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At times I forget
that I'mreally important.
At times I feel love.
Leafdams on mudpath Even eldestoak
after our allnightdeluge archinginobesiance to
defining downhill. sunlight'spull onpath.
Sloping earthendam Atlast trainedenough Bach playedonguitar
kneehigh whiteyellow&green that theplayer guardingme makingbow of violin
calling mowingteam. ismy dancepartner. soundlike a chainsaw.
Sixsecondshower. Kind honeysuckle
Breeze shaking lastnight'srainfall supported by pinebrances.
from glisteningleaves. Needles but no thorns.
Gibbongravity
inlove withboth earth&air
in a rhythmicshare.
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WinkingMoon
Winkingmoon blinkingmoon of realativemotion tomy absolutestill
flyingthrough your fabledphases of featherlightnotion toyour ponderouswill.
inconstancy your constantheme
nevermore neverless than whatyouseem. Whatphase broughtblack tobear
onourlove sunsetfresh thenfalling to doom
Turningblack toall light&life a love waxingwaning crescent to gone
becoming heaven's haloed halftruth entombedunfairly in eachmonthly newmoon.
secure in celestial darklight lifedeath
socertain nomoon is newmoon to lovers. Whatpower tomove my pitiouspassions
asif tides withinmy limbic ocean?
Socertain to reappear rekindlingalways Whatpower to orbit barelyheld intow
wherechange isnow &darkisbright. while I stayweighted totheplanet below?
Socertain of mylove kindlingconstantly
&my faithfulview ofyour heavenlysight. Let earthwitness trurestneed
she dancingherdance tomy steadfastglance.
Mylove earthbound toyour moonlitromance Hersmile &blownkiss the nearest tobliss
breathless&hushed watchingyour shadowdance thatanylover couldhope towish.
Without Brackish
Withoutmemory Brackishwater
howcouldwe bemoral? ofmy sapiencellsuit
neither perfection of
Needingpast as pulpit mountainstreaming lesself
withits magicalhindsight nor brutebeginning
I becoming browneye within ocean'sbrine
a swill of self&savage
of opinionexpressed sweating
as accurate as desire'swill peeing
bestpressed into dungbeetle'sball bleeding
tobe rolledup self's Sisyphianslope asif
till rainscome owing motherearth thatwhich
leavingonly willbe returned infull intime.
mudsliding
shit. Inmy meantime desire'sdreamtime
a seamtime between life&death
Letnow be forgetful timetorn from toiletpaper of sapienrhyme
no mining I's immortality I thinkingexcrement ugly
asif &
tectonic sway &erosion's way lifedeath sin
weren'tenough creation&decay where stream&ocean&mypreciousmotion
tosatisfy sapieneed are neverlessthan
forplay. one all only.
HowMuch?
Howmuchpain must myperfection feel onlytobecome gangrenous
whilewatching self growcysts inits in saccharineacts
insistence on I? I calls myown.
The enormity of mysin Noputridperfection drooling
cultured inmy selfishness fromnostrils of that
nurtured bymy name&naming unlikely aquatic lifeform
metastasizing toall I thinks I love an alteredego needing flow
(& inthinking becoming &bouyancy of all&all
separation sin unloving). to haveachance just onesingle chance
todance tothemusic ofthespheres
My hippomaw of unendingappetite todance justone singledance.
my hiphop optimism of neverever cellulite
swallowing riverGanges If angels existed theywouldweep.
inone unholybaptism If saints were moreorless than you&I
theywouldsend their demondogs
forour beatificbeing tokeep.
EndToJoy Blinks
Shedoesn't understandme Whenmyheart skips a beat
I hope sheneverwill. oursunblinks.
Sins of genes &angryscenes
burnchildhood bright&caustic. When myheartstops
ourlove winks.
Ifshe trulyknewme she'dsurely flee
or becomefrom my samestringent familytree. All love is lessthan alltheabove
Then we'dbeone inbred&done battingitslashes at youme.
with self as no other &an endtojoy.
Howcanwe possiblyplay
Please don'tknowme letme knowyou with lifedeath
from yourgene's &all yourlovingscenes. whenournight isbright
Sharewithme thatwhich I neverknew withstars
helpme become oneofthefew. ¬hing isalways
changing
PoetLaureat &we're wearing
No poetlaureat polarizedsunglasses.
or cowpoke with a lariat
canrope PleasurePain
or Spinningmycoin of pleasurepain
slow the greatransformation not flippingit intheair.
of stardust Shining self's light starting a strobe
to innocense becoming entranced in silentstare.
to certainty
to sin Dimming all light welcomingnight
to doubt lettingcoin become my lesserself.
to redemption Closing myeye of self&only
to wisdom feeling pleasurepain perfectlyentwined.
to ashes
todust CareerYears
to nebula Homohubris scalinghills withbinoculars
to star usinghistool topretend omniscience
to stardust inaworld waybeyond knowing.
causing a tear inthe eyeoflove.
My scatnstay of seventyorso
Birds focusing ontime immemorial
Whitebirds flyingsouth seeingnarrow&close all wide&far
before firstsnow. thenthinking throughsight allthings aremine.
Whitebilled darkbirds Counting carbondating as touch&feel
bobbingonlake now numbers summing tobecome quitereal.
wintering in whatmust Tradingtraded in careeryears forever
be south tothem. makingbreaking the I ofmy eye.
Do whitebirds fear Makingbreaking in millionsofus
losingthemselves under mountainsrising moreslowly thanself dying
whitesheets? crushedbyweight ofits own self&grandeur
waitingfor mylightning tostrike atlast
Darkbirds livingincontrast sparkinglife ofme onlyme
I suppose inthis eternalinfinity
confident intheir specialbeing. ofthee onlythee.
Beginnings Oh Homohubris bowthyhead
Beginningsendings become earth&all as transform'sdread.
don'tbotherme anymore
openning an idea Mother
closing a door. Inside smoke.
Lastyear's smoke.
