Due to an internet error the original MoreRipplingStill - 21 was lost.
The following may contain some poems already in MRS - 20.
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Oneside of fishpond Poplars unaware Telephonepole harp
orangeyellow kaleidoscope. of thisAutumn's shroudedhour. strungyellow for kids&deer
Allother pinegreen. Brightyellow through dour. runningwithoutfear.
"WillfulDisregard" Undermicroscope
&"RecklessIndifference". by oversightcommittee
Sins of ommission. stutteringjudgment.
Paddlingwest backwards. Paddlingtoward eastbank. Paddlinghome to south.
Watching risingfullmoon rise Watching risingfullmoon set Playing peekaboo with moon
above redorangecrowns. into redorangecrowns. among oaks&pines.
Risingfallfullmoon Chokedup by yourlove
beingscratched by leaflesscrown. throat toonarrow toswallow
Remaining unscathed. the restofbeing.
Plato wondering Balloon or baboon? Bacon or dryleaf?
if sex withoutlove worth it? Butfor twoL's & a B Does the "5 second rule" count
Whoops - lovewithoutsex? primate floatingfree. in this dilemma?
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Clarifying Wait
SuperNatural is conditioning. Do I havetowait
PastParentsPeers. at the pearlygate
until allothers
SupraNatural is learning. aredead?
ParentsPeersPast.
Orwill the gateopen
SimplyNatural is training. &I'll belead
Tempering Parents into an examiningroom
Peers tobe righteously groomed
Past. asif in doctor'soffice
Becoming transform. pergatory
waiting for the entrance
Witch of God?
"You're the witch"
& I win SuperHighway
because denying Duty the superhighway of self
iswhat a witchwouldo. speedingresponses to wellknown
destinations.
Inevitable
Need to greed. Love a twolane windingblacktop
Defend to offend. easingitsway through backcountry
Mate to sate. pullingover at times to takein theview
goingoffroad at times permiting
Must sapiensuccumb a chance encounter.
to self's basebeing
without puttingup a fight? Truth
"I call it as I see it"
Is indulgence brags the untrained
self's inevitableplight? truthteller
sharingnothing but
LongBefore halitosis.
Longbefore judges drapthemselves
in magisterialmight Storage
before reason'scertainty Garage a junkyard.
in black&white Frontporch a garagesale.
evenbefore evidencecollection Attic&crawlspace cluttered.
the starkreality ofthecrime.
Timetorent a storageunit
Cavebear sensed. or discard someofmy
Emotions dense. fondestmemories.
Flightordefense.
Each longbefore memory Photos yellowing.
retrieved. Vinyl warping.
Cassette&CDplayers
Nodecision inthemoment inoperable.
beingcorrect if welltrained.
I don'twant toletgo.
Nodecision inthemoment Am I stronger forcarrying
beingperfect when unmade. myburden?
Currencies Am I simplyfeeding
Mymoney is real. my voraciouself?
Allothercurrencies
are suspect. Easier
Hunt. Gather. Farm. Fish.
If youchoose todeal withme Anythingelse is onlyawish
don'tseek a cause foreach effect for an easierway.
ofmy overwheeningself.
Sapiensneeding to suckitup
Accept my illgottenbooty or continueternally to runamok
even if I appear snooty intheir desires&dreams
then search forwhere until completelyground
youcan cash it in. in transform'seams.
EternalLife
What doyoudesire HonorableSearcher? Isthere nogain inthatway?
Whywouldanyone choose
I seektosurvivedeath EminentProvider suchvigilence?
being anyanimal's ultimateneed.
The ThirdWay offers nogain noloss
Weoffer ThreeWays tofulfill yourrequest. simply the breathofallbeing ineach inhalation
Youcanembrace a god &ifyourfaith &the deathofallbeing ineach exhalation.
is steadfast you'llberewareded
with eternalife in heavenorhell. Whywould onework
forsuch a meager payoff?
Or youcanembrace cause&effect
&understand theway of theuniverse Thereisnopay onoroff
in its evolution toward perfectability. simply a moment'sfreedom
Its reward is the certainty of lifeverlasting fromone's incessantself
without everasking. a moment of forgetting
lifedeath
Which doyouchoose HonorableSearcher? rewardpunishment
self &allother.
Youspoke of ThreeWays DearProvider.
Whatisthethird? Andthen youdie?
I'm notcertain itiswhat youseek. Yes. Ineach hardearnedmoment
It doesn'tprovide eternalife of forgetting
&theprice is hardwork in eachmoment where allisone in transform'swomb.
of you briefcellularbeing.
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Rubbed Intuition
Nopuppy whines aboutbeing Havinghidden the children'spresent
unloved withoutkeepingtrack.
whileitsbelly isbeing Searching on Christmaseve
rubbed. by intuition.
Sapiens ontheotherhand Soitis withmyfeeling foryou
willbite the hand that feeds it wordsoflovelost in the wasting
whilethrowing a tizzyfit of language
demonstrating without a doubt yet appearing unsummoned
theneed for separateheavens. inforgetting's embracing.
LessSelf Choice
Oh tohave lesserself Choice the foodofself.
with lessmemory Gluttony at a price.
ofmy cause&effect
makinglife easier Better tosimply roolthedice
butbrutal. hopingtoavoid snakeyes.
Oh tohave lesself But if snakes&eyes
with memoryfreed areyour unbiddenprize
fromeachofmyactions thenslip legless&slim
letting lifebe into transform'swhim.
without duty.
Hunting
Onlywhenforgotten Huntingtreasure
canself belost inmyownhome.
nolongerbossed
bythesensible Playing hide&seek
inaworld that's purely with myself.
sensual.
I mustblind who I am
Assume tosee who I is.
"I assume we're serving the samemaster."
Tennis
The saddestsentence inaworld of peace. McEnroe. Conners. Nastase.
