky with clever comehither.
Shewanted tocheck for fungus&toe jam
before rubbingmyfeet withsome leftoverspam. But I knew itwasfeet when I witnessed therush
of Odereaters crawling from myshoes (suchafuss)
I knew inthatmoment mymarriage wasmade toetoheel inchworms nearlyspewing theircharcoals
havinglived withouthearts whiletreated as spade. whilemoaning forhelp fromtheirmaker Dr.Scholls.
Atlastbeinglikefamily nolonger a guest.
Perhaps thiscenario a welcomehome jest? Rethinking mymarriage herfamily mysavior
thatnight inour pillowtalk I asked forafavor
Butmyoder wasnoxious &atfirst weallthought &shegranted mybequest notoface a secondtest
anotherdamnskunk wasinourcrawlspace &caught withrespect tofeet I couldretainstatus asguest.
Corrupting FuneralPyre
Self corrupting cell Love asmy funeralpyre
eatingtolive becoming livingtoeat where I mustsacrifice my self
desire'sbecoming nutrition'sdefeat. in memory'suicide.
What's tobedone tobegin mycontrition No smallcasualty
for sinsought for sinsbought in thinker'swar
inconfessional of faith? against impermanence.
Anything canbedone if I try. Tryingtoreport accurately
Yet nothing canbe what is permanentlyindistinct
untilstilling my I. but neverever fullyextinct
existingeternally in unknowingfog
Conventional of eternaltransform as love'sprologue.
Selfcenteredbeing
beingconceptual. NeverDie
Remember me as selfish
Selfcenteredbeing fullofwanting burstingwithwill.
beingconventional. Remember mywretchedself
withyour wretchedself
Whywould I choose ¬hing willeverdie.
a game I'll lose
whenif I continuetosnooze Iam a word caughtinyourthroat.
I candream goodnews Iam a leak inyoursinkingboat.
(butneverwake Neverexpectme to keepyou afloat.
to your healinghues).
Don'tmakeme thehalitosis
Clutter ofeachofyour utterances.
Whydoes sapienself
clutter everysimplefield Don'tmakeme thespasm
with complicity ofeach ofyouracts.
&guilt?
Alive
Whydoes dawndusk judge Dreamasmemory dreamasdesire
&ripplemean both/& thenwhen eachall onfire
across love's innocentlake immolated again &again&again.
with sunmoon stillbreeze
caringlittle ofthefew From the ash of my nevernow
of right ofwrong letmeutter satiety'svow
of meyou? tokeep myember alive.
Reverse
Remembering is thinkinginreverse "I assureyou dearinquisitor
daynightdreaming is thinkingperverse I was&am alert
each allowingmyself toindulge &rehearse passionless&clearheaded.
howtohide deepwithing thenwhen. My I will objectivelyassert.
"Howhot wasit intheroom Why doyouquestion
when yourmemoryserved? a memorysoclear?
Howmuchsleep hadyouhad Isit past truths
whenyou clearlyobserved? you subconsciouslyfear?"
Wereyouhungry thirsty "I veryconsciouslytfear that the truth you hold dear
upset or at ease? is memoryalone farfrom flesh&bone.
Didyour headache or shoulder Thatwhatonce wasnow havingbecome then
orperhaps yourknees?" hasdied intheact of becomingknown.
"I rememberwhathappened I veryconsciouslyfear that the truth youholdear
whatmore cantherebe? waschosen bywill by your self neverstill
Justcomeout&sayit fulfillingdesires &defendingsame
ifyouthink I can'tsee." all inthenameof all inthename.
"Notatall dearsir whatyousee yousaw Strip youshirt pants &underwear.
withglasses yourparentsprovided. Feel pristinechill of reality'stare.
Perhaps after lasersurgery Face yourfears letgo pastyears
you'llsee reality as lessdivided." breathe eachbreath refreshed&bare."
Buttons Weight
Somanybuttons sewnsotightly Weight of myopinion
to vest&vestment not tipping reality'scale.
ofmy genes&dreams. My self freefalling
..................... to whereall that's I willfail.