Calendarday lunarmonth A tinytrimmedtree
meaningasmuchas &sound of TV.
a candle itslight a moth.
Slidingdoor to bluesky whitebark
ManyHeavens &lastweek's dustingofsnow
Thereare asmanyheavens &numbing winterglow.
as our self feelsfree toremember
&justasmanyhells Drowning
whenoursenses can'tbreakfree Drowning in eachnow
ofwhat Ithink I saw&felt dryingas thenwhen
whentrapped in Satan'smemory. realitybeing brackishslur
drunkthin peedthick
Rules inaspain outaspen
Rules allrules mytruth written
arerules ofthumb inmemoryonly
abletograsp&squeeze lifeofself without a blur.
&numb
lesself'sfreedom to explore Onlyif trainedto lung&gill
searchingfor more&more&more will lesserselfbecome wind&wave
beyond the infinityof flashingastransform's eternalnil
self's insatiable fullness. beingbeyond earthwatergrave.
A formalgarden a frenziedforest CSF
each ruledby &unruly Our cerebralspinalfluid
smellingsweet smellingearthy cushioningourbrain
onereplete theother worthy. from outside trauma.
Purity We canlivesafely in ourownskulls
For eternity sea is slur confident allblows willbeabsorbed.
a saltystrength of simplicity.
Thus commitingourselves
Foraninstant rain is pure to a paddedcell inourhead
pristine yielding inexorable. a solitaryconfinement
building thoughtworlds
Raining intosea providingfor &mirroredhouses of memories
cellularsentience inorderto maintain our highpriced
in elementalbeing's insanity.
transformations.
**MtDew** **Cicada**
Mywife mainlines MountainDew. Wherein liesdignity
ofthe humblecicada?
Recentlly theyeliminated the useof Isitin the 17years
brominatedvegetableoil beneath the earth
whichwaspatented ifyou darebelieve in selfindulgent adolescence
as a flameretardant. or
inits fewdays of search find
Now I'mafraid totakeKaren &fornicate?
outinthesun.
Ifonly theycouldcall morequietly
**Hunt&Peck** whensearching for a mate.
Hunting&pecking
on computerkeyboard. Don'theyknow theirmultitude
Makingmistakes or theirunchosen but certainfate
&correcingthem. todrag themselves fromground totree
todo theirduty &inseminate?
On pianokeyboard
notsomuch. Beinganadult forafew briefdays
seemsalmost notworth thetrouble
Asforchickens of emerging&screaming
that'swhatheydo doing thedirty &dying
that'swhotheyare. leavingonly its chitinousrubble.
BornInto - 2
Borninto spring's rushingwaters. I a treading lungbreather
Bouncingalongshallows in a gilledenvironment.
treadingthough deepools.
Reaching for overhangingbranches Streambanks grammar.
tograb tohold toescape Streaming semantics.
the incessantflow. Pooling silence.
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Eachdrop a tear. Latesummerdrought streamdrying.
Eachrock an argument. Lungbreathers thirsting.
Eachpool simplystill.
..................... Perhaps intime rain&streaming
Maturinginto summerslow withinwithout
Highwaters hushed. wanderingbeyondbanks.
Worship PokerMeditation
It's said that Poker as perfectmeditation
whatever wedon't eachhand theonlyhand &allhands
understand with anyhintofself
we either fear compromising percentages.
or worship.
Probabilities as purestlover
Beyond fearworship selfless eternal nonjudgmental.
beyond don't
or miss Tobe atpeace whilerunningrandom
or understanding aggregatesuits consecutivenumbers
a standingwith undeservedprofits
wondering at the eclipse is heaven nirvana enlightenment.
being thunderstormshower
singing with junglevoices Acknowledging aces as justapair.
takingcover during strongwinds Mucking a straight to a fourflush.
runningfrom savagebehaviors Witnessing witless onecardout
runningtoward love'sembrace. eachall a dramalessdrama of routine
lightningbolts&mosquitobites.
LaughTrack
This sillylittle scriptofme Tobe lifedeath dropoftheflop
with alltooready laughtrack fearsometurn endlessriver
is my self's eternaldecree therein is emptiedpeace
that allresistance in futile. &self's finalrelease.
Without wit or charm tobeguile Knowing
laughtrack failingitsimpact Jack. Knowingseed
Even changingchanels can't setmefree is knowingfruit.
from eachselfish act. Knowingfruit
is knowingflower.
BadTry Knowingflower
Philosophy is knowingleaf.
self incarnate Knowingleaf
afraid tofeel is knowingstem.
forfear of suffering Knowingstem
tryingtoknow asifknowing is knowingroot.
couldrelieve suffering Knowingroot
tryingtobreathe is knowingsoil.
withoutlungs Knowingsoil
hoping for lifeternal is knowingwater.
asif perfection couldbeattained Knowingwater
(& a heaven) is knowingocean.
tryingtosee thisnow Knowingocean
while blindedby thenwhen is knowingcloud.
trying tosmile Knowingcloud
without unknowing is knowingrain.
lesself'sjoy. Knowingrain
is knowingsoil.
BathWater -1 Knowingsoil
Scrubbingbaby until is knowingseed
nothingleaft butbrains. &theall
eachseed
Burningbrain is.
scatteringashes
in bathwater. BeingWinter
Beingwinter.
Throwingout bathwater Possessing steelglittermoon.
&basin. Illuminating land of ice fromgloom
whilebeing coldcold distantstar
Fearing&worshipping through clearair cleareyes tooclearthought
whatremains.
isto judgewinterboldly albeit cold&bare
WinterFire or bold&unfair in self'somniscience
Carryingtrees dismembered lastsummer feelingmisery that'snot winter'sfire
now truncate split cut tofit. but thought itself as self'sdesire.