......................................... Nadal. Federer. Djokovich.
"I assume we're sharing the samebeliefs."
The former lovingthemselves.
The saddestsentence inthesearch for love. The latter lovingthegame.
Mountains Ration
Whenliving inthemountains To rationalize. To disguise.
it doesn'takemuch toget the ballrolling. To justifywithobjectivity
activities notwise intheyes
And weall live of organicsubjects.
on a ledge.
To computerize asif a prize
CaveBear - ? won bytheone typingcode
Cavebear as corporateboss asif cyberspace a la mode
freezeflightfight &allislost longafter the icecream
inan ancientreaction hasmelted.
to thenwhen'sabstraction
memoryserving at direcost. Comeclean stubborneself
without the abrasionofration.
Greed
Greed speakingwithPride: Spoil yourself with softfoamingsoap
"Givememore ofyour arrogance to washaway allhope
MasterPride. of cleaning the graffiti
Letmecause moreseparation off yearsofindulgence.
fromthe rabbleofother."
Glossary
Pride responding: Checkingmyglossary
"I fullyunderstand your request toturn myrevelry
HonorableGreed into plaincommonsense.
butfear youmayoffend mydearfriend
Gluttony. Puttingdown mybook
taking a closerlook
Sateyourappetite with Envy ifyouwill atwhat I tookforgranted.
&leaveme to defendSelf againstLove."
**Fist** **Foley**
Seeking the perfectword to complete myhaiku Threeweek post-op totalhip.
about a wisemouth needing a comeuppance
myGrandMa in a raremoment of lucidity Painfree&content butforfear
camup withadandy. that if I twist&turn
my Foleycatheter
TheGermans hithenail onthehead with mightgarrote my LittleBill.
"backpfeitfengesicht"
meaning **Superiority**
" face in need ofafist" Another in the longlist of
whichsavesme sevensyllables male superiority
but for mostreaders will leavethem isthat
verirrt* in translation. wecanwipe backtofront
withoutfear of dragging poodoo
[*lost ] through a yoohoo.
FearOfDeath
SuperNatural SupraNatural
Immortality ContinuRein Carnation
Revelations Manifestations
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Atman OrchestratedObjectiveReduction
Anatta InformationTheory&PersistenceOfPatterns
Advaita ManyWorldsInterpretation&ParallelSelves
Mana MorphicResonance&CollectiveMemory
Prana UniversalConsciousnessField
Satori Retrocausality&InfluenceOfFuture
Ruh Near
Ruach Death
Orenda Experiences.
Nefesh Never
Ond Underestimate
Chi Sapien's
You Fight
as For
me. Survival.
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IncestuousGravity Gravity'sConceit
Gravity that incestuous matchmaker Gravity as love causinglesseparation
melding stardustwithstardust in astronomic lust yet yielding inpassing a richvariation
parentingtwinkling in the eyeofthestorm of of lifedeathdancing to transform'sbeat
fecund nebulae inits universal lifebreath conceit
creating (perhapsmistakenly) of populating the emptiness with
you&me. selfconsciousness.
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Silent Nothing
Roundingthebend onmy dailydusk walkabout Dharma whispering
spotting adultdeer ahead onmypath. for those whocanhear.
I froze. She froze. Then she loweredherhead Zen stillsilence
withoutbreaking eyetoeyegaze for those whodon'tfear
asif sizingmeup as possiblepredator. that somethingislost
when nothingisgained.
The upgoes her giantfuzzy whitetail
as silentsentinel seenthrough trees&undergrowth Me
before lazilyleavingpath disappearingintowoods. Nolonger a reflection
in stillpond
Watching it receed seeing a second lowerwhitefuzz but a reflection
followingdutifully. fromthetongues of others
assigningbehaviors
Turning to takethepath tomyleft to an organism called
coming eyetoeye with dad me.
satisfiedwithsafety of family
trottingsilently taildown BeingLove
tojoin mother&yearling. GodFather beingvictory.
GodSon beingdefeat.
BattleField
Is winterwoods a battlefield In transform only
strewnwith barestripped&fallen? nopush noshove
simply eachnow
Is snowgraced winterwoods a heaven simply love.
whitewashingmysins?
Imagination
Then the fallensnowdarkens Of allflights of imagination
as debris ofmydesires harkens dreaming
to summer&fall havingforgottenspring of what I wants when I wants it
&thebeginning of good&evil. memoryreal
reasontrue
Coding time an arrow
Coding for mycomputer. wisdom somethingtoknow
Constructing foolproof algorithms. self morethanshow.
Encoding inmy synapticswamp.
Seekingtosecure allgoodrhythms. Of allblights of bond
accepting
Openning the rightfile self as memory'sminion
toretrieve information. reason&truth as thought'sopinion
Freeingmy poetphile reality as lesself'sdominion
asreprieve frompunctuation time'sarrow san archerbow
organization wisdom as insight'seed tosow
obligation self a dyingcrow.
segregation
isolation Onlythen will imagination be dealt
interpretation a deathblow
evaluation disappearing unnoticed as
determination springmeltsnow.
discrimination
verification PTSD
justification I'm suffering PTSD
&last but farfromleast havingfought solong&hard
intimidation. tobefree.
Swimmingfree inmy syapticsea Perhaps atbest lovemayemerge
codingeroding with tearsofjoy. from my fog of thought.
Layers
Firstlayer is easy Green atend of eachrootextension
lightenough tobeblown havingplayed hotsummer of
thencompressed in gardencart. sunshadow windchime
holding for dearlife whatwill
Pileafterpile pushingoutair feelroot'sembrace in transform's
overflow outliningcart leisurely reformationpace.
someleaves catchinginspokes
as hand&rake deflatefall'smass Rake nowrapingsoil exposing moistodry
todensity closeto soilunderfoot. exposing lifetodeath
eachlayer tobepiled thenburned
Ironic thatoxygen they'dcreated dancing sunbright
being forcedout oftheir leaflitterlungs smoking in purity
with CPRlike constriction. beingsummer'sheat &fallpassion'sfeat.