Ridingelevator of self&certainty
ignoringsubasements of mydeepestbeing. Mass being lessthanmore gravity'sminion
My penthouseview beingallaskew making mybeing'smeaning seemprofound.
with a singlepushplummeting my loftyseeing. Me makingmystand on desecratedground.
.....................
But notallthatfar from nipplesofnurture Meaningunclear asit shouldbe.
notyet fullyweened from milkofcompassion. Future not here neverwillbe.
Grazing unknowing on locoweed Dreams of when lostwithin thisnow.
makingmefeel higher&higher Onlymemory pretending to knowhow.
whentruthbeknown I'm low&alone
& would if Icould Music
stripmy costumeofshould Youcan't get tomusic
&dance naked&free without gettingpast notes.
onthe groundfloor.
.................. Sweatblurrring dottedsixteenths
Somanybuttons treblebecomingbase
onmyelevator. eachbar becomingfactitious
Should I ever fourfourths lostwithout a trace
openthedoor? blackwhite becoming a blemish
onthe cloudgray soundarray.
SuperMan
(Thanks KillBill Vol.2.) Alongtheway in joyousarray
Batman is always BruceWayne rhythm&melody cometoplay
masked. without a note tobeseen
Ironman is always TonyStark without a seam between.
masked.
Eachfearing what statusquos Neither then norwhen
wouldinflict on lesself heros can atone ifeach tone
in envy&defense. becomes a clone
creating a drone
Superman isnot ClarkKent. whereonly a queen
canexist.
Cloaking in absurdity .....................
of businessuit Only byforgetting can notes
then garrishtights&cape besetfree
insuring anonymity letting musicdance inthekey
beforestripping toserve of glee.
beyondself's capability
fullknowing Christ'sfate. World'sClocks
Havingeaten all world'sclocks
Wouldthat Bruce&Tony time ceasingtobe
couldact in undisguisedhumility except for mybellyache beingeternal.
inaworld of lovingcivility
&Superman couldstophiding I clearlyneed anenema
asif hewas dividing todischargeall I thoughtwasmine
goodfromevil inhis withhands becomingarrows
supernatural abiding. piercingwhat I thought wasmind
butsadlydiscovered wasmatter.
CommonCleanser
What commonhouseholdcleanser a highprice tomy cellsuit's pridefultakeover
can I use toabsolve me of myself? tobecome naked oncestripped of each&all raiment.
With somanyears of buildup by byproducts Myprice tomybeing this simple downpayment
of myattempt to beautify&preserve my childhoodfaith
can I ever readythishouse for resale mydreams &hope
as I practicemovingout but so often fail? &all myselfish charity.
With mildewedgrout&hardwaterstains Then a series of detailed invoicing
chromecorrosiongalore &otherpains of whatusedtobe my righteousrejoicing
would a complete renovation beout ofthequestion aseach ofthefollowing
or isthere perhpas a bettersuggestion? in selfrighteous wallowinig
mustbetossed at whatevercost
Myprice can'tbe of fleshorbone prudencefirst thenfortitude
or lumber or tile or foundationstone. followedbytemperance
Myprice mustbe my self&me thenlast butnotleast wisdom.
as the fearlessway to atlast befree.
Thuscleansed of self as righteousness
Myprice willbehigh for this selfishmakeover with mydesires&defenses amiss
strippingmyhouse toits underlayment perhaps I canrebuild ifmylesself is skilled
intheart&science of love.
Sobjectivity Taxation
Subjectiveme can'tbeshared. "Taxation without representation."
Satisfaction ataprice. Bloodspilling.
Objectiveme causingseparation. Ofall revolutions
Certainty bytheslice. a complaintabout taxes.