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Stacking driedwood in pattern crisscross Tobe winter
above oldnews of this&that loss whenall is winterblessed
watching shortlogs of lastsummer shademoss as snowbowed bough
becoming being'slife as flameheat sauce. with searchingsparrow
whensnow isladen
Pouring coldwater into woodstovekettle &bushesbare
firsthearinghiss thenseeing thinmist istobe eachseason's spring&fall
asfall of cool&streaming lifeofdeath of lifedeath'sall.
meetsrise of warm&steaming
in winter'world of hotnightdreaming YellowBills FireSky
&each shortday of snowhitebeaming. Springtime shoreline flockingfurballs
in randomaggregate neverstill
Flames dancingon in orange&wild (ten inall as all inone
firinglongings of winterchild endcount being
who livedthefreeze &felthetease as countbegun)
of wood&hearth & whatmightbe's dipping yellowbills intolake's greenface
hadsummer comesooner to he inwait gracing lifedeathstill withtheir selflessnil.
ofsunrise summerfall winterfire'sfate.
Amorphous aseach nearduskflight
Faucet of flocksofeachday's celebration
Waterfalls or waterfaucet fillingtinylives withlake'surfeit
theformer incessant thelatter hotcold withmother pacingbank aslove.
theformer unmangeable thelatter sobold
thinking watercycling a gem withit a facet. Offshoredozen floatingeese enraptured
yetfearing flamingclouds of sun'sfinalsurge.
Suchaudacity notgoing withoutreward Flying lakesurface slappingwhite ellipses
in tranform'sflow of give&go with noescape from eachMay's matingurge.
as plumbersfeast onall wecanafford
thanks to summonedcycle of tooften no. Irislined daytime containing thisfeasting lesseparation astransform subtley unceasing.
MyBeing WhatComesNext?
Counting mybeing as whole&holy Whatcomesnext while composingmysong
unmindful of minefield of selfalone. whenthereare nochoices in love?
Thinking all asmine &myselfsolely
asif throughperception all couldbeknown. Usingwill&want whilemaking mymelody
a pastingtogether of ransom notes
Unaccountablebeing beinglesself lesselfish withno other willing topay myprice
having softenedcacophony into a tone tobe mylover in sacrifice.
where allmy amening becomes amending
lest I becomes myown willfulclone. AlphaNumeric
Alphanumericbeing
Don'tJump shimmeringsequins
Bass don'tjump to escape. on eveningown
Fisher doesn'treel to capture. of seduction
promisingthat
Eachknowingother mypaleperception
&sun&sky&lake of transform's
throughtheir ritualdancing resplendentbeing
beyondillusion of separation. willmakeme
sensual&alluring
NotDoing inmynakedness.
Not takingshot
forsake ofother One+One
(Frank needingto One+one = two.
seeone goin)
whengame Beginningthisentence
isontheline now endingit.
asit alwaysis
&I waslearning Ah thecertaintyof
tolove. beginnings
&
SubtleSin endings
Forgiveness in ourworld of
oneofseven subtlesins. this&that
hesheit
First needingdistance neverall.
then needingjudgment.
Drop
Onlythen canrighteousme Each dropinmybucket
dressed inmyfanciest Godgarb creating a universe.
decree my selfishsentence
with heartrendingcompassion Pourthisuniverse
&a straightface. onyourgarden of nohope.
Tournament
Onerow of lilting longleafpines Tinygirls intheir twelves in cute outfits (ohmy!)
between sixcourts&parthreecourse toboys intheir eighteens withastar ineacheye
bundledgreeneedles blowntograce eachplayer welltrained inan ongoingcram
competitors intheir run&hitchase. topass this sweating summerschooless exam.
Needlesthree slender&limp Drifting to drawsheet in fauxnonchalance
drappingbrown caughtin centuryfence firstfindingthemselves thenscanning allothers.
afteryears growingreen withoutreason Dreamingofplaying tillnames become narrow
needles shed withnonotice of sunorseason. flyingpast feathers topoint of bluntarrow.
Scragglybranches from toonarrowtrunk Parent'slawnchairs unfolding withdrama beholding
holdingleafbundles in tufts at ends steelfenceaway butinplay just thesame.
needlesexploding unabletofly Watchingeachserve return lob &volley
this greenonly silent fourthofJuly. beneath coolshade from longline of Loblollys.
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Justafterfourth teenscoming for tourney Youngsapiens working younsapiens playing
gatheringbeneath loneSycamore some narroweyed pursedmouth some wideyed&smiling
broadleaves gentlylobed with tipsacute somefussing atself somepraising theirpartner
shadingplayers&parents comingtoroot. beyondnet withinlines of archingballblur
Sycamoretrunk a toosolidcylinder till twoplayon foralltheothers
supporting thinbrances atangles soright feeling winninglosing lessthan theythought.
centered onplatform circledbyhedges Each lesselfishbeing hitting hisher ownwall
five spikedtimbershigh circledbyfledges. each growingheartsoaring lifetimes as all.
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Trees unknowing sapientransform below
withfamilies of searchers playingout theirgame.
Each practicingfocus each at theirownpace
mergingflesh&greenflow into one lovingface.
Littany Forgiveness
Selfhelp becoming self's thornyhell "I forgive you"
tangled inaprickly littanyofstages already threesins
lostinlengthy proceduralmazes. 1. I as separation.
2. You as separate.
Now perhaps mytimeisright 3. Forgiving asif
tosharpen mysenses exceptfor self'sight givingfrom
&sitquietly inglow of thisnow's light morethan my self.
learning the I before Iwasborn
seeingmenow both wearing&worn When restoringlove byforgiving
facing theself I'd muchratherscorn whatvanity I expose &atwhatcost?
butnow mustface Mydignity havingbeenviolated.
&learntolove. Myindignation havingbeenpiqued.
Accusation havingbeenmade.
Seduced Blame havingbeenreeked.
Seduced by ration
alongwith itsminion language. Justice mustbedone
with myI forgiving youryou.
Constructing sentences as life
paragraphs as world's Or
being shadows withoutlight Sittingquietly beingmirror ofmymemory
mirrors forsight watching I becoming dawnmist
rationasright watching you become duskshadow.
self asmight.