Evenwithcart spilling Ash fortifyingblanket of soil leftbare
leavesexpelled neverspreading bearingwhatlawn&gardenwill
neveragain tobreathe. in transform's reformationplace.
Sogoes thedeath ofthis russetseason. Sostripped socleared soclosetodeath
Sogoes thebreath ofallreason. &yet
............................ strippedclearedead becomingwhat itis
Onto secondlayerclinging ineach perfectmoment whether
mattedmoistgrass leaflitter hero leafgreen
holdingfallenrefugees crispbrown
in greenrootedgrip of seedsoil union rootmoist
denying separationbysapien ashensoil
whodesire clear overclutter. simplebeing.
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Rakinglightlayer
thenscraping moist semisoil.
Atlast purebarearth.
Men MyWords
Men are either predator or prey For entertainment use only.
theformer usingwomen
thelatter beingused bywomen. Anysimilarities totruth or reality
are intentionalbutunlikely.
What pitifulcreatures
of machismo or Pinocchio Slippery
theformer flauntinghiswood Words are slipperypigs
thelatter wishinghecould. &whenyou penthem
you'dbetter wearboots
WeKnow or yourshoes aregoing
Weknow the limitsoflanguage tostink.
being asif in a world of thenwhen.
Becareful whenfeedingthem
Weknow the limitsoflanguage or youmaygo headoverheels
as self'stool toconstruct dreamories. inpride overperceived bonmots
withoutsmelling yourown
Weknow words as headstones fouledclothes.
inthegraveyard of desires.
StepBack
Spigots Stepback foramoment. Relax. Takeabreath.
Doesmytub stillhave twospigots? See whatyou'reseeing as somethingdifferent.
Do I stillhaveto draw hotwater thencold Thensee yourself seeing &breathe
in myattempt at tepid? because whatyousee maytakeyourbreathaway.
Ifonly I couldblendextremes atonce Then stepforward forget itall &getback to
&stop the nonsense inhalingexhaling.
of scald&freeze. Become
If I could traintoforget
Incline allsuffering in eachmoment
Not a slipperyslope then I'd become allsuffering
atall &eachmemory it leaves.
but a mild incline
I choose toclimb If I could traintoforget
onmy merryway mylove &yourbetrayal
from needtogreed. then I'd become a hardenedseed
never to germinate.
Andso inclined
I eatfood of refined Shade
ingredients&caloricbounty. Pleasedon't castshade
onmyparade
The I'mready to recline of pride in mytraining
inmy easiestchair toward lesself.
&indluge in a mostrare dare
where I wear myheart Ironic asit mayseem
onmy sleevelesshirt I deserve a sunbeam
&blame the weatherman for myhours of sweat
for makingmecold. withoutregret.
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Blowninsulation Fullmoon a wholenote
trappingair&dampingsound caught in telphonewirestaves
exceptwhenblowing. along meadowroad.
Belowburningcrowns Sycamore poplars Oaks takenaback
bony leaflesskeletons. on fullmoon Halloween eve. to protectwires from damage.
Winter harbingers. Leafbare skeletons. Startled or windswept?
Oakcrowns with Mohawks Whileleaningforward
bordering telephonewires brushingoff hat&shoulders.
&twolane blacktop. A finalsnowfall.
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Batteries HuntGather
Batteries dont' runup Hunters inthe gunstore
they rundown. stockingup on weapons.
Springs don't strengthen Gatherers perusingcatalogs
throughtime. doing comparisonshopping.
If you mustcount Each indulging asif in Eden
the wagesof yoursin whilebeingconsumers
trust the electriclock inthejungles ofthe Amazon.
whosepower
whether Intuition - 2
earthairwaterorfire Intuition as trainedmemory.
isas elemental Noneed for consciousrecall.
as desire.
Checklistforgot
Reputation whileswinging at theball.
My reputation anexcuse ....................
for me tobe machismo Intuition as sanitized
inthe worstsense autobiographic memory.
of selfdefense.
Subject subjugated to object
Alone in dualisticpurgatory.
Empty. I'm inside alone.
Place
Emptied. I'm outside ofmy self. A piece fitted intoplace
creating a newplace
Tolerate for a newpiece tobe placed.
From hate to tolerate
asif I'vemastered my There is noend to wonder.
defenses. Thankfully.
Hate beingloneliness Thereisnever a reason
firedbyself. tobebored.
Howcan I quench Analog
mythirst for dominance? Tenforty is lookingback
at ten.
StrawMen It's basically nostalgic.
My intellect in a wrestlingmatch
pitting two strawmen in battle. Twentytoeleven
is lookingforward
Asif Nature &Nurture were real to theadventure
&reallyatodds when theywhirl tocome.
in dervishdelirium tothedemands
of transform's insistence. I'm livingina digitalfuture
with remnants of analog
Lighthematch. optimism.
Burnthemboth totheground
ofbeing as a billionscelledsapien NoMatter
tryingtomake endsmeet Nomatter her breastsize
in a brain inwhich thoughtsarefleet or lengthofmy penis
&difficult to blend. we won'tletsex separateus.
ChristmasTree
Christmastime again again NewYear's closebehind
Grandad Father Son eachwaiting tosee whathey mightreceive
in seasonlesseason of endessdreaming yearsgivingway to yearnings
onefornow oneforthen oneforlavishwhen
each&all inhisownway becoming memory'sprey.
Startingwithtree &tree&tree choicespillingendlessly.
WhenSonwould cutkill&adorn onetree eachyear smallsacrifice.
ThenFather chosingmakebelieve savingforests payingoneprice.