Subject&Object can never consumate. Ofall revulsions
Evolution'sfailure beingtheirfate. manifestdestiny against
an indigenouspopulation
However in convergence & uprootingreplanting
thoseabstractions canbecome fields of black&white.
a seventhsense ofsort
beyondthecommonfive +self. Then onto savingEurope
twice
So Sobjectivity canbeknown thus enflaming ourtorch of liberty
aswhat it always was&is &selfassurance.
theanswer tothe unaskedquestion
& transform's eternalquiz. Onto decidingforothers theirdestiny
with selfishselfless interventions
Separate ontheirbehalf
Separate inspace atacost wecouldafford.
soonseparate intime Orso we thoughtless.
a subspecies competing
with its stepfamily. Creativity
Nocreativity in will
Carryingcapacity as power
of a continent being or
bydesire diminished as want.
bygreed demolished.
........... Doingnothing becoming
Nowine nextyear morethan
orthenext orthenext that notdone
forthegrapes arewithering &
onthevine muchless than I desired.
havingneverbeenwatered.
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Visitinghishome. Findme a tree lad Not tonotice less Spinningalarmface
Takinghimout forsomefun. thatdoesn'thave a deadbranch but tonotice moreother clockingmylife in instants.
Releasing unharmed. &I'll showyouGod. & yes lessofme. Eachnow here&gone.
Listeningnow or never Butterfly daisy Largemouths offthebanks.
tomemory's harmony. oneofeach in softspringbreeze. Reproductivedutiesdone
Not hearing ever. Utteraisy fly. parents ontherun.
Allthatis isall Wristwatchspring broken.
withorwithout mywilling Towerclock neverstopping.
withorwithout me. Townfolks onthego.
From duskwoods tolake
damselfly's flutteringdeath
suckedintomirror.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Accumulation
Countingbreaths. Random tillmath
Holding straythoughts at bay asan arifact of memory
asif my self couldeverstay triestomodel all amenablereality
insuch a boring nowasthis. withinsuch vulnerablemedia.
.....................
Consecutivenumbers Snowforts snowcaves
abhoringaccumulation snowballs snowpersons
asif somesort of abstractflow all piling tillself'season passing.
asif propelledbytime'sarrow
asif somway to neverknow Water'scycling cutshort by self's electrolysis
whatcamebefore or after. leaving barelements whereoceans
usetothrob.
Accumulating nonetheless Then springthaw &shock&awe
necessary until I simplyconfess of returningto what I neverwasn't.
&are toldwhen mypracticends .................
& I cangoback topleasuring If my self isto become amorphous
my self. don't try to describe
................ shapesubstance seasonreason thenwhen
Numbers as snowflakes with eachmomentpassing
fallingrandomly. counted in oron or notatall
Windblown or shoveled &me as accumulation
asifgrace in accumulation. ofmymemory.
StaticStreaming GarageSale
Imagineriver runningintoitself From garagesale
when beingatodds with gravityofitsflowing to garagesale
when beingatodds with certaintyofitsgoing. accumulatingself
storingit on memory'shelf
Staticstreaming creatingyre deep in desire'svault.
of confused elementalbeing A bloodlessworld
of thisnow with eachsapien fleeing. of shiney stuff&nonsense.
Sensing Willess
Bright - close eyes. Willess as weakness?
Loud - cover ears. Willess as love?
Hot - recoil. Onlythewillful
Bitter - spit. willmakethecall.
Stink - holdnose.
............ And injudgment
Attacked - defend. istheirfall
from lesserself
That trickysixthesense &transform'sall.
pittingnow against then
splittingself intotwo DawnBright
challenging memory Dawnbright
oftheself I neverknew. dawnofsenses
duskofsensing
Elephant dawnofdefenses
Elephant remembering waterholes duskofdefending.
&its fabledgraveyard.
Dawnbright
I remembering whatselfwill invadingmemory
fromwithin its limbicswamp. makingclear
Chosingtoforget mortality. whatnight wouldhide
asmybroodingself.
Planning
Planningmyday Dawnbright
whileblowingmynose. invadingmemory
We'llsee howitgoes. makingmist
ofall lesselfwouldkiss
Planningmyday inits embrace
whilereadling thenews. with eternalbliss.
Payingmydues.