Simply thisnow beingwith allpain
Or mightnot whenconfusing thisnow'shome with neverathought of assigningblame
for thenwhen's emptylot. asif eachaction simplythis
inlove's unjudgingbliss.
Unabletoknow without beginningendings
rationlost with languangerending Team
thatwhich wasone & neveroffending It'snot myteam.
as lesself is ineach thisnow. It is myteam.
It'snot yourteam.
Sapiens lost in loveof ration It is yourteam.
distrustingbeauty of simplepassion
slaves to time'sbomb of promisedtomb Doesthat makesense?
when unknowingunending Isit true?
as transform'swomb. Isit theway itis?
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Denyingbody Whatfool willnotlove Tonguesilent touching Justonetruck turning
asif passion shouldbecurbed whenlove is sweetsweatslime glialspeech in limbiclove creatingaccordian
by orderofmind. &allyours ismine? with couplingcomplete. of six stop&goes.
Snowflurrywindow. Dreams temptingagain Tobecome thisfog
Studentsgettingexcited. &withthem allof thenwhen. neither&both lake&sky
Weekendstarting now. Oh for forgetting. eitherboth you I.
Watchingwaterfalls. Secondpair of socks.
Headsteady steadystreaming. Hat hood jacket&mittens.
Headmoving onedrop. Pup readytogo.
Howcan geesehonking
get tome through iceyair
teasingmydreaming?
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MakingDemons Sensation
Withdreaming makingdemons Sensation reception
ofwhat Iwould forget then myrequisite organicfilter
whynotremember before final pick&choose
asif by myself's soselective
itwerereal? semipermeable membrain.
Ifonly I could pick&choose Whatcould I possibly gainorlose
what I win & who I lose whilefilling mymemory withmy
in memory'sdream that fluidscene stuff&nonsense?
where weboth oncewalked .......................
in summer's vernalspring. Pass catch openshot
rhythmpure before I remember I forgot.
Perhaps I canchange mydesiringself Nomembrain beyond looseloopednet
without invitingregret no illstruckdeal no accruedebt
but no I I knew or mayeverknow just thisnow a singledot
cansimply choosetoforget. inmy pointillistpainting.
Want
So youwant towin. Howdoyou practiceyour tennistrokes
What'reyou goingtodo aboutit? with noracket inyourhand?
So youwant tobeat youropponent. Howcanyou becometheball
What'reyou goingtodo aboutit? with noball insight?
So youwant toplaywell.
What'reyou goingtodo aboutit? Bybeingwhat thismoment is
So youwant tomake goodswings. notsharingher's or wishinghis.
What'reyou goingtodo aboutit? Bybeingaction hereathand
So youwant tohitheball solidly. not wandering throughmemory's wonderland.
What'reyou goingtodo aboutit? Bydoing whatlife demands in thisnow
So you'regoingto withreverence &a humblebow
watchtheballclosely whileforgetting winninglosing
swingfluidly withoutacare aboutwhen or how
missball &neverathought of why.
playpoorly ...............................
getupset So you'rewatchingballclosely
bebeaten&lose swinging noswing with noball arching
game in breathlessbeauty to noone beyondnet
set nothitting noball back&forth forth&back
match inthis eternal
face. notime.
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Blink Expecting
Thinkingabout blinking &swallowing. Expectingkindness inreturn
Thinkingabout thinkingabout will I neverever learn
blinking &swallowing. I neverdoes for other.
Soitgoes till inboredom'sthroes Evenafter self's slowburn
blinkingswallowing fadingfromemory. stillembers orange in heart'snocturne
sung bythose I loved.
Blink whenyoublink.
Swallow whenyouswallow. Simplify
Stich whatneedsmending OneSingleDeadlySin
reapwhatyousew. Envy - I wants whatyouhave.
Gluttony -I wants more formybody.
Worm Greed -I wants more formymemory
Worm pretendingtobe ant Lust -I wants stimulation.
asif my pseudosocialbeing Ire -I didn'tget what I wants.
couldsurvive sidewalkdessication Pride -I wants more ofme.
after tearsofothers wash me Sloth -I wants tonap.
frommyhome in moistsoil.
Disgrace
Whywould I wishtobe Guilt being gravity'sdisgrace
heartyarthropod of mobile enslavement? havingfailed tocreate lesseparation
Just toavoid searingpavement within transform'sgyre of
during infrequent deluges? thermodynamic indifference.
Free inmysea of dark&brown Strongenough toconjure lifedeath
hunted by redlight as hermaphrodite. within the randomness of stardust'scoalescing
Grabbed twoatatime for sapien's fishwish yetunable tojnite unitesofsentience
stillbetterthan an exoskeleton &beingwilless. inlove's healingembrace.
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Embracing myworld of freetodie LanguageLayering
fearingonly heat&dry First a cellmembrane
livingout mydays as earth'saerator semipermeable lipidlayering
beingwomb ofseed &love'screator. surrounding earthwaterairfire.
Absolute Then self'smembrane
Silentcold semipermeable languagelayering
state of absolutezero brutallydefiningme
nomotion whatsoever. blockingout allother.
Yet mymemory ismoving Wouldthat I could allowyou in
eveninstillness becomingdefenseless
hearingwoodpecker lettingyou permeate myemptiness
probing deadbutnotfallen withyour sosoft sweetkiss.
pine.
SunFalling
Approaching Sunfalling sunfalls
Approaching overedge of graycloudbank
impossibilityofpassage intomyperception's rainbowvalley
snowcloud pinepeaks streaking dullbright
hemming heaven'searth spattering Sol'smight
inheights unimaginable in crystallinelike fairyland
tohikers. ofmy finallydenied denial.
Butrock hasbeencarved Indulgence in sundancingrapture
glisteningcliffs stripped spilling myunwilling capture
by boreofignition ofwhat mylesself couldneverdesire
explosion simply earthwaterairfire.
demolition
cleaningpaving Once
thatwemaypass &inpassing Inconcdert forsolong
worship therequiem of thisnow. yetseparate allthewhile.