NowGrandad wouldball&bag pine'sroots honoringpast
livingeternally twice.
Symbols livingdying fromwoodland&aisle to treestand.
WhenSon strivingforsymmetry placingballscarefully tillall islost inhaste
thenFather toppingtip with batteryangel in celestialspace
nowGrandad spirallinglights fauxcandles intheiplace.
Standingbefore tree&tree&tree splendidlyadorned foralltosee.
Sonsilentlyadding finaltouch a secretwish to SantaClause.
Fatherquestioning gift of Son's moralaws.
Grandadsmiling at Father&Son feelingselfgnawing
throughChristmaseason'sdemands.
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Christmasgone againagain pastyear farbehind.
Son&Father&Grandad each wantingtoknow whathey didfind
in reasonlesseason of more&lessmeaning mythgivingway to questions&answers.
Oneselfishlybelieving onesincerelythoughtful onetraining&training tosleep inpeace.
Eachall intheirownway
threebeing setttingheavenablaze.
Startingwithtree&tree&tree driedying symbolic rootballeternal.
SontrustingFather for freshlife in nextyear's timeofgetting.
Father needing neitherlife nordeath inhis separatesetting.
Grandad unknowing life'sneverlost intransform's eternalnetting.
Grandad'stree nowlivingfree from woodlandhigh to woodedell.
Son stillstrivingforsymmetry keepingbothfeet firmlyonground.
Father searchinganemptysearch forwhat languishesinlanguage.
Grandad watchingstarsemerging fromlight faintlyfading to freshlightfound.
Standingbytree&tree&tree spare unadorned for none tosee.
Relyingonfaith Son gettingcold whilewantingtobewarm.
Fatherknowing onlytoowell sapienscan'tbe reborn.
Grandad smiling at Father&Son unknowing eachday&night ismorn.
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Replantedtree beyondseasonalreason unneededtree unheededtree
beingthisnow for everyseason fornone tosee for none tosee.
Full&Less Swamp
Mindfullness is bodylessness Fillingwant. Creatingswamp.
treadcarefully &fullyconfess Stillness at hightestcost.
yourallegiance to belief
as your savior. Better streamtrickling creatingrippling.
Stillness neitherfound norlost.
Takeyour lastbreath
embrace yourowndeath Manicures
with a will frombeyond Whiteningtoothpaste&manicures
yourgrave. diguising twentythousandyears.
Perfection Usingthumb grippingdrum
Perfection in dichotomy. stickofchick whosebeak wasclipped
Reality in continuum. so I canchew itsflesh withimpunity.
Choose todance withapartner Sleeping
or whirl in dervishdesolation. She sleepingonmyright.
Dirtiest Butwithshoulderpain
Thedevil's dirtiestrick followedby shouldersurgery
was toconvince me itsbeenmonths sincewe
that perfectionexists. couldcuddle.
Now I'm onthepath Sure shecouldcometome
to nowhere but thatwouldn't be ladylike
allthewhilethinking I guess.
it's nofair
thatmydeams never Organic
cometrue. I will myfuneral
tobe organic.
GivingWay
Havingivenway tolove Participants takingturns
I can neverhave a takeback. stuffing dismembered bodyparts
into woodchipper.
Flaws mustbemade flawless.
Misteps mustbemastered. Everyonecheering finalspray
of mycorpse in eternalplay.
Counterweight mustbeplaced
on landmine Abhor
before she stepsoff. Nature mayabhor a vacuum
asif lesself couldeverbecome noself.
Already
Havingbeentaught what I alreadyknew But natureloves a gradient
havingbeenlead from fog into blue asif entropy not settingmefree
nowfacing desertsky&desiccatedlandscape from anyhope for salvation.
of cloud of unknowing fromwhich I mustescape.
Sowhere doesthatleaveme
No GardenOfEden as refuge. but lostwithin transform'sgyre
No perfectability as reason'sabuse. with spinninghead spinningwithdesire
No lifeternal as goldengoose. for the stillness of a vacuum
Justmydesire as excuse &the peaceofchaos.
for avoidingthework
of thismoment. SpoilerAlert
Not that thepast makeschoices
NotSoMuch for me
Notsomuch that AI but that thepast is me
is approachingsentience asif I couldstill eachanyall thisnow
but that sapiens arebeing asif mydreams couldbecomereal.
treatedlikemachines.
Letme scanmypast &focuson
Andwhen machines become sentient &perhaps that "on" willbecome.
willthey fallprey to self
with attendant desires&defenses?
**MowerMeditation**
Mysimple mowermeditation till whirlingbladentering crabgrassglade
wouldbeoff to a betterstart metalsharpspeed beginning rootvinefight.
if afteryanking ripcord thrice
itsmotor didmorthan fart. "Selfpropelled" mybutt I'mthinking
asmyself propels &mybutt pusheshard.
Then primingfive&primingten Motorstalling onlyafew bladesfalling
guessingifcarb is dryorwet pullingback thenforward to catchgrass offguard.
at lastsupercrank from heretothere
making bothBriggs&Stratton into a 'vette. But to noavail as a coveyofquail
risingup fromthicket arousedby myfail.
Sonow I'mon mywaytopeace Flora embracing rotarymotion rootbound
with humofengine in softdawnlight machinebeing at one with frontlawn's silentsound.
Insult
Reciprocal Altruism ReciprocalAltruism
"Done in return." "Unselfish concern." "Unselfish return?"
Asif to equalout? Tobe engaged Asif a trade
Asif duty? sans desire/defense. witheachparty satisfied?
Asif a compromise
Withoutexpectation Neither empathy norlove witheachparty wanting?
of recompense? but something.
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Istheabove another
"trust but verify"
insult to language
&love?