Screwed
Planningmyday Moment of naming
whileliving myday. unknowing profoundly
I canonly pray that I beingdefined
or ifwelltrained was screwed.
attend to
what'swellunderway. Screwed like fifteenwatt lightbulb
dimly illuminating when.
Sadness
Sadness: Screwed like impossiblystuck jarlid
Sentience sharing on wellpreserved then.
a mansion of manyfloors
of longcorridors with roomafter room Screwed ratherthan nailed
all with lockedoors. in coffin of myidentity.
Sadness: Butintime even galvanizedscrews
My self unsatisfied lessengrip
in a restaurant allowinglesself to skinnydip.
with eighteenselections
yet me ruled byanappetite Protect
foreigntofood. Protecting myself with truth.
Avoidingconsequences
Sadness: of reality.
An emptybeing estranged
on a beach of thirtyfootkelp Seventeenpoints. Sixassists.
in threeinch heaps Game lost.
onthesand sonear
thesea. Can't
I can'tlove
Seductress what I understand.
Self as sapien'seductress ..................
luringdesire intocreating supernaturalbeing Become intimacy'smystery
lifeternal becoming lifeinfernal so we asone
bykeeping Iwant satisfied fleshasflesh
self growingmore&more separate as transform incarnate
bybecoming angel'sadvocate. become thisimplenow.
Self as sapien'segress Bowless
from elementalbeing into etherealseeing Bowlessarrow. Springlessclock.
life of faith becoming life of fawn Hands sansfingers
inservice to phantoms of soapoperas tograsp at now
selfpaling to love'spallette to point to thenwhen.
becoming transform'smisfit.
.......................... Life causing death.
Trainingself to submission Lifedeath uncaused uncausing.
through numbing repetition.
Arrowstill but stillpointing.
Expecting ........................
Facing babblingbrook Does self evertire of concepts?
ratherthan
TowerofBabel Legs
asif faithless I candiscern Desirefiring in summer'sheat
factfromfancy. slowlydamped in fall
dwindling in winter'still
Yet I keepmyeye tothesky coming to a crawl.
fullingexpecing itwillcontain
heaven. Then onto spring
where I return as snake
Smile skinshed&legless
How eyesglow whilesmiling. without a need to reminisce
Judgmentslipping from risinglip about lastsummer's sate.
selfreleasing from memory'sgrip.
Holding
Bodylanguage never truefalse Declaring mymemories
simplyreality in transform'swaltz. tobe selfevident
&brutevidence of my self
Needing &
Needingduality tosurvive death endowedwith inalienablerights
for withoutlife there'd be nobreath tobe
tobreathe into thenext chillbreeze. tobeonly
tobelonely.
Dualitydoomed to intellect'stomb
when lifedeath known as Zombots
transform'swomb. Alonetogether
neverhavingshared
PreterNatural selfwithself
Not SuperNatural each I
Not SupraNatural with eachother.
&
clearlynot SimplyNatural Robots?
ElementalBeing. Livingdead?
Zombots?
Let'scallit PreterNatural
anysapien trainedto NoLove
putother before self. Without lifedeath
thereis nolove.
Appearing magical Darewe giveaway ourdear
mystical separation?
holy
perhaps Within lifedeath
fullofbull thereis no other
suchbehavior willbe noristhere fusion.
noticed
applauded Darewe attempt to embrace
suspect thatwhich cannotbetouched?
derided.
Noneed forthe adolescentgame
Let'scallthisability lesself of "I love you"
lessreaction except as a game
to memory'sremands explicitly&utterly binding
lesshesitation implicitly&utterly blinding.
to thisnow'sdemands
lesseparation &a morefirmembrace AtLeast
withothers resisting the endlesschase Ignited bymyflame of judgment
to findlove or atleast nature'sgrace. burning with mypassion
immolating actors&stage alike.
Being reified ridiculed deified defiled
there'sno safeplace for beginners Eachplay nothingbut flame&heat
amongsinners. butatleast I'malways the star.
**Demented** **Clues**
Whatbastard Shouldn't a forensiclue
what dementedsoul be precise &easy
cameupwith forthejury to digest?