Brutal Thenonce outofnowhere
Brutaltransform a knowing(loving??)smile.
summertofall.
Brutaltransform MehanicalMenagerie
falltowinter. Risingtocrest of thiscrest as nextcrest
getting a look at whatwas &whatwillbe.
Transform from Landlaidbare fivelanes withoutatree
this tothis strewn left&right with mechanicalmenagerie.
earth toearth
that tothat Postapocalyptic deviants of radiation'sruination
being tobeing. sleeping on mud oftheir floraltextermination.
Longnecked scoopheads supportedbyearth
Neversame chipper&dipper holepunch&ripper
lifedeath. hauler&slicer trencher&dicer
Neverdifferent Cat&Case Vanvleet&Vermeer
lifedeath. Kamatsu&Hitachi Volvo&JohnDeere.
Transform Somewheels like fifteenspeed bicyclegears
brutal tomemory somewithtrack wrappedaround sprocketedspheres
brutal toself somewith tiretread tallerthan smallerscoop
beautiful whenforgotten. all withengines belchingblack smokeysoup.
Thumb&Tongue All forfuture of vacationers fulltilt
Inchoatesapien through asphaltpastures builtwithoutguilt
lacking tooth&nail thatwhat theycomefore isnow allwilt
attackingwith forwhat islost is nature'slilt.
brain'stutor &bluntspear
former for grasping HardLife
latter for asking. Hardlife inyouth
circumstancenotwithstanding
Bluntspearspeaking wellovedpet dying
becoming subtlesuture of language parents fightingcrying
rulingeachmoment though modestdentation wordharmheaving dreamingrieving
with itspower of adaptation growing through darkfalls &darkersprings
creating firsthints of lesseparation. hardlife inyouth
circumstancenotwithstanding.
Brain'stutor throughgrasping .....................................
causing existentialgasping Hardlife wellaged
withpower towield circumstancenotwithstanding
noneed toyield wellovedpet dying
to thumblessnails parents fightingcrying
in weaponlessfails. wordharmheaving dreamingrieving
growingthrough hotsummers &coldwinters
Presapiens inconcert hardlife inyouth
becomingable toassert circumstancenotwithstanding.
dominion over emptyhands
&ineffectiveplans. Ansoitgoes through lifedeaththroes
lessuffering ifonly forgotten.
**Pride** **Clothing**
He wasindeed quiteproud Sowhat's sobadabout
claiming tohaveorchestrated ethniclothing?
defeat of TheEmpire
tohavetaughtYodi the JediMindTrick It's stylish &respects
tohavedefeated HarryPotter at Quidich theircustoms.
&tobe on firstnamebasis withboth
Higgs &hisBoson. Ethnicleansing yousay?
Ofcourse after theclothing
**Naked** getsdirty.
Nakedinpool fromherwaistup
water barelycovering herhips Oh thatkind of ethnicleansing.
butbeingcoquette helpinguys getwet Sorry. Nevermind.
with nothingatall hidinghernips
Ration Justified
Only if ration trulyobtains Now is justifiedbywhen
couldbirth be beginning theproof beingthen.
could death be ending
couldBigBang everneverbe Asif mylife a dreamory
&absolutezero an actualdegree. asif mylife a liturgy
aimingme as time'sarrow
Andhow couldlesself lessmy lessme at a target I can'tknow.
exist inyour sternreality
wheretransform is timeless Now is this &onythis
withneither progress nor regress neithertodesire nor reminisce
&alltemperature a gentlecaress? asif mylife lessthan theall
unjudgedunjudging &valueless.
CaveBear
Cavebear of corporateboss Mystery
decisioneeded atanycost. Ofall mysteries is math.
Freezeflightfight reflexive nondecision Neithermatter norenergy.
presentdilemma needingrevision. Neithertruth norbeauty.
Caughtinthought deedundone Nothinghidden nothingtobeknown.
bear&boss againhavingwon. Nothingmade nothingrown.
Alchemy Insubstantial yet insubordinate.
Not lead intogold. Faithfultointellect yet reason'scoquette.
Not gold intoblood.
Makingnoargument faithlesstofate.
Not then intowhen. In plainsight but alwaysopaque.
Not now againagain.
Open totheall not taking a side.
Not desire intosate. Don'thope totame. Letstillness abide.
Not defense intohate.
Goal
Not transform intotime Take a deepbreath. Count to ten.
Not rhythm intomime. Take a deepbreath. Count to eight.
Take a deepbreath. Count to six.
Not transform intotense. Take a deepbreath. Count to four.
Not self intodefense. Take a deepbreath. Count to two.
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Not self intowill Take a deepbreath.
but want intostill.
Breathe.
Notmemory asdebt
but forgive &forget. Certain
I'mcertain
Not pride as ego'sdefense Idon'tlive
but lesself's aslove's essence. hereornow
tillsomeone
InBed speaksmyname.
Inbed butnotsleeping.
Pain laughingatmeds. Why
Ending stilldaly withrippling. Why doesmymaster
demandsomuch from me?
I havenoidea wherethepebble
camefrom Surely he'snot
though it musthavebeen hungry tired hurting.
a thought.
Itmust besomething
Carousel I'vesaid or done
Is mylife simplyriding in thislife or another.
a carouselhorse
moving updown Ifonly I couldremember.
&aroundincircles? Or forget.
Should I demandmore? BlownDark
Asif nightsky wasbare
Squeezing blowndark bysome
Mountains squeezing mysteriouspectre.
oceanair
rainingsea toreturn tosea. Asif herlovewaning
in a moonlessky
Beyondbarrier without ahint of reasonwhy.
the otherside of sodden
swirling sandunes Must I live in eternalgloom
as dryoceanwave. asif embowled in purgatory'swomb
without a chance for recourse byreason
Such is mylove justremorse for committing love's treason?