Promise Mortuary
Please don'tpromise me Memory
immortality a library?
as a constantrepeat of self&same a mortuary?
sludgingthrough ticktocktime forever
with more&moresuffering Theformer filledwith
more&morepain. current facts.
Thelatter filledwith
Promise me instead a momentofthisnow ageold tracks.
emptiedofmemory entire within timelessness
expansiveinclusiveselfless wow Theformer filledwith
withinpure withoutdoubt simply bliss. pristinereality.
Thelatter filledwith
Don'tpromise me immortality my familytree.
allowme a moment tobefree
of time's&memory's drudgery. RoadSide
Landing roadside
untilblown to woodland
Separation redoak's angularmosaic
The terror that won'tdie. anythingbut prosaic
The terror that can'tbekilled. in November leaflitter
tapestry.
Knownonly by I.
Unknown when unwilled. Grownfromtree foramoment free
beforeflutter becomes smother
SeaMonkeys in forestfloor majesty.
Pulling a capsule from my "prisonsafe".
Its contents expanding like seamonkeys.
SimplyElementary.
Writhing whileattracted bythelight It's so simple. Millionsofyears of survival.
making for a fascinatingsight I needtoeat - caviar/lobster/truffles?
asif mywords couldcomealive I needshelter - in either of two largehouses?
simplybyaddingwater. I needtodress - ninepairsofshoes/two walkinclosets?
I needtoreproduce - threedivorces/threemistresses?
TimeLapse I needtransportation - onePorche/oneLamborghini?
Asif timecouldlapse by willorwant I needtodefend - buglaralarm/9mm/lawyer?
except in photography.
It's so simple. Thousandsofyears of survival
Leavinglightin while ultrastill of my self.
resulting in realfake image.
Wreck
Notunlike my desire Somesapiens watch car races
with my self baskingintime. hopingtosee an occasionalwreck.
Asif timecouldlapse
&hold what I will&want Somelive to stickout otherpeoplesnecks.
beforethecollapse into
reality. Mostlive deepwithin theirself.
Muse
Muse a fuse burningthrough alltooeasily Yet mypuerileself neverknowing
inthe pureoxygen of thoughtreality it canonlybe whatitwouldwant
whosestrictures wouldstrangle allife aftertraining tostillallwant
withinthegarden of poeticbeing. inwhich LiminalBeing becomes
neitherside of imagination
Let the Liminal bethe threshold nor mywhole as memory
ofall thenwhen&thisnow but threshold&breath hold
separateonlyby jealousy &freshboldbeing beyondbeyond
tosee singularity whereonly languagefailing inthebond
a singlewhole exists. of forgottensensing
&forgivenother.
Andmyjealous self hoping I amreal ...................
&thecenter of somethingbeyond Lusting distrusting thrusting then hushing
butwithin my greedyreach. withoutevertouching whatisall &now.
InterFace
Interface of fertilizersoilseed singularspringsummer
asif of sapienfaunaflora animus beneath blossoming lilacbushes
inlovewith lesseparation within transform'sgyre creating futurepast of deeplyfeltnow
within&beyond cellmembrane &self'sdesire inourfusion of hopelessimminence
profoundbeyond allfaction immense withinwithout ticktocktime
purewithin eachinteraction. whilelacking the languagelock
of truereality's hugedeception.
Shehauntsme with puppylovepurity
&purityofintellect sparked butsullied Romanticism atits worst
by carnalintrusion. creating&slaking atonce an elementalthirst
inan elementalburst of tepidheat&dimlight
Afterall ouryears apart ineach eternalinstant withshe as garden &me as seed
together ineach beginningending creatingtransforming inlove's blindsight
each a hotterfire than any nascentstar. asgrowth
of
JoAnn as falsememory's truestbeing eachthisnow
havingneverbeen otherthanthat stilled.
Denouement
Attraction to attachment dealingwiththedeluge
desire'sfugue with twovoices of hormones in distress.
of self.
From puppylove to commitment
Inexorably intertwined asif a behavioral imprint
beginningendings hardtofind asif a gosling following
chemicals in nearly the firstgirl that flirts.
homogeneousolution.
Am I able to summonwill
Adrenaline to dopamine. or should I begintotrain tostill
Cortisol to oxytocin. &let eachrill suffereach hill
Attraction to attachment. &enter a river onwhich I canfloat?
My nervousystem in a spin
with selfascentrifuge Orshould I build a boat?
Salt Hydrogen
Salt doesn'tmakefood Hydrogen the onlyimmortal
taste salty. eludingboredom
It simplyhelps the flavor by playingwithgravity
finditsway. in creationofworlds
ofworldsofworlds
Asif friendship of wonder
asif love as lightning then thunder
makesyou intome as sentience as blunder
or me intoyou. as entire set asunder
by selfconsciousapiens.
Gasket
My insistence becoming Wouldtheychoose ifthey could
an annoyingdrip. the immense loneliness
of hydrogen?
I'm goingtoneed to fashion
a gasket tostiffle my self. Voracious
No appetite inall transform'sdarklight
And if I still my faucet is as insatiable as a clockformemory.
wemaybecome lesseparate
&abletohonor intimatedistance Somehow havingtrickedsapiens
as love. intobelieving sunriseset&seasons
insufficient fortheir sovalued commerce
Continuation creating a horder parexcellence
There's a continuation of being collecting clingingto sacrificingfor
at dawn&dusk the fecalmatter of undigested presence.
at life&death
asif transform everstills Ifonly the wiseones couldagree
asif anyallsapien wills touse theclock simply as a tool
tobe hear&gone tohelp you&me findeachother
at anytimeplacebut for a gameorcards or tea.
thiseternalnow.
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Torn tentbettlewebs Another snowday. Steadyfallingflakes.
pilinghigh with earlysnow. Evergreens bowingwithwhite. But notuntil I shovel
A twig tarpaulin. Kids shakingbranches. will snowforts bebuilt.