3sets of 10reps?
That'swmy I don'tunderstand
Whynot 2sets of 8reps why you'd add extra ingredients
or 3sets of 5reps? sotospeak to yourevidence.
......................
Someone wasonsteroids You'remaking Brunswickstew?
thatday. OK. Nevermind.
OverRated
I am superpersonal. True I ambait
I existbeyond spacetime. luringyouto yourfate
I liveforever. of livingseparate
This cannotbedisputed. free&proud.
Simmerdown Self. Truthbeing you're a gate
Whatintheworld makesyouthink throughwhich youlure
you'vegot allthat goingforyou? themass
ofthose nonwilling &untrained.
I think therfore I am. Obviously.
I bearingwitness tomy transcendence. Truthbeing thecaboose
What couldpossibly be more reliable? of a disconnected trainofthought
sufferingnopulse inits narrowrailedgoing.
Holdon mister.
Youthink yourthought
worthmorethan squat? But I connectbywords throughthought.
I hate tocauseyou I provide whatyourintellect hasbought
tobecome distraught through definition&analysis.
but yournot all
whatnature haswrought Precisely mydearfriend
¬atall what stringingabstractions endtoend
mostsapiens havesought blathering ratherthan bathing
intheirattempts to love. unbaptizedbabes of nonbelieving.
Iamyou&I dearsir Butyoucan'tsurvive withoutbelieving.
willfulbeings Anystatement tothecontrary
in transform'sblur. wouldbe nothinglessthan deceiving
cheating the essence of I whichyou wouldbury.
Yet your'emywill
withoutwhich Andburydeep in dreamlessleeep
transform is still of unsownmemories onlyou dearself cankeep
evenwithin eternal inyour treasurechest of hopeagainststrife
bait&switch. thatanyI canpossiblyreap eternalife.
Therefore I train to less&less self.
Purgatory
Purgatory as prison of mybeing Yet judgment rendered
my lifedeath nomore a mootpoint judgment tendered
judgment havingbeenpassed judgment past
from pulpits future
from podiums but neverevernow
from opinions. coldfires illuminatingtheway
separation havingbeenmade
My eternalself by pulpits
underfire by podiums
onfire by opinions
cellsbecoming a roast reparations havingbeenpaid
a pig on a spit by sittingquietly
selfbecoming a ghost by breathinginbreathingout
an emptied delusion. by stillingself.
Empty Sapien'sSong
Empty canbe either untrained Fearingdeath.
or welltrained Fightingtime.
the differencebeing howstill Sapien'song
one'self. sansrhythm sansrhyme.
Emptied is unambiguous Each tree'sleaves livingon
ragingself havingbeentamed. being decomposer'sconsumption.
Creation Littertosoil to rootstemflower
Sensingcellsuit decaying. thenseed for transform's
Desiringsurvival. mostordinarymiracle
Creating immortalself of littlenoticed resumption.
from memory.
Night&day sunmoon in sway
Who isdoing the creating? while myself canonlypray
Is elementalbeing's asif judging pureorimpure
survivalinstinct the culprit. bymy selectiveneeding
bymy selectivebreeding
Noprevention. Nocure. asif mydismal sapiensong
Simplytreatment ofwhat couldbesung
naturehathwrought. sansconceding
while mylesself islost inplay.
Clouds
Notallclouds are dark Mylesself feelingnoadjulation in finalscore
&those that are or in twentyhandedshot &if unmademissed.
are promising lifegiving rain.
Thereis nofulfillment in gameforgotten.
Clouds of unknowing ontheotherhand Thereis nofear playing with backyardbuddies
shadingreason's blisteringsun thisteamnow havingbeen thateamthen
&mysweet Iam tobe
arefeared onlyby myself itself in selfdefense eachteamnow in eachall thenwhen.
against me forgetting myself
emptyinginto allother Myself clouding clouded.
defining allother toself as competition My lesself relaxing in clearcoolshade.
or font of admiration
tolesself as eternaltransform.
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