&her resolve.
OceanWorld
Oh oceanworld of depthoflife Letmesink in sweatofmyowneffort
saltspraylashing on stoneyshore tobe&be until nomore.
foamcreep splashing atmy sandydoor Letmesweatdesire from mytoolarge self
I openning toinfinite width&wisdom bleeding mydefenses fromeverypore
havingharboredlife in mylife'sbeing into oceanofyourlove asother &more
nocell no organ no systemcomplete becoming oceanwave &oceanshore
but awesomecomplexity of atomsreplete drawnbyeachtide to simplyabide
withwisdom of whole but nevermine inpeace beyondseeking
havingleft home&family farbehind instillness beyondspeaking.
in searchofself &its worthlessfind
worthless to ocean's infiniteflow Fullyemptied letmebecome
of wavebob bobbing saltspray foamcreep wavebob lifethrob
on windsweptsurface joining the elementalkeep as
with lifethrob throbbing greatdarksilence of the
sofarbelow. unfathomabledeep.
Trick Fire
The greatest trick thedevil hasplayed onwesapiens Fire movingAir
is tomakeusthink a savior isathand ripplingWater
&that faithalone is sufficent toinsure lifeverlasting. smoothing
Earth'sface.
Thus saved (I amtobelieve) mylife willbefilled withlove
&I won'thaveto defendmyself because myprimarydesire Such is yoursmile
hasbeengranted. &mylove.
Yet I seek tosatedesires beyond eternalife EveryThing
&defend my self againstall perceivedthreats. Sometimes poetry
istoomuch fo me
Frozen unlessits simple
My tornjoint or fun.
frozen
severlyreducing It takesenergy
rangeofmotion. tobecomewhat
thepoetdemands.
Such isour love.
Not that they're
What stretchingexercises hidinganything
willbe sufficent butbecause
&howmanyreps ofeach? theiranything
isoften everything
Myconfusion truesuffering. the size&simplicity
Myfrustration falsesuffering. ofwhich isoftenbeyond
mycapacity.
GolfCourse
Itmustbe a golfcourse Joy
beneath lastnight'snow Chill hittingmymouth
treesdefining fairways morerefreshing forbeing
greens definedby post hotubsoak.
sandtrap depressions ....................
withsnow findingitslevel Notlike divinginto a coolpool.
whilestillcreating gentlebevel Notlike gettingsnow shoved
inthe ripplingtopography. downtheback ofmyneck.
Streams&waterholes Morelike stickingmyface
welcoming kindred fallenfreeze into a smallwaterfall
with openpores asif windows&doors in a shallowstream
of a clubhouse closedfortheseason while onmybelly
of alabaster&eggshell landscape. teachingmyson
thejoy of water.
Ourlab a black halfround ...............
with eachbound through midcalfdrifts. Thenswallowing.
Mywife&I strugglingthrough Bullying
our boundlessbattleground. Breeze barelyflitteringleaves
till tornadic air leavingnothing tospare
Distantskiers slidingthrough as summer'shade becomesfall'sbraid
this pristinesurround. tumblingthrough leaflitter&undergrowth.
.........................
A lovelyuse of season'sabuse Yet bullied drybrown havingfallen fromcrown
rightlyscorned by workadayminions now asif flocking furious&free
unable inthisnow to worship being aves gonemad ignoringravity.
elementalbeing's domain.
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< Tirerutpuddles dry. Afteralltheseyears
Filledtolevel with oakleaves. chillingfallbreeze stillhaunting.
Hikers sloshingthrough. New schoolyear starting.
Lastnight's storming rain Lastevening's softstorm Lastnight's storming rain
caughtstill oneach leafoftree caughtstill oneach leafoftree caughtstill oneach leafoftree.
&battered clogged drain. gentlysprinkling me. Noneed to explain.
Halfallen proppedpine Whydofavorites
addingenergy to woods alwayseemto wearout first
as decayedlightning. while uglypairs last?
Sheetdraped frostproofing. Samefish at sameplace Life's phantom is force
Halloweenghost harbingers caughtwith exactlysamelure immaterial yetreal.
aslongascold lasts. during this samenow. Notunlike love'sfeel.
Yellowed from springwhite Dragonfly sunning
stillafragrance withabite onthintip of mycanepole
before petalsdrop. until fatbluegill bites. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
AnaVidovic Music
Inher unholyhands That'sall itis
guitarbecomingangel choosingwhen togo up
angelbecomingair choosingwhen togo down
air vibrating & ofcourse withwhom
instormofinnocense harmony beinglove
innocense becomingcarnal inboth distance&intimacy.
inpassion of music
wordless meaningless Scarlatti
yetabel to astound In fauxhurrytofill thestill
even my hardestheart. &enrich thisnow with briefmemory
of repetition&harmony
Not
Notlistening. Kin
Hearingfan. Mykin whiteskin
meatloaf mashedpotatoes
Notlooking. sweetgreenpeas.
Seeingsand
siftingthrough Mykin mysin
hourglass. makingothers alien
whereach ismy fraternaltwin.
Notcaring.
Asif I could. Meatloaf mashedpotatoes
treatingothers asmyfoes
Stasis creating lifeofsorrows.
Cryogenic stasis
or chrysalis? Sweetgreenpeas
allmychildhood dreamories
Onlythroughtraining asif onlydogs havepedigrees.
cantheformer
become Mykin &statusquos
the latter. surelycreating guarantees
thatnone willfeel realities.
Belief ..................................
I've plalyedwith toomany Allother as kin
whobelieved theyweregood. entwined as singlespecies
Missingcutter being transform'stease
whiletakingshot. self'sbane
Goingforsteal &love's firstfinalrefrain.
thus yeildinglayup.
No
Giveme theplayers unsure Nomind.
oftheirabilities Nospirit.
or certainof their Nosoul.
inabilities
forthey willbeconstantly OnlyIf
training. Onlyif immortal could I notfeel
separation causedby
RealTruth beginningending.