Mittensonbackwards. Pines wearingwhitegloves Brokenbranch cradled Favoringfingers
Allfivedigits balledforwarmth at extremesoftheirbranching. stopingitsfall threefeetshort leavinigthumb outinthecold.
leavingthumb as "no". Fridigcoats above. of leaflitter rot. Such is a mitten.
Pair of sourwoodtrunks Thumb separatefrom Learning to loveyou.
archingopposite asif unique in opposition Collateraladvantage
parting on poorterms. yet partoftheone. of stillingmyself.
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Doubt
Ifnow is all&all in a singlebreath I ate that damningapple
thenthis drabdusk mustcertainlybe &digested knowledgeofknowledge
my one&onlydeath. knowing in no uncertainterms
the term ofmysentence the depthofmypledge
Each moment of lifedeath the momentofall inthe chillinglanguage of separation.
now within now beinglived&lived
Each drabdusk being transform'spall. So why GoodLord hath I forsakenme?
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Hurting this FridaySaturday past Nobathing in shallowstream
memorysacrificed nohalfgods last. but gazingonto stillsurface of lake.
Needingneither You nor you
Soneeding GodFather's thenwhen. butmaybe a lover'skiss & a pieceofcake.
Soneedingfaith again.
Tohell withcake giveme icingonly
DearGod I need toknell&pray &wishthisday sugaringmyself with cowardlyindulgence.
couldend wouldend finallyend HadHeforsaken all&all asif a commonfool
suggesting another longforgottenway reliving withoutremembering
couldcome wouldcome as a longlostfriend HisGolgatha as selfconciousghoul?
thengo whengo neverever comeorgo.
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Eachdrabdusk another obliviouspast.
Each moreinnocent thanthelast.
Progression Poetry
Progression of the syndromeofself Howcan I conjure a feelingfor reality
selfish without usingmusic?
sociopath
psychopath Poetry.
insanity. .........................
Howcan I speak
At eachstage hordingmore without arousingyourdefenses?
until
noescape nosaviour. Poetry.
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Frozen Howcan I freemyself from thenwhen
Asif a frozenjoint becoming for a moment
limiting rangeofmotion. this simplenow?
My frozenheart
limiting rangeofemotion Poetry.
limiting expanseoflove.
Touch
Howdo I traintothaw? Touch the mostintimateofsenses.
No intermediaries. Simple immediacy.
Howmanyreps
of whatexercise? Closeyoureyes&ears mylove.
Breathenothingbut my breath.
Pain Smell&taste only my sweetrankbeing.
Pain comingoing aswith mysleep
aswith the disconnection withinmydreams Then
aswellas dreamasdisconnetion touchmecarefully
ofmymemories. touchmecarelessly
caressme with chasteintent
The intensityofdream of drifting in thenwhen caressme with carnaltorment
beingcommensuratewith amountofpain embraceme asif I was eternity'sbride
where lengthofrepose is directlyproportional embraceme asif you were terrified
to degreeofdiscomfort. butforlove'sake touchmefully.
Tommorow as yesterday&tonight Be the boa constricting myeverybreath.
withfatigue suffering asmultiplier Then bear thepall inmy welcome death.
of pain
where mypain is truesuffering. Failing
I asknoquestions Languagefailing. Lostsoulsflailing
I seeknodiminution. in newmoonagony.
Forthispain is life. Yourlife. Mylife. Poetryavailing bodiesprevailing
in fullmoonecstasy.
DualityOr Reality
NonFiction - fullof footnotes. Structuresound truthfound
Fiction - fullof feelings. within fotifications.
NonFiction - confident in grammar. Rooftorn realityborne
Fiction - comfortablewithsemantics. by eachwarm
NonFiction - definedbyduality. springwaift.
Fiction - defenselessagainstreality.
NonFiction - rulesofprose.
Fiction - revelryofpoetry.
Natural
SuperNaturalBeing feelingearth'srippling
a TabulaRasa for self hearingsmellingtasting
writing its story thebreath of lifedeath.
whilewandering ########
ElysiumFields. SupraNaturalBeing
.......... nettingbutterfly
SupraNaturalBeing pinning it drabdrydead
mappingterrain for naming&counting.
flattening hills&valleys
seeinglandscape SimplyNatural
in lifeless black&white. ElementalBeing
.................... joiningbutterfly in
SimplyNatural flutteringmeaowflight.
ElementalBeing Becoming colorflowerfruit
hiking terrain &light.
Naked
I don'tswim withmyclothes on. ofwords strungaslights
I don'tdive in a drysuit. in a world bettertouched
thanseen.
I youcount truth as gain ...........
if you'reunwilling to feelthepain Totouch butneverfeel.
if youthink a soak canbehad Toknow allthat's unreal.
intherain Toread thewriting onthewall
thenkeep yourselfcovered butneverwander downthehall
besecure beassured toenter the forbiddenroom.
thatyouwillearn To neverwander beyondthewomb
the lesson. toforeverblunder inthegloom
of hope inaworld filledwithfullmoon
Or embracereality where dervishdancing is
eschewingfeality reality'sromancing
to secondarysentience &wedding
couched in a lifesentence eachyou&everyme.
Worrying Law
Whatagame worrying "Willfull indifference."
asif mylifetime goingunnoticed "Reckless disregard."
or noticedingoing Intersections
byall bysome byone of
perhapsbynone. moral&civil
law.
Asif lifedeath wasasreal as tears
fromlaughter as veilofpain Sinsofomission
with importancebecoming beingprosecuted.
tooreal for brain'sgame
of sendingmessages NotDo
thatself I'mgoingto notdo
alone for a momentortwo
canlament. inmydesire for lessdesire.
Hate Asif it'snotme doing the
Love as lesseparation. notdo
which I hadhoped
Less&less love as would setmefree.
isolation
&motivation for Supper
the cruelty Time can'tkeepsupper
labeled hate. fromgettingcold
whenweforget
Searching whenwe're toeat.