Truth complainingtoReality:
DearestReality whydoyou distract Beingmortal I suffer
my ovedientsapines withyour the stacattobeat of lifedeath
dervishdancing? oftenmissing the melody
alwaysmissing the harmony
Aren'they patheticenough neverknowing why there'sno why
whatwith certainty luringthem in transform's screechingcry.
into lonliness? ########
HeartBeat
HonorableTruth canyoubeproud Why myheartbeat
dressingyourfollowers inlayers beneath this shroud
of tightfittingclothes? of suffering?
Horizon Myheartbeat
Rainbows&scarecrows withinthismadance?
beinghorizon over tasseledfield.
Consumers
Afterharvest rainbows&scarecrows Carnivorous herbivores
becoming foreground. becoming firstanimals
byconsuming thatwhich
Escape theyproduce.
Toescapesuffering
escapehumanity. Notunlike my voraciouself
createdtoserve beingservedup
Becomelife without as consumeroflove.
selfconciousness
a gibbon tortoise SelfConciousness
squirrel manatee. The horror&beauty
of selfconsciousness
Theall isnotfor isknowing mymortality
me alone thus givenachoice
¬ foreveryone. tosuffer or savor.
FirstFlake
Firstflakefalling Sixthseventheighthflakesfalling
between long grassblades summoning crystallinereflection
covering ground barely. &fullness of forgetfullness
thatblade everexisted
Secondflakefalling thatwater chillstosnow
beginningbending curvingblade thatlife beyondstill
withits whitegrace. couldlive withoutmyimagination.
...................................
Thirdfourthfifthflakesfalling Flakesflattening topography
weightingblade till tiptop arching &allevidence of discord
creatingreen lilliputiandome silencing allwailing for
a sparklingfantasy truth&justice
perhaps a Hobbithome freezingall selfrighteouspassion.
whiles whisperingfealty
to physics&chemistry Brightness burningvisions
while evoking thatwhich of sugarplums
cannotbe foundifsought of saviors
or bought withanycurrency of anythingotherthan
beyond innocentgaze this simplenow.
uponthis deepwinterglaze
&neverever recollection Let thesnow shroud my
of dream'sdesires. memories.
Leaf Gold
Chlorophyll streamer Belief
summershade dreamer the goldmedal
only to flame&fall to chill for selfishness
to dry&pile for child&dogsmile faith thesilver.
whileliving death's lastlife.
Forego therace to futureperfect.
Honor Foldinto peace ofthe presentense.
Youall worksohard
to honor me Argue
Earth providingfuel Weargue truthjustice&theAmericanway
Water becomingvapor inclassrooms
Air breathinglife for myflame at cocktailparties
eachall toignite my burningname inpubs &subways
Fire while wellfed welldressed &healthy.
almighty Fire.
Zoo
Sand Knowingreality onlyas a zoo
Black hourglassand filling with allthewildcreatures caged&tamed.
from perimeter to center
as snadspatters onfalling Thus is reason a secondhandsentience
onlytoaccumulate imprisoning waterfalls &their rainbowmist
&slidegentlly into the shimmeringaspenleaves
emptycircle. starlingmurmurations
withinstrictures of grammar &lettersflattened
Such is timeitself by a printingpress.
&my briefstay
from bouncingbabe Meet
to gravity's slave Whenripplesmeet theydo themath
darkness surrounding addingsubtracting multiplyingdividing.
engulfing.
Nothingmoresophisticated than
Auditions basicalculations
Eachofus an actor constantlyauditioning inmysimplelife.
butnever getting a callback.
Partner
Unphased&optimistic I hire anagent MindhasBody
who linesup more&more auditions forits dancepartner
while I wait tables. inDuality.
Tips keepingmealive. LesselfhasOther
Therest oftheiceberg asits longlostlover
unseen. inReality.
DoIMind?
DoImind decaying Letmebe
asif owingtransform thisform forever
my borrowedstardust? ifnotfor
heaven'sake.
Asif egg&sperm
proteanbeing but notme? Letmebe
thisform forever
Asif formlessform erred ifnotfor
in allowingmembranes heaven'sake.
to buildbuttresses
against transform'schurning Betteryet
insanity? letme nonbe
as a rowboat
Shouldonly myseed bobbingently
surviveyouruthless in nature'swake.
give&take?
TheShot HummingBird
Theshot goesin. Whilewatching a flockofgeese
Myteamates surroundme cruising high&loud overhead
in adulation. a hummingbird darts throughmygaze
&dartsagain through the geesesong
I become ClutchShooter its wingbeatwhirring slicingthehonking.
asother's confer
status Such are trill within Scarlatti sonata reputation.
.......... Fondling
Me assuming My feralself fondling rememberedesires
burdenofself. in falsefealty to a fecundlife
neveryet tobelived.
Utilitarian
A basketballteam demonstratingdaily Memory'sneurons squirting as I squeeze
the essenceofgestalt mypast front¢er
winningmoreoften thantheyshould. inordertoserve whatreality wouldsever
from anysemblance of will.
" patience, deference, and sacrifice,
a trio of overlooked but utilitarian traits..." IfYouMust
reckons an insightful sportswriter. Ifyoumust dwell in duality processphenomenon objectively
AutoBiography label&judge subjectively.
Others writingmybiography
with praise&condemnation. Ifyoufavor elementalbeing
trainyourself to forget.
Attemptinganautobiography
ifonly I couldforget. Decline
Whensport becomes spectacle.
Experience Whenelections become theater.
I am galaxy. Whenmarriage nolongerbinds.
Stardust&gravity. Whenmoneyrules.
Inmy immortaltransform
I'mcertain Simplicity
I'llexperience lifedeath. Simplicity before complexity
is a presumption of purity
Velcro asif untrained my self would relent
Clinging whereitshould. asif withoutsuffering lesself couldabide.
Clinging whereitshouldn't.
Clinging offcenter. Distress
Clinging halfway. Woods in allstates of undress
Clingingless whenclogged. disheveled by windrain&time
Clingingmore. Tearing. bedeviledbystorms creating a mime
Clingingwithoutcaring. expressing tansform'sindifference.
Suchisourlove Woods in allstates of undress
be what itmay. asif earthairfirewater shouldconfess
toravaging its veryownface
Prairie withits wild&savagembrace.
Traintracks across prairie.
Lonehorseman in prairie. RainDrops
Tumbleweed as prairie. Raindrops pocking ripplingpond
addingsubtracting in Bacchanalianbond
Marathon everpresent eternallyhbeyond
Ison't needtotrain sapien misunderstanding.
formymarathon
haveingstuded Surfacesparkling withsun's remarking
othere'sknowledge what a fool'sjourney inwhich we indulge.
through&through.
Building destroying
Iknow all I possibly from whitecap to calm
needotknow causing deafeningroar
yet I'm exhausted singing soothingpsalm
by miletwo. as selfbends as selfblends
at themercyof elementalforces.
Origin
Thumbtothoughtotonguetotalk Yet you&I always&only
selfborn as clanmembersquawk meeting as stillreflection
amongthemselves as freshformed selfs. or aggitatedfroth
our rippling'sfrequencies
Primalselfseparated from originalkin bearingonly falsewitness
feeling fullemptiness of originalsin to ourharmony beyond timeplace
thought apartfrom whathas alwaysbeen in our love within emptiedfullspace.
entire as elementalbeing.
Imagine
Thus theone from theall Imagine Beethoven or Chopin
livingdying in memory'spall improvising
whiletransform indulges unrestrainedbyintellect
inits gyre&sprawl while fullytrained to lesself.
&I livedie utterlyalone.
PastLives
StarMad My pastlives are myparents neverpassing
Sheblew her stardust inmyface yet passingall tomy spirallingself.
thusbeginning my starmadchase
tomake hernotice my shadedface Forged neverforgot in innocdntunknowing
gazingup through talloakcrown. asif theirlegacy a beneficentsowing
beyond limitedlimitless selfconcsious growing
Peeringdown onme earthenbound as I become who I mightbe.
she'll certainlyfuel my wanderlust
&blinded byher burningsurround Reflexes
willshe guideme as a test of mytrust? Emotionalreflexes
miredinmemory
I wouldgladlyfollow anylead asdeadly to anyself
tobe herlove meetingher everyneed as physicalreflexes
in a firmament thatwouldsurely dumbfound canbe lifesavers.
allbut those whoseripplings nearstill.
Awakening
Blown Awakening fromadream
Stardust blown into Earth'swomb of a wheatfield on fire.
tobesparked tobecome Mother'sbloom
beginningeneding etgernallyblending Findingmyself safeinbed
lifedeath in dervishdance. withthescent of bakedbread
invadingmysenses invitingme
Garden of all as blushwaterfall into today.
fromfont of transform's willesssprawl/scrawl??
earthwaterfireair inan elementalaffair Skull
with cellularlife selfconscious ifit dare. His skull &thestone
that shattered it.
Stardust&spark again&again
asif eachgalaxy my personalfriend Each insensatemineral
mending our universe into one playingits unknowingrole.
for those whocanforget &indulge as fun.
Shoot
WordSickness - I Green longbefore itstime
Letme exhaustyourdictionary creating discordantscene
withmytraining inthe disciplineoflove. within understory of
drybrowndead.
Letme spillmythesaurus onyour loveletters
growingpoetry fromdesire. Result
#################### I amnot evil.
WordSickness - 2 though I maybe
Havingdrunk ourculture's taintedwater the resultofevil.
havingcontracted the cholera of meaning
letme hydrateyou with poetry How can I grow inoutof
sothat youcanshit grammar&syntax. what I always am?
Being
I can'tbe whatbeingis tobecome becoming
waterfallface of emeraldisle neverhoping toknow
concretefeet of isleofman. stargrassworld asall asone
shimmeringreen beyondoursun.
I can'tbe beyondmyflesh
feeling waterfalloftime Knowing I can'tbe whatbeingis
touching concreteworld ofmine only whatcouldbe orperhaps oncewas
I weepingforself insoluble
oryours but neverever ours weepingforwhat selfsees as solution
with concretefeet emeraldisle conceit I pralhingfordissoulution of pray-ers
of fleshfall fallingfallenstars. rebirth inisles of flesh&fall
concreteshimmering
Eachbladofgrass greenstargrass
I know isallbeing knowingnothing
butknowing can'tpretend becomingall.
**PEDs** **SnakeOil**
Sportgovernance bodies Consumers aresogullible
arebecoming so politicallycorrect toany&all life enhancingproducts
that they've expanded the that a company is offeringpills
acrohym PED to include thatprevents foth menstruation &menopause
PerformanceEnhancingDevices. &are combiningtheirsale with
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Now both nasalstrips &
compressionsocks are banned.
Spin Water
Spinereality into whatyoudesire So here's the supernatural in elementalbeing
in a tornadicgyre of self. something flaunting physicalchemical laws
sobold inlove defyingseparation inflow
Spin yourwill into threadsofwant sodefiant in defeat expandinginto geometricshards
creating a spiderweb of me alone. soproud soprotean astosurvive inmotion
an entirerange of simplynatural insistence.
Spin hyourdefense into agitation
sendingyourenemies into consternation. Surfacetension crystallization phasechange
in a molecule of strangeattributes
But youcan't spin elementalbeing yet oh so elemental
ithas noaxes noaxles nobearings nobearing &the essence of cellularexistence.
nopresence nopostre noplum or level
simply dawndusk &midnightnoon.
Itspins inlovewith asloveof allother
in a liltingwaltz of life.
Thrasing
Mybody streambedbank.
Myself thrashingabout within
my bioactive aqueousmilieu.
Noescaping the rush.
Hos tojoin the flow
whilewashed with thenwhen?
Howtoforget allbut bouyancy?
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