Searchingforomniscience.
Time can'tellyou
Wantingtoknow what othersknow whentoloveme
when they wouldrather notknow evenif youdon't
theknowledge you'reseeking. showup.
Havingseen theirshadow Flatten
searching for thelight Who wouldflatten
thatwould mostcertainlyshow the normalcurve
the infiniteinstant of emptiness. making you&I equal?
Prominent Let'snotmake topography
A tooprominent righthand into photography
asif victim of supply&demand &each of ourlives
in a worldwantingmelody twodimensional.
at the expenseofharmony.
Asif mydesire is yourcommand. NoMore
candle sled wreath
Asif in a fugue I wouldbelost Askcounsel for precedents.
unknowing thathat wouldbe
smallcost Defensecounsel counting
for the sweetsong of love. on past goodeeds
&exigencies of each
Odds situation.
Whatartheodds
thatwithallthegods The prosecution
I havechosen bringsNewton
I havechosen tothe witnesstand.
thechosenone?
Would ifthedecree
Betterbet on evens couldbe without
likemyfriendStevens prejudice
caringless aboutsalvation but thejudge has a
than about the isolation familytofeed
invited by righteouness &tooften slipsinto
as sin. indulgence
wherediscipline
Dove isdemanded obtain
Emptiness felt toinsurejustice.
is loneliness.
IsIt?
Emptiness shared Isit sanity
is love. toexpect
sobriety
Emptyingmemory inour
being challengetoself wordrunk
met quitesimply world?
by stillsky &dove.
**POVs** **Endorphins**
I know welove our Dogsmayspike endorphins
PrivatelyOwnedVehicles. during a bellyrub
butwhen mywife
We chosehighways appearswithgrub
over steelrails alongtimeago. I get a shrug ifnot an outright
snub.
But Amtrack can'tbe asbad
asyou makeitout tobe. (Note to girls workingfor
the "MRS" degree
Anthrax yousay? don'tmisleadhim
OK. Nevermind. simplyfeedhim.)
RememberingSabbath
Rememberingsabbath committingtwosins
countingonallgames tobe righteouswins.
So God's hitting a lousy buckfortythree? GoodGod with Notime canwe evenhave a ballgame?
Won't allour outings lookexactlythesame?
Buteach of Hishits is a homer
outofthepark drivingin allonbase Butwho willbewatching Notime (whataname)
whilefitting Hisgrandimage asa loner. with innings&outings passingwithoutblame
With noone doing playbyplay by play yourway
But He'sGod so whynotgo sevenforseven with nothingever notever to neversay?
with each hit launched atleast halfwaytoheaven?
With Who keepingscore nobody gainingfame.
Oneneeds flawedfaith tobe incarnatefun. Beingpaid godzilliondollars won'thatbe a shame?
Nofan wouldbelieve whatcan'tbedone.
Onlyif he lets it gotohishead
Yet Who'sdoingall without season o rtime? beginningtobelieve inall that'sbeensaid.
Onlyif he begins tofeelthedread
Doingwhat in yoursorry nonsensicalsyntax? Onlyif he believes inthe living&dead.
Andwhom I begofyou istheone named "Who"?
They'llblame hishomers on liveballs&deadarms
Nobody is who &that'sjustwhat I mean. &even accusehim of withcraft&charms.
When nobody washere tohear&lament
thepassing of commonsense forthe comingofnow They'llsay he'sbeenputting corkinhisbat
with a homer eachplay of eachday. Holycow! or cokeinhisnose or somethinglikethat.
We allknow who's onfirst. But nobody's atbat? He'll endup as he started nobody nowhere
Canfans inthestands reallylivewith justhat? hittingballs intoblue withnofans or fanfare.
JustThat's intheminors he nevecouldmakeit. Won't thatbe a nonbeliever'sdelight
JustThis is a comer a real sonofamitt withball floatinginspace as sunmoonearthkite?
having mowedown the bigthree only noone knows how
ineach infiniteinning of thenwhen&thenow. Whotheheavenhell couldpossiblyknow?
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Rememberingsabbath commitingtwosins
beingfound ingames counting losses&wins.
Forget names&dates &even eachscore
livelife asa dance foreach evermore.
Edit Disposable
When prepingreality Challenged by disposableincome
for generalconsumption caringless where it wento or camefrom
nevermake the gratuitousassumption tempting myself to inevitablysuccumb
that any I is readywilling&able toaccept to our zeitgeist's ruleofthumb
anythinglessthan a fabulousfable that I muststore everycrmb
tofill theirself with lessthanloathing. asif I wasin direneed.
If preparingtoserve frigidfact Yet self'surfeit mustbeovercome
besure towear winterclothing before I become completelynumb
&thickskin towithstand &failtogive what I took ingreed.
theireveryattack.
Lined
Or betteryet avoidregret Philosophy:
by presentingpoetry Blackprint
as welledited nonfiction. on
collegelined
Parole whitepaper.
Self as desire's paroleofficer
with a crushingcaseload. Psychology:
Rainbowpalette
Indictedoncharges of rampant fingerpainted
kleptomania on
desire wasreputed tohavesaid blankcanvas. inhisoffense.
"That's whoIam. RealityOfBelief
That's whatIdo." The realityofbelief
manifests as behaviors.
Pompeii
Timeless in stillness of Pompeii. I canbe what I will
Cooled moltenmolds of duty. when boldenough
to speakmytruth
Doingforever whathet weredoing asif mytruth be fact
intheirfinalnow. &fact be morethan
fiction beingplayful.
Becoming the artof Vesuvius
tobecast in eternity'simagination BallGame
asif yourself or me. Lostinjudgment.
Foundinpassion.
Gifts Cost of winorloss
Ofallgifts conferredbyevolution in facevalue.
between standingerect &agiletongue ..............
istheamazing opposablebut completelycooperative Lostinjudgment.
digitalappendage we'vechristened as Foundinration.
thumb. Cost of winorloss
in factvalue.
A part apart yet whole&integral ............
uniqueinreach identicalindexterity Judgmentlost
affordingrasping for survival'sake passionration tossed
yet oftenmusused for desire's slake playingeachgame as love
yet foodforbrain's insatiableappetite with neverever a cost.
for devisingtechniques towin the fight
&adapt to mostevery OurFirst
challenge. Ourfirst fiveyears oflife
critical.
Yet this brainfeeder deathcheater Ourpast fivehundredyears
speedreader of survival'schallenges indelible.
tooftenusurped by self'scruelcreed
toturn basicneed into desire'sgreed The effect of eitherone
&defense ofourlife into defense unreliable.
oftheseed
thatgrows as thestory of my The results of theirblend
self. undeniable.
Soitgoes survivaltosurfeit Whatkindofsages
from groundedefense to desire'sflight wouldreadonly the evenpages
ending inabeing apart whole&integral ofthe oddtale oftheages?
within cozythen &noseywhen whileallother
whirl in transform'sgyre. NoWay
There's noway toexplain
Relief the fullness of thenwhen
Realityofbelief Belief as thief &
isin the grief of love'smotif the emptiness of eachnow.
causedby less&less losingother's
sharing caress Searchingforscraps of memory
wheremybelief wheremybelief to create somesort of allegory
&yourbelief &yourbelief sothat I canthrive inthepurgatory
arehost's at a arehost's at a ofwho I thinks isme.
privatemansion privatemansion
filledwithghost's withghost's ForMe
of less&less whowon'tshare For me itwas finding the dinnertable
caring. theaddress. after teat to teenage selfabsorption.
Belief as reef Followed by salads from seventeen to thirty
bare&bleached while becomingthirsty formore thanleaves.
withwater toowarm
toprovide relief. Then on to entrees before
my toothless soupdays
There Is &atlast
Thereis a thirdway deserts
tounderstand transform'splay asmymemory's
otherthan Belief'sFaith ballets.
or Ration'sObjectivity.
Shaking
ConsiderWonder Time asking Transform:
caressedbySubject's Can you stop
seekingwith poeticscience shakingeternity
creatingatoms loosed from making a snowglobe
the tableofelements of AllBeing
playinginan electromagnetic &losingmyarrows
landscape of unseeninfluences within your gyre?
imagining a physiological
florescence of lifeforms Transform replying:
in fluidinteractions Can't you stop
with chemical&physical forces confusingsapiens
flourishing inaneternal sea making lifedeath
exposing a universe of love seem straight
lackingseparation from
if I cantrain toshed thescales a beginning to anend?
from my selfisheyes.
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Riding wild teacups. - TakingLSD.
Gettingout&vomiting. - Havinghallucinations.
Blamingthedevil. - GivingGodcredit.
Pinetree&twocrows Naptime or deathbed? Ifonly wecould
silhouetted in deepblue. Allthewhile I suspected oxygenate all stardust
Pinetree crows &me. itwouldend likethis. &makespace a lake.
Summerleaves fallen. - No warningflags left.
Path edgetwigs lackingwarning - Leaves abandoned for winter.
clawingatmyface. - Path edgetwigs gouging.
Lost in limbicflood - Lover as liferaft
unabletohelp lover. - separate withingarm'slength.
Empathy as sin. - Savingbeloved.
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SoSimple
So simple Reflectiondisappearing
from undisciplined selfexpression in perfectmirror of willessnondoing
of playgroundball leaving overwhelming stillness
muted ecstaticsmile
to sacrificialrigor lesself suffusedinpeace
of stacatto chalkboard stall as selfishimpulses slowlycease.
to breakdown rancor Fromself to lesself
dismissalfromteam motionwithoutmotive
or effectwithoutcause
relaxed lesselfpractice this simplenow
within game's flowingall. welling
............. dwelling
Then unreflecting beyond&encompassing
nonunderstanding thatfor undisciplined selfexpression
a magicmoment or two sacrificialrigor
I waslost &thataspect of lesselfperfection
onlygame existingas eachnow in transform's
not beingiven unknowingstill.
not givingaway
noblame noshame
noname nofame.
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Now ifyouplease convert Christiansymbolism
then psycholgicalsymbolism whilesequencing
development of lesself
by substituting:
GodFather [then self] for "undisciplinedselfexpression"
GodSon [then lesserself] for "sacrificialrigor"
GodSpirit [then forgottenself] for "transform's unknowingstill
Whittling Indignity - 1
Whittling atmy intellect Alone amongothers
I become whittler self's ultimateindignity.
filledwithshaving.
Mymemories needserve
Sitting withmy memories what I can'tunderstand.
I become calmersurface
of clearerself. Alone amongothers
self's brutalsimplicity.
SnowLeopard
Fieldressing snowleopard. Trainingtoembrace ethnicity
Pluckingparrot'splummage. mymemories as remand.
Fleecing a sheep.
Pinningbutterfly to page Indignity - 2
Alone amongothers
Translatingpoetry as I read. self's ultimateindignity.
Origins Unabletotouch if permitted
Fullmoon in halfcircle or stealakiss for alltosee.
above frenchdoors to deck
&steminghotub. But none soalone butforfantasy.
Ifonly my dreamofself couldbeme.
Fullmoon in dresserirror.
BestOf
fullmoon fillingourbed with the BestoftheWest
roiginsofall. tableofelements
knowledge of neurotransmitters&hormones.
Asif suncloser.
Asif yourbody closer. BestoftheEast
Asif I amnot eternally knowledge of emptiness
alone. artofmeditation.